I'm Still So Scared. And I Keep Reliving It. Laying There, Thinking I'm Going To Die. And No One Would

I must say. I've been feeling more invisible than usual. I, too, am a minority. I, too, have been harassed, assaulted, and sexually assaulted by cops. I, too, have been discriminated against. I wish there were a biracial, first gen, gay role model. Niche market, amirite? Oh, don't forget with mental health issues and an intellectual living in the shadow of a brother with MR. I'm half tempted to just grab my backpack and live in the forest somewhere. Or pull a Margaret Cho, and be my own relatable role model. But instead, I'm scared into shutting down and hiding in my hellscape of a mind.

Watch: Regular women and celebrities, many of whom have survived sexual assault or harassment, are banding together to tell Trump “It’s not okay”

In the cases of all the women who spoke out in the video, there was no justice. Their assaulters and harassers walked free because either nobody believed them or there was nothing they could do. The Trump tape was one of many final straws. "We’re not gonna take it any more,“ Amber Tamblyn said. “Like, for real, we’re not.”

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Why aren’t there coming of age stories for people in their twenties? Why aren’t there stories about young women like me who are chasing their dreams and romance isn’t involved? Where are my stories about young men trying to figure out who they are? 

Why aren’t there stories about people in their twenties who question their gender and their sexuality too? 

Why aren’t there stories about sad and lonely truth about going to university and grad school? Hell, where are my stories about transfer students that are 25 but they’re surround by 18 year olds in class?

Where are my stories where people freak out about their elementary classmates having children already because hey–they still live with mom and dad and getting a job in this economy sucks? Like who takes care of their child? Are they already successful enough to take care of a baby without the help from mom and dad? 

What do I have to do to get a character that’s not sixteen, but somehow through a random occurance, they have to save the world. They’re still innocent enough to have hope, but jaded enough to know that it can go away.

Why are all stories either about teenagers or people with families or trying to start families and all that jazz?

Just…where are there stories about me right now? 24 and trying to the best that I can.

I could really use stories like that. 

Changed to: things harder than voting.

Video: President Obama Demonstrates 5 Things That Are Harder Than Registering to Vote

Beorn’s house - Lake Gosau, Austria

this is EXACTLY why representation matters 

You have survived so much.

I wanted to post this from my other blog and I think it’s important that other people learn what SPD really is so they can notice it and catch it early. It’s not easy to have this and my everyday life can be hard some days but other days it’s much easier. Please educate yourself and others about SPD so you can help them if they need it. 

She speaks to me.

A lot of people think it's cute to say "Namaste" or "Salaam" (I'm not Muslim) to me. Nope, my family praises Sri Ram with "Jai Ram Ji Ki". I was always confused at what white people were trying to say to me because of their well-intentioned racist greetings. "Sup bro" works just fine.

Yuriko Kotani /  Russell Howard’s Stand Up Central