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Hawks is a "What's a little cock between friends?" guy
Nathan Prescott X Fem!Reader
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So i have a few conflicting emotions when it comes to this character. from when i found the game I hated this guy. Though like most people there is an ounce of remorse that we feel for this character. However, my love for him is so conflicting because as much as he is a victim, he is the reason for what happened to rachel. Anyways here is my little story with my conflicting feelings. ALSO YOU CAN SAY HE ISNâT AT FAULT BUT HE IS. just because he was lead to these decisions does not mean he still didnât do them.
âFuck off, Prescott!â Your voice snapped down the hall, sharp enough to make a freshman nearly drop his textbooks.
Nathan, slouched against the lockers like he owned the goddamn place, gave a slow, mocking clap. âWow. Real mature, (Y/L/N). You kiss your mommy with that mouth?â His tone was lazy, but his eyes pinned you like a bug to a wall.
You marched toward him, shoving your bag higher onto your shoulder. âIâd rather kiss a loaded shotgun than deal with your shit for the next two weeks.â
Nathan pushed off the locker with a sneer, standing tall. Taller than you, not that youâd ever admit it.
âNewsflash, bitch you think I wanna work with you?â he snapped, crumpling the project assignment sheet in his fist. âIâd rather fucking drown in a Porta Potty.â
You jabbed a finger into his chest a stupid move, because under all that overpriced denim and leather, he was solid muscle but you were way past giving a shit. âThen drop out, Prescott. No one would miss you.â
For a split second, something flickered in his eyes. You couldnât tell because just as fast, he leaned in closer, face twisted in a sneer. âYouâd miss me, sweetheart. You need someone to take your boring ass life up a notch.â His voice was low, practically a growl. âYouâre so desperate for excitement youâll probably fucking love having me around.â
âYouâre delusional,â you spat, shoving past him.
But Nathan wasnât done. He followed, keeping pace easily, his voice dropping into that dangerous, mocking tone he used when he wanted to pick someone apart. âFace it. Youâre just pissed because you have to finally realized youâre not better than me.â
You whirled around, nearly slamming into his chest. âI am better than you,â you hissed, close enough to see the fine scars nicking the side of his jaw, the ones most people didnât notice under the arrogant smirk. âI donât have to buy my friends, or bribe my teachers â
Nathan laughed, sharp and ugly. âYeah? Keep telling yourself that, bitch. Maybe one day youâll actually believe it.â
The tension between you vibrated like a taut wire, ready to snap. Across the hall, Mr. Jefferson poked his head out of his classroom door. âEverything okay over there?â
You both spoke at the same time:
âFine,â you said through gritted teeth.
âPeachy,â Nathan drawled with a fake grin.
Mr. Jefferson raised an eyebrow but disappeared back into the classroom without another word. Nathan turned back to you, the smile dropping immediately. âWeâre meeting at the library. Tomorrow. Four oâclock,â he said, his voice all business now, like he could barely stand to look at you.
âDonât be fucking late, (Y/L/N). I donât wanna waste more time than I have to babysitting your dumbass.â
You gave a mocking bow. âOh, your majesty. Should I bring you a goddamn throne too?â
Nathan just rolled his eyes, shoving his hands deep into his jacket pockets as he stalked off down the hall without another glance at you. You stood there, fists clenched, heart pounding. God, you hated Nathan Prescott.
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The library clock ticked past 4:00 PM. You drummed your fingers on the table, glaring at the empty seat across from you. Your notebook lay open, pen uncapped. Still no Nathan.
At 4:17, he finally strolled in with all the grace of someone who gave absolutely zero fucks sunglasses on indoors, slouched walk, earphones dangling. You didnât disappoint. âYouâre fucking late,â you snapped the second he dropped into the chair across from you with a loud, obnoxious scrape. Nathan didnât even look at you. Just threw his bag on the table, knocking your pen to the floor.
âCry harder.â
You scoffed. âYouâre unbelievable.â
âYeah? Soâs your face, but here we are.â
You clenched your jaw, grabbing your pen. âYou gonna actually contribute or just sit there throwing middle school insults?â
Nathan pulled out a crumpled folder and dropped it onto the table like it weighed ten pounds. âI already did my part. You can finish it. Youâre the one who actually gives a shit.â
âYou call this your part?â You flipped through the papers of barely legible answers. âThis looks like it was written by a brain damaged raccoon.â
He smirked. âWell you and the raccoon have something in common. Both canât shut the fuck up.â
You leaned in, voice low and furious. âIâm not doing this whole thing alone, Prescott. If I fail because of your lazy, coke snorting ass, Iâll make sure you regret it.â
Nathan leaned back in his chair, arms crossed, gaze dark and slow. âBlow me, princess.â
You didnât flinch. You just smiled. Sweet. Cold. âI donât do charity work.â
A few heads turned. You didnât care. Neither did he. Nathan barked out a laugh bitter, humorless and sat forward again, voice tighter. âYou think youâre tough?â
âNo,â you said, deadly calm. âI know Iâm better than you. You just hate that I donât suck up to your daddyâs money like everyone else in this school.â
His smile dropped like a stone. âYouâre right,â he said, quiet and sharp. âYouâre not like everyone else. Youâre just louder, bitchier, and a hell of a lot more annoying.â
âAt least I donât need pills and daddyâs lawyers to make it through the day.â
âFuck you,â he muttered, but he opened the book anyway. Slouched so low in his chair you wondered how he could even see the words.
You tried to focus on your own work, but the sound of Nathan tapping his pen against the table made your skin itch. Every two minutes he let out a sigh, a groan, or muttered some sarcastic shit under his breath.
Finally, you snapped.
âIf you hate this so much, maybe you shouldâve told Jefferson to pair you with someone who gives a shit about your trust fund problems.â Nathan slammed the book closed so hard it made a few nearby students jump.
âYeah, because youâre so fucking perfect, huh? Probably got your whole boring little life planned out already. Graduate, go to some shitty state school, get a lame job, marry some douchebag with a Prius â
âAt least Iâm not gonna OD in my daddyâs beach house!â you hissed back, the words out before you could stop them.
The library went deadly quiet. Even the air seemed to freeze. Nathanâs eyes darkened. His whole face twisted, raw and ugly, and for a terrifying second, you thought he might actually throw something at you. Instead, he stood up so fast his chair tipped over behind him.
âFuck this,â he snarled.
The librarian barked from the desk, âHey! shut up or get out!â
Nathan didnât even flinch. He grabbed his bag and stormed out, shoving the door open so hard it banged against the wall. You stayed frozen in your seat, chest heaving, throat tight. Some students stared. Others pretended not to notice. Slowly, you packed up your things, the shame burning hotter than your anger now.
You left the library with your jaw tight and your fists clenched so hard your nails bit into your palms. Screw him. Screw his smug face, his broken homework, and that goddamn mouth that never shut up unless he was about to say something even worse.
The cold air outside was a slap, but it helped. You headed toward the dorms, steps quick and angry. Until you heard footsteps behind you. You glanced over your shoulder and sure enough, Nathan Prescott was trailing you, jacket half zipped, jaw set like heâd been chewing on broken glass. You stopped. âAre you seriously following me now? What, storming out wasnât enough for you?â
Nathan didnât stop until he was right in front of you. Too close. âWhy the fuck are you always such a bitch to me?â he snapped.
You blinked. That⊠wasnât what you expected. âExcuse me?â
âDonât play dumb,â he bit, eyes narrowed. âWeâve barely spoken before this week, and you act like youâve got me all figured out. Youâre always ready to throw shit at me like you know me.â
Your mouth opened, but no words came. For once, he wasnât just being snide he was pissed, yeah, but there was something else under it. Something sharper. Real.
âWhat the hell did I do to you, huh?â he went on, voice rising. âWeâve never had a conversation before Jefferson paired us up, and you already decided Iâm the devil or some shit.â
âYouâve got a reputation, Prescott. Donât act surprised.â
He laughed. One dry, humorless breath. âYeah? So thatâs it? Some gossip, and suddenly you know who I am?â
You crossed your arms. âI donât need to know you. Iâve seen enough.â
âNo, youâve seen what you want to see.â He leaned in slightly, voice low. âYou think Iâm some rich junkie asshole with a fucked up temper and a silver spoon so far up my ass I choke on it, right?â You didnât answer. The silence said enough. Nathanâs tongue pressed against his cheek. He nodded slowly, like he was trying to swallow something bitter. âRight. Thought so.â
You shifted your weight. âLook, you act like a dick, Nathan. You treat people like theyâre beneath you.â
âAnd you treat me like Iâm already guilty of something I didnât even fucking do.â His tone turned colder. âSo what does that make you? If youâre throwing labels at someone without even trying to know them?â
You tried to shove past him, but he stepped in front of you again not touching you, but close enough to make your blood burn. âWhat? Canât handle hearing it? Youâre so sure youâre better than me?â
âI am better than you.â
âNo,â he said, voice like ice, âwhat kind of self righteous bullshit is thatâ
You stared at him. His eyes werenât glazed or cocky like usual, they were clear. You hated how it made your stomach twist. âJust stay the hell away from me,â you muttered.
He didnât move. âThen stop talking about me like you know me. Because you donât. And judging by today?â He tilted his head slightly, mouth curled in something bitter. âYouâre not half as perfect as you like to pretend.â Then he finally stepped aside, letting you pass. But his words followed you all the way down the sidewalk.
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You moved through the halls walking beside Max while she rambled about her latest photo concept. Her words blurred something about natural light, shadows, an abandoned greenhouse. You nodded here and there, but your attention wasnât really on her. Nathan Prescott stood across the hall, leaned casually against the lockers in that crimson red sweater he always wore like armor. His hands were shoved into his pockets, posture slouched, head tilted toward Victoria, who was perched beside him. She was talking fast probably gossiping and he was barely listening. His expression was eyes distant.
âHey, you good?â Max asked, her voice soft as she glanced sideways at you.
You blinked, pulled from your thoughts. âYeah. Just out of it.â
She smiled lightly. âBlackwellâll do that to you.â
Across the hall, Nathan looked up. His eyes met yours. You expected him to smirk. Or scoff. Or whisper something to Victoria that would piss you off all over again. He didnât. He just held your gaze. There was no fire in it this time.
Then Max nudged your shoulder. âCâmon, weâll be late.â
You turned, walking with her toward class, but the moment stuck with you like a thorn beneath skin. He wasnât just some cautionary tale wearing expensive clothes. you werenât as far above the mess as you liked to pretend.
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You werenât sure what possessed you to do it. Youâd barely knocked twice before the door to Nathanâs dorm creaked open, not wide, just enough for a glimpse of his sharp glare and the darkened room behind him. His eyes narrowed. âWhat the hell are you doing here?â
âI came to work on the project,â you replied, shifting your weight.âYou bailed on the library. I didnât have your number.â
Nathan blinked once. Then, without warning, he reached out, grabbed your wrist, and yanked you inside. âJesus!â The door slammed shut behind you. Before you could blink again, you were standing in the middle of his room dim, cluttered, with a faint smell of smoke and expensive cologne in the air. The only light came from a lamp on his desk, casting long shadows across the mess of camera equipment, crumpled notes, and an open bottle of water. He stood between you and the door, arms crossed, expression sharp.
âYou shouldnât be in the guysâ dorm.â
You rolled your eyes. âItâs not that deep, Prescott.â
âNo,â he said, stepping a little closer, âitâs pathetic. You that desperate to see me? You stalking me now? Perv.â
You stared at him. âAre you always this fucking dramatic?â you snapped. âI came to work. On the project. The thing thatâs due next week?â
He raised an eyebrow. âYou couldnât just ask for my number?â
âlike your ass would indulge me in any conversationâ
Nathan scoffed, running a hand through his hair. âAnd barging into my dorm was the better option?â
âYou ditched me. Again.â You crossed your arms, mirroring him. âIâm not playing chase the rich kid so you can pretend this group project doesnât exist. I showed up so we can finish the damn thing.â
He stared at you for a long beat.
Then, quietly, âYouâre a fucking pain in my ass.â
âIâm passing this class.â
He turned away, flopping onto the edge of his unmade bed, elbows on his knees. âFine,â he muttered. âIf youâre gonna stand there taking over my space, grab a chair. Letâs get it over with.â You hesitated. Just for a second. Then sat down across from him silently waiting for Nathan to open the shared project file. But your eyes kept drifting. His desk was cluttered High end camera bodies rested in velvet lined foam. Lenses of varying sizes were stacked in an open case like polished glass trophies. Film rolls peeked out of a drawer he hadnât shut properly. And on the wall above his bed, pinned with silver tacks, were photos.
Black and white. Grainy. Sharp.
Some were of strangers street shots, harsh shadows and sharp angles. Others were more abstract: empty chairs, cracked pavement, tree limbs twisting through fog. You didnât mean to stare so long. But the compositions were striking. Not what youâd expected from someone who talked like he didnât care about anything. Nathan sat on the edge of his bed, laptop open in front of him, fingers frozen over the keyboard. he wasnât looking at the screen. He was watching you. Eyes low beneath his lashes, The tension from earlier had settled into something quieter not calm, exactly, but less volatile. He noticed the way your head tilted slightly as you studied a particular photo on the wall, your brow furrowed in faint curiosity. You looked different when you werenât trying to bite back. He blinked, shook the thought away like an itch under his skin, and finally tapped the space bar.
âYou gonna drool or you wanna help?â he muttered, loud enough to snap your attention back.
You blinked, jerking your head toward him. âExcuse me?â
âYouâre staring at my shitâ
You scoffed. âI was just surprised youâre actually good at something other than being an asshole.â
A grin flickered across his lips. âWow. Touching praise from someone who broke into my dorm.â
âI didnât break in.â
âguys dorm remember? Thatâs trespassing.â
You opened your mouth to fire back then caught the way his voice softened just slightly on that last word. Not enough to call it kind. You leaned forward, finally dragging the chair toward his desk. âJust show me what youâve done so far. Weâre not gonna finish anything if you keep acting like I poisoned your coffee.â He exhaled slowly, shifting the laptop so you could both see the screen. But his gaze lingered on you a second longer before turning to the document. You didnât notice. He didnât say anything.
You didnât know how it happened but somewhere between reviewing the first slides and editing the captions, the two of you had stopped biting at each other. Nathan wasnât exactly friendly, but he was⊠tolerable. He made a sarcastic comment about your font choice, and you rolled your eyes but didnât snap. You pointed out a typo in his work, and he didnât bark back, just muttered âYeah, alright,â under his breath and fixed it.
life is strange isnt it?
The lamp on his desk cast a warm glow across the screen as the two of you leaned closer, arguing mildly about the placement of one of the images. You caught a soft twitch at the corner of his mouth not a smile, not quite but something quieter, like he wasnât entirely annoyed you were here anymore. You glanced at the photo on the slide. One of his shots: a boy sitting on a curb, face obscured by shadow, light cutting sharp across his shoulder. âThis oneâs your best,â you said before you could stop yourself. Nathanâs eyes flicked to yours, He didnât say anything. Just stared. Then, his phone buzzed.
Once.
Twice.
He glanced down, pulled it from his pocket lazily, still half focused on the screen. But the moment his eyes locked onto the message, something in him changed. Like a switch flipped. His shoulders tensed. Jaw tightened. Whatever softness had started to settle between you evaporated. He shoved the phone back into his pocket hard. You straightened, uncertain. âEverything okay?â
He didnât answer right away.
Then voice low, clipped âYou should go.â
The air dropped ten degrees.
You blinked. âWhat?â
âI said, you should leave.â He stood abruptly, already walking past you, pacing like the room had become too small to breathe in.
You stood, confused, watching him retreat toward the window without explanation.
âNathan â
âDonât,â he snapped, not turning around. âItâs fine. Projectâs fine. everything is fine. the world is fucking fine. Iâll send you the edits later.â
His voice was cold again. The weight was back in the room, that same heaviness youâd felt the first time he looked at you like you were just another person here to take something from him. You didnât know who had texted him. Or why he looked like the ground had just shifted beneath him. But you didnât ask. You grabbed your bag, slinging it over your shoulder slowly. âThanks for not being a total dick today,â you said quietly.
No response. You walked to the door, hesitating just a moment before opening it. Nathan still hadnât turned around. So you left quietly, without another word. The hallway light stung your eyes as the door clicked shut behind you.
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Nathan laid on his back, eyes wide open, blinking into the ceiling. He hadnât moved in hours not really. Heâd thrown on a hoodie sometime after you left, curled in on himself, and stared at nothing as the hours bled past midnight. His phone buzzed again. Another message. From the same number. He didnât read it. His chest felt tight. He could hear his own breathing too fast, too shallow. His hands twitched where they gripped the edge of his mattress, fingers white knuckled and cold. It wasnât the first time this had happened. But it felt worse tonight. Now shame thick in his throat, desperation louder than pride, he opened the school directory, found your name, and typed your number in. He stared at the digits for a long time. Then, he hit Call.
You woke up to the buzz of your phone on your nightstand, groggy and confused.
1:47 AM. Unknown Number.
You almost ignored it. Almost. Though you firmly believed doing stuff for the plot leads to funnier futures.
âHello?â
For a few seconds, there was only silence. Then a quiet breath. A small, almost inaudible noise. Then, âDonât hang up.â
Your heart stilled. âNathan?â
âUm⊠hi?â you said slowly. âWhy are you â
âI justâŠâ He sounded off. His voice was low, but shaky. Like he was trying to keep it together. âI canât sleep.â
You were quiet for a second. Not sure what to say. It was weird. You barely knew him. The guy who made it very clear he didnât want to work with you suddenly calling you in the middle of the night? The hell? âHow did you get my number?â
âSchool directory. Look, I know itâs fucking weird, okay? Just fuck just donât hang up yet.â
You leaned back in your bed, running a hand down your face. The annoyance faded just a little. There was something raw under his words, something fraying at the edges.
You exhaled. âAlright. Iâm not hanging up. Whatâs going on?â
He didnât answer right away. You heard him breathing though sharp inhales, shallow. Like he was pacing, or panicking.
âI just needed noise or something. I dunno. Itâs like my chestâs full of needles.â
Okay. That was more than you expected. You pushed your blanket off and sat up fully, rubbing your eyes awake.
âOkay,â you said softly. âSounds like a panic attack.â
He let out a laugh. It was bitter. Dry. âNo shit.â
You stayed quiet a second, then started talking. Not about anything important just things to fill the space. You told him about the way your floorboards creaked weirdly when it got cold. The dumb poster your roommate hung crooked. The vending machine that kept eating your dollar bills. You werenât sure why he stayed on the line. You werenât sure why you did, either. But the minutes passed, and you could hear his breathing start to even out.
At one point, he said, quieter this time, âI didnât know who else to call.â
You didnât know what to say to that. So you didnât say anything. He stayed on the line until you heard nothing but slow, steady breathing. Then the call ended. You thought that was it. Just a one time weird moment. But the next night, your phone buzzed again.
Unknown Number. 12:18 AM.
You stared at it for a second. Then picked up. âCouldnât sleep again?â
âFuck off,â Nathan muttered, but his voice didnât sound angry.
just like that, it became a thing. Not every night, but often enough. Heâd call, and youâd talk him through it. Or heâd just listen while you rambled about whatever was in your head. Sometimes he didnât even say much. Youâd just hear his breathing. Then, one night, a text.
[1:03 AM] âDormâs a pressure cooker tonight. Need to get out. You up?â
You blinked down at it, thumb hovering over the screen. Then replied. âok fuckboy, Where?â
[1:04 AM] âBack side of the art building. If youâre not scared of the dark or whatever.â
You pulled a hoodie over your head and slipped out the side door, keeping your steps light across the grass. You found him sitting on the low concrete wall, hoodie on, legs stretched out, a cigarette burning between his fingers. He didnât look at you when you walked up.
âSo⊠you make a habit of calling girls you donât like at 1 a.m.?â you asked, standing over him.
He smirked, flicking ash. âYouâre the only one dumb enough to answer.â
âLucky me.â
He scooted over slightly. You sat down next to him, knees brushing briefly. He smelled faintly like smoke and laundry detergent. For a minute, neither of you said anything. Then he muttered, âThanks. For not being a dick about the calls.â
You glanced at him. That was probably the closest thing to a thank you he was capable of. âYeah, well,â you said, nudging him with your shoulder, âIâm not completely heartless.â
He gave a dry little laugh and took another drag. And for the first time since youâd met him, Nathan didnât seem like he was pretending to be someone else.You hopped up beside him, the wall cold through your jeans. He handed you the cig wordlessly, and you took a drag, passing it back before pulling your phone from your hoodie pocket.
Three missed texts.
[1:52 AM Warren G.]
Where are you right now?
[1:53 AM Warren G.]
I just saw you from my window. Was that Nathan Prescott? Seriously??
[1:54 AM Warren G.]
[Y/N], what are you doing with him?
You stared at the screen for a long second, then locked it and shoved it deep into your pocket. You werenât answering that.Warren was probably the reason you hated him so much. Right now Instead, you pulled a small joint from the hem of your hoodie tucked right where your sleeve met the wristband.
Nathanâs eyes tracked the motion, brow raising. âSince when do you carry?â
âSince tonight, apparently.â You lit it with a flick of a borrowed lighter, watching the paper curl into orange.
Nathan smirked faintly, but there was a flash of something in his face, curiosity. Not judgment. Just⊠surprise. âRough night?â
You took a long pull, exhaled upward. âYou could say that.â
You didnât mention Warren. Didnât mention the way your phone buzzed in your pocket like it was desperate to ruin the quiet. Nathan didnât push. He just leaned back on his elbows, watching the smoke twist into the dark sky. What has been different from when you started interacting with Nathan more was not telling your friends everything. Warren might be the only reason you didnt like the guy that was sitting beside you. Though even hes such a stick in the mid sometimes.
âNot bad form,â he muttered.
âThanks.â
He gave a soft snort, and for a minute, the tension dropped. You passed the joint over, and he took it without a word. The smoke danced lazily in the air between you, catching in the wind and disappearing into nothing. You leaned back beside him, body loose from the hit, brain a little fogged like your thoughts were wearing fuzzy socks on a hardwood floor. Nathan took another drag, eyes half lidded, and passed it back to you. You didnât take it this time. Just stared forward, hands braced behind you, legs kicked out.
âYou know,â you started, voice a little slower than usual, like you had to fish the words from somewhere murky, âI think I like you more than I realized.â Silence. You looked over, then quickly back at the dark stretch of campus in front of you. âI mean maybe itâs the high talking. Or maybe Iâm just sleep deprived and having a brain glitch. Whatever.â You waved it off like it wasnât a big deal, even though it felt like one. âItâs not like I know you, know you, butâŠâ
You trailed off. The buzz of the joint mixed with the weight of that little truth hanging out in the open air now. Nathan blinked at you and then scoffed. âWow,â he muttered with a crooked smile. âYou catch feelings off one joint and a sad boy routine?.â
You turned to glare at him. âShut up.â
âNo, really. Should I light candles next time? Bring you flowers? Write you some poetry?â His grin stretched You went to snap back but then his hand brushed against yours on the concrete. Not accidental. He didnât look at you when he did it. He just let his fingers slide over yours, catching them loosely. His palm was warm. Steady. You didnât say anything. Didnât look at him. Just stared at the building lights across the quad and let your hand stay in his.
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You hadnât slept. Not really. Instead, youâd just laid there, reliving every second behind the art building Nathanâs hand in yours. he was warm. so warm. his eyes were glossy. the night ended later than any of you two could gather. Blackwell always felt a little gray in the morning, but today it there might have been a little pep in your step. Cold in the air, a small little nathan shaped warmth in your chest. You stepped into the hallway and spotted him before you were even fully through the door.
Nathan. Leaning against a locker laughing at something Victoria said, though it didnât look real. Nothing about him did anymore. You slowed for just a second. âShit,â he muttered, loud enough to carry. âShouldâve known the freak parade would show up early.â
Victoria snorted. âGod, can she not?â Her eyes flicked over your clothes like she was personally offended by the fabric. âEvery dayâs a fashion crime with her.â
You froze mid step. Max and Warren were behind you, chatting, not realizing what you were walking into. Your heart stung before your brain could even process what was happening. Nathan pushed off the locker, brushing past you with a smug little smile. âHope the janitors are getting paid extra,â he sneered, âcleaning up after your desperation.â
âWhat the hell, Prescott?â Warren stepped in fast, hand fisting at his side.
Nathan turned back, cocky, dangerous. âRelax, boy scout. Didnât realize you two were still sharing notes. Or maybe itâs more than that, huh?â His eyes swept to you again, slower this time, and colder. âFigures. Nobody else would.â
ok pause. because what the fuck happened. Like yes he was an ass. the whole school knew that. Though considering the amount of time he was crawling into your messages, where the hell did this come from?
âKeep walking,â Max said lowly, stepping up beside you.
Max didnât press. She never did. That was the nice thing about her. Since starting the school year, you both bonded on being new. well for you, relatively new and her coming back to her hometown.
Warren, though? At lunch, he was full of energy, waving you over like always. You sat down beside him and Max at your usual table under the half broken patio umbrella. He was in the middle of some rant about science fiction film logic when it happened.
âIâm just saying if a robot gains sentience, it doesnât automatically mean it wants to kill us. Thatâs lazy writing â
From across the quad, a loud snort cut him off.
âWow,â Victoria said, not even bothering to keep her voice down. âLook whoâs still wearing last seasonâs clearance rack.â
You blinked, confused, until you realized she was looking directly at you. Taylor giggled beside her, but it was Nathan who made your stomach drop. He pointed toward once at your table and leaned over to whisper something to Victoria. Then, loud enough for everyone near to hear âShe shouldâve stayed invisible. Worked better for her.â
Max stiffened beside you. âJesus. What is their problem today?â
Warren stood up, indignant. âHey. Why donât you back off, Prescott?â
Nathan didnât even look at him. His eyes were on you and they werenât blank. They were cold. Icy. âRelax,â he said, tone bored. âJust making an observation.â
âYou want me to make one too?â Warren snapped. âLike how youâre always hiding behind Victoriaâs designer knockoffs?â
Victoria gasped like sheâd been slapped. âExcuse me?â
Max grabbed Warrenâs arm. âNot worth it,â she said quietly. You sat disguted. Nathanâs stare found you again. And just before he turned away, he said it not loud, but loud enough. âBetter keep your pets on a leash.â
Then he walked off. Victoria followed, heels snapping against the pavement. The rest of the Vortex Club trailed behind them like spoiled royalty. You didnât finish your lunch. You barely tasted anything after that. Max rubbed your shoulder gently, concern in her eyes. âYou okay?â
You nodded. You lied. Because all you could hear was his voice, cold and clean and cutting a thousand miles from the one youâd heard whispering into the phone at 1 A.M. Like none of it had happened. Like you hadnât happened.
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His eyes met yours, and for the first time all day, he was actually looking at you in the eyes. âHey,â he said, voice soft.
You didnât say it back.Instead, you stepped past him and into the room like it was a business meeting. Camera bag down. Laptop open. The wall between you and him went up brick by brick with every breath. âLetâs just get this done,â you said.
He didnât argue. Just shut the door behind you quietly. You sat at his desk, the screen glow lighting your face. He hovered nearby, watching you scroll through edits like he didnât want to say the wrong thing. Or maybe like he didnât know how to say anything at all. âI fixed the lighting on the last three shots,â you said flatly. âYours were a little overexposed.â
He nodded. âYeah. Youâre better at that stuff anyway.â
You didnât respond. Just kept clicking. He moved to sit on the edge of his bed, quiet for a while before asking, âDid you still wanna use that photo by the fountain?â
âI already did.â
He rubbed the back of his neck, glanced at you, then away. âYou, uh⊠didnât answer my text this morning.â
You didnât look at him. âDidnât think it needed a reply.â
Nathan nodded, jaw tight. âRight.â
Back to silence. He didnât bring up what happened. Didnât ask how you were. And you didnât bring it up either not how heâd ignored you all day, not how the only time he seemed to be kind was when it was dark out and nobody else could see. Not how you were starting to wonder if this was all he had to give. Just this. Only at night. Only when no one else was looking. You highlighted a paragraph of text and rewrote it. He leaned closer, trying to peek at the screen.
âYouâre really good at this,â he said quietly.
You flinched. Not visibly but inside, your bones rattled. It felt like a visceral reaction. You kept your voice neutral. âWeâre almost done.â
He didnât say anything else. You sat there together for another half hour, finishing edits. His bed creaked once when he shifted. You didnât look. Eventually, you saved the file and stood up.
âThatâs everything,â you said. âIâll print it in the morning.â
Nathan watched you gather your things. âYou donât have to go yet,â he said, almost hesitant.
But you did. if he had just said something, you might understand. Though there isnt enough time in the world to be chasing after rich boy problems he doesnt want to address.
. Ęâ âč . đœ.á
She left.
Didnât even look back. Just walked out of the dorm like she couldnât get out fast enough. Yeah. That felt about right. Nathan stood there like an idiot, hands in his pockets, jaw tight, listening to the door click shut. it was some kind of final answer he didnât ask for. You donât have to go yet. Heâd said it like a damn loser. Like he didnât spend the entire day pretending she didnât exist. she looked at him like he was a goddamn stranger. He sat down on his bed, rubbed at his face, dragged his hands through his hair like it would help. It didnât. It never did. Everything just kept buzzing. Loud. In his ears, in his chest, like a swarm of flies under his skin. He shouldâve said something. Anything. Shouldâve told her why he was being weird. Why he was quiet. Why he didnât even look at her earlier. But how the hell do you say,
Hey, Iâm scared youâll end up in the basement of an abandoned barn if I like you too much?
He laughed. Or choked. One of the two. God, his hands were shaking again. He stood up fast, paced once, twice, kicked his desk chair just to feel something and regretted it immediately. His toe throbbed. Whatever.
He was sweating. Why was he sweating?
He pulled off the red zip up and threw it at the wall. Didnât stick. Just slumped down like everything else. Jeffersonâs voice. Crawling back in like it always did.
âSheâs interesting, isnât she?â
âGot a real⊠natural quality. Honest.â
âThe kind of face that looks good in contrast. You see it, right?â
âSheâs got potential.â
Nathan squeezed his eyes shut, gritting his teeth. âShut up, shut up, shut up.â
It didnât help. Jeffersonâs voice was calm. Already chosen.He didnât want that. He didnât want her anywhere near that world.But what the hell was he supposed to do? Jefferson noticed things. once he noticed, it was over. Nathan dropped back onto the floor, breathing fast now. heâd been running. someone was pressing down on his lungs and wouldnât stop. He clutched his shirt, pulled at the collar, trying to get air. Trying to slow his thoughts. His heart. Anything. But it wouldnât fucking slow down.
His vision blurred a little. Pressure in his head, behind his eyes. He bit down hard on the inside of his cheek just to stop himself from crying or screaming or both.
He felt like he was going to throw up. Or pass out. Or explode. or all of the above. it all might actually happen. He didnât know what was worse, the fact that he couldnât be normal with her⊠or the fact that when he was, it made him want to protect her more than anything. That protection came with a cost. A choice. A name on a folder.
She didnât know any of it. And she couldnât.
until there was a knock at the door.
Nathan didnât hear it the first time. Not really. Not over the ringing in his ears, or the ragged, frantic way he was trying to breathe. His back hit the wall. He didnât remember moving. His hands were white knuckled fists against his chest like maybe that would keep it from splitting open.
Another knock.
He blinked. Everything was too bright and too dark at the same time. His name was a whisper behind the door âNathan?â
Her voice. It hit him like ice water. He squeezed his eyes shut harder, digging his nails into his palms. Not now. Not like this. He couldnât let her see him like
The door creaked open.
She stepped in fast, muttering under her breath, âGod, of course I forgot my charger, thatâs just whatever, not like it even â
She stopped. Frozen. Nathan was on the floor. Slumped against the side of his bed, drenched in sweat, fists clenched so tight they shook. His chest heaved, erratic. Panicked. His face was pale, eyes red rimmed, wide and glassy. All that anger sheâd brought with her white hot and ready to crack across the room halted like someone slammed the brakes. Her words died in her throat.
ââŠNathan?â
He still didnât look at her. Just gasped, breath catching hard in his throat, jaw clenched like he was trying not to cry. Or scream. Or both.
Her fingers curled around the charger in her hand. For a second, she stayed rooted to the floor, her heart pounding in her ears. Part of her screamed to turn around and walk away. He deserved that. After everything. Nathan barely registered when she moved closer. He couldnât even look at her. Just pressed his fists against his temples like that would keep everything from collapsing.
She hovered there for a second, jaw tight, arms crossed. âYouâre an asshole,â she muttered. Quiet. Bitter.
He looked like he couldnât breathe. Cursing under her breath, she dropped the charger on his desk and stepped closer. Her knees hit the carpet slowly, hesitantly, right in front of him. She crouched down between his legs, biting her lip, watching him like he was whipped animal. She didnât say anything right away. Just reached out, unsure, and carefully took his shaking hand.
Nathan flinched. Then his eyes finally lifted, just a little. Glassy. Bloodshot. Like he didnât recognize her at first. But he didnât pull away.
âJesusâŠâ she whispered, trying to keep her voice steady. âNathan, youâre what the hell is going on with you?â
Still no answer. His fingers twitched in hers, breath still coming fast and shallow, but her hand grounded him. Little by little. Beat by beat. She wanted to yell. She really did. Wanted to scream at him for ignoring her. For looking through her like she didnât matter. For pushing her away with no reason, no explanation, no damn warning.
Nathanâs breath hitched. His fingers twitched under hers, unsure, but desperate for the anchor. He gripped her hand like it was the only thing keeping him tethered to the floor.
âBreathe,â she said, voice flat but steady. âIn. Out.â
He tried. God, he tried.
âAgain.â
His lungs caught on the exhale, but he followed her voice. One breath. Then another. Her thumb moved gently across his knuckles. She didnât look at him. He didnât look at her. They just sat there. Angry. Shaking. Breathing.
âIâm still mad at you,â she said quietly. Just the truth.
All she could do was sit there. Mad. Hurt. Holding onto his hand like it was the only way to keep him from falling apart.
âIâm still pissed at you,â she murmured, after a long, long silence. âBut Iâm not gonna leave you like this.â
Nathan blinked hard. A tear slipped down his cheek before he could stop it. He looked away.
And still, she didnât let go.
Astarion AncunĂn X Reader
Synopsis- how do you both really understand each other. Why canât you love like real people do
âI know very little about this man, but as a devoted lover of Hozier, this song made me think of himâŠ.. Oh, did you see me complaining the other day about all Astarion fics being the same? Shut up and read the story. I know you all will still read it, you desperate whores.â
à„(ÊÌŽÌ¶Ì·Ì .Ì ÊÌŽÌ¶Ì·Ì„Ì à„) The night was cool, the stars burning quietly above as the two of you sat a little away from the camp. The others were asleep, but you knew Astarion wouldnât be resting at least not yet. He never truly let himself rest, even when his body was still.
The firelight flickered across his face, highlighting the sharp angles of his jaw, the way his red eyes seemed almost golden in the dim glow. But there was something dark lingering in them tonight, something unspoken that had been clawing at him for days.
âI had a thought, dear,â he murmured, his voice soft but carrying an edge of something wary, almost sharp. âHowever scary.â
You turned to him, sensing the shift in his mood. âTell me.â
His fingers twitched where they rested on his knee, as if he were debating whether to reach for you or not. He didnât. Instead, he exhaled, gaze fixed on the fire.
âAbout that night,â he continued, his voice quieter now. âThe bugs and the dirt. Why were you digging?â His eyes flicked to yours, searching, unsure. âWhat did you bury before those hands pulled me from the earth?â
You swallowed, understanding what he meant what he was truly asking.
You had found him, once. Broken, lost, a ghost of a man forced into survival. You both after the ship were so lost. You had reached for him without hesitation, pulled him from the dark, and given him something he still didnât fully understand. But what had you sacrificed to do so?
You sighed, your fingers curling in the fabric of your sleeve. âMaybe⊠maybe I buried the part of me that thought I could walk this world alone.â
His lips pressed into a thin line. âThatâs a poetic way of saying you were already broken.â
You frowned at that. âI never said I was broken.â
âNo?â His head tilted slightly, his gaze never leaving yours. âThen why? Why care for me, of all people?â He let out a hollow laugh, shaking his head. âIâm not some tragic hero in a story. I am selfish. I am cruel when it suits me. And I was. am. a man made into a monster. You should have left me in that grave.â
His voice cracked on the last word. He hadnât meant for it to, but it did.
You reached for him then, slowly, giving him time to pull away if he wanted to. He didnât. Your fingers found his, cool and trembling, and you held them tight.
âI care for you,â you said, voice steady, âbecause I see you.â
His breath hitched.
âYou are not just what he made you,â you continued. âNot to me.â
Astarion turned his face away, as if your words were something sharp he couldnât bear to touch. His throat bobbed, his fingers tightening around yours.
âYou make me feel real,â he whispered, as if confessing a sin. âAnd I hate it.â
You exhaled a quiet laugh, squeezing his hand. âThatâs alright.â
He turned back to you then, something vulnerable and raw in his eyes. âYouâre alright with loving a man who doesnât know how to love himself?â
You smiled, shifting closer until your foreheads nearly touched. âI think thatâs why I love you, Astarion. Because I want to show you how.â
His breath shuddered against your skin. For the first time in centuries, he let himself believe.
Astarion was quiet for a long time. The fire crackled between you, but his fingers remained tangled with yours, his grip just tight enough to keep him tethered to the moment. You could feel it the weight of everything he wasnât saying, the ghosts of centuries clinging to him like a second skin.
He had told you pieces of his past, but never all of it. And you had never asked. You watched the way his jaw tensed, how his shoulders curled inward as if bracing for something inevitable.
âI will not ask you where you came from,â you murmured.
His head turned slightly, red eyes flickering toward yours in quiet surprise.
âI will not ask you,â you repeated, voice gentle but firm. âNeither should you.â
He exhaled a breath he hadnât realized he was holding. Something in him loosened, something old and afraid.
âYou donât want to know?â His voice was almost cautious, as if the question itself was foreign to him.
You shook your head. âI want to know you. Not the things you were forced to do. Not the chains that bound you. Just you.â
Astarion swallowed hard. He had spent so long believing he was only what had been done to him, that there was nothing else nothing worth salvaging. But here you were, sitting beside him, holding his hand as if he were someone worth touching.
As if he were someone worth loving.
Slowly, his free hand lifted, brushing over your knuckles. A hesitant, unfamiliar gesture. His eyes studied the way your fingers curled into his, as if trying to understand why you werenât pulling away.
âI donât know who that is,â he admitted, voice barely above a whisper. âI donât know who I am without, without him.â
You squeezed his hand, grounding him. âThen letâs not look back. Letâs just be here. Now.â
Astarion let out a soft, shaky laugh, closing his eyes for a moment. When he opened them again, there was something lighter in them something fragile but real.
âHere. Now.â He tested the words, as if rolling them over in his mind. Slowly, carefully, he let his head rest against your shoulder.
For the first time, Astarion let himself exist without expectation, without past or future. Just here. Just now. with you.
The fire had burned low, glowing embers casting long shadows across the ground. Astarion still leaned against your shoulder, unmoving, his fingers still curled around yours. He felt real like this warm, tangible, not just some fleeting ghost of a man lost to time.
And yet, something lingered in his eyes when he finally looked at you. Something raw.
âI knew that look, dear,â he murmured, voice hushed in the stillness of the night. His red eyes searched yours, sharp and knowing. âEyes always seeking.â
You parted your lips to respond, but his fingers cold, careful lifted to trace along your jaw, silencing you.
âThere was someone once, wasnât there?â His voice was softer now, almost gentle. âSomeone you buried long ago.â
Your breath hitched.
He tilted his head, his eyes flickering over your face, studying every shift in your expression. âSo I will not ask you why you were creeping,â he murmured. âIn some sad way, I already know.â
Your throat tightened. Because he was right.
Maybe you had found him in the dirt, broken and lost, because some part of you had been buried there too. Maybe you had seen your own ruin in the ghost of a man clawing his way out of the earth.
But none of that mattered now.
Not when Astarion was here. Not when his hand slid from your jaw to your cheek, his touch trembling but sure. Not when his breath mingled with yours, and his eyes softened in a way you had never seen before.
âHoney,â he whispered, his forehead resting against yours. âJust put your sweet lips on my lips.â
His lips barely brushed yours hesitant, uncertain. A question more than a kiss.
And you answered.
You pressed forward, slow and deliberate, your fingers tangling in his curls as you pulled him closer. Astarion inhaled sharply against your mouth, his other hand gripping your waist as if anchoring himself to the moment. He kissed you like he wasnât sure he was allowed to, like he was still waiting for the moment you would realize he wasnât worth this kind of tenderness.
But you didnât pull away. Instead, you kissed him like you had all the time in the world. Like he was someone worth keeping.
quiet and still, save for the soft crackle of dying embers and the distant rustle of leaves in the wind. The world felt small in this moment just you, Astarion, and the fragile space between you.
His fingers lingered against your cheek, cool as marble, trembling ever so slightly, as if he still wasnât certain you were real. As if he wasnât certain he was real.
You watched the way his expression shifted, the war within him written across every furrow of his brow, every flicker of doubt in his crimson eyes. There was a time when he might have masked it all behind a teasing smirk or a well-placed quip, a time when he would have used charm as a shield. But here, now, he let himself be bare before you. No pretenses. No games. Just the truth of him, laid out in the fragile press of his lips to yours.
And gods, how fragile he was beneath it all. How much he had been taught to believe he was unworthy of this, of you.
His forehead stayed pressed against yours, his breath shallow. He didnât speak for a long time, only let his fingers trace idle patterns over the back of your hand. Then, so softly it was almost lost to the night, he whispered, âIâve never had this before.â
You swallowed, your grip on him tightening. âHad what?â
His gaze flickered up to meet yours, something raw gleaming beneath the firelight. âsomething that meant something.â
You felt your heart twist at that, at the quiet pain woven into his words. The idea that a touch so simple, so human, could feel foreign to him. That intimacy had always been a transaction, never a gift.
Astarion let out a breath, shaking his head. âI spent centuries pretending I had control. That I was the one taking, the one winning. But I wasnât, was I? I was justâŠâ He trailed off, his fingers curling into his palms. âI was nothing. I felt like nothing.â
You cupped his face then, guiding his gaze back to yours, refusing to let him slip into the past. âYou are not nothing, Astarion.â
His throat bobbed as he swallowed. âAnd yet, I still donât know how to be something.â
âThen weâll figure it out together,â you murmured.
His lips parted, as if to argue, but whatever words he meant to say withered before they could form. Instead, he just⊠looked at you. Like he was seeing something new, something terrifyingly unfamiliar. A possibility he had never let himself hope for.
He exhaled a small, shaking laugh, leaning into your touch. âGods, listen to me. You kiss me once and suddenly Iâm a blubbering mess.â
You smiled, brushing your thumb along his cheekbone. âI donât mind.â
He huffed, but there was no real annoyance behind it. Only something softer. Something aching.
Astarion shifted, his body relaxing against yours, his head once again resting on your shoulder. This time, though, it was different. He wasnât just leaning on you. He was allowing himself to be held.
The fire dwindled further, shadows stretching long and deep. But you stayed like that, with your fingers tangled in his, with the slow, steady rise and fall of his breath against your skin.
For the first time in centuries, Astarion let himself be vulnerable without fear.
For the first time in centuries, he let himself stay.
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Kon-el | Connor Kent X readerbatsis!
uhhh self indulgent bat family stuff
masterlist
This is mostly Batfamily X Batsis. Though I think I had enough Conner Kent X Reader to classify this as a thing.
GUYS I WROTE DAMIENS NAME WRONG THROUGHOUT THIS WAIT
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄ ° â© The first thing you learn about your parents is that they are fundamentally incompatible. The second thing you learn is that they will never stop trying anyway.
You donât remember a time when Bruce and Selina were ever something as simple as together. They exist in contradictions she flirts, he broods; she steals, he stops her; she leaves, he waits. You used to think they would eventually find a middle ground, but youâve long since given up on that idea.
Bruce and Selina have always been on and off, a constant push and pull. He loves her, but he canât accept her choices. She loves him, but she refuses to change for him. You grew up watching them dance around their feelings. One moment, sheâs draped over his desk in the Batcave, teasing him, and the next, sheâs gone without a trace, leaving only a cryptic note behind.
Still, they make sense, in a way that defies logic. And despite all their back and forth, they both love you just in completely different ways. The truth is, Bruce and Selina will never be able to give you the same kind of love.
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âAgain.â
You grit your teeth, clenching your fists as Bruce circles you in the Batcaveâs training area. Youâve already gone through this drill a dozen times. Your muscles ache, your ribs are sore from earlier blows, but heâs relentless.
You feint left, then pivot sharply, throwing a kick at his side. He blocks it easily. Too easily. His expression remains unreadable, but you can feel his disapproval.
âSloppy,â he says, stepping back. âYouâre letting yourself get tired.â
âThatâs because I am tired,â you snap. âWeâve been doing this for over an hour.â
He crosses his arms. âOn the field, you donât get to decide when youâre done.â
You roll your eyes. âOh, but Tim does? Jason does? Even Damian doesnât get this much micromanaging.â
Bruceâs jaw tightens. âThis isnât about them. Itâs about you.â
âNo, itâs about me being your daughter.â
His silence confirms it.
