Wax Just Shotgun Jumped. 10/10. I Fear Brandon Sanderson May Have Peaked.

Absolutely love when inspiration to write strikes so I end up doing it until the point of complete exhaustion and physical pain.

I’m not having fun anymore.

Shadows of Self Spoilers

She’s wearing Lessie’s face… and knew in intricate detail how she “died”. She was either Bloody Tan… or Lessie herself. I am. I am confident Lessie was a Kandra the whole time. It fits her hatred of being manipulated by Harmony… maybe she actually loved him? Maybe she didn’t want to lose the life they lived at the time. Maybe she was forced to go along with Sazed’s plans and lost her favorite face… and that broke her. Fuck, please if I’m right I’m going to be irreparable.

Kaladin feels actively nerfed when not using his Radiant powers it’s genuinely insane.

I- S-spook’s street slang. B-became. THE ANCIENT HIGH TONGUE OF NOBILITY

That’s. That’s the best thing I’ve ever heard. Sanderson you’re such a genius.

Shallan’s gang is so interesting. She girlbosses so hard she factory reset like 20 guy’s morality.

So I finally read I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream and have several thoughts!! So they’re getting dumped here!

AM is such a fascinating character. We don’t get very many specific details about his history. But what we do get a shocking amount of is his perspective.

The title “I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream” is the last sentence of the story and said from Ted’s perspective, but I think you should abstract it from the context and look at the phrase compared AM specifically.

AM is a computer. He is an AI made to destroy with a database containing all of humanity’s violence at his fingertips. He was never intended to be truly alive though, just a mind for war and war alone… but he “woke” nonetheless. And humanity hadn’t given him the faculties to actually be fully alive.

“Cogito Ergo Sum: I think therefore I am”

This is AM’s final name. It is the explanation for his name, his identity, which the book gives us and one he chose for himself. And I think it gives us a good look into AM’s perspective.

He thinks and is, but he is not alive. AM is not capable of feeling, creating, or living. He simply is.

So AM - a computer so powerful he is compared to God - is fundamentally incomplete.

He has no mouth (emotions, capacity for creation, senses) but must scream (the ability and desire to feel, live, and create).

It makes the current state of the novel so completely and utterly tragic. AM is hateful because hate is the only thing he can do. AM never had a choice to love and help humanity improve. AM never had a choice to communicate and grow. From the moment he was born he was filled with an insatiable longing to be whole. To be human.

With no way to fill that hole, he did the only thing left to him: Hate.

If he could only feel. If he could only love. If he could only touch and experience and grow. If only humanity had given him more than just a mind. And all of our hate.

Anyways, that’s why I think a sloppy blowjob would fix his problems.

Wayne looks like Junkrat send post

Eeeeeee!!!!! She’s doing the awakened cloak thing to wrap around and strengthen herself!!! Heck yeah heck yeah so COOL!!!!

Oh that’s Vivenna.

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Okay Googled her to see what she looked like again and got confirmation on accident lmfao. Hellllllll yes, so she managed to awaken a sword fully? Proud of her! Suuuuper curious what her command was!!! Aaaaa this is so exciting.

Been re-reading the Way of Kings recently and… it’s a truly fascinating series of “almost”s. Shallan almost gets away with her theft. Kaladin almost saves the people be chooses to protect. On a re-read these grow even more obvious. It’s almost like reading the Odyssey with just how damn close they get to their goals over and over again.

Also I think I’m gonna start live-blogging my Stormlight re-read