Not A Want But A Need

"Mama I'm chasing a ghost, I don't know who he is.

Mama I'm chasing a ghost, do I look like him?"

searched the jjk tag once and now my whole fyp has been filled with related content

klavier.

so I saw this general opinion that kitt asked pae to be his wife to punish Kai or something and it's huh???

while reading I didn't think kitt meant it in that way at all.

like we see how against the idea he was previously, but he still did it. he asked Kai in the throne room, and Kai said no. maybe kitt should have been able to see that he was lying, but who knows? I guess that made kitt finally submit to the idea

because at the end of the day.

1. they are brothers and they care about each other. if Kai doesn't see pae that way anymore, then he thinks the wedding isn't all that bad. plus, he may have thought that, the fact that Kai didn't let her go and actually bring her to him meant he was fine with whatever punishment he could have had for her

2. realistically speaking, it could have been his compassion. maybe he didn't want pae to die. he asked Kai to bring her to him when he was grief stricken, but he also changed his request to her being alive. maybe that speaks volumes about the fact that, maybe, just maybe, the control his father had over him was loosening. like obviously his father would have wanted kitt to execute pae, but he didn't do that

in conclusion, kitt isn't all that bad

or maybe it's my thing for blonds peeking out, leading me to look for crumbs (AARON WARNER WHEN I CATCH YOU-)

i firmly believe that kristoph was a better boss to apollo than phoenix. every time phoenix doesnt tell him something or messes with him or doesnt give him his paycheck he has to stop himself from mumbling under his breath like 'mr gavin didnt do this shit mr gavin took me for lunch at the sushi place by the office and didnt even make me pay'. apollo genuinely considering trying to get a retrial to get kristoph out of jail in turnabout corner making a pros and cons list in his head while delivering that 'white powder' like this shit is not worth it

so I just watched Cash is alive's video on Nikolai (they are literally amazing btw, I love their interpretations), and the video finally got me thinking ('cause I'm slow asf like that):

Nikolai knows that Fyodor uses him. Fyodor used Nikolai to leave Meursalt, leaving the latter under the impression that he died. Now, would Nikolai be mad that his emotions were played with? That Fyodor made him believe that Nikolai lost the only person that 'understood' him? I mean, it's not Fyodor wouldn't have known that he'd toy with Nikolai's feelings by pulling the act---like, he's smart asf.

So, rationally he should be mad. But he could also be in awe. Surprised, with the fact that there is a chance he could never truly escape and be free. So, what would that entail for Fyodor?

First of all, Fyodor isn't at any disadvantage in the manga as of yet. We know Akutagawa will eventually pop off (perhaps with Atsushi, now that he really hates Fyodor for taking his friends away), which will probably happen in the February chapter. That could result in Fyodor being in major trouble; he has aminogozen (or whatever his name is) but if that thing's defeated, Fyodor's kinda fucked? Or not, because of his ability but he can be somewhat physically restrained or something (WHERE THE FUCK IS DAZAI).

Here, could Nikolai finally come into play? Using his teleportation thingie (i know it has a cap and it's like. Barely been a few hours since the shit went down or something. Would it be enough for Nikolai to be there?) and then finally we'd see the effect of Fyodor on Nikolai. Would Nikolai be on his side, support him, 'save' him from shin soukoku? Or would he finally break?

Honestly, so interesting to think about. Before Dazai and Chuuya join the battlefield, I'm sure they should have some dialogue with Sigma, where Fyodor's memories are mentioned. Then the brain storming or whatever would begin, and they'd try to get to Yokohama ASAP (because, again, Dazai's ability and that it is only him that Fyodor can't affect.)

But because of this, obviously Dazai and Chuuya won't be joining in. So we naturally have Nikolai, which was the topic of discussion (sorry I'm rambling I'm shit at this analysing thing).

Asagiri could take this two ways. Either make Nikolai even more obsessed with Fyodor because of realising he still cares about Fyodor, or make Nikolai break the chain and turn on him.

Everything I've said is inspired by the video, and I really urge everyone to watch it! All in all, I am so excited for the new manga chapter coming soon.

Here's the link:

Did a (which to colour) voting poll on my IG story feed, and here’s the result ✍🏻🎨

me going on ao3 like a dumbass forgetting the maintenance is going on then crying about it on tumblr

Do you identify as a babygirl, or malewife?

"Any normal guy can be babygirl, but it takes a man to be a malewife. So I'd choose the latter option."

Ya she won that 😘