You let out a bitter laugh, shaking your head. âYou trained all of them, let them fight their own battles. You trusted them to figure it out. But me? Youâre scared to let me.â
Bruceâs expression darkens. âIâm not scared.â
âThen what is it?â you challenge, stepping closer. âYou push me harder than you ever pushed them, but you still wonât let me prove myself. Whatâs the point of all this if youâre just going to hold me back?â
His voice is quiet when he finally answers. âBecause I canât lose you.â
The weight of those words presses against your chest. You want to be angry, to keep fighting him on this, but the raw emotion in his voice makes it impossible.
You donât know what to say, so you settle for the only truth you have.
âYou wonât,â you murmur. âBut you have to let me go.â
Bruce doesnât answer. He just exhales slowly, tension still radiating from his stance. You donât expect him to change overnight, but at the very least, he doesnât call for another round. Thatâs something.
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Selina finds you hours later, sprawled out on the balcony of her penthouse. You werenât planning on coming here tonight, but after your fight with Bruce, you needed air. And if thereâs one thing Selina understands, itâs the need to escape.
She slides the glass door open, stepping onto the rooftop with effortless grace. âI thought Iâd find you here.â
You donât turn to face her. âBruce is being impossible.â
She chuckles, settling beside you. âHeâs still your dad donât call him bruce, though when isnât he?â
You sigh, tilting your head back against the cool metal railing. âI just⊠I donât know how to make him see me as more than just his kid. He acts like Iâll break if I take one wrong step.â
Selina hums thoughtfully. âThatâs what he does. He builds walls around the things he loves, convinces himself itâs the only way to keep them safe.â
You glance at her. âAnd you?â
She smirks. âOh, Iâd never keep a bird in a cage. Iâd teach her to fly.â
Thereâs something appealing about that. With Selina, there are no rules, no suffocating restrictions. Just a quiet, unwavering confidence in your abilities. Even if you donât approve of the way she lives, you canât deny that she makes you feel free.
She pulls a small velvet pouch from her pocket and tosses it into your lap.
You raise a brow. âDo I want to know?â
She grins. âJust a little something I picked up.â
You groan, shoving it back at her. âI told you to stop giving me stolen jewelry.â
Selina only laughs. âItâs not stolen technically. I swapped it for something better.â
âThatâs still stealing.â
âDetails, darling.â
You canât help but laugh. She winks, ruffling your hair before standing. âCome on. Letâs get something to eat before you let your fatherâs brooding ruin your whole night.â
You shake your head but follow her anyway.
For all their differences, Bruce and Selina have one thing in common: they both love you, fiercely.
Your dad will always try to protect you from the world. Your mom will always remind you that itâs yours to take. You exist in the space between them.
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄ ° â©
Patrol had been standard until it wasnât. You and Tim had been watching an arms deal go down from the rooftops of Gothamâs East End. The intel from Oracle suggested this was a simple exchange one that didnât require much interference. The plan was to observe, gather intel, and report back if things escalated. But you werenât convinced.
Something felt off. You crouched beside Tim, scanning the warehouse below. The deal was happening inside, but your eyes were locked on a figure slipping through a side entrance, unnoticed by the others.
âTim, weâve got movement,â you whispered.
He barely glanced at the figure before shaking his head. âNot our priority. We wait andâ
âIâm going after them,â you interrupted, already moving.
Tim grabbed your arm. âThatâs not the plan.â
âI have a bad feeling about this,â you insisted, shaking him off. âCover me.â
And before he could protest, you were already gone.
-ËËâââââ
The side entrance led you through a narrow corridor, crates stacked high along the walls. You moved quietly, using the shadows to your advantage.
The man you were following a mercenary by the look of his armor spoke softly into an earpiece. You couldnât hear what he was saying, but the urgency in his tone sent a chill down your spine.
You pressed closer, peering around a crate. Then you saw it.
This wasnât just an arms deal. There were bombs. Crates of them. Military grade explosives, lined up and ready to be moved.
Your stomach dropped.
âOracle,â you whispered, touching your comm. âWe have a problem.â
âI see it,â her voice came through your earpiece. âIâm running facial recognition on the men inside. This isnât just some street gang these guys are mercenaries.â
âFigures.â
Timâs voice suddenly crackled through. âYou were supposed to wait.â
âIâd say âI told you so,â but Iâm a little busy.â
A movement caught your eye. The mercenary was reaching for a detonator.
Shit.
You sprang from cover, knocking him back with a swift kick to the ribs. The detonator clattered across the floor.
âGot company,â you muttered.
âOn my way,â Tim responded.
But it was already too late.
The other mercenaries had heard the commotion, and within seconds, you were surrounded.
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Fighting in the Fire
You moved on instinct, blocking the first blow aimed at your head and countering with a knee to the gut. The second merc swung at you with a baton, but you ducked, sweeping his legs out from under him.
The fight was brutal there were too many of them, and you were alone.
A blade sliced across your side, and you hissed, twisting to avoid a deeper wound. Blood soaked into your suit, but you ignored it, focusing on staying alive.
Then the explosion hit.
A grenade thrown from somewhere behind you detonated against one of the stacked crates. The force sent you flying, crashing through a pile of debris. Your ears rang, and your vision blurred.
Somewhere in the distance, you heard Timâs voice in your earpiece. âHold on Iâm almost there!â
Gritting your teeth, you forced yourself to move.
You werenât dying here.
When the dust settled, the mercenaries were either unconscious or retreating. The explosives were still intact, and Tim arrived just in time to secure them.
But you were wrecked.
He looked at you, taking in the blood seeping from your side. âYouâre an idiot.â
You gave a weak smirk. âYeah. But at least I was right.â
Tim muttered something under his breath before helping you out of the warehouse.
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The moment you step off the platform, you feel him before you see him.
Bruce is waiting. Arms crossed. Silent.
Heâs still in the Batsuit, the cowl pulled back, his expression unreadable but you know better. Youâve seen that look before.
Tim doesnât say a word. He just gives you one final glance and walks off, leaving you alone with the inevitable.
You brace yourself, but Bruce doesnât raise his voice. He doesnât have to. His disappointment is a physical weight in the air.
âYou abandoned your partner,â he says, voice like stone.
âI chased a lead.â
âYou disobeyed orders.â
You grit your teeth. âIt was the right call.â
He steps forward, and suddenly, you feel small. Not because youâre afraid Bruce would never hurt you but because his presence alone is suffocating.
âThe right call?â His tone sharpens. âYou were injured. You could have been killed.â
âBut I wasnât,â you argue, though the sting in your side says otherwise.
Bruce exhales slowly, his jaw tightening. âYouâre reckless.â
âYou donât say that when literally anyone else is on a mission,â you snap.
He doesnât answer immediately, and that silence stings. Because you already know the truth. Youâre different. Youâre his daughter. And that changes everything. but it doesnât Damien is younger than you. You donât get it.
âYouâre dismissed,â he finally says, voice cold.
You hesitate, fists clenched, but thereâs no point in arguing. Not when his mind is already made up.
You turn and head toward the med bay, fuming the entire way.
âź â ËïœĄđŠč âïœĄ ° â©
Youâre half out of your suit, sitting on the medical table while Alfred patches up your side, when Jason storms into the Batcave like a force of nature.
âThe hell happened tonight?â
You groan. Of course he found out.
Bruce, still near the Batcomputer, barely glances up. âJasonâ
Jason ignores him, turning straight to you. His eyes flick to the bloodstained bandages, and his expression darkens. âWho did this?â
âRelax,â you sigh. âItâs just a scratch.â
Jason scoffs. âA scratch?â He turns to Bruce, eyes blazing. âWhat the hell was she doing in a situation where she could end up like this?â
âI made the call,â you interject. âIt was my decision.â
Jason looks at you like youâve lost your mind. âThatâs not a good thing, dumbass.â
You scowl. âItâs part of the job.â
Jason shakes his head, pacing. âNah. No. You shouldnât be out there like this. He shouldnât be letting youâ
âI let her do nothing,â Bruce interrupts, his voice a low warning.
Jason laughs humorless, sharp. âOh, really? Because it looks to me like youâre putting her through the same damn cycle we all went through. How long before she ends up dead in an alley too?â
âJasonâ
âNo, screw that,â Jason snaps. âYouâre just letting her walk into this life like itâs fine. Like itâs not gonna chew her up and spit her out like the rest of us.â
You push yourself up from the table, ignoring the sharp sting in your side. âI chose this, Jason. No one forced me.â
Jason turns his glare on you. âYou donât get it, do you? You think this is just about being a hero, about doing good?â He scoffs. âItâs a death sentence.â
You clench your jaw. âSo what, you expect me to just sit at home and do nothing?â
âI expect you to be smarter than this,â he snaps.
Before you can fire back, his eyes narrow, and suddenly, the conversation takes a sharp turn.
âSpeaking of dumb decisions,â Jason mutters, crossing his arms. âYouâre still with Superboy, right?â
Your frustration spikes. âOh my godseriously?â
Jason gives you a deadpan look. âknock off superman? Really? You could do better.â
You throw your hands up. âWhy does everyone have a problem with me dating Conner?â
Jason rolls his eyes. âBecause heâs a walking red flag wrapped in blue spandex.â
You glare. âThatâs rich coming from you.â
Jason scowls. âI donât trust him.â
âYou donât trust anyone.â
He doesnât deny it.
You exhale sharply, rubbing your temples. âLook, Iâm tired, Iâm injured, and I donât have the energy for this right now.â
Jason studies you for a moment, then sighs, running a hand through his hair. His anger hasnât faded completely, but the sharp edge of it has dulled.
âFine,â he mutters. âBut if he ever screws up, I will break his face.â
You roll your eyes, but thereâs a flicker of something warmer underneath the annoyance. Jason will never say it outright, but you know what this is.
Itâs not just anger. Itâs fear.
Bruce was right about one thing losing people leaves scars. And Jason? He has more than most. He wonât stop you from fighting your battles. But heâll sure as hell be there when you fall.
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Dating in the Batfamily was a challenge. Dating Conner Kent? That was practically a declaration of war.
You werenât an idiot you knew what your family thought of him. Bruce didnât trust him. Supermanâs clone, an unpredictable force of power, a boy with too much strength and too little control. Thatâs how your father saw him, at least. Jason didnât respect him. âA knock off in a leather jacket? Come on, you can do so much better.â
Tim was wary. Conner was his best friend, but even he had his doubts when it came to you.
And your mother? Selina raised a delicate brow when she first caught wind of your relationship, a teasing smirk playing at her lips. âOh, darling,â she had purred. âYou know how your fatherâs going to react, right?â
You had sighed, rubbing your temples. âYes, Mother, I know.â
She had hummed in amusement. âWell, Im starting to think iâm a bad influence, at least try not to be like me and your dad.â
âMom.â
She had only laughed.
At first, it was easier to keep it hidden. You and Conner met in the shadows, in places no one else would look.
Abandoned rooftops, dimly lit diners on the outskirts of the city, quiet parks in the dead of night where he could float just above the ground, keeping you wrapped in the warmth of his presence.
He wasnât like Superman and you werenât just Batmanâs daughter.
Thatâs what you loved about being with him. When he looked at you, he didnât see the vigilante, the heir to Gothamâs dark legacy. He didnât see someone who had to be perfect. He saw you. Your flaws, your fears, your messy, complicated emotions. And he never tried to change them.
âI donât care about what your dad thinks,â he had told you once, leaning back against the fire escape outside your window. âOr your brothers. Or your mom, even.â
You raised a brow. âNot even a little?â
He grinned. âOkay, maybe a little. But it doesnât change anything.â
You had smirked. âYou are stubborn.â
âSays the girl who wonât admit she likes me.â
You scoffed, but he had been right. Liking him had been the easy part. Accepting that he was yours? That had been harder.
Gotham was a city of ghosts.
Your life had been built on shadows, on silent movements, on always thinking five steps ahead. Mistakes had consequences, emotions were weaknesses, and attachments?
They got you killed.
But Conner⊠Conner made you feel like you were alive.
He never cared about the weight of your family name. He never expected you to be perfect. He let you be wrong, and he still stood by you.
One night, after a brutal mission, you had been exhausted, bruised, and pissed at your father for another round of overprotection.
Conner had found you on the rooftop of your shared apartment, sitting at the edge, staring out at the skyline.
He had landed softly beside you, his presence warm against the cold night.
âYou okay?â
You hadnât answered right away.
Then, quietly, you had admitted, âSometimes I think its much more worth it to leave this placeâ
Conner had been silent for a moment before he shifted closer. âYeah. I get that.â
And you knew he did. Superman saw him as something broken. A project. An accident to be controlled. Bruce saw you as something fragile. Something not ready.
You had glanced at Conner then, at the way he looked at you not as something to fix, but as someone whole. You had leaned into him, and he had let you.
That was the thing about Conner.
He didnât just love you. He trusted you to be exactly who you were.
-ËËâââââ
Your father was the last to acknowledge it.
Bruce had spent months pretending you werenât sneaking out to see Conner, pretending he didnât know why your patrol routes started conveniently lining up with the edge of the city.
But Bruce noticed everything. eventually, he noticed him. It started with the little things.
Conner was always near you in battle, always the first to shield you from an explosion, always ready to catch you if you fell.
Bruce watched the way Conner would take the hit for you not because he thought you couldnât handle it, but because he could. Conner was powerful, but he never used that strength to control you. He never underestimated you.
One night, after a particularly nasty fight against a group of assassins, you had ended up battered and bloody, a knife wound deep in your side.
Conner had carried you back to the Cave.
Bruce had been waiting.
The air had been tense as Conner laid you gently on the med bay table, his jaw tight, eyes burning with barely contained fury.
âShe shouldnât have been alone,â Conner had said, voice sharp.
Bruce had met his glare, unreadable. âYeah she shouldnât have.â
âThen act right on this and she wouldnât have been alone,â Conner snapped. âshes strong but I donât care like assholes like you neither does she.â
Silence.
Then Bruce had simply turned and walked away. It wasnât approval. But it wasnât rejection, either. You supposed, in his way, Bruce was starting to understand.
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Looking back now, lying in the med bay once again, you let out a slow breath.
The room was empty.
The cave was silent.
Your body ached, your side still throbbing from the mission gone wrong. You stared at the ceiling, letting exhaustion creep in.
Jasonâs words still echoed in your head.
âTights and a cape? Really?â
You sighed.
Theyâd never understand.
when Conner held you, when he saw you, when he treated you like something more than just Batmanâs daughter⊠It didnât matter what anyone else thought.
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Gotham was different when Dick was in town. Maybe it was the way he carried himself loose, easy, like the city didnât weigh on his shoulders the way it did on everyone elseâs. Maybe it was because he didnât live here anymore, so Gothamâs shadows didnât cling to him the way they clung to you, to Jason, to Bruce.
Either way, his presence always changed the air. Right now, though? It just made the tension in the Batcave feel even heavier.
Dick had barely been back for a full twenty four hours before he noticed. The way Bruceâs jaw was tighter than usual, how Jason was avoiding both of you, how Tim kept smirking behind his coffee cup like he was enjoying the chaos. And you?
You were just done.
He didnât say anything at first. Just watched.
Watched as Bruce checked your gear three times before your patrol. Watched as Jason kept throwing pointed glances your way, muttering curses under his breath like you were the idiot. Watched as Tim leaned back against the Batcomputer with the most entertained expression, like this was his own personal sitcom.
Eventually, Dick just sighed.
âAlright, kid,â he said, slinging an arm around your shoulders. âBurgers. Letâs go.â
Bruce barely looked up. âShe has patrol.â
Dick raised a brow. âNo, she has burgers with her favorite brother.â
Jason scoffed from across the room. âFavorite? Yeah, okay, Nightwing.â
Tim sipped his coffee. âI donât know, Jay. He is also my favourite.â
You didnât argue. You just grabbed your jacket and followed Dick out before Bruce could protest.
-ËËâââââ
The diner was a little hole in the wall place, tucked between two crumbling buildings. Greasy food, crappy lighting, the kind of place that felt like Gotham to its core. You slumped into the booth, arms crossed as Dick slid in across from you.
He didnât push. Didnât prod. Just casually unwrapped his burger and took a bite, waiting. It didnât take long for you to break.
âHe treats me like a soldier,â you said suddenly, frustration bubbling to the surface. âNot even a good one. Just one he doesnât trust to make their own decisions.â
Dick chewed, nodding. âBruce?â
You rolled your eyes. âObviously Bruce.â
You picked at your fries. âheâs such an ass, i know heâs had this tough love thing since Jason but god why cant he let me be? Every move I make, he second guesses. Every mission, he reroutes my patrol to keep me âsafer.â He acts like Iâm some reckless idiot whoâs one bad decision away from getting killed.â
Dick hummed. âJason probably isnât helping.â
You huffed. âOh, heâs worse. At least Bruce lets me fight Jason acts like Iâm made of glass. Like I need protecting, like I canât handle myself.â
Dick smirked. âWell, you did almost get blown up yesterday.â
You scowled. âThatâs not the point.â
âMmhmm.â
You ignored him and kept going.
âAnd then thereâs Tim. Who just smirks. Like he enjoys watching me get lectured by dad and chewed out by Jason. Like this is all some kind of entertainment to him.â
Dick laughed. âIt is entertaining.â
You threw a fry at him. He caught it without looking.
âItâs justâ You exhaled sharply. âBruce doesnât trust me, Jason coddles me, and Tim thinks itâs all a joke. And yet Damian gets to do whatever the hell he wants.â
Dick raised a brow. âAh. So this is about Damian.â
You stabbed your fork into your fries. âItâs not. Itâs about all of it. But also? Yeah. Itâs about Damian.â
Dick took another bite of his burger, chewing thoughtfully. âBruce would let him get away with murder?â
âLiterally,â you muttered. âMeanwhile, I take one risk one calculated risk and suddenly Iâm ânot ready.ââ
Dick sighed, setting his burger down. âOkay. So, whatâs the actual problem?â
You frowned. âI just told youâ
âNo, I mean the real problem. You donât actually care that Bruce is strict. You expect that. You donât even care that Jasonâs overprotective he does that to everyone he loves.â
You looked away. ââŠSo?â
âSo,â he said, smirking, âwhat you actually hate is that they donât see you as an equal.â
You frowned.
Dick leaned back, crossing his arms. âThey see you as their little sister. Their daughter. They see someone they have to protect, not someone they can trust.â
Your grip on your fork tightened. âAnd thatâs not fair.â
âNo,â he agreed easily. âItâs not.â
Silence stretched between you.
Then, casually, Dick added, âBut hey, at least Conner treats you like an equal.â
You froze mid bite.
Slowly, you looked up at him.
He grinned.
You narrowed your eyes. âDonât.â
He tilted his head. âWhat?â
âDonât start.â
âIâm just saying,â he teased. âYou couldâve gone for someone normal, but nooo. You had to pick another dark, broody, overpowered meatheadâ
âDick, I swearâ
âYou surround yourself with annoying guysâ
You groaned, dragging a hand down your face. âNever speak again.â
âOh, absolutely not.â He leaned forward, eyes glinting mischievously. âIn fact, I think I should speak more. Maybe bring this up at family dinner. Hey, Bruce, did you know your daughter has a thing for emotionally constipated guys in leather?â
You threw another fry at him.
He dodged it effortlessly, laughing.
âDick. I will kill you.â
âI kinda want to meet this guy.â
You glared.
He just smiled. But despite your annoyance, despite everything Bruceâs overprotection, Jasonâs coddling, Timâs smirking something about the conversation helped. Because at least one of your brothers saw you.
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You regretted ever telling your family now. Dick knowing about Conner means youâve been introduced to hell.
oh satan over there? yeah heâs on the body of your bug brother.
Not because he was mad not even because he was disapproving but because he was Dick.
Which meant relentless teasing.
Which meant grinning at you like he had the worldâs juiciest blackmail material. Which meant the exact sentence that had been haunting you ever since your burger night.
âI want to meet my younger sisterâs hero.â
It had been two days. Two. And he would not let it go.
You tried to avoid it. Tried to make excuses. But Dick was persistent.
So now here you were on a Gotham rooftop, arms crossed, glaring at him as he sat on the ledge like he didnât have a care in the world.
âYouâre ridiculous.â
âIâm interested,â he corrected. âI mean, câmon. Iâve only ever heard about this guy from our brothers, and none of them have anything nice to say.â He smirked. âFigured I should form my own opinion.â
You groaned. âCan you not?â
âOh, I definitely can,â he said. âI just wonât.â
Before you could argue further, a gust of wind swept through the air, and There he was.
Conner landed a few feet away, hands in his jacket pockets, red cape billowing slightly behind him. His gaze flickered between you and Dick, brows furrowed in mild suspicion.
âYou okay?â he asked you first, like he always did.
You exhaled. âYeah. I just â You shot Dick a look. âHad a situation to handle.â
Conner raised an eyebrow.
Dick, meanwhile, was grinning.
âWell, well, well,â he said, standing up and brushing off his suit. âThe infamous Superboy.â
Connerâs eyes narrowed slightly. âAnd youâreâŠ?â
Dicks mouth dropped glancing to you âOh, wow. That actually hurt.â Then he extended a hand. âDick Grayson. Also known as Nightwing. Also known as best older brother. Nice to finally meet you.â
Conner eyed him for a second before shaking his hand. ââŠRight.â
Dickâs smirk widened. âSo. Youâre the little guy my little sisterâs been sneaking around with, huh?â
You instantly regretted your entire life.
Connerâs gaze flickered to you before he answered, clearly unsure how to respond. âGuess soâŠ?â
âOh, I like him already,â Dick laughed. âGot that classic âbrooding heroâ energy. I see the appeal.â
You glared. âDickâ
âI mean, you do have a type,â he continued, grinning at you. âThe whole âdark, broody, overpoweredâ thing? Classic. keep the family values. I respect it.â
Conner glanced at you, fidgeting slightly as if trying to hold back a laugh. âits not a wrong point.â
You smacked his arm. âNot you too.â
Dick just laughed. âSo. Howâs the Super life treating you?â
Conner shrugged awkwardly, clearly not sure how to navigate the conversation. âCould be worse.â
âDealing with my family yet?â
âAll the time.â
Dick nodded sagely. âYeah, thatâs rough, buddy.â
Conner gave a quiet, awkward chuckle. âItâs not that bad.â His gaze softened slightly when he looked at you. âShe makes it easier.â
Dick raised an eyebrow. Then slowly he grinned.
âOh, man,â he said, shaking his head. âYouâre down bad.â
You groaned. âDick. itâs gross when you say that. Shut up.â
âI love this,â he continued, delighted. âThis is so much better than I imagined.â
Conner crossed his arms and tried to lean against the ledge nonchalantly, but there was a slight stiff tension in his posture. âI wont stop her if she starts fightingâ
Dick gasped, hand over his heart. âYouâd turn her against me?â
âmmmmm iâm in a Y/n wrongs and right are rights morality,â Conner pointed out with a soft, awkward chuckle.
