Like I Said My Body Is Against Me Currently And For Some Reason I Ate Terribly Today

Some male thinspo because I don't see a lot of them

Desde que eu a conheci, todos os dias são os mesmos, as horas, os minutos, os segundos… Tudo ao meu redor se iguala ao que já passou. Cada refeição é um momento de autoflagelação, se você está aqui, sabe exatamente como é. E eu me sinto… Assustada. Eu estou doente? Eu realmