The Chaos. I Love It.

"can we normalize-" NO!!!!!! we do not need to expand whats considered normal!!! we need to teach people to stop reacting judgmentally when encountering something new and weird!!!! things dont need to be normal to be respected!!!!!!!!!!

bonus if somehow, y/n ends up making a character in their book based on [genshin character] and sighs in realization or like, makes a book about their whole experience in teyvat but makes it seem like a fairytale kind

New Genshin Concept again

An author (Y/N) who doesn't know Genshin exists, but suddenly is in Genshin Self Aware/Cult AU. She doesn't know who everyone is and everyone thinks she has amnesia. So like, now (Y/N) is now having everyone jumping on her making attempts for her to remember and (Y/N) is making attempts to hide from everybody to escape Genshin so she can continue making novels in peace.

"It all started when..."

I like to believe that Nahida is being Scaramouche’s personal therapist every time I think about how he wounded up as Wanderer

Hello how are you doing today

I only saw this now. I'm so sorry, I somehow can't download tumblr in my cp and I don't know why but anyways. I'm doing fine, you?

𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 masterlist

"𝐈𝐟 𝐈 𝐰𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐞 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟, 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐨?"

𝐒𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐔

'To heal, it takes time. May be soon or not, I just hope you find yourself along the way'

This masterlist will serve as the journey of Prim/Shinsuke (me) healing both through Prim's Journey in Healing and finding herself as well as Me, Shinsuke, finding writing as a way to heal myself.

As a reminder, this series may mention trauma (which I will not elaborate or else it'll take us time) and if you are sensitive to it, feel free to scroll.

By this, maybe writing and making my oc cope or deal with it in a healthy way can help me heal too. As it is truly the time for me to heal and live my life with no chains holding me back. Again, this is my way of healing, you can read this whether you want to or not. It's appreciated

WELCOME TO TEYVAT! SHALL WE START THE JOURNEY OF HEALING?

THE CREATOR

Prim

THE JOURNEY

I.

Prologue

Chapter One: Mondstadt, City of Freedom

Chapter Two: The Comfort

Chapter Three: The Darknight Hero, Fairytale

Chapter Four: Dance with the Ragbros

Chapter Five: Dandelions

Chapter Six: One Last Dance

Chapter Seven: Rizzbedo and Death Stare

Chapter Eight: I'm just human

( NEW STORY QUEST UNLOCKED‼️)

"This is the story of the Almighty Creator, a journey that even Cathedrals and History books cannot record. But beware when reading, it gets personal and it will not only feel like invasion, but it will also feel disturbing. If you wish to proceed with this lore, then you shall have fun."

Closed Walls

Closed Walls: Prologue

Closed Walls: Chapter One

This is Amal and her family. My children are living under bombardment in the war 😭 Please consider them your children and help them 🙏🙏 Stand by my side to save and protect my children. They haven't gone to school for a year 🙏😢😢 Donate to save my children's lives 🍉 🙏🇵🇸 We live in very difficult and desperate circumstances, and what is worst of all is that the fear that haunts me increases day by day. Help me provide them with basic life needs. @gazavetters is verified, my verified number in the list is (#55)

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I know I said I'd write the upcoming chapters for "Still With You" and possibly publish the drafted series I have in mind BUT

Everyone knows SAGAU, yes?

I've read them and possibly kind of got my mind think that everytime I play Genshin, they're real sentient beings so each time they die, get hurt or if I need yo remove their artifacts to enhance the other's artifacts, I apologize to them.

I realized that in SAGAU (not the Impostor AU) it's basically like Religion with the way they worship you as "The Creator".

Most of what I write (which is ironic cause I do have plenty of drafts that I don't publish in fear people will judge me like they did back then) consists of self-indulgent or self-insert cause I can't make a character without giving them a part of me so when I write them, I can relate to them.

Which is why Y/N or x Reader is hard for me to write since I'm used to writing a personality I already know or have decided but you do you for those who write it!

So where was I?

If in SAGAU they worship you like a Religion, I just realized if I were to be in SAGAU. I'd have a hard time because I basically find it uncomfortable about Religion talks despite growing up in a household who teaches you about Religion and needing to be Pure and Clean.

If any of my OCs were to be in SAGAU as well, they wouldn't like it to be treated as Royalty. Yes, it's a dream come true to be in Genshin but all the worshipping could sometimes just turn you off.

They can worship you but not too much or just hold it in when with said OC or Creator, it sometimes gets uncomfortable but maybe that's just my perspective and opinion.

Yet I'm also itching to write SAGAU, with twin OCs. Thoughts?

𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝

"𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐡𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐦𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐡 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐨, 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮?"

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐓𝐰𝐨: 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭

masterlist

Prim settles in the room Adelinde had told her to stay in for the meantime, the room isn't too bright nor too dark yet despite being just in a room alone. She feels lonely once again. Those thoughts that disappeared are haunting her once more, she can't stop the voices. She can't help but overthink, she's always been an overthinker.

She grips the side of her head, closing her eyes as she counts to 30 in order to calm down. Drowning out the sounds from outside and only focusing on herself.

I hope they make up again

It's not my right to make them fix it cause I said so, they need to fix that bond themselves.

She looks at the window, seeing butterflies. It broke her, she crumbles apart. Everything reminds her of that person again, she couldn't help it. She let them use her account and found out too late that person made a heart on her map just for Prim, she only found out after that talk.

"I guess even if I felt those feelings fade away, I still love you, huh?"

She chuckles as bitter tears stream down her cheeks, she doesn't wipe them and just hugs her knees.

"Mm...I wonder, did everything...feel true? The feelings...the memories...were they all real?"

Prim sighs and stares at the window once more. Realizing how hopeless it is.

"Your Grace?"

"Hm?"

"It's me, Diluc. Did I bother you?"

"No, is there something going on?"

"Jean had sent a letter, about a musical intermission dedicated for you. She wanted to know if you're alright with Venti, the bard, doing the intermission-"

She wipes her tears and opens the door, Diluc notices her swollen eyes but didn't say anything. Afraid he might invade her privacy.

"Venti? As in, Barbatos?"

"Yes..."

"Hm...is it alright if I do the intermission instead? Well, after me. Then Barbatos could"

"As you wish, Your Grace"

Prim smiles at Diluc.

Come to think of it, I accepted the 'Your Grace' title so easily

Well, what else can I do?

I died in the real world

She internally winces at the word 'died'. She then thinks.

"Say, where can I rehearse for the intermission?"

He leads her to a private room with a piano in the middle of it, Prim thinks that this must be a private room.

"Pardon my curiosity, is this a private room?"

"Hm? Well, a room that isn't used anymore. Do not worry, you can use this for your rehearsal"

"Are you sure? This room might be important, I can't just use this if it's important"

"It's alright. I insist, Your Grace"

"Alright. Whatever you say, Mr. Ragnvindr"

They chuckle and Diluc tells her that he'll call for her when food is ready as he leaves her in the piano room alone, Prim notices how clean and beautiful the room is. She approaches the piano and presses a key.

"Ah...I guess it wouldn't hurt to, hm?"

Her fingers, as if controlled, knew where she should place her fingers to play a key. She closes her eyes as she enjoys the melodious sound coming from the piano.

"Trying to be funny and stuck in a room..."

She feels the pain come back, yet she feels numb. Only caring of the tune coming out from the piano.

"There isn't much more to say about it..."

A song that could only express what she feels, despite being in a place filled with people. She feels alone, as if she isn't there. As if she's an empty shell.

"Can one be funny when stuck in a room? Being in, trying to get to get something out of it"

Kaeya, who happened to pass by, hears the tune and voice from outside the room. He couldn't help but eavesdrop as cliché as it is.