Dick sighed. âew you sound like me with women.â
You rolled your eyes. âOkay. Weâre done here.â
But before you could drag Conner away, Dick clapped a hand on his shoulder.
âLook, all jokes aside,â he said, suddenly more serious, âI get why Bruce and Jason are⊠difficult about this. Youâre powerful. Youâre dangerous. Youâre not one of us.â
Conner tensed slightly, glancing over at you like he didnât know how to respond.
Dick met his gaze. âBut I see how you look at her. And I see how she looks at you.â His expression softened. âSo, for what itâs worth? Youâve got my approval.â
Conner blinked, clearly caught off guard. He cleared his throat, trying to hide the flush creeping up his neck. âWasnât asking.â
Dick grinned. âOh, I really like you.â
You groaned. âI hate both of you.â
Conner just took your hand, squeezing lightly, trying to brush off the awkwardness that had started to settle in. âYou love me.â he whispered
You muttered something under your breath. Dick slung an arm around your shoulders, still grinning.
âAlright, Superboy. Donât break her heart. Or I will break you.â
Conner didnât flinch. âYou could try.â
âOhhh, I really really like him.â
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The gala was everything you dreaded about Gothamâs elite. The high end designers. The glittering chandeliers. The fake smiles and empty conversations about stock markets and charities you knew were just tax write offs. You were dreading it. But you had no choice. Your dad had insisted.
âYouâre going with me,â Bruce had said, his tone one you couldnât argue with. âDamienâs going too.â
Damien.
You rolled your eyes. If there was one silver lining, it was that Damien would make the night more bearable. Sure, he was insufferable, but deep down, he was your favorite⊠well one of them.
You didnât know when it started, but you couldnât deny it. Every time someone made a comment about you, something snide about being Bruce Wayneâs daughter or how youâd grown up in a world of privilege, Damien was right there. He might have been a bratty little boy, but he had a surprisingly soft spot for you.
Heâd bark back at anyone who dared talk down to you. And that always made you smile.
Still, you hated the galas. The whole act of pretending to be someone you werenât, of feigning interest in the people who rubbed elbows with the most corrupt figures in Gotham. It made you feel like you were just another part of Bruce Wayneâs PR machine, just another Wayne for the rich to admire, the perfect daughter.
You werenât. At least not in the way they thought you were.
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You stood in front of the mirror in your dress, adjusting the neckline slightly. It wasnât too flashy. Not as tight or revealing as some of the other dresses youâd seen at these events. It wasnât your style to try and look like you were above everyone else. There was an elegance to it, sure, but it wasnât over the top.
You sighed, glancing at the clock. You were almost late. You had not been in the mood to get dressed up and pretend you werenât itching to leave this stupid party as soon as you walked in.
The door to your room creaked open just a bit, and you turned to see Damien standing in the doorway, his usual scowl plastered on his face.
âAre you done yet?â he demanded, crossing his arms.
You blinked at him. âAre you done yet? You look like a little mini Bruce.â
He shot you a glare. âIâll have you know, Iâm a Wayne too, and Iâm far superior to Father in many ways.â
You raised an eyebrow. âMm. Sure, Damien. If thatâs what helps you sleep at night.â
Damienâs eyes narrowed in the way they always did when he was being stubborn. âIâm just here to make sure you donât embarrass the family again.â
âAgain?â
âYou know exactly what I mean.â
You chuckled. âWhatever, Damien. Just donât get in my way.â
He huffed, but his expression softened for a second. âYou know, you donât have to act like you donât belong there. Itâs your place.â
The rare kindness from Damien caught you off guard. You almost wanted to tease him about it, but something in the way he said it made you pause.
Before you could respond, Bruceâs voice echoed from downstairs. âDamien, [Y/N], letâs go.â
You rolled your eyes. No escape.
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The gala was in full swing when you arrived, the grand ballroom filled with well dressed Gothamâs elite, all laughing, talking, and pretending to be better than they really were. As you walked in behind Bruce and Damien, you couldnât help but feel like a fish out of water.
Damien, ever the mini Bruce, stepped confidently beside you, his posture straight, eyes sharp. He barely even looked at anyone around him, already ready to shoot down any attempts at conversation. You, on the other hand, put on your best poker face, walking with your head high, but your mind already halfway to escaping.
Bruce was already surrounded by some of the usual suspects, but it didnât take long for the first person to notice you.
âYou know,â a woman with a glass of champagne in hand said, smiling in that way people did when they thought they were better than you. âItâs nice to see the Wayne family so well represented. A fine, upstanding family, despite⊠well, you knowâŠâ
The pause was intentional, like she wanted to see if youâd react to the snide remark. It was a comment about your familyâs history, a little jab that no one dared speak out loud but always found a way to slip into their conversations. Isnt being a woman supposed to be about supporting other women? Damien arguably had the same history as you.
You opened your mouth to say something, but Damien beat you to it.
âThatâs quite enough.â He said it flatly, stepping forward with a warning glare. âIâm sure if you donât have anything productive to say, youâd be better off leaving.â
The woman blinked, surprised by the bluntness, but Damien was already walking away, his weird little aura behind him like he was some miniature Dark Knight.
You couldnât help but smile at him. You were right. He was your favorite.
Bruce glanced at you both, an eyebrow arched. He had seen the whole exchange. You could practically feel him holding back a smirk.
âDamien,â Bruce said, his voice a little too controlled. âYou donât have to go picking fights.â
Damien didnât back down. âIâm simply defending Y/n. Some of these people need to remember their place.â
Bruce didnât say anything, but the faintest glimmer of approval passed through his gaze, and it was enough.
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The night dragged on, but you found yourself less uncomfortable with Damien by your side. His quiet protectiveness, the way he always seemed to catch the smallest slight before you did, made it easier to navigate the pretentious conversations. Every time someone made a comment about your family, you could feel Damienâs posture tense and his eyes narrow. And each time, he defended you.
Despite everything, despite how much you complained about his bratty tendencies, Damien was your brat. the weight of the night began to settle. The glittering lights of the gala still flickered in your mind, but the presence of your father and Damien beside you made the ride back almost bearable. Damien, as usual, sat stiffly, his posture perfect even in the backseat of the car, while Bruce remained uncharacteristically quiet, his gaze focused out the window.
You couldnât help but glance over at Damien, who was looking out his own window, seemingly lost in thought. There had been a moment earlier when Bruce had shared a look with him, something small but meaningful a look you couldnât quite place. But it was enough to make you feel something unspoken between the two of them. It wasnât often you saw your father show a soft spot for anyone, let alone his own kids.
The car pulled up to the Manor, and as it came to a stop, you turned to Damien, the words already spilling out before you could stop them.
âYou know, youâre not as bad as you pretend to be,â you said, voice teasing but soft. âI might just like you after all.â
Damien scoffed. âYou shouldnât like me. Iâm better than you, after all.â
âPfft, whatever,â you grinned, ignoring his words. The sudden burst of affection you felt in that moment made you throw all your self control out the window. Without thinking, you lunged at him, wrapping your arms around him in a tight hug.
Damien let out an exaggerated, dramatic gasp, his body going stiff in shock. âUnhand me, woman,â he hissed, clearly uncomfortable with the sudden outburst of affection.
You ignored his protests, squeezing him tighter. âNope! Not until you admit that you love me.â
Damien scowled, his face flushing just slightly. âI do not love you, you foolish girl.â But there was no hiding the faint blush creeping onto his cheeks as he tried unsuccessfully to push you away.
Bruce, who had been watching the exchange with mild amusement, cleared his throat from the front seat, as though reminding you both that you werenât exactly alone. But it was too late to stop now.
You pulled back just enough to look Damien in the eye, still grinning like a cat. âCome on, admit it. I know you love me.â
Damien tried to glare at you, but there was no hiding the slight curve of his lips. âI tolerate you,â he said begrudgingly.
You held him tighter. âClose enough!â
He growled, finally breaking free from your grip. âThis is not over,â he muttered under his breath, adjusting his suit with a dramatic flair.
You leaned back, still grinning like an idiot. âSure, sure, Damien. You can pretend all you want.â
Bruce finally spoke up, his tone surprisingly light. âAlright, break it up, you two. Weâve still got a whole night to get through.â
Damien shot a glare at Bruce. âIâm not the one causing disruptions here.â
You and Bruce shared a look, and for just a brief second, you saw it, something rare and almost tender between the two of them. Damien wasnât as bad as youâd thought. he had his own way of showing care.
Damien, still grumbling, marched ahead toward the front door, muttering something about how he was going to âtrainâ and âget away from these ridiculous people.â But you knew better. Underneath the bravado, Damien was just like everyone else in this family he cared.
As you stepped out of the car and onto the front porch of Wayne Manor, the cool night air hit your face, carrying the faint scent of rain. You were exhausted, mentally drained from the fake smiles and shallow conversations of the gala, and the weight of the night hung heavy on your shoulders. You couldnât wait to retreat to your room, get out of this damn dress, and let your thoughts settle.
But as you walked toward the front door, something or rather someone caught your eye. Standing by the door, just under the archway of the Manor, was a familiar silhouette. The figure straightened when he saw you approach, a soft smile appearing on his face.
Conner.
Your heart skipped a beat. You hadnât expected him to be here, but there he was, waiting for you, like he always did.
âHey,â you said softly, as you run over to him. your exhaustion suddenly lifting at the sight of him.
He tilted his head, his expression a mix of amusement and concern. âYou look⊠very beautiful tonight.â
You let out a small, tired chuckle. âBeautiful? someone is learning how to express his emotionsâ
Connerâs brow furrowed, his eyes scanning you like he could see the exhaustion beneath your calm exterior. He stepped forward, his large frame nearly blocking the door. âYou okay?â
You nodded, but only half heartedly. âYeah, just⊠tired of it all. Tired of pretending.â
Conner didnât say anything at first, but his gaze softened. His next words were simple, but they always meant more than you expected. âyouâre done now, donât have to think about it now.â
You stepped closer to him, letting the tension in your body melt just a little. âThanks, Conner. It means a lot. I donât think I could stand much more of these stupid galas if I didnât know youâd be waiting for me.â
He smiled at that, the kind of smile that made your heart flutter in your chest, as he stepped aside to let you in. âAlways. You know Iâve got your back.â
You couldnât help but grin. âYouâre the best.â
Conner chuckled, stepping back as you passed him. âIâm just doing my job, keeping you out of trouble.â
You shot him a playful look over your shoulder. âReally? Keeping me out of trouble?â
He raised an eyebrow. âWell, you seem to find it even when Iâm not around.â
You couldnât help but laugh, but the moment you passed him, you felt his hand gently grasp your arm, a soft but firm hold that pulled you back toward him.
âWhat?â you asked, confused.
Conner was staring at you, his blue eyes intense but gentle. âYou looked like you needed someone tonight. If you want to talk about it, Iâm here.â
You stared at him for a moment, letting his words settle. But instead of saying anything, you simply let out a long sigh and let your shoulders relax. You didnât need to talk about it now. Not when Conner was here, offering comfort without the need for words.
Instead, you smiled softly, stepping into his embrace, feeling the warmth of his body against yours. âI think⊠I think I just need this right now.â
Conner wrapped his arms around you, pulling you close as if to shield you from everything outside this moment. âIâve got you.â
You closed your eyes, letting the familiar warmth of his embrace wrap around you.
The moment of quiet was shattered by the unmistakable sound of someone clearing their throat.
You tensed slightly, already knowing exactly who it was before you even turned your head.
Bruce stood in the doorway, arms crossed over his chest, expression unreadable but his presence alone was enough to make the warmth in your chest falter just a bit.
âItâs late,â he said, voice even, but carrying that weight of authority only he could manage. âYou should be inside now.â
You sighed, pulling back slightly from Conner but keeping your hand locked around his wrist. Of course, Bruce had impeccable timing.
âYeah, yeah, Iâm going,â you muttered, turning toward the door but you didnât let go of Conner. Instead, you tugged him along with you, acting like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Bruceâs eyes flicked down to your hand still gripping Connerâs, his expression barely changing, but you knew he noticed.
Conner hesitated for half a second, casting a glance between you and your father, as if gauging whether it was a terrible idea to follow you inside. But you werenât giving him a choice.
Bruce let out the tiniest sigh, stepping aside to let you both in, but not without a warning glance at Conner.
âDonât make me regret this,â Bruce said evenly.
Conner just glared at him, tight lipped smile. âWouldnât dream of it, sir.â
You definitely caught the way Bruceâs brow twitched ever so slightly at the sir, but you didnât dwell on it. You just smirked to yourself and pulled Conner further into the Manor, past your father, past all the unspoken tension, and straight toward the one place you could finally relax.
Conner leaned in as you walked, voice low and teasing. âYou dragged me in here.â
You grinned up at him. âWhat, scared of my dad?â
Conner huffed. âNo. But I am scared of what your brothers are gonna say when they see me here.â
You just laughed. âOh, you should be.â
As you pulled Conner deeper into the Manor, you moved quickly, knowing full well that the longer you lingered, the higher the chance of getting ambushed by one of your loving brothers.
You practically speed walked through the grand hall, past the dimly lit corridors.
âAh, welcome home, Miss.â
You skidded to a stop as Alfred appeared seemingly out of nowhere, standing near the bottom of the staircase with his usual composed demeanor.
Conner tensed beside you, standing up straighter like he was about to get scolded. Clearly, even he wasnât immune to Alfredâs presence.
You shot the butler a quick smile, still keeping a tight grip on Connerâs wrist. âHey, Alfred. Gala was awful, as expected. Goodnight!â
And before he could reply, you dragged Conner up the stairs.
âGoodnight, Miss. Goodnight, Mister Conner,â Alfred called after you, voice laced with mild amusement.
Conner barely managed to glance over his shoulder to offer a polite, âUh goodnight, sir,â before he was pulled around the corner and out of sight.
When you finally made it to your room, you threw the door open and all but shoved Conner inside before shutting it behind you with a sigh of relief.
âOkay, safe,â you muttered, leaning against the door.
Conner raised a brow. âYou act like we just broke into the White House.â
You pointed a finger at him. âThis house probably has better security than the white house.â
Conner snorted, shaking his head as he glanced around your room. Heâd been here before, but it was still surreal for him standing in Wayne Manor.
You walked over to your bed, flopping onto it dramatically. âI swear, I love Alfred, but he always pops up at the worst moments. Itâs like a sixth sense.â
Conner smirked, stepping closer. âMaybe he was just making sure I wasnât sneaking in to corrupt his favorite Wayne.â
You peeked up at him through your arms. âBold of you to assume Iâm his favorite.â
He sat down beside you, resting his elbows on his knees. âYou definitely are.â
You grinned, nudging him lightly with your foot. âFlatter me more, Superboy.â
Conner just chuckled, shaking his head. âYou donât need flattery. You already know how great you are.â
You huffed, rolling onto your side. âTell that to my dad.â
Conner didnât say anything right away, just let his hand rest on yours, grounding you. You let out a slow breath, the exhaustion of the day finally settling in.
âGet some sleep,â Conner murmured. âIâll stay as long as you want.â
You didnât even think about it before squeezing his hand. âStay.â
And he did.
Conner sat beside you on the bed, his fingers tracing absentminded circles against your wrist. The room was dimly lit, casting shadows across his face, making his blue eyes stand out even more than usual. He was warm, solid, grounding in a way you desperately needed after the night youâd had.
You shifted closer, tilting your head up toward him. He caught the movement instantly, his gaze flicking down to your lips before he leaned in, closing the space between you.
The kiss was gentle at first, unhurried. His lips pressed against yours in a way that made your chest tighten not with nerves, but with something softer, something steady. His hand slid up, fingertips brushing your jaw before cradling your face, pulling you just a little closer.
You sighed against him, your hands resting against his chest, feeling the steady beat of his heart beneath your palms. He kissed you again, deeper this time, as if memorizing the shape of your lips, as if reminding himself that you were here, that you were his.
A loud noise from the window, followed by the distinct sound of fabric rustling, and then.
THUD.
Conner barely had time to pull back before a voice cut through the moment.
âOh, come on I just ate.â
You both snapped your heads toward the window, where Tim stood, looking absolutely horrified, like heâd just walked in on the worst crime imaginable.
You groaned, flopping back onto the bed. âJesus Christ, Timâ
Tim pinched the bridge of his nose like he was experiencing actual pain. âYou know I tolerate this relationship for your sake, right? Doesnât mean I need to see it.â
âTheres a reason weâre in my room with the door closed. what did you even want anywaysâ
âOk miss shitbag, I was gonna see if you brought any food from the galaâ
Conner, looking far too smug for someone just caught making out, leaned back on his hands. âYou couldâve knocked.â
Tim made a disgusted face. âKnocked? On her window? I didnât think I needed a warning before coming in.â He gestured wildly between the two of you. âI thought I was safe! But no, I have to live with the trauma of seeing my best friend all over my sister.â
You threw a pillow at him. âWe werenât even doing anything!â
Tim caught it with one hand, unimpressed. âThere was face touching. Thatâs enough.â
Conner just shrugged. âIf it makes you feel better, I think sheâs a better kisser than you.â
Tim immediately gagged, doubling over like heâd been physically attacked. âWHY WOULD THAT MAKE ME FEEL BETTER?!â
You burst out laughing, while Conner grinned like heâd won something.
Tim groaned dramatically, shaking his head as he turned toward the window. âI hate this. I hate both of you. Iâm leaving.â
âGoodnight, Tim,â you called sweetly.
âI hope you both stub your toes,â he shot back before disappearing out the window.
As soon as he was gone, you turned to Conner, still grinning. âYou did that on purpose.â
Conner smirked. âMaybe.â
You rolled your eyes before pulling him back down into another kiss because if Tim was gonna be dramatic about it, you might as well make it worth it.
summary: how the marauders loved you in their time. featuring harry potter the time-traveller and sixth-wheel.
pairing/s: poly!marauders + lily x reader.
tags: reader is referred to as she/her and a mother throughout the whole fic[!], reader is a violent gremlin who craves blood but the marauders love you for that, implied child abuse[!], mentions of blood and violence[!], disgustingly sappy poetic fluff, no angst, happy ending, not proofread we die like finnick odair, edited: very minor detail.
note: there is little plot, itâs just the marauders and their adoration for you. thank you all so much for your kind responses to my first marauders fic :(( ilysm! i hope you enjoy this one as well! because there are parts when i was writing that i ended up kicking my feet in the air and smiling to myself.
âMY NAME IS HARRY POTTER. I come from twenty-years in the future, youâre my mum â one of my âem, actually. Itâs complicated. And youâre married to James Potter, Remus Lupin, and Sirius Black.âÂ
You blink.Â
âGet the fuck out of my room!âÂ
Harry James Potter has dodged many things in his life. Killing curses, jinxes, girls, Draco Malfoy, and Dudleyâs sloppy punches, but heâs never had to dodge his sixteen-year-old motherâs fuzzy slipper before. (Godric, that sounds weird, even in his head.) He doesnât know precisely how he arrived here. In the Slytherin common room, to be exact, in your dorm. Harry remembers duelling with Death Eaters, Hermione calling his name, and a flash of light hitting him square in the chest, then he remembers waking up in the cold tiles of the snake dungeon. He nearly throws himself off the window when he meets your eyes, bleary from interrupted sleep â itâs not often he gets to meet [read: one of] his dead parents, after all, three had been brutally murdered by Voldemort, and one killed by his own loony cousin. He misses Sirius, though. A lot. And right about now, he could do with some of Hermioneâs nagging and brilliant plan-making.Â
At present â or past, Harry guesses â he watches you scramble out from your duvet, hand clumsily reaching for your wand as you snarl at him. He wonders if his mother knows that heâs encountered other creatures far more threatening than her. Oh shit, he realizes with all the forces of an angry Hermione Granger, isnât this the last thing heâs supposed to do? But, well, Harry has given, and given, so much of himself all for the greater good â just this once, heâd like to see his parents alive and well. Even if they were currently trying to blast him into the walls.Â
âIf youâd just let me explain, mumâ!â Harry pleads, nearly dropping his glasses after dodging one of your stinging hexes. Godric, youâre crazy. âPlease!âÂ
âStop calling me that!â You screech, eyes set ablaze. Harry finds that youâre quite dynamic with your attacks. A hairbrush, followed by a stinging jinx, then a thick History of Magic textbook â which rudely hits him in the face, but he doesnât dare complain because youâre his mother, and heâs respectful like that â and after youâve exhausted your breath, running him into a corner, and your nostrils flare with the stubbornness of a lion, you point the tip of your wand at him. âIf this is another one of the Prewettâs shitty pranks, I want you to leave! You are in the girlsâ dormitory beyond midnight, and so help me, if you arenât walking out that door in the next five seconds, I will kill you and string you up by your bottoms for everyone in school to see! Maybe all your stupid rumours of me being a Death-Eater might come true after all!âÂ
âYouâre a Death-Eater?â Harry asks dumbly.Â
You growl furiously, and Harry figures that was not the right thing to say. âI wonder what McGonagall would say if I delivered your head to her on a silver platter.âÂ
âProfessor,â Harry corrects with a toothy grin. âProfessor McGonagall.âÂ
You slam his head against the wall.
Definitely the wrong thing to say.Â
Harry groans, little Dobby heads floating around his vision. Why was this so much harder than actually facing Voldemort? Quick, he needed to think of something, otherwise heâd end up eviscerated to ashes on your cold, stone floors. Harry is pretty sure youâd use his remains as decoration to send off a message to your enemies.Â
âYou hate your father,â Harry slurs through the pain, remembering Remusâs stories of how you were the gentlest magical being heâs ever had the privilege to love â now that Harry thinks about it, Remus was being extremely biased, nothing about you is gentle at all. âHeâs forcing you to marry someone old enough to be your grandfather. You love to read Muggle literature but had to stop when your father burnt your whole collection of books. Your favorite novel is Persuasion by Jane Austen. Itâs the one book you carry with you everywhere, you could never get tired of it.â Â
Your grip on his shoulders falters, but the fury in your eyes crackles. âThis isnât funny.âÂ
âItâs not meant to be funny, mum,â Harry croaks, voice cracking pathetically â strange how this is the most heâs ever uttered the word, mum; itâs a peculiar string of letters, foreign on his tongue. âYou have tremors in your left leg from when your father cast the Cruciatus curse on you. One of your dearest friends is a Hogwarts house-elf named Pipley. You cheated on your Transfiguration essay once, andââÂ
âThatâs enough!â You bark, eyes narrowed in dangerous slits. âI donât know where you heard those from, you creepy, little stalker, but if you want to keep breathing, then I suggest you shut up.âÂ
Harry scoffs â you donât understand. Everything heâs learned about you is from Sirius and Remus. They talk about you with whispered devotion, your name like a prayer on their lips, their eyes glazed with wistfulness as though they could see you reaching out for them â but you were dead in Harryâs time. Yet, you might as well have been alive with their tales of you.Â
(âSheâs a different kind of beautiful,â Sirius had said, a year after breaking out from Azkaban, sitting by the fire in Grimmauld Place, taking a swig of decade-old firewhiskey, âThe kind of beautiful you donât want to take your eyes off from because youâre afraid sheâll disappear from your eyes. But you wonât forget her, oh no, youâll memorize the freckles and moles on her skin, the scars from her years, the light in her eyes, and the way she holds her head up high. You should have seen her, James, she. . . she was â is glorious.â)Â
âI told you,â says Harry firmly â although he loves his mother very much, sheâs beginning to wear him out, âMy name is Harry James Potter, I come from twenty-years in the future. You are one of my parents.â A lightbulb flashes in his head. He squirms in your hold, reaching for his robe pocket until he finds the thing heâs looking for. Harry dangles the ring in front of you, grinning in success when your eyes flash in recognition. âItâsââÂ
âA family heirloom,â You say breathlessly. The alexandrite winks under the light, a familiar gold band with the Latin inscription of your House words. âWhere did you steal this from?âÂ
Harry rolls his eyes. âYou left it for me in my Gringotts vault. Itâs my heirloom now. You have to believe me, thereâs no way you can deny this.âÂ
You take a step backwards, nibbling on your lower lip, as you stagger to your bed â Harry nearly stumbling to catch you in case you fell; adjusting to the living proof of time travel was quite difficult, he, of all people, should know. He exhales, dragging a hand down his face. âMagic, amirite?âÂ
You throw a pillow at him, which he catches gracefully thanks to his Seeker reflexes, as you plop down in the comforts of your quilts. âSleep. The other girls wonât be back until the end of the holiday. We can deal with whatever this is in the morning. Itâs way too early for me to process the idea of a future Potter spawn following me around.âÂ
Harry smiles. âYes, mum.âÂ
ONE THING THAT his fathers failed to tell him about you, and that Harry had to learn himself, was that you took ages to get ready. You sat on the chair in front of your vanity mirror, the birch wood legs whittled with snakes, and it was as though you had a Sticking Charm on the cushion. Harry didnât know there could be so many creams, oils, and serums, and powders one put on their face. He blanches when you turn to offer him a cream for his under eyes. (âSuit yourself.â You shrug, turning to brush your cheek with dusts of pink. âJust saying, those dark circles arenât doing you any favors.â)
âWhat am I like in the future?â You ask, a kind lilt to your voice, much like a warm hug, much like home.Â
Harry stiffens, shoving his hands in pockets of the robes that were twice his size â you had given him the garments of Lucius Malfoy to change in, which you apparently had stolen from his room. Itâs come full circle, really, the Sorting Hat had once told him he would be great in Slytherin, and now here he was, looking fabulous in green â because he was about to hurl at the feel of the velvet on his skin, knowing slimy Lucius Malfoy had worn it. (âNo sonââ You pause with a tight purse in your lips, as if you still canât accept the fact. Harry doesnât blame you. ââno son of mine will be parading around in red of all colors, future or not.â And Harry finds that he really doesnât care, so long as you call him your son.)Â Â
âLoved,â replies Harry gruffly, avoiding your eyes in the reflection of your mirror â they were piercing. One look and Harry wanted to spill all of his deepest, darkest secrets. He remembers the photographs in his album, the one heâs stared at so many times as a child. Itâs a moving photograph of the five of you, fresh out of Hogwarts, each wearing a smile that stretched from ear-to-ear. Before Sirius and Remus, it was the only semblance of proof that Harry had â that you had once been alive. Remus is holding you by the waist in the picture, twirling you around as autumn leaves fell. You were â are â loved, and Harry thinks thereâs no better description than that.Â
(âI bloody hated her cat,â says Remus with a roguish quirk to his lips, regalling Harry with more talks of his parents. âSirius, too. We just never got along with the little creature. But your mother loved it, and we would have done anything to make her happy. She deserved it, you see. She deserved more than what I had to offer her, but still she chose me anyway. And I am a selfish man, Harry, I crave glimpses of her and the whispers of her voice. She has made me a mad man whose only reprieve is her touch.â)Â
You hum knowingly. âStupid question, I guess. Since you arenât allowed to reveal anything more about the future.â You sigh, gracefully threading your arms in the sleeves of your shirt, a green tie in the center of your collar. âExcept, of course, when you gave me a heart attack in the middle of the night by telling me the last thing I want to become â no offense, I just donât see how a relationship with those rowdy bunch would work. They get on my nerves far too much for me to ever feel anything other than disgust.âÂ
Harry doesnât need a mirror to see that his expression has contorted in confusion; brows knitted and upper lip crinkled. By their memories of you, you all were madly in love in Hogwarts. Damn. This just made his trip to the past a lot harder. No maze seems to be ever just a maze.Â
Luckily, you donât notice him brewing a grand master plan to bring his parents together. Instead, you say, âBut you donât seem to be phased by any of this. If I had been thrown twenty years into the past, I would have puked my guts out twice at some point.âÂ
âThanks for the image,â says Harry with a scowl. Truthfully, it had either been a present with a noseless Dark Lord to face, trauma to unpack but really never have the chance to, or a past where all of his parents were alive, and a chance to talk with them for however long he has. He knows where heâll be staying, thank you very much.Â
âAnytime,â You reply with an impish smile.Â
Your heels pad across the floor as you walk over to him, mouth clicking as you pat the top of his head, full of wild, untameable Potter hair. âYou need a trim soon,â You mutter, frowning, as you brush the thick strands away from his eyes, then you gasp â and Harry knows exactly whatâs coming next. âOh, youâve got Evansâs eyes. Thatâs freaky.âÂ
âI know.â Harry grins.Â
âHereâs the plan,â You say as you lead him out of your room, making sure no one saw him walking out of your door and getting the wrong impression â because that would be so wrong on many levels, but also, explaining to someone else that the person beside you was a time-traveller was just complicated in general. The Slytherin dungeon is unfamiliarly familiar, eerily quiet, as the two of you made your way out. âJust say youâre Potterâs distant relative, twice or thrice removed, and youâve always been here. If you lie to their faces enough, theyâll believe it eventually.âÂ
âWill that work?â Harry doesnât really mind â he needs a connection to James, his father, if heâs going to work out a connection between you and the others, because at the moment, it doesnât seem like youâre too fond of them. Thereâs a tick on your jaw every time you mumble the word, Potter. Nevertheless, Harry decides heâs going to spend the duration of the holiday break trying to set you up with them â on the list of most insane things heâs ever done, living out the Parent Trap was high up the tally.Â
You shrug. âTheyâve fallen for less.âÂ
(âSheâs got this adorable habit when she lies,â Sirius tells Harry, whipping up a stack of pancakes for their breakfast â Remus browsing through the morning paper. Itâs the closest heâs ever been to a normal family. âItâs not obvious to her, of course, but I know her more than I know my own name. So we play along with it.â For a moment, he stops drizzling the maple syrup on the well-cooked batter, gazing at Remus fondly. âDâyou remember that, Moony? She led us straight to one of her pranks, and we ended up covered in slug slime. She was so obvious â with her adorable fucking giggles. I need help with Charms, she said, and we knew right away it was a set-up. But it didnât matter. Iâd happily let her lead me to my ruin.â)Â Â
The Great Hall is the same as Harry remembers. Now that most have returned home for the holidays, those who stay back mingle with students from other Houses, sharing meals under the bewitched ceiling, their low murmurs and hushed Christmas greetings bouncing off the walls. Harry scours the four tables to find a hint of blazing red hair, or the scent of impending trouble. Fortunately, he doesnât have to search very far. As fate would have it, James Potter finds you â and where he is, Sirius Black is sure to follow.Â
Youâre barely seated when James comes bounding over to your table â more precisely, he struts, and Harry is horrified to ever be proven wrong by Snape, of all people. He ignores the roll of your eyes as he drags a leg over the bench, sitting to face you as Sirius occupies the space to your left before Harry can even sit down. He canât even fathom how weird it is to see his parents as rambunctious teenagers. Lovesick, rambunctious teenagers.Â
âMorning, dove.â James preens under your glare, stealing a grape from your bowl with a boyish smirk. His hair looks as though heâs ran his hand through it many times. âYou look ravishing today.âÂ
âAs always,â Sirius pipes in. âBut that eyeshadow really isnât complementing your skin tone, my darling.âÂ
You smile at him, right before your lips twist into a cutthroat sneer. âPiss off, Black.â
James stifles a laugh as he shovels a mass of potatoes on your plate, then pumpkin pasties, and slides a steaming cup of Dragon Well tea in front of you.Â
âWhat the hell are you doing, Potter?â You reach over to smack his arm when he sprinkles apple slices and bacon on your breakfast.Â
âWhat does it look like?â James smiles lopsidedly. âYou need to eat more, honey.â
(In the future, Sirius will tell Harry, âIt started off as a joke, a way to get on her nerves â but then, it just became this thing about taking care of her, making sure she got enough sleep before her tests, wondering if she had breakfast or dinner, staying with her in the library, walking her to the Slytherin common room, and sending her stupid notes just to make her laugh. You donât get it, Harry. Iâd give my every breath to ensure her life. We all would.â Harry doesnât see Sirius any more during that evening, but he hears a bottle crashing against a wall, cracking into a million pieces, and the masked sound of Sirius sobbing, and Harry decides to leave him alone for the night.)Â
Then, you tear your eyes away from James â he huffs, pushing your plate to you, mildly annoyed that youâve deprived him of your eyes; they were his favorite part of you, you see, so expressive and full of life; James thinks you put the stars to shame â and thankfully, you remember that Harry still exists. You lightly smack Siriusâs leg until he gives Harry some room to sit. âPotter, meet other Potter. Itâs the holidays, shouldnât it be the perfect time to let go of House prejudices and spend time with family?âÂ
James looks at Harry up and down. âYou must be from dadâs side of the family with all that hair.âÂ
Harry lets out a breath of relief. That was easy â way too easy. When he takes the vacant space in between you and Sirius, you dump all the available food on his plate, just as James had done for you.Â
âEat,â You say with a tone of finality. âYou look like the wind could snap you in half.âÂ
âYes, mââ Harry stops himself before he could finish his sentence, avoiding Siriusâs curious gaze.Â
âWow.â Sirius pokes Harry in the shoulder and in the cheek. âYou really look like a mini-James, youâve even got his terrible eyesight.âÂ
âOi!âÂ
Your fork clatters against the silverware as you turn to Sirius with a shrill. âNot that I do enjoy your company â because, trust me, I do not want you here at all and would very much prefer if you got out of my sight â but why are you here? The Gryffindor table is over there. Unless your housemates finally got sick of you, Potter, which I can definitely see happening.âÂ
James chuckles, tossing another grape in his mouth without taking his eyes off you. âItâs as you said, isnât it? Itâs the time for putting aside House prejudices. And I think itâs a lovely day to enjoy a meal with my favorite snake.âÂ
âDrop dead,â You retort, digging into your chicken with a little more force than necessary.Â
âOh, dove.â James shakes his head, a teasing grin pulling at his lips. âItâs cute that you think death will keep me from you.âÂ
(Harryâs been told before, probably by Sirius, that this line had been wedged into his wedding vows for you. âA dramatic one, James was,â Sirius chuckles to himself one morning, Harry and Hermione listening intently, âHe always said heâd rather die than ever hurt her. There was this time in seventh year, they had a fight â it was ugly â and she had ignored him for a week. James cried in Remusâs arms begging him to cut his heart out, saying that he didnât deserve to keep on breathing, not after making you cry.â)Â
âThat is so creepy,â You say in disgust, scrunching your nose. Sirius chortles at your side. âI still wonder why Evans agreed to go out with you.âÂ
âItâs all part of the charm, dove.â James winks. âItâs all part of the charm.âÂ
Harry wants to barf, actually.
After breakfast, James then decides to introduce Harry to Lily, Remus, and Peter. (Heâs gonna need the patience of a saint to not Avada Kedavra that rat on the spot.) Harry had spent the whole morning watching Sirius peel oranges and give them to you with a smitten look in his eyes â naturally, you gave whatever Sirius offered you to Harry, and each time Padfoot would visibly wilt. If he were in his Animagus form, Harry thinks he would be whining by now, tongue out and all. James and Sirius follow after you like lost puppies when you extricate yourself from the table.
âWhere are you going?â James calls, hot on your heels as you leave the Great Hall.
âAway from you, Potter!âÂ
And James actually sighs when you turn the corner and disappear from their peripheral vision. Seconds later, he turns to Harry with a blinding smile, âSheâs definitely charmed.â
Harry chortles.
âWell, come on then!â James guffaws as he wraps an arm around Harryâs neck â this is so, so strange. They begin walking in the opposite direction of where you went. âI still canât believe weâve got another Potter here and in Slytherin. I think I would have remembered Minnie calling your name during the Sorting Ceremony. What year are you in?âÂ
Heâs supposed to start his sixth-year in a few weeks. âFifth.â Technically.Â
âWe should ask Lily,â says Sirius, hands in his pockets and ebony ringlets tickling his nape. âSheâs got the best memory out of all of us.â
Itâs odd, Harry thinks, meeting the person whoâs got his eyes â or the other way around, as people have told him. Itâs like someone carved out the emeralds of Lily Evansâs eyes and bestowed it upon Harry for safekeeping. She sits beside Remus Lupin, head resting on his shoulder, hands clasped together, as they enjoy the shade. Nex to them, oblivious to their intimate conversation, is Peter Pettigrew â with his rosy, cherub cheeks and innocent blue eyes; not at all the image of a pathological, cowardly liar. Their heads snap in attention as James boisterously cries for their name.Â
âMarauders â and Lily-pad â meet ickle Potter.â James lightheartedly whacks Harry on the back, to which Harry feels his lungs spill out from his mouth, heâs sure thereâs an imprint of his fatherâs hand on his back now.Â
âThereâs two Potters in Hogwarts?â Sea-green eyes look at him in scrutiny as Lily knits her brows. âHow even is the castle still standing?âÂ
James cackles like itâs the best joke heâs ever heard in his entire life, slapping his knee for dramatic effect. Oh, well, at least theyâre buying Harryâs half-baked lie. At this point, itâs not even baked, itâs just wet, soggy, and poorly done. âGood one, Lily-pad!â
Sirius ruffles Remusâs shaggy blonde hair, canines bared in a wide grin. âThis one hereâs Moony, uptight prefect in the morning and absolute beast in the evening.âÂ
Harry blanches. Surely he was talking about his furry problem, right? Right?Â
Remus doesnât even flinch, just peels off Siriusâs hand from him and extends his hand out to Harry. âPlease do not mind him. Remus Lupin, nice to meet you. Although, I canât believe this is the first time weâve met. We would have definitely remembered if we had another Potter in our midst.âÂ
âItâs true, we Potters are just hard to forget,â says James, smiling cheekily.Â
Harry pokes the inside of his cheek with his tongue. âMum didnât take the Potter name. Iâm part Dursley. Muggle.âÂ
Lily hums, toying at the ends of her bright hair. âDursley, huh? What a familiar name.âÂ
âItâs a common one,â Harry assures her â not at all the names of the people who would take him in after they died. And make his life miserable.Â
âI suppose youâre right,â says Lily, unconvinced.Â
âAnd this is Peter.â James introduces the boy eagerly, pride in his voice â as though this isnât the person who literally allies himself with Voldemort. As if Peter wonât betray his friends all because of fear.Â
âNâNice to meet you,â Peter stammers with a nervous fidget, âAny family of James is a friend of ours.âÂ
Harryâs eye twitches.Â
IT IS ALMOST COMICAL â the way their eyes land on your figure, bursting through the courtyard from the corridors, winter cloak swishing with every step, tendrils of hair swaying in the crisp wind, and head held up high, thick books under your arms. You pause in front of the Marauders, face blank, then you turn to Peter, greeting him with a: âHello, only Gryffindor I can tolerate.âÂ
Peterâs cheeks burn a saccharine hue of pink. Oh, no, no, no â absolutely not â Harry will not stand for a little crush Peter Pettigrew has on his mother. He needs James to act now. âHi,â Peter replies shyly.Â
Lily quirks her lips. âHello, princess, see your score for the Astronomy test yet?â
You scowl. âZip it, Evans.âÂ
The sound of Lilyâs laughter fills the atmosphere â itâs the sort of melody that makes flowers bloom in deserts. âHad a bit of difficulty with the star charts?âÂ
Sirius pinches your cheek â Harry thinks youâre going to murder him on the spot. âDifficulty? I think this one just slept through the whole thing.âÂ
James snickers. âMust have been one hell of a nap, princess. You were drooling on my jumper.âÂ
âI most certainly do not drool!â You gasp, appalled, eyes wide as you step away from Sirius.
Sirius rolls his eyes. âWhat? Is drooling too barbaric for the pretty, little pure-blooded princess now? Newsflash, pet, youâre just as human as we are.âÂ
âOh, you horrible, loathsome, infuriatingââ You whip around to beat his chest with the course book in your grasp â itâs the kind of book Hermione would consider for light reading.Â
âIrresistibly attractiveâ?â Sirius supplies for you, grin widening with as he captures your wrist with his hands.Â
âIn your dreams!â You shrill.Â
You exhale slowly, eyes closing, chest rising when you take a sharp inhale. You open your eyes and stare straight at Harry â for a moment he fears that youâll bite his head off. âHarry, dear, will you accompany me to the library? I think Iâve found something important regarding your situation.âÂ
Harry nods. âIs it time already?âÂ
âYes,â You say firmly. âAnd time is of the essence. Come on.âÂ
âWait!â Lily calls out to you as you turn to head back to the castle, Harry in tow â he tries to avoid the way James is glaring at your linked arms. âHogsmeade next week?âÂ
Your jaw falls to the ground â this must have been unrehearsed, if the othersâ reactions were anything to go by; Remus had dropped his book in shock, Sirius looked like he couldnât decide between applauding Lilyâs bravery or shaking her, and James was somehow frozen in time. âExcuse me?âÂ
âYouâre excused, princess,â says Lily, dimples poking out of her cheek as she takes another step towards you. âYou, me, Hogsmeade. A date. Iâm sure youâve gone on one of those before.âÂ
Harry elbows your stomach as you stare at Lily in shock. It takes a few moments to break you out of your stupor. âAâAnd what makes you think Iâll just go with you?âÂ
Lily shrugs. âIâm fit. Arenât I, Remus?âÂ
âThe fittest,â says Remus without missing a beat.Â
You laugh incredulously. âDo you just expect me to go along with this? Youâre mad, Evans.âÂ
Harry glares at you. You need to go along with this.Â
âAre you scared, princess?â Lilyâs face is inches away from yours, noses almost touching â Harry doesnât know if he should keep watching this painful way of flirting â as she grins at you, happiness barely contained within her eyes.Â
To your credit, you donât back down. (Harry has to say this for the masses: he saw your gaze flitter down to Lilyâs lips for a split second.) âStop calling me that, Evans.âÂ
âOne date, then.âÂ
You growl in exasperation, eyes flickering to the boys behind her back â pretending not to hear their conversation. âI suppose Iâll have to deal with them as well?âÂ
Lily beams and Harry swears sunflowers could grow in her direction. âWeâre a package deal.âÂ
âUnfortunately,â You utter â but Harry notices it, the lack of venom in your voice. You straighten your posture, nose lifted haughtily, âI choose where weâre going.âÂ
âDone.â The sun peeks out from the cloud just as Lily smiles at you.Â
âAnd I want toââÂ
âDone,â Remus interjects raspily, peering up at you from underneath his lashes. âAnything you want, itâs yours.âÂ
You fight a growing smile, but continue, âIf weâre going out in public, youâre going to have to wearââÂ
âDone,â says James giddily, he looks as though he could kiss you in front of everyone without a care in the world. Â
âYou canât just agree to anything I say!â You flap your arms in frustration.Â
âYes, dear,â Sirius teases.Â
âDo you know how much you piss me off, Black?â You squawk. âBecause you are this close toââ
âYou are so fucking beautiful,â Sirius confesses, every pretense shed raw from his skin, sincerity pouring from his words.Â
âIââ You falter, heat rushing to your cheeks. âYouâve gone mad.âÂ
âItâs your fault, dove,â says James, eyes twinkling like crescent moons as he smiles. âYou best take accountability for this.âÂ
âYouâre incorrigible â all of you,â You say as you avoid their gazes.
(But they were yours. Past, present, and future. They loved you so much that their soul was no longer their own â it was yours; yours to keep, yours to break, and yours to love. It would be unjust to ask them why they loved you. Do we ask why the sun rises each day without rest? Do we ask a daisy to stop blooming, or a tree to stop growing after it has endured storms and floods? After all, we do not ask why humans follow the light in a tunnel shrouded in darkness.)Â
âCome on, Harry, letâs go.â You reach for his hand, he notices immediately that the tips of your ears are pink, and your palms are warm with sweat. He barely sees Peter wave goodbye before you tug him in the direction of the castle entrance.Â
âWait up!â Remus catches up to you two in quick strides, offering to carry your books for you â not that you agree, stubborn Slytherin that you are. âIâll walk you to the library.âÂ
âThereâs no need for that, Lupin, thank you.â You dodge his eyes, lips tightly pressed together, nails slightly digging into Harryâs arm.Â
âRemus,â He says with a twinkle. âCall me Remus.âÂ
âAlright.â You pause. âRemus.âÂ
(In that moment, Remus wonders if you remember decking Lucius Malfoy in the face to defend him in your fourth year. He didnât think he deserved to even breathe in the same air as you â the pure-blooded princess, dressed in clothing worth more than his life, adorned in jewelry he could only dream to afford, raised to believe she was better than everyone else. Then, you beat up Evan Rosier the next month in the courtyard, eyes ablaze, extravagant silk marred with grass stains and mud, and knuckles split open. You spit blood on the ground, looking at Lily then back at Rosier. âRed,â You say, kicking him one last time in the stomach, unafraid of McGonagallâs wrath growing louder and louder. âJust like everyone else. Like those Muggleborns you fear. Weâve all got dirty blood, Rosier. Suck it up.âÂ
âIâll tell your father about this!â Rosier bellows through bloody teeth.Â
âTell him!â You grab his neck and slam your forehead against his. âTell him that I decide my own future now!â
Remus doesnât even have to think about it.Â
He falls in love.)Â
FUNNILY ENOUGH, ITâS LILY who gives you her heart first, before anyone else does. Itâs the last month of her first year at Hogwarts â it still hasnât quite sunk in yet that she was a witch. Her, not Petunia, but her â Lily Evans, the witch. Apparently, some people canât believe it either. A girl from Ravenclaw calls her this foul word, sheâs heard it a few times now but it always hurts the same. James and Sirius get into a fight for her honor, now faced with detention later this evening. But she canât help but wonder, what if they were right? What if she really didnât belong in this world? It was too good to be true, anyway. Perhaps sheâll just run a flower boutique with Petunia.