"Try making faces, try telling jokes, making little sounds...ugh"

He peeks a little and sees Prim, busy in her own little world as music is the only thing in her mind right now.

"I was a kid who was stuck in his room, there isn't much more to say about it"

He watched her open her eyes, eyes without shine but empty. Hollow...Hollow darkness inside it.

"When you're a kid and you're stuck in your room, you'll do any old shit to get out of it"

Prim's brows were knitted together in frustration of the swear word, Kaeya was taken aback by the swear but everyone does that, yes?

"Try making faces...try telling jokes, making little sounds..."

He felt a pull to her even more, with the way the lyrics remind him of himself. How he relates to every note spilled in the air like an admirer spilling hearts on paper to the person they caught feelings for. Yet the only difference is that it hits him hard, as if directly attacking him. Surely, that wasn't her intention?

"Well, Well...look who's inside again, went out to look for a reason to hide again"

Prim's eyes were filled with sorrow, as if she sees herself going out of the room before hiding back in again. Afraid to be vulnerable, afraid to be known. Afraid to be left alone again.

"Well, Well, buddy you found it"

The sound of keys being played got softer as her singing does as well.

"Now come out with your hands up, we've got you surrounded..."

She lets go of the keys and sighs, covering her face with her hands as she's deep in thoughts once more.

Until she hears a clap shut those voices down.

"What else can you not do?"

Kaeya says, teasing her as if. She didn't feel annoyed at all, but rather, a smile appeared and she looks at him coyly.

"Oh? Such an eavesdropper you are, Sir Alberich"

"A melodious tune and voice can't help but make me stay, like a siren calling out to a pirate and enchanting him with her voice"

"How poetic"

Kaeya enters the room and closes the door, approaching Prim who remains seated.

"I heard from Master Diluc that you'll be doing the first intermission"

"Hm, I volunteered. It was something I used to do back in...back before I descended"

But when I had the time to do it recently, things happened

Prim ignores those bitter thoughts.

"Then will you be performing that song?"

"Of course not, who would want to hear such sorrowful song being sung in a joyous festival?"

Kaeya tilts his head as he watches her look at him with nothing but happiness and warmth, with a little bit of playfulness.

"Care to play me another song?"

"Your wish is my command. What shall I play for you, dear sir?"

"Whatever you prefer"

He takes a seat beside her as she thinks of a song, Klee and Albedo walks in.

"Apologies for the intrusion, Klee was too excited to play with you"

"That's alright, Albedo. How are the preparations?"

"They're doing well, as for your intermission. I am tasked to have the program prepared and sequenced for us to follow"

"I see, what has been decided?"

"A speech, activities for children, intermission and the feast"

"Hm, easy to say but hard to follow"

"Seems like you're well aware of these kind of programs, Your Grace"

"Ah, yes. I've been in charge of it before, always strict to the schedule"

Klee converses with Prim who's happy to indulge the little elf, Kaeya and Albedo watch them with a smile before turning to each other.

"So, what did Lisa say?"

"She said that you and he are her escorts, we also contacted the Traveller who is upon arrival tomorrow"

"I'll be guiding the Traveller tomorrow then"

"Noted - Klee, how about you draw a portrait for her excellency? I'm sure she would appreciate that"

"Okay!"

Klee sits on the floor and pulls out the paper and crayons she has prepared before doodling as her imagination helps her draw what she wants to portray, Albedo then looks at Prim who chuckles at Klee's adorable actions.

"What kind of song will you be singing in the festival?"

"Hm...hard to decide..."

This is different from most intermissions I'm used to

"Then we shall give you time since the festival is weeks away, we'll be taking our leave. Klee, let's go"

Klee hands Prim the drawing she was focused on earlier before they bid their farewells.

Prim then excuses herself to head to her room, Kaeya thought she was just tired.

She went through her bag and noticed her cellphone, earphones and other important items in there.

She then saw the status and it hit her again, the pain. Yet it isn't pain, but rather...an unknown feeling.

Is it cause...she seems so happy without me?

Come on, Prim. Don't be desperate.

Shouldn't you get used to being thrown away?

Get used to it, people will always leave you.

They promise not to yet they do.

Humans tend to make promises they can't keep after all, shouldn't you learn by now?

"No, stop it. Quiet, you don't know anything..."

She hits the sides of her head as she feels her tears be formed again.

"You don't know anything..."

She sniffles, her heart feeling heavy.

I said I wouldn't cry but I did

Why do I feel so empty even when I'm crying?

I'm sad that she seems to be happy without me but...why should I feel so bothered by it when I could be happy as well?

Does she want to be strangers?

How I dedicated a playlist just for her...

How she grounds me, calms me down

She then feels arms wrap around her, she instantly looks up.

"Kaeya...?"

He looks at her, eyes worried as he still remains a smile on his face.

"You shouldn't hit yourself"

He says, his voice is soft. As if afraid he'll scare her and she'll run away.

I may not know what's the reason why she carries such sorrowful aura.

I just can't stand still knowing she's hurt.

And I feel it too...

"Can you take deep breaths for me?"

He softly asks, caressing her hair as her hands are shaking.

"Let's count to ten, shall we?"

She nods, suppressing a whimper as something inside her claws her painfully. As if her throat was being scratched or her chest being stabbed, she struggled to breathe.

"One...Inhale"

She takes a deep breath, Kaeya gently holds her small frame.

"Exhale...two"

As they go on about it, she slowly calmed down. Suddenly tired from all the crying.

"Kaeya?"

"Hm?"

"Sorry for letting you see me like this"

She whispers as she tiredly wipes the dried tears.

"Everyone has their flaws, Your Grace. You don't need to always keep an image that you'll struggle with"

"It's not that...Façades are what I'm used to. It's just...there's...pain"

So it is what I feel as well...

What she feels, I feel?

"Maybe I'll heal from it which I hope I will...I can always see it as a happy memory from when I was...naive"

She mutters the last part, Kaeya didn't pry on it. Maybe it's a personal matter, it's her decision to open up to him anyway.

Though it feels like we're both used to keeping our guard up around others

"Thank you for...comforting me, Kaeya"

Prim feels the sentimental warmth again, she's always embarrassed whenever people witnessed her...unsightly side and would be embarrassed whenever she thanks them.

People would often leave after seeing who you are, that's what scares her. So she's back to keeping her guard up again, to lock her heart up until it heals. Until she heals.

"If you ever need anyone, I'm always here to listen"

He says, feeling a sense of...relate out of nowhere.

"You know, Kaeya. I'm glad you're here"

Prim looks at him with a bright smile, though she was crying earlier. It seemed like she cheered up, the heavy feeling long gone and is replaced with happiness.

He felt the warmth once again, how when she's happy, he feels himself being happy too. As if her presence alone gives him a strong pull towards her.

"I'm glad I found you as well, Your Grace"

Maybe this time...he'd let himself feel happiness, just this time.

Kaeya Alberich

Friendship Level: 10

Mood: Happy

Prim feels happy, so...happy.

It feels like the burden from earlier disappeared. Maybe it'll come back, maybe it won't.

I hope this moment will be a happy memory for you, Kaeya Alberich

I hope I can be of help to you the way you saved me

shin here! Sorry if it's angst with comfort at the end, I'm still trying to express the pain in writing. Though it doesn't affect me as much, I just hope somehow...this could also help others who want to heal and escape the pain they're going through. Really sorry if they're ooc, still trying to grasp the character's personalities.

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Anotha one 😤 mf was really hating on Ms. Ma'am for nooooothing. "She's goNna StEal tHE bOyS...." Like babes...bffr... As if she isn't constantly flirting w/ MC through the chats...mkay.