âOi.âÂ
The sound of your voice startles her, and she nearly topples over in the Great Lake. Lily catches sight of your Slytherin colors and resigns herself to another round of name-calling. âWhat do you want?âÂ
âTheyâre wrong, you know,â You tell her, ignoring Lilyâs question. You look down on her with your nose raised arrogantly â she wishes she could be like you. Born to be magic. âYouâve got a terrifying brain locked up in your head there, Evans. And they know it, too. Theyâre scared.âÂ
Lily scoffs. âIâm just a Mudblood to them. Thereâs nothing to be intimidated by.âÂ
You sneer. âDonât say that word. Youâre more than that. More than them. Theyâve got long ways to go to prove they have a place in this world. But you â youâve defied the odds and you were destined to become magic. You donât have to prove anything. You have the right to be in the wizarding world and no one can take that away from you.âÂ
Then, you pivot on your heels, not bothering to hear her reply. âYouâre my rival now, Evans. Do keep up. Weâve got an Astronomy test tomorrow. I look forward to seeing how you do then.âÂ
Lily just gapes. Sheâs certain thereâs butterflies in her stomach. Her heart thumps wildly against her ribcage. Lily raises her hands to feel her blushing cheeks. Thereâs a light unfamiliar sensation in her stomach â like the urge to kick her legs and scream into a pillow, or more precisely, chase after you and hold your hand.
She stiffens.
Oh.
part two
ok so this fic has inspired me to want to write delving into this dynamic đŒ
|| pairings: hawks x reader / keigo takami x reader
|| warning: a little suggestive, but it stops, other than that its comfort <3 listen to the song "We'll Never Have Sex" and you'll understand. reverse comfort
|| word count: 0.8k
Hawks. Number two hero in all of Japan. Fastest hero in all the country, youngest too, only age 22 and he was number two. Everyone seemed to want a piece of him, woman, man, anyone. It made sense, of course, he was attractive. He acted carefree, always with a boyish grin on his face and everything he did seemed so effortless. Perhaps that was apart of the problem.
No matter what he did, everyone made their assumptions. Made their ideas, believing him to be a playboy or some sex-driven man. He hated it. Keigo was told to just let it happen, it was good publicity. Especially with how much his fans ate it up, he complied. He let it happen.
That all changed when he met you. Who's hands were never quick, never yearning in a way to get his clothes off. Your hands were soft, gentle. Always caring, never forcing. Keigo didn't understand it, why weren't you trying anything? Why weren't you trying to make him apart of a fantasy?
Your soft lips against his as you sat in his laps, but it wasn't quick. Not 'hot and bothered' as some may speculate, no, it was slow and careful. His hands placed on the small of your back as the two of you kissed. It was a comfort, it was wonderful. Something Keigo always yearns after he finishes a hard day of a hero, to come home where you'd swing by. Watch a movie, make some food, just be together. Sweet kisses exchanged, tonight was no different. The only small change was that those small kisses turned to a small make-out.
You, who'd move your hands just a bit down, down Keigo's chest. He didn't want it to stop, but at the same time it felt like too much. Something he wasn't ready for, not yet at least. The vermillion feathers ruffled behind him as he forced himself to let this happen. You, on the other hand? You stopped and pulled away, cupping his face in your hands as you pressed a gentle kiss on Keigo's scarred cheek.
"Why'd you stop?" Your boyfriends question was barely above a whisper as he held you close. He didn't understand, was he not kissing you well enough? Not being good enough for you?
"Because you wanted to stop," You ran a hand through his messy blonde hair. One that's been kissed by the winds that he flew through during the day. Before he could try to fight back you continued. "I could tell your hesitation, love."
"Dove, we can keep going-"
"When you're ready."
Keigo stared at you with his golden eyes, staring up at you as you mindlessly brushed through his hair with your fingers. Untangling any mess that had happened from the day, taking out any small pieces of dirt or debris from the day. He didn't understand. No, he wasn't a virgin, why were you acting like he was? He held you tighter as he pushed his face into the plush of your neck.
Taking a deep inhale of your scent as he relaxed under your touch.
"Thank you."
You knew how the media treated him, as some sort of sex symbol. Always putting him on a pedestal as the number two hero, fastest hero in all of Japan. It killed you everytime you'd see an article of some made up scandal Keigo was supposedly apart of. You'd compare that article to your boyfriend. The man who'd come home, dragging his feet against the wooden floor. Eyebags under his eyes once he wiped the make up he used to conceal it. He was exhausted, overworked. Yet all the media saw was some one-dimensional man.
With a small hum, you shook your head and pushed a small kiss to your winged boyfriends forehead. Lingering there for a few moments before pulling away. A small smile on your face as you kept your gaze on him.
"You don't need to thank me, Keigs."
"But I should, you-"
You pushed your finger against his lips, a small smirk danced on your lips as you huffed.
"I don't wanna do anything you're not comfortable with. We don't have to do anything soon," With a small sigh, not of disappointment, you pressed your forehead against his. Fluttering your eyes closed as you kept speaking softly. "I kiss you just to kiss you, Keigo. If you don't wanna go too far, we don't have to. I'll be as patient as you need."
Your words hit a chord somewhere in Keigo. He always felt so pressured to do.. Well, anything. Hero work, the Commission, friends, enemies. He had so many things he had to do. But with you? He could go his pace for once. Not Hawks'. Not the man he presented to be, not the fastest hero in Japan. Just Keigo. He could go as slow as he needed, and you'd be there to support him.
"I love you," He whispered softly, his voice trembling just the smallest bit as he kept his emotions in check. Trying not to cry.
"I love you too, my darling."
"I love you," He repeated again. And again. And again. He kept whispering it as he kissed your neck softly, not a tease, not to lead up to something else. But because he could, because he wanted to.
"My gentle angel."
|| GUYS. GUYS. IM CHDBSIUBSIBVIDBLDVSAA i love keigo oml. i love how complex he is, he means sm to me OOOMMMLLLLLL :(( TO BE CLEAR!! im not anti-sex or smth, i js find it interesting to see the difference between hawks and keigo. i can make a whole essay on this
Dick Grayson | Nightwing X Reader
I feel hes a munch. I feel hes a woman lover. He loves women. Him when women. Also did i think about Garcia and Morgan when writing this? yeahâŠ. and what about it?
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Youâre the newest addition to the Batsquad. Cant help if youâre basically forced to talk to eye candy all night. Though what if the eye candy wants you back.
áš àœŒ ⌠The hum of servers filled the air like a lullaby, soft and steady behind the clack of your manicured fingers dancing across the keyboard. Multiple monitors cast a warm glow against your skin as codes flickered by, surveillance cams blinked into motion, and the Gotham skyline lit up under your careful watch. You chewed on a pink pen cap thoughtfully, then leaned into the mic on your headset.
âAlright, Bat Team, eyes up. Cameras just caught movement on the east perimeter. Looks like our guyâs not late to his own robbery party.â Static.
âCopy that,â came a deep voice laced with just enough sarcasm to make your lips twitch. âAnd here I was hoping for a quiet night.â
The soft glow of neon lights from Gothamâs skyline bled into the Watchtowerâs tech room, giving everything a purple blue hue. The glow reflected off your screens, lighting up your face as your fingers flew across the keyboard. Surveillance cams, thermal feeds, encrypted audio all of it filtered through your custom built comms system. You leaned back in your chair, twirling said pink pen through your fingers. Your voice came through sweet as sugar, laced with a barely hidden smirk.
âWatch yourself Nightwing, I hope youâre wearing something cute under all that kevlar. Youâre live on all my cams tonight.â
A low chuckle filtered through your headset, rough around the edges in the way that always made your stomach flip.
âWell, well, if it isnât my favorite guardian angel,â Nightwing drawled, voice dipped in charm he wore like a second skin. âWhat would I do without your voice whispering sweet nothings into my ear?â
âYouâd probably walk into a wall,â you said sweetly. âOr into that very large man standing behind the dumpster on 5th and Main.â
There was a beat of silence, then a soft thwack through the mic.
âYou mean that wasnât a trash can?â he teased, slightly breathless. âHow dare you underestimate my night vision, sugar.â
You grinned, propping your cheek in your palm as you tracked his movement across the rooftops. âSugar now, huh? Is that your new nickname for me?â
âUnless you prefer âSweetheart.â Or âHot Stuff.â Iâm flexible.â
You let out a melodic laugh, not even trying to hide it. âWow, your flirting game is tragic tonight. You okay out there, Nightwing? Hit your head on a chimney?â
âIâm just warming up,â he said, voice low and smooth. âWait âtil I meet you in person. Then Iâm turning the charm up to eleven.â
You opened your mouth to volley back but Barbaraâs voice cut in like a whip.
âAlright, you two cut it.â
You both froze.
âLock in,â Barbara said, her voice firm and dry as dust. âThis isnât a late night radio show. Weâve got multiple armed targets on the ground and a hostage situation developing five blocks south. Thermal (your hero name), patch the thermal overlay to Nightwingâs HUD.â
You straightened in your chair, fingers flying. âYes, maâam. Thermal incoming.â
âNightwing,â Barbara added with the tone of a fed up older sister, âtry keeping your tongue in your mouth for five minutes. Youâre on mission, not a date.â
âHarsh, Babs,â he muttered.
âIâm just saying,â she continued, âif I had a dollar for every time I had to listen to the two of you flirt in the middle of a crisis, I could afford a better coffee maker.â
You bit your lip to hold back a laugh, then cleared your throat. âAww, câmon, Babs. Canât a girl multitask? I can route power to Nightwings grappling line and boost morale at the same time.â
âI donât need morale,â Nightwing interjected. âI need a distraction. Preferably wearing those glasses you mentioned last week.â
âYou remember that?â you teased.
âI remember everything you say, Sweetheart.â
Barbara groaned audibly. âIâm leaving this room before Iâm forced to bleach my ears.â
âI mean,â you added sweetly, âheâs just mad he canât picture me behind this desk, legs crossed, looking very professional while saving his butt.â
Nightwing whistled. âIf I didnât have to stop a robbery, Iâd be scaling that tower right now.â
Barbaraâs voice snapped back over the channel like a rubber band. âFocus, both of you.â
âCopy that,â you said, suddenly all business again as you leaned forward and zoomed in on the warehouse entrance. âThree guards posted up. One pacing, one smoking, one with a submachine gun. Interior layout uploaded to your HUD. Entry through the southeast vent is clear. Youâre greenlit, Nightwing.â
âSee? She flirts, but she gets it done,â he muttered fondly.
You grinned. âI always stand on business, baby.â
âThen I better bring my A game. Wouldnât want to disappoint my favorite tech goddess.â
You laughed quietly, adjusting your headset as you pulled up the emergency response grid. âJust donât get shot, Nightwing.â
Barbara let out one final sigh before muttering, âI swear, I shouldâve let Batman take this shift.â
But despite her grumbling, you swore you saw a smile tug at the corners of her lips as she turned away.
He grunted, and you could tell it was the kind of laugh he didnât want you to hear.
âLetâs make a deal,â he said suddenly. âYou keep me alive tonight, and Iâll finally let you buy me a coffee.â
You blinked. That was new. âYou mean you buy me a coffee? Bold of you to assume youâre that charming.â
âYou do call me every night.â
âBecause itâs my job, Nightwing.â
Your own heart beat just a little faster as Nightwingâs icon approached the rendezvous point. It was almost always like this. Take the next day where you were thrown completely out of your own loop You were sprawled comfortably in the comms chair, pink converse kicked up on the desk, a bag of sour candy at your side, and at least three drinks within reach because hydration and caffeination were essential for optimal management.
Tonightâs mission? Barely a blip on the Bat Radar. A stakeout near the docks. Zero hostiles so far. Minimal risk. Maximal boredom.
âNightwing,â you poured into your mic, stretching dramatically, âhowâs the air up there on your boring little rooftop? You see anything exciting? UFOs? Pirates? A raccoon that looks like Bruce?â
âNegative on the Bruce raccoon,â Nightwing said through the comms, voice thick with amusement. âBut thanks for the nightmare fuel, Sweetheart.â
âI try,â you chirped, popping another piece of candy into your mouth. âGotta keep you on your toes.â
âYou keep me somewhere, alright,â he murmured, just low enough to think you wouldnât catch it.
You did. You always did. Before you could respond with another flirty jab, a new voice crackled in gruffer, sharper. Dry as sandpaper and twice as moody.
âAre you always like this?â Jason Toddâs voice cut in like a knife through silk. âIâve been listening for ten minutes and I already want to uninstall my ears.â
You beamed, leaning closer to the mic like he could see your grin. âRed Hood! My favorite grump. Took you long enough to say hi.â
âDonât flatter yourself,â he deadpanned.
âOh, please. You love it,â you teased, swiveling in your chair like it helped transmit your energy. âIâm your emotional support chatterbox. Youâd cry without me.â
âUnlikely.â
âThen why are you still listening?â you asked sweetly, tapping into his drone cam and watching as he crouched in the shadows near an old shipping container. âI see you didnât even mute me. Thatâs gotta mean something.â
Jason sighed. The tiniest sigh. A truce in breath form.
ââŠYouâre ridiculous.â
âAnd adorable, donât forget that part.â
âWhy does she talk to you like that?â Nightwing asked suddenly, cutting in with playful suspicion. âShe doesnât call me âadorable.ââ
âI like to flirt with people who pretend to hate it,â you replied easily. âKeeps âem humble.â
Jason made a quiet scoffing noise. âYou think Iâm humble?â
âNo,â you said, smirking. âBut I do think you blush when I call you sweetheart.â
There was a long pause.
ââŠIâm turning off my comm.â
âYou wonât,â you sang.
Before Jason could craft a dry comeback or fake a signal cut out, Nightwing returned this time with a tone that could only be described as smug older brother meets possessive flirt.
âAlright, alright,â Dick said, and you could hear his smirk. âLetâs not get carried away, Sweetheart. You do have a date coming up. With me, remember?â
You blinked. âExcuse me?â
âOh yeah,â he continued smoothly, âyou promised me coffee after our last op. Pretty sure that counts.â
âThat was a tactical bribe to keep you alive,â you said quickly, cheeks burning despite your best effort. âTotally not binding.â
Jason actually chuckled at that chuckled. A small miracle.
âWell,â Dick said, clearly enjoying himself, âbinding or not, Iâll be at that new cafĂ© on 7th tomorrow at ten. Youâre welcome to back out, but I do know where your candy stash is hidden in the Watchtower fridge.â
Your jaw dropped. âYou wouldnât.â
âI would.â
âYou absolute menace.â
âSee you then, Sweetheart.â
Jason exhaled like he was regretting all of his life choices.
âGod, youâre both exhausting.â
You smiled, sweet and unbothered. âDonât be jealous, Jay. I can pencil you in for brunch on Sunday.â
He groaned but didnât mute you. Which, in your book, meant you werenât the loser here .
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The room was quiet now.
The static from the comms had faded, the mics had all gone cold, and the buzz of conversation that had filled the Watchtowerâs tech room just minutes ago had slipped into silence. You were alone, save for the hum of machines and the low, rhythmic click of a monitor blinking back to standby.
You leaned back in your chair slowly, arms folding over your chest as you stared blankly at the screens. Your bubbly persona so easy to slip into when surrounded by voices, teasing banter, and fast flying intel started to crack beneath the weight of the quiet.
It always did, when the room emptied.
He wanted coffee. Dick Grayson wanted to meet you. A date.
The thought hit you again, more real now than when he first said it in that casual, cocky tone of his. Youâd brushed it off, played along, tossed flirtation back like you always did but now? Sitting alone, no distraction, no one listening?
You felt it. That creeping, slow turning anxiety curling in your stomach.
It wasnât like you hadnât thought about what he looked like before. Sure, youâd heard his voice, shared late night chatter across missions, and even made him laugh more than once. But imagining him? That was easy. Everyone in the Bat Family was objectively hot. Like, annoyingly so.
And you? You swallowed hard, curling your knees up into your chair and hugging them gently.
You werenât anything like them. Not tall or sleek or scarred from combat. Not graceful in a catsuit or strong enough to throw a punch through a wall. You werenât stick thin, but you werenât curvy in a dramatic way either. You existed somewhere in the middle comfortable in hoodies, always in glasses, a bit awkward when the spotlight came too close. Your brain was your strongest muscle, and it sometimes felt like that was all you had.
Would he be disappointed?
You let out a slow breath, eyes flicking to your reflection in the dark screen across from you. No makeup, hair pulled back, sweater two sizes too big. You looked like someone who blended into a crowd. Like someone no one would stop for a second glance. What if you showed up and he just⊠didnât see you the way he did over comms? What if the mystery was the only thing that made you interesting?
Your hand reached out instinctively, pressing your fingers to the edge of the console like you were grounding yourself.
You wanted to meet him. Of course you did. He was charming, and kind beneath all the jokes, and smart in the ways only someone whoâd been through hell could be. But a date? That felt like something other people did. People who didnât feel the need to hide behind tech and sarcasm to feel confident.
You sat there in silence, chewing your lip, wondering if he even knew what he was asking when he said, âsee you then.â
Maybe it wasnât a real date. Maybe he didnât think of it like that.
But deep down, you knew you wanted it to be. You wanted to be seen. And you were scared of what would happen if you really were.
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Dick Grayson stood in front of the mirror of his BlĂŒdhaven apartment, tugging at the hem of his sweatshirt like it was a tux. Casual. Chill. Low key. That was the goal.
So why the hell did he feel like he was prepping for a mission?
He ran a hand through his hair, tousling it for the third no, fourth time. Dark jeans, clean white sneakers, a navy hoodie that fit just right not too fitted, not too loose. He changed shirts three times before this one finally felt like the right one. He hadnât been this particular about his outfit since prom.
âItâs not a date,â he told his reflection. âItâs just coffee.â
A pause.
ââŠWith the girl who knows all your safe houses, your secret patrol routes, and who once talked you through stitching your own shoulder at 3 a.m. without flinching.â
Okay. Maybe a little more than just coffee.
He reached for his phone on the counter. One unread text waited at the top of the screen.
Comms girl <3: You sure about this?
Comms girl <3:You donât have to meet me.
His fingers hovered over the keyboard before he typed back quickly.
bluebird: Iâm very sure. You owe me that coffee, remember? I risked my life for that latte.
Your reply came within seconds.
Comms girl <3: You were five feet from the guy. I stalled him with a fake 911 ping. YOUâRE WELCOME.
He chuckled, thumbs flying across the screen.
blurbird : Still counts. Heroics were involved. You agreed to a reward. No backing out now.
Comms girl <3: Still time to change your mind. Could just keep this mystery thing going. Itâs fun. Less risky.
He stared at that message a moment longer than he wanted to admit. There was a strange comfort in the way things were. The comms. The banter. The way your voice softened when his breathing grew strained after a tough fight. How youâd scold him for reckless moves and then follow up with, âBut also⊠that flip you did? Sick as hell.â
You were part of the job no, more than that. You were part of him. But only in fragments.
Heâd seen the pieces you gave: your voice, your wit, your ridiculous caffeine addiction, the hum of music sometimes playing faintly in the background when you were on shift. But heâd never seen you.
Meanwhile, youâd seen everything.
bluebird: Youâve seen my file, havenât you?
he typed.
bluebird: I know what color your eyes are. I havenât even seen yours.
Comms girl <3: Donât worry. Theyâre not laser eyes or anything.
Comms girl <3: Still time to run. I wonât be mad.
Dick stared at the screen, thumb resting over the keyboard again. A few moments passed. Then he typed back:
bluebird: I donât want to run. I want to meet you. For real.
Read. But no reply. He locked his phone, shoved it into the pocket of his hoodie, and grabbed his keys and helmet. Outside, the early evening had begun to spill across the BlĂŒdhaven skyline. Fading light. Long shadows.
For once, he wasnât slipping into the shadows himself. He was stepping into the sun.
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The café on 7th was a small, tucked away place with mismatched chairs and the smell of cinnamon and roasted espresso clinging to every wooden beam. A warm corner of the city where life slowed down just a little. He arrived ten minutes early. Too early.
The bell above the door jingled, and instinct kicked in. He scanned. Two older women by the window, a guy with earbuds tapping at a laptop, a bored barista pulling espresso shots with dead eyes. No sign of you.
He ordered her drink extra sweet, extra foamy, âliquid sunshine,â you once called it and a black coffee for himself. Settled into a table by the window. Full view of the door. He texted you again.
bluebird: Iâm here. No pressure. But I brought your order. Itâs waiting patiently.
Nothing.
He flicked the lid of the cup. Checked the time. Tapped his knee beneath the table. Every chime of the bell had him sitting up straighter, breath held in quiet anticipation.
Not her.Not yet.
And that was the thing he didnât even know what she looked like. No name. No face. Just a voice in his ear, a rhythm in his nights, a lifeline during the chaos. But even without a face, even without a name, he knew you.
He leaned back and watched the doorway like it held all the answers. Maybe it did.
His phone buzzed again.
Comms girl <3: Iâm close. Just⊠taking a second.
He stared at that message. His heart did a quiet, hopeful jump.
bluebird: You nervous?l
Comms Girl: Maybe. You?
He smiled.
bluebird: Iâve fought Killer Croc, Deathstroke, and Jason with a crowbar. This is worse.
You didnât text back right away. He waited. Sipped his coffee. Looked at your untouched drink and wondered if youâd ever actually take a sip from it. Maybe youâd just show up, apologize, and walk away. Maybe youâd turn around before even walking through the door.
You were already on the sidewalk. One breath away from stepping inside. He turned his eyes to the window, scanning every person who passed. Wondering if one of them might look in, catch his eye, smile.
Waiting. he hoped that mask off, no gadgets, no grappling hooks, no safety net that was enough. So he waited. For you.
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The drink was starting to sweat on the table.
Dickâs thumb spun slow, lazy circles around the lid of the cup you still hadnât claimed. The cafĂ© wasnât busy only a few people trickled in here and there. His eyes lifted every time the door jingled, hopeful⊠and then dropped just as quickly.
He wasnât used to feeling this unsteady. With the mask on, he could take a punch. Leap off a roof. Throw himself into chaos without blinking. But right now, sitting at a table with a slowly cooling cup of coffee for someone heâd never even seen before?
He was sweating more than the damn drink. The bell above the door jingled again.
And he looked.
She stepped in like she was trying not to be noticed shoulders drawn slightly inward, a quick glance around the room before her eyes dropped to the floor. She didnât look out of place, not really. She looked⊠normal.
Pink Converse. Faded denim jorts hugging her hips. A plain black tank top tucked in just right to show her figure, casual and effortless. Hair pulled back loosely like sheâd tried to fix it three times before giving up.
Dickâs eyes lingeredâŠ. respectfully. He wasnât a jerk. But he was a man. And the way she looked, with nervous energy practically rolling off her in waves, had his chest tightening just a little.
Cute. Definitely cute. Attractive, sure. She was cute. Soft around the edges. Eyes wide like she wasnât used to being looked at too long.
Dickâs gaze flicked down, then back up not lingering too long. A polite once over. Curious. Gentle. A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth before he looked away.
He didnât know what to expect. For all the times heâd imagined this moment, all the late night banter and daydreams of what she might look like, heâd never settled on a face.
Still watching her from the corner of his eye, Dick slowly reached for his phone and typed out a message.
bluebird: âIâm by the window. Got your sugar bomb of a drink already. You close?â
The girl the maybe you girl jumped slightly when her phone buzzed. Fumbled it out of her pocket. She smiled. Just a little.
Her hand went to her phone. Dickâs screen lit up.
Comms girl <3: Already here. Just⊠not sure where to go.
His heart stopped. Slowly, his gaze lifted again this time with full awareness. He watched as she read his message, fingers still hovering near the screen.
Like she was laughing at herself and suddenly, everything clicked.
Dickâs breath caught for a beat. His lips tugged upward in a crooked smile as he texted again. Dick forgot how to breathe.
bluebird: Black tank. Pink shoes. You really do own those Converse.
You didnât even look up from your phone. You were already typing.
Comms girl <3: Ok stalker, stop checking me out
He huffed a quiet laugh.
bluebird: Respectfully. Thoroughly. Definitely.
You lifted your head then, eyes meeting his across the room. Nervous. Hopeful. Your lips curved into something soft and self deprecating.
He stood before he could overthink it, heart thudding as he crossed the short space between your hesitant stillness and his table.
âYouâre late,â he said, voice light, teasing.
âFashionably,â you replied, walking with him as he guided you toward the window seat. âAlso, very nearly didnât come in. I walked past the window twice. You didnât notice.â
âI noticed,â he said, pulling your chair out like the gentleman he rarely remembered to be. âI just didnât know it was you. But then you looked at your phone like it offended you.â
You sat, cheeks flushed with something caught between embarrassment and amusement. âThat was me realizing I sent three different versions of âIâm almost thereâ and still sat in my car for ten minutes.â
Dick slid your coffee toward you. âWell i guess in a way you were.â
You took the cup, curling your fingers around it like it might steady you. âDonât get ahead of yourself. I still might run.â
âDo I need to stop you? Iâve got grappling hooks.â
That made you laugh. Really laugh. He liked that sound more than he expected. It wasnât tinny over the comm. It was full, alive, right in front of him.
âGod,â you groaned, lowering your head for a second. âThis is so weird.â
âYeah,â he agreed. âBut good weird.â
You peeked up at him. âYouâre not what I expected.â
âBetter or worse?â
You grinned, shy but cheeky. âYouâre taller than I thought. Thatâs not fair. I have no defense against tall and charming.â
âCharming, huh?â He took a sip of his coffee, raising a brow over the lid. âYou havenât even heard my best lines yet.â
You rolled your eyes, the way you always did when he flirted too hard through the mic. But now it was real. Now, he could see the way you bit back a smile, the flush that crept to your ears.
âIâm not used to being looked at,â you admitted after a quiet beat. âIâm used to watching. Behind the screens. Behind the noise. Iâve seen your face a hundred times. This is⊠lopsided.â
He leaned forward, elbows on the table, gaze steady and warm.
âThen letâs even it out.â
You blinked. âWhat do you mean?â
âLet me learn you,â he said, voice low, honest. âNo comms. No mission. No static. Just⊠you.â
You looked away, biting your lip, your fingers tracing the lid of your cup now like he had earlier. âYouâre a lot more intense in person.â
âIâm a lot of things in person,â he said, smiling. âMost of them good. Some of them bad. All of them me.â
A silence passed. Not awkward contemplative. Like both of you were quietly adjusting to the weight of seeing each other. Really seeing each other.
âI always see you in your outfit, this feels a little weirdâ you murmured eventually.
He grinned. âYouâll be happy to know I left the spandex at home.â
âTragic.â
Another moment of quiet, then
âIâm glad you showed up,â he said.
You smiled down into your drink. âYeah. Me too.â
Outside, the city moved in its usual rhythm cars, footsteps, noise. But here, at this little table by the window, something new was starting. Not a mission. Not an assignment. Just Dick and you.
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The coffee was long gone, but neither of them had made a move to go their separate ways.
Instead, they strolled the streets of BlĂŒdhaven, their pace slow, like time had bent around them just for a little while. The sun had started to dip behind the buildings, casting soft golden light on the sidewalks, and the breeze stirred the trees enough to make the leaves flutter like lazy applause.
You walked beside him with your now empty cup in hand, straw still between your lips despite it having been dry for the last ten minutes. Nerves still clung to your skin, thin but persistent. You had no idea where to put your hands or how to keep your voice steady. You werenât usually like this. Over comms, you were bold, loud, sarcastic, and playful.
But out here, in the open, without a headset and with Nightwing walking beside you in casual clothes that hugged him way too well for your nerves to take? It was different. He was real. And you were suddenly aware of every flaw youâd been trying not to think about since this morning.
âYou know,â you said with a light chuckle, trying to keep your voice in that easy, familiar tone, âI honestly expected you to cancel last minute. Or like, show up but wear the mask the whole time and pretend to be mysterious.â
Dick looked over at you, one brow raised, and a smile playing at his lips. âYou really thought Iâd ghost you after all our late night flirting?â
You shrugged, trying to play it off, but your eyes darted away. âI mean⊠I dunno. Maybe.â
âYou ruined that for you because i would never,â he said dramatically, then bumped his shoulder gently against yours. âI told you I was coming. I meant it.â
His voice was warm, not teasing this time. Just honest. He watched you as you gave a small smile, eyes still scanning the sidewalk like you were searching for something to say. He saw the way you carried yourself. Not shy, exactly just⊠cautious. Though he saw you and wanted too. All of you.
Not just the confident voice in his ear or the tech genius who could break into encrypted systems like they were open windows. He saw the little things: the nervous hand fidgeting with your cup sleeve, the way you pulled at the hem of your shorts when you thought he wasnât looking, the practiced jokes you used to deflect any compliments.
So he gave you more of them.
âI like your shoes,â he said casually, glancing down at the worn pink Converse. âits a very you thing, reflective of your personalityâ
You laughed an actual laugh, not a polite one. âI donât know if footwear can tell you my life story?â
âOh, absolutely,â he said, nodding with mock seriousness. âPink shoes? Total power move. I love when women.â
You shook your head, trying to hide your grin. âyou love when women?â
âAnd the shorts?â he added. âPerfect length. Shows off those legs that have been sitting behind a computer for, what? Ninety percent of your adult life?â
âOh my God,â you groaned, covering your face with your free hand. âYouâre a menace.â
âIâve been told worse,â he said with a wink.
You both fell into a comfortable rhythm after that. Step for step, laugh for laugh. The tension slowly ebbed away the longer he stayed near you like he was peeling back the nervous layers without ever drawing attention to them.
After a few quiet moments, you nudged him lightly with your elbow. âOkay, so serious question.â
âHit me.â
âHow the hell does this team work? I started hacking stuff and suddenly im here? â
He laughed, raising both brows. âYou tell me. Youâve got this adorable, good vibe going for you, but Iâve read some of those logs. You were wrecking firewalls like they owed you money.â
âI wasnât that bad,â you defended with a smirk. âOkay, maybe the satellite thing was a little over the line.â
He turned to face you mid step. âWait. What satellite thing?â
You winced, cheeks flushing. âI⊠mightâve accidentally hacked into a WayneTech orbital system when I thought it was an old NASA server.â
He stared at you, stunned. âYou hacked WayneTech?â
âAllegedly,â you said, grinning now. âAnd two days later, Babs showed up in my basement. No warning, no badge, just⊠bam, red hair and righteous fury.â
âShe mustâve been so mad.â
âShe told me I was wasting potential and recruited me on the spot.â
Dick laughed again, and this time, it was full bodied, the kind that lit up his whole face. âClassic Babs.â
âHonestly? Sheâs the first person who ever looked at me and didnât just see a mouthy hacker. She actually saw⊠me.â
His smile softened. âShe does that. Did the same for me once.â
You glanced at him curiously. âOh yeah?â
He nodded, hands tucked into his hoodie pocket. âBack when I was still figuring things out after leaving Bruce. I needed distance from the Bat stuff needed to figure out who I was when I wasnât under the cape. Babs helped me get there. Helped me want to be more than just Robin.â
âI think youâre doing alright,â you said, bumping his shoulder this time.
âIâm trying,â he said with a shrug. âStill check in on the family though. Bruce, my brothers, Grandpa.â
You blinked. âGrandpa?â
âAlfred,â he clarified with a mischievous grin. âI started calling him that just to piss him off, but I know he secretly loves it.â
You laughed again, shaking your head. âThatâs so weirdly wholesome. âNightwing has emotional depth and a soft spot for butlers,â coming to theaters this fall.â
âHey, heâs not just a butler. Heâs the butler.â
âI stand corrected.â
The sky was blushing now, soft shades of purple and orange painting the horizon. The city buzzed around you, but for once, it didnât feel overwhelming. It felt like a quiet pocket of something special.
Dick glanced sideways at you, the wind tugging gently at your hair, and felt that same flicker in his chest again. The one that started when your voice used to crackle in his earpiece during midnight stakeouts. The one that grew stronger every time you made him laugh, or saved his ass from another security lockdown, or stayed on the line with him just so he wouldnât be alone.
âIâm really glad we did this,â he said softly.
You looked at him, caught a sincerity in his eyes that left no room for doubt.
âYeah,â you said, voice just as soft. âMe too.â
The air had taken on that evening crispness the kind that whispered promises of something new. The two of you were still walking, slowly now, like neither wanted to reach wherever the sidewalk might end.
Dick glanced at you again, longer this time. Not just quick, playful side glances, but a longing look. One that lingered as the fading sun touched your skin. He could see the way your lashes caught the light, the slight smile tugging at your lips as you sipped from your empty straw out of habit. The way your eyes moved when you were thinking.
You caught him staring.
âWhat?â you asked, arching a brow.
He shrugged with an easy, boyish grin. âNothing. Just⊠youâve got a good laugh.â
You blinked. âWhat, like a âhahaâ laugh or a âjoker is getting offâ laugh?â
He chuckled. âThe kind thatâs been in my ear for months, but somehow sounds better in person.â
Your stomach fluttered. You covered it with a sarcastic smile. âAre you flirting with me again, Grayson?â
âOnly mildly,â he teased, then glanced ahead. âI mean, Iâve gotta pace myself. Youâre kind of⊠addictive.â
You didnât answer for a moment. You didnât know how. And honestly, you were worried your voice would betray how warm your chest suddenly felt.
He didnât press it. Just kept walking with you in step. But then he said, a little more softly:
âI never really thought about it before⊠how different things feel when youâre not just a voice in my ear.â
You looked over at him, curious. âBetter or worse?â
He gave you a look, deadpan. âWhat kind of question is that?â
You tried to laugh, to brush it off, but he turned toward you fully now, walking backward a few steps so he could face you as you moved.
âYou have this⊠energy. When weâre on comms, itâs like⊠controlled chaos in the best way. Keeps me grounded, keeps me alert. But now? Seeing you like, actually seeing you your expressions, your body language, your weird obsession with pinkâŠâ
âI do not!â
He smirked. âYou do. Itâs very cute.â
You shoved his arm lightly, heat rushing to your face. But the smile was genuine now. You were relaxing, piece by piece.
âI guess I just didnât realize how much Iâd been missing until now,â he added, turning back around to walk forward again. âHearing youâs great. But⊠seeing you talk? Watching your eyes move when you go on your little tech rants or when you start teasing me? It hits different.â
Your heart thudded hard.
He wasnât saying âI want to see your face more.â But he was.
You swallowed around the growing smile and said, âWell⊠good thing Iâm not going anywhere.â
He shot you a glance then, something soft and full of unspoken words.
âYeah,â he murmured. âThat is a good thing.â
Astarion X Reader
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funnily enough, there is no sex in this fic. Just a short drabble of communication.
The campfire crackled under the dim twilight, casting long shadows across scattered bedrolls and worn boots. The air was still thick with the scent of the last skirmish blood, sweat, and a hint of singed hair. Everyone was winding down. You sat cross legged near the fire, arms resting on your knees, deep in thought. Astarion lounged nearby, wine cup in hand, eyes glittering in the firelight. He watched you closely, as he often did, as though trying to read your every thought like a well worn book.
Then, with all the casual weight of commenting on the weather, you announced. âI think Iâm going to have sex.â
Silence. Even Laeâzel paused mid sharpen, casting you a side glance. Astarion straightened slightly, eyebrows lifting in both amusement and interest.
âAre we now?â he drawled, setting down his cup. âWell, Iâm flattered. Not surprised, of course but flattered.â
You blinked. âWhat?â
Astarion leaned forward, lips curling. âDarling, thereâs no need for coyness. If you need someone to⊠satisfy your sudden urges, Iâd be happy to oblige. Gods know Iâve been waiting for you to finally admit it.â
You stared at him for a beat, then snorted. âOh. No. I wasnât talking about you.â
The silence that followed was somehow louder than the last one. Astarionâs smile twitched, just a little. âI beg your pardon?â
You shrugged, nonchalant. âI was thinking⊠probably Gale.â
Astarion looked like youâd just slapped him with a wet sock.
âGale?â he repeated, aghast. âYouâre choosing the walking arcane lecture over me? That man has more monologues than passion, and his idea of foreplay is a history lesson.â
âHeâs sweet,â you said simply, pulling your cloak tighter around your shoulders. âI donât know. I just feel like I need to get it out of my system. Nothing deep. Just⊠need to do something irrational for once.â
âGale,â Astarion muttered again, then let out a sound between a scoff and a laugh. âThis is some sort of fever dream. Or perhaps a punishment from the gods.â
You smiled. âAstarion, not everything is about you.â
He grinned back, sharp and wounded. âIt should be.â
You stood up, stretching. âAnyway. I havenât decided yet. Maybe Iâll sleep on it.â
âOh, by all means, take your time. Iâll just be here, knowing I was passed over for a man who talks more to his floating book than to actual people.â
You gave him a pat on the head like an annoyed cat and turned toward Galeâs tent.
Behind you, Astarion called out, âIf he starts reciting poetry during the act, run.â
The fire had long since crackled into glowing embers, its warmth now a quiet hum in the cool night. The camp had settled into silence, the sounds of rustling blankets and steady breathing drifting in from the other tents. Astarion sat alone, still where youâd left him, wine cup now untouched.
He stared into the dark woods, eyes unfocused. He wasnât thinking about monsters or traps. No. Something far more unsettling had taken root in his mind.
You. You and your ridiculous declaration. You and your infuriating unpredictability. You and⊠Gale. He scoffed aloud, quiet and bitter. Gale, with his grand words and glowing hands. Gale, who probably asked for consent like it was a spell component.
It doesnât make sense, Astarion thought, fingers curling slightly at his side. Youâre allowed to bed whoever you wish. You owe me nothing. I never claimed to He paused. Frowned.
âGods,â he whispered into the dark, realization dawning like a slow, creeping horror. âIâm jealous.â
The word felt foreign on his tongue. He almost laughed him, jealous? It was laughable. Heâd never needed anyone before. Never cared if someone wandered off after a flirtation, or if they found pleasure in anotherâs arms. That was the whole point, wasnât it? Pleasure without consequence. Desire without attachment. But tonight, watching you casually toss aside what he thought was a mutual spark no, knew was had stirred something ugly and unfamiliar in him.
âI donât get jealous,â he said aloud to the night, trying the words again, firmer this time. âI donât do jealousy. Itâs beneath me.â
But the fire in his chest said otherwise. It wasnât just bruised ego. That he could handle. He wanted you to choose him. Not out of convenience. Not out of need. But because you wanted him, just him. He leaned back against a log, running a hand through his hair with a low groan. âThis is an absolute disaster.â
For the first time in centuries, Astarion wasnât sure how to play the game. Worse, he wasnât sure he wanted to play at all. He wanted to be with you. But how the hells did he even begin?
Morning crept into the camp slowly, light spilling over bedrolls and dewy grass. Birds chirped far too cheerfully for anyoneâs liking especially Astarionâs. He sat on a rock near the fire pit, legs crossed elegantly, skin glowing like always, and of course he looked amazing. Until you walked out of your tent.
âWell, well,â he drawled without looking up. âIf it isnât the temptress of the Weave herself, back from a night of sonnets and magical satisfaction.â
You stopped mid stretch. âWhat?â
Astarion turned to you, faux innocence painted across his face. âOh, donât play coy. Iâm just dying to know how our dear Gale fares in the bedroom. Did he conjure you a glowing review? Perhaps summoned a satisfaction score from the Weave?â
You blinked, then burst out laughing. âCalm down, loverboy. Nothing happened.â
His smirk faltered.
ââŠNothing?â he repeated, cautious.
You dropped onto a log across from him, grin wide. âNope. We talked for like ten minutes, then he got distracted explaining the theory behind dreamscapes and how the mind processes intimacy while unconscious.â
Astarion looked like he aged a century. âOf course he did.â
âI almost fell asleep standing up,â you added. âI think at some point he forgot I was there.â
Astarion made a strangled sound in his throat and tossed a twig into the fire. âWell. Iâm sure that was incredibly titillating.â
You rested your chin in your hand, watching him with a glint in your eye. âWhatâs with the attitude? I said nothing happened. A girlâs allowed to have urges, you know.â
His eyes flicked to yours, fast and sharp. ââŠUrges?â
You shrugged, teasing. âYeah. Just figured it was time to get it over with. Stress relief. You know health reasons.â
Astarion narrowed his eyes. âYou were going to treat it like a medical appointment?â
âExactly. Routine check up. The doctor was just⊠overbooked.â
The vampire groaned and threw his head back. âYouâre going to kill me.â
âMm, maybe I will, we will just have to wait and see unril you stop being jealous.â
âI wasnât jealous,â he said quickly. Too quickly.
You raised an eyebrow.
âI was⊠annoyed. Thatâs different.â
âMhm. You sure you werenât picturing Gale putting on a robe and lighting candles while reading me his dissertation on foreplay?â
âI hate how accurate that sounds.â
You chuckled again, leaning back on your hands, eyes on him now with something softer. âYouâre cute when youâre bitter.â
Astarionâs gaze flicked toward you again, but this time there was something quieter in it. Something careful. âAnd youâre a devious minx when you laugh like that.â
âOh?â you smirked. âScared Iâll seduce you with my wit?â
He looked away, but a smile tugged at the corner of his mouth.
âNo,â he murmured. âScared I already am.â
ââââYou sat cross legged on a blanket just outside the camp, your sketchbook resting against your knees. Gale was beside you, hunched over his own page with careful strokes, charcoal smudged on the side of his hand. It was quiet. You could hear the rustle of paper, the soft exhale of Galeâs breath as he concentrated. Every so often, he would glance at your work, but he never commented unless you did first.
âIs that the Underdark cave?â you asked after a while, tilting your head toward his page.
He smiled, barely lifting his gaze. âIt is. Not as foreboding on paper, is it?â
You hummed. âI would say it is still very foreboding.â
âI like it too,â he said, voice quiet.
You looked at him then how the light caught in his curls, how the frown of focus softened his features. There was something incredibly human about Gale in moments like this. Something grounding. Then he set the charcoal aside with a gentle sigh and glanced your way.
âIâve been meaning to bring something up,â he said carefully. âLast night⊠when you mentioned what you wanted from me.â
You tensed slightly, setting your pencil down. âRight.â
âI was flattered,â Gale said with a small smile. âTruly. Youâre⊠lovely, and clever, and far more patient than this strange journey has any right to demand. But I want you to know itâs not about you.â
You blinked. âWhat isnât?â
âI donât exactly know my stance on physical intimacy without affection. Not for myself, at least.â His gaze dropped to his hands, fingers lightly dusted with black. âIt would feel hollow. Transactional. And Iâve already been part of one dangerous entanglement with shallow roots.â
You were quiet for a moment, then nodded. âI understand. You deserve real love.â
Gale looked up at you again, softer now. âWe all do.â
You bit your lip, nodding again. âI respect that. I hope it didnât seem like I was pressuring you.â
âDont worry your pretty little head about it. I know. Youâre too considerate for that.â He paused. âWhich makes it even more baffling how you endure him.â
You blinked. âWho?â
Gale looked toward the center of camp, where Astarion was perched on a fallen log, basking in the sun and pretending not to eavesdrop. âThat creature,â Gale said, voice dry. âA walking vanity project, Honestly, itâs like camping with a predatory peacock.â
You snorted.
âOh, donât get me wrong,â Gale continued, warming to the roast. âIâm sure heâs quite talented in the dark. centuries of seduction will hone oneâs⊠muscle memory but I imagine itâs about as emotionally fulfilling as being serenaded by a harpsichord made of teeth.â
âGale.â
âNo, really. He pouted for twenty minutes this morning because his hair got flattened during trance. He looked like a drowned cat who couldnât manipulate the mage hand spell to fix it.â
Astarion glanced over then, voice saccharine: âYouâre talking about me again. I must be ravishing to live rent free in the brain of a man who hasnât even kissed anyone this decade.â
Gale raised a brow. âIâd sooner kiss a gelatinous cube. At least it wouldnât try to kill me afterward.â
You covered your mouth, barely muffling your laugh. Astarion scoffed but didnât move. what? he was listening. he couldnt help it.
Galeâs voice softened slightly then, a lilt of sincerity slipping beneath the sarcasm. âBut jokes aside⊠be careful.â
You blinked. âWith Astarion?â
He nodded. âHeâs clever. Charming. entirely capable of making himself whatever you want him to be until heâs not.â
Your gaze dropped back to your sketchbook, heart thudding.Then, as if to break the weight of it, he chuckled faintly. âBesides, if weâre talking about primal urges, I believe our resident vampire spawn has more than enough⊠enthusiasm to spare.â
You laughed, leaning your head back. âYou think Astarionâs dying to jump my bones?â
âOh, I know he is. He practically disintegrated when you told him nothing happened between us.â
âHe did look like heâd swallowed a lemon.â
âHe looked like heâd been given the feast of the century. Honestly before you said anything, I havenât seen a man so heartbroken since⊠well, me.â You nudged him with your shoulder, smiling. âBut,â Gale continued, quieter now, âjust remember there might be someone else who wants that closeness with affection. Someone who might be afraid youâll offer it to someone else first.â
You turned your head slowly, eyes meeting his. He didnât say Astarionâs name again. He didnât need to.for the first time in a while, your heart beat a little faster not from fear, but from the weight of someone elseâs longing you hadnât quite dared to name.
The sun had risen high enough to dry the grass and heat the stones, but the camp was still unusually quiet. Most of the others had wandered off some hunting, some meditating. You were by the water, splashing your fingers across the surface, letting your boots dangle in the current. Astarionâs shadow fell over you before his voice did.
âYou know,â he began, casually enough, âIâve been thinking.â
You looked up. He was standing just off to the side, arms crossed, expression unreadable but his eyes were trained only on you.
âis that new or did you want to share with the class,â you said
He huffed a laugh but didnât banter back. He just stepped closer, his voice quiet. âWhy didnât you ask me?â
You blinked, confused for a moment. âWhat?â
He met your eyes now. âWhen you decided you needed⊠something. That night. Why didnât you come to me?â
You turned your gaze back to the water, thoughtful. âBecause I couldnât.â
He tilted his head, studying you. âCouldnât? Why?â
You were quiet for a long moment. Then, with a breath, you said, âBecause I just wanted meaningless sex. Nothing more.â Astarion flinched not outwardly, but in the smallest corner of his expression, in the way his mouth parted like heâd just been stung. âAnd thatâs not something I could ever have with you.â
You turned to face him now, fully. âOut of everyone in this camp⊠youâre my best friend. Like, yes, I care about the others. Galeâs a good man. I trust him, I do. But the bond I have with him itâs not like what I have with you.â
Astarion stood there, silent.
âWith you,â you continued, voice softer now, âI canât turn it off. I canât just pretend itâs only physical. Youâre not a passing urge. Youâre the person I go to when I canât sleep. Youâre the one I want near me when things go wrong. Youâre the one I trust when I donât trust myself.â He blinked slowly, like the words didnât quite register at first.
âAnd if we crossed that line,â you added gently, âI donât think I could ever call it meaningless. Not with you. Not even if I tried.â
The air felt still around you, like the world was holding its breath. When Astarion finally spoke, his voice was rough around the edges. âI think you just ruined every one of my excuses for why Iâm not already in love with you.â
You gave him a smile, wide eyed surprise. He sat down next to you without asking, his shoulder brushing yours. âIâm not saying I am,â he added quickly. âBut if I were⊠that wouldâve made it a lot worse.â
You laughed softly, leaning your head on his arm. âSorry.â
âNo, youâre not.â
ââŠNo, Iâm not.â
Editing on my phone is actually so comical when I have to save every two seconds
Keigo Takami / Hawks X Reader (eventually various X reader but thatâs if I decide to continue with the burst of inspiration)
If this isnât that meaty for youâŠ. THEY JUST MET LET THEM COOK
Summary: Small light banter for a first meeting between freshly debuted Hawks and an Isekaiâd reader.
Basically after reading copious amounts of amazingly talented stories by amazingly talented writers. âDEPOLLUTE ME, GENTLE ANGELâ by @fallen-w1ngs and Changing History by SummerBlack on Quotev. With âdepollute meâ the author humanizes the pro hero from being just a symbol. Meanwhile with âChanging Historyâ the author introduces an emotion more attuned to feeling real and how life isnât just a cycle that is predetermined. So my dynamic of choice was you as the reader have already been thrown in this world for the first 18 years of your life. If you were put in this world why not do the expected? Become a hero. But if all things are fake why take anything seriously?
If you couldnât gather from that, the reader and hawks will grow and learn that they have the ability to matter and deserve to feel like they belong. I donât have a very serious style of writing but I do try! Maybe not my best but key emphasis on try! Today we delve into YOU! YOUR CHARACTER!
This was all made on my notes app while on vacation đș
Word count: 4280 ish, (idk through editing I added some things)
A blur of red and gold emerged first, feathers catching the sunlight just before their owner stepped forward with an easy, lopsided grin. Hawks, the newly minted Pro, looked entirely unbothered by the attention, despite the sudden chorus of excited shouts.
âHawks! Can you sign this?â
âDude, your debut fight was insane!â
âPicture, please?â
He laughed, ruffling his windswept hair as he glanced over the eager faces.
âMan, you guys really know how to make a guy feel welcome,â he said, grabbing the nearest pen. âAlright, line up nice and neat, yeah? Iâve got places to be, but I canât just leave my awesome fans hanging.â
As he signed posters, notebooks, and even the occasional wing-shaped keychain, Hawks kept that signature smirk in place. Heâd always known heâd make it this farâbut seeing the real, tangible proof of it in the form of starstruck faces and excited voices?
Yeah, this was pretty damn cool.
As the crowd died down, Originally just going to walk away you thought about when would even be the next time youâd see him. Unfortunately since being thrown into this world, the whole concept of canon magnets for main characters was not even a concept in your life.
âYou know, if youâre acting like this right out of the gate, I canât even imagine how inflated your ego will get once youâre officially ranked among the top heroes.â
âSorry, sweetheart, but I have no idea where youâre getting that impression.â You almost felt bad for taking away his moment. The disheveled blonde looked like he mightâve been having a sincere, heartfelt moment.
âItâs always the pretty boys with the massive egos,â you sighed dramatically, looking away. Seeing Hawks in all his glory had to come with a little entertainment, right?
He took a step back, eyeing your UA uniform as if sizing you up.
âMaybe the hostilityâs coming from jealousy?â
âItâs the Icarus trope for meâ you mutter
âSorry?â
You laughed lightly, rolling your eyes. âOh nothing! You sure would think that.â
To be honest, you hadnât meant to bump into him. You were just on your way home from school, with nothing more in mind than a nice nap. Being a third-year at UA in the most boring era of this universe really didnât leave you with much to look forward to.
âI mean, looks like weâre heading in the same direction,â he said, curiosity creeping into his tone as he took another sip from his drink.
âYouâre not wrong, but the flashy vibe youâre giving off? Itâs almost alarming.â
He gave you a distraught look.
âImagine this, Iâm getting saved byâwait, whatâs your name again?â Oh, it wouldnât be impossible for actually knowing him. Sure, he had only debuted a few months ago and the crowd that just left that chanted his name every two seconds would be a sign for his name, but you couldnât help it. In your past life, the sheer amount of content of the show you consumed meant you had to know him but better safe than sorry.
âHawks,â he replied, deadpan, amusement flickering in his eyes.
You couldnât help but chuckle. In response he raised his brow
It probably looked like you were laughing at him, which, in a way, you kind of were. You remembered the draft photos of when his character was first being developedâback when they considered giving him an actual hawk head. The thought alone made you smile.
âPro hero Hawks saves me, and the sheer massiveness of his ego completely blindsides me. Iâm struck by how conventionally hot he is, and then I die in your arms. Yeah, not a good look for you.â
You sighed inwardly. All in all, you were probably born in the worst generation in the My Hero universe. You couldnât even be part of the middle generation where you couldâve had the chance to work as a teacher with Aizawa and the rest of the crew. It was a possibility, sure, but it felt so far out of reach. And the idea of being around Present Micâpreferably with his hair down and you age-appropriate for him? That wouldâve been a dream.
But here you were, a few years older than the main cast. Actually, you were the same age as Keigo. As much as you loved his character, he didnât really become important until the fifth season. Which meant you had little to no relevance to the plot or any of the major characters. You couldnât help but feel like you were stuck in some lame generation, unable to make an impact.
Why couldnât any isekai story go right? You really felt like youâd lost the genetic lottery over and over again. You couldnât have been born just a few years younger, so you couldâve at least had the chance to be around your other favorite sunshine-blonde character, Mirio. Not being his age had probably made you feel like youâd lost years of your life unknowingly.
âMaamaa, we just met, and youâve already got a grudge against me?â He teased, giving you a playful frown.
Immediately it springs in your head that youâve probably come off as a total asshole. Screw the curse of having an outside point of view. The fact of knowing none of this was real maybe gave a bad look on the outside.
You suddenly felt a wave of regret hit you, realizing how your words had come across. His playful tone, the teasing frownâeverything made it clear he wasnât offended, but you couldnât shake the feeling that you had crossed a line. You opened your mouth, but your thoughts were tangled, and it took a moment to collect your words.
âAh, look, Iââ You hesitated, eyes darting away, feeling heat rising in your cheeks. âI didnât mean to sound like that. Itâs just⊠I donât know, sometimes I get carried away, andââ You mentally cursed yourself for being so awkward. You hated how easily you could go from sarcastic to genuinely sorry in a second.
Hawks gave you an odd look, the smirk still there, though softer. âHey, no worries. I get it.â He shrugged, as if it wasnât a big deal, but you could tell something about his tone had changed slightly. Maybe he was trying to lighten the mood too, like you were.
âNo, Iâm serious,â you quickly added, glancing up at him, feeling the need to apologize properly. âItâs just⊠I donât know. Iâve been here long enough to see how people get caught up in all the⊠hero stuff. And I didnât want to be another person acting all starry-eyed over you just because youâre a pro hero, you know?â God you sounded pathetic. Maybe if you prayed to all might really hard it would go away.
Hawks studied you for a second, then nodded slowly, his expression unreadable for a moment. âI get it. You donât want to be one of those people who just worship the ground we fly on, huh?â
You sighed, relieved that he understood, but still uneasy. âYeah... fly on. Itâs just⊠this world, this universe⊠Itâs all so⊠strange. I mean, I know youâre a big deal, and I respect that. But sometimes itâs hard to take things seriously when everything feels like itâs set in stone. To be so âMUCHâ all the time. Anyways Iâm literally doing exactly what yours doing for a career so donât take my words to heart. Heroes are kind of just people that help people and Iâm like one or those people and by no means-â You paused, biting your lip.
There was an odd moment of silence before Hawks chuckled, and for a moment, you thought you mightâve said something ridiculous.
âYouâre fine.â His tone was soft, genuine this time, as he took another step back, giving you space. âYouâre not the first person to think Iâm all âego and feathers,â but not everyoneâs as honest about it as you are. So, props for that, I guess.â He tilted his head, his usual cocky grin returning, though it seemed more self-aware now. âBut hey, if it helps, I do my best to keep my ego in check. Itâs not as big as it looks.â
You blinked, unsure how to respond, but the words that came out were almost reflexive. âWell, youâre doing a pretty good job of hiding it, I guess. Youâre going to be one of the top ten. I know it.â
Hawks laughed softly, the sound surprisingly genuine, and you found yourself relaxing a little. Maybe you hadnât totally messed everything up. âYouâre so sure about that? Well then fair enough. Just donât expect me to give up my flashy style anytime soon. Itâs a package deal.â He says that as if he doesnât get In the top ten within a few months.
You could tell he wasnât taking offense anymore, but you still felt like you needed to clear the air. âI mean, youâre doing your thing. I justââ You faltered, trying to find the right words, feeling like you were digging yourself into a hole. âI just didnât want to be some random person making snide comments. Youâre a pro hero, and I respect that.â
His eyes softened again, and there was an odd sincerity in his gaze. âThanks. That means more than you know. You look about the same age as me so as youâre a pro as well, wouldnât you know it youâll be up there at the top, maybe weâll have a hero rivalryâ he smirks
âAh yes the trials and tribulations of endeavour and all might persist in the bodies of 18 year old aspiring heroesâ you pause for a moment thinking about it. You know thatâs not too far from the original source material
âWell Iâm not exactly a pro just yet, give me a few months and Iâll be thereâ
For a moment, neither of you spoke, the awkwardness between you two slowly evaporating. It was strange, how youâd gone from a sarcastic comment to a brief but genuine moment of understanding. And yet, in a world where everything seemed so scripted, the fact that this had played out in such a way felt a little⊠surreal.
After a beat, Hawks stretched, giving you a wink. âWell, I should probably get going. Hero stuff, you know?â He shrugged, turning on his heel. âBut hey, if you ever need a hand or just wanna throw some more sarcastic remarks my way, Iâm not hard to find.â
You managed a small, half-smile. âIâll keep that in mind.â
He flashed you one last grin before taking off, his wings spreading wide as he took to the sky, disappearing into the distance. You watched him go, still feeling that odd mixture of guilt and amusement bubbling in your chest.
Shaking your head, you turned and continued on your way home, feeling slightly lighter, despite the awkwardness. At least you hadnât ruined everything completely. But, then again, in a world like this, there was always something new to look forward to. Maybe youâd even see Hawks again and maybe next time, youâd be a little better at handling it.
Or, youâd at least try to be.
In this world, reports of people with superpowers started popping up everywhere. No one really knew what was causing these Quirks. And before long, the supernatural became the new normal. Dreams became reality, and the world turned into a superhuman society, with 80% of the population possessing some sort of strange ability.
Blah, blah, blah. The world might sound impressive at first, but being dropped into a world where you know everyoneâs futures? That kind of ruins the excitement. Save the fun stuff for when Izuku is supposed to take over
Youâd think living in a world of superheroes would be a dream come true, but it felt more like playing a life simulator with a DLC attached.
âActually if any one had heard that thought, please smite me dead on the spotâ
Maybe when you finally met Shigaraki, you two could bond over how lame your lives were.
ââââ
The moment Hawks took off, disappearing into the sky with all the grace and flair of a man who knew exactly how cool he was, you were left standing there, alone in the middle of a busy street. You blinked a few times, processing the bizarre encounter, like a glitch in the matrix where youâd just met one of the to be top heroes, and somehow managed to be the awkward, sarcastic mess you were known for.
Oh god, you thought, did I just make myself look like an idiot?
The awkwardness of the moment hit you all at once, like a ton of bricks. Your brain replayed every word youâd said, every overly dramatic sigh, and every time youâd made some weird comment about his ego. I probably just ruined any chance of ever having a normal conversation with him ever again, you thought with a groan.
But, hey, at least youâd gotten one thing right: you had no idea how to not embarrass yourself in front of a pro hero. Progress, right?
Your feet shuffled along the sidewalk, your eyes fixed on the ground, just in case anyone noticed how ridiculously flustered you were. You didnât even know where you were going at this point, your legs had basically decided to take you home, but your brain was still stuck on the fact that youâd just made a snide remark to one of the most famous people in the world. That was bound to come back to haunt you, right?
In the midst of your spiraling, a thought hit you like a slap to the face: What if he tells people?
No, no, no, no. Hawks wasnât the type to hold grudges. Heâd probably just chuckle about it with his equally cool friends and forget about it. Right?
⊠what if he tells Mirko. All you feel is dread
But still, the mental image of him, sitting around with his hero buddies, casually telling them about the weird girl who got all awkward and snarky when she met him, was enough to make you want to curl up in a hole and disappear for the next decade. Iâm never leaving my house again, you thought, hands buried in your pockets. Itâs safer this way.
As you trudged home, you passed by the same old buildings, the same street vendors, the same couple having a heated debate about the proper way to cook curry (which, honestly, you were kind of invested in now). It was the same old world. But now, you couldnât help but feel like you were living in some kind of sitcom where you were the awkward side character. This is what I get for getting tossed into this universe, you thought, rolling your eyes at the universe itself. And why am I still here? Shouldnât I be a sidekick by now?
You eventually reached your apartment building, doing your best to ignore the fact that youâd just been face-to-face with Hawks and didnât manage to do anything remotely cool or competent. The elevator ride felt longer than it shouldâve. It was like the universe itself was giving you a moment to reflect on your life choices. By the time you reached your door, you felt like you needed to apologize to the doorframe for even existing.
With a dramatic sigh, you kicked off your shoes and collapsed onto the couch. You stared at the ceiling, wondering if you shouldâve just said something normal like, âHey, cool wings.â Thatâs it. Cool wings⊠nope absolutely not, move on, but no, you had to act like a nervous wreck who couldnât even handle basic social interaction. Congratulations, youâre a disaster.
But as your mind started spiraling into self-loathing, you couldnât help but chuckle a little. The whole situation had been so ridiculous, so out of place, that it was actually kind of funny. Youâd just had a conversation with Hawks granted, it was a weird, awkward, almost cringeworthy conversation but still, a conversation! That was more than most people could say.
âMaybe I should just call it a day. Hide under the covers and pretend nothing happened.â
You threw your arms dramatically across your face as if the weight of your shame was too much to bear, but in the back of your mind, a tiny thought crept in: Hey, if I run into him again, maybe I wonât make a fool of myself next time.
Then again, you thought with a grin, Probably not.
At least tomorrowâs a new day, right? You could try to be normal then probably. Or at the very least, you could give yourself a good pep talk, like, âYou got this, champ. Try not to make an idiot of yourself this time.â
As you lay there, wallowing in your embarrassment, you couldnât help but let out a small laugh. Because, in the end, this was just another bizarre chapter in your weird, barely-coherent life in the world of heroes. Maybe next time, youâd at least try to make a good first impression. Or maybe, just maybe, youâd accidentally land on your feet and make it out of another embarrassing moment unscathed.
Who knew? Anything was possible in this crazy universe. Well, except you being smooth. That was clearly out of the question.
ââââ
The bell rang, signaling the end of class, and as your classmates hurriedly packed their bags and ran out the door, you sat there, contemplating your life choices. Graduation was right around the corner, and while everyone else was excited about the future, you were just kind of⊠existing.
You were in your third year at UA, the very school that trained the next generation of Pro Heroes. But here you were, staring at your desk like it owed you money, with no idea what you were supposed to do next.
Letâs be real, everyone else had a purpose. Izuku? He was going to be the greatest hero of all time. All Might? He was the symbol of peace, the beacon of hope, and probably the only guy who could do a cartwheel and not look like a dad on a trampoline. Even Bakugo had a clear goal in mind: to be the best, which, considering his attitude, was more like a âdo it or Iâll yell at you until you cryâ kind of vibe.
But you? You were just here. You werenât supposed to be in this world. Seriously, how did you even get here? One minute you were living your normal life, and the next youâre dropped into the middle of a world full of heroes, quirks, and crazy villains, but thereâs no manual for how to fit in. It was like being cast in the worldâs weirdest TV show and being told, âYeah, just figure it out, youâll be fine.â
And you were so fine. So fine, in fact, that you didnât even know what the point of it all was. You had no grand dreams of becoming the next All Might or Deku. You werenât even sure what your quirk was half the time, maybe you had an ability to be totally average? If so, congratulations, you were really nailing it.
âLook, youâre fine, youâre fine,â you muttered to yourself, giving the window a dramatic look. âYouâll graduate, become a hero, maybe stand by the snacks table at hero events, get a cool costume, the usual.â
You sighed, staring at the city below. Your classmates had their lives all planned out, while you had absolutely no clue what was happening. âLike, how do you even become a hero if youâre not, like, destined for greatness?â You asked, though you were fully aware the universe wasnât going to answer. Or if it did, it would probably just laugh and say, âSorry, youâre just here for filler content.â
You turned to the empty classroom, contemplating your entire existence for a moment. âMan, is this what itâs like to be a side character? âCause I really didnât sign up for this. I was just trying to live my best life, and suddenly Iâm here, trying to figure out if I should be saving kittens from trees or passing out flyers for charity events.â
A laugh bubbled out of you. âWho knows, maybe Iâll be that hero, the one whoâs really good at handing out pamphlets at superhero conventions. You know, hero stuff. The job thatâs always available but no one really talks about.â
You let out a half-hearted groan. âUgh, Iâm like a glorified intern in the superhero world. âOh, sorry, your quirk is literally just being chill? Guess youâll be a sidekick to the sidekicks!ââ
But then it hit you: maybe thatâs fine. Not every hero needs to be the big shot. Maybe your purpose was to just⊠exist. No huge fanfare, no dramatic showdowns with villains, just a random person who shows up at the right time to, like, hand out snacks or prevent a minor inconvenience. You could totally be that person! Thereâs a whole squad of heroes out there who are doing important stuff without anyone caring about them.
You snapped your fingers. âWait a minute. Maybe this is my calling! Iâll be âThe Human Bufferâ. Iâll help all the heroes hand out protein bars, hold their coats while they go into battle, be that one person whoâs just there to make sure they look good in their hero pose. Yeah, I could be that hero!â
You stood up, grabbed your bag, and strutted out of the classroom with newfound confidence. You might not have a big, world-saving destiny, but you would be the hero who was always there with the perfect snack after a long day of saving people. It wasnât glamorous, but it was a role that needed to be filled, and by golly, you were going to do it.
âAlright, world,â you said dramatically as you walked down the hallway. âYou donât need me to save the day, but Iâll be here when you need someone to tell you where the bathroom is during a fight. Hero work!â
As you passed your classmates, all talking about their big future plans, you couldnât help but laugh. Maybe you werenât meant to be the hero everyone else was, but you were still going to make your mark. Whether they needed an emotional support snack or someone to bring them a towel after they worked up a sweat, youâd be there.
And hey, youâd probably get a cool title too: The Most Average, Most Helpful Hero.
It wasnât that you didnât like the idea of being a hero. Who wouldnât want to swoop in and save the day, right? But the thing was, you didnât belong here. You didnât have that spark that made someone destined to be a hero. You werenât meant to exist in this world. You were more like an accidental extra, someone who wasnât supposed to show up on the hero timeline but somehow did. And now you were just⊠waiting for your scene to end.
It wasnât that you didnât respect heroes, of course, you did! But watching everyone around you with their grand dreams and bright futures made you feel a bit like the odd one out. Even if youâre living in a year with just side characters. They had their roles, their destinies. Meanwhile, you were stuck in a universe where things were already set in stone. It was like showing up to a concert that was already halfway over and realizing youâre just gonna have to sit in the nosebleeds for the rest of the show.
Keigo had mentioned once that it was important for heroes to ease the worries of the people. Isnât it paradoxical that his future words are the ones giving you a path. That they had to be more than just strong, they had to make people feel safe. And youâd never had any doubts about that philosophy. But how could you be that person when you didnât even feel like you were supposed to be here in the first place? It felt like playing a game you didnât know the rules to, in a world that wasnât yours.
Sure, you were about to graduate from UA and technically become a Pro Hero, but you couldnât shake the feeling that you were sort of stepping into a role that didnât really have anything to do with you. You had no grand dreams of fighting side-by-side with All Might in his final battle. There were so any many risks and what if a simple butterfly effect made the villains win by you being here. Honestly, youâd probably end up being the hero who handed out flyers for charity events or stood at the front of the line for photos to be safe. Was that the kind of hero you wanted to be?
âWell, I guess Iâll be a hero of some kind,â you muttered, though it was more out of obligation than excitement. âBut what does it even mean if I donât have some grand purpose in all this?â
A little chuckle escaped your lips. This was ridiculous. Here you were, stressing over your place in a world that was literally made up. You were a character in a story that already had its plot laid out, and yet you were still acting like you had to be a main character. It was all just so absurd.
But you didnât want to be that person someone who just complained about fate and waited for something to happen. You could still make a difference in small ways, right? Maybe not as the next All Might or Deku, but as someone who showed up when it mattered, who helped out in their own way. The world was full of side characters doing small but important things, why couldnât you be one of them?
With a grin, you stood up and grabbed your bag, heading out of the classroom to join the rest of your classmates. Maybe you werenât the protagonist of this story, but hey, you could still make your mark on it. A little self-awareness never hurt anyone, right? Besides, in a world full of heroes, sometimes it was enough just to be one even if you were doing it a little differently than everyone else.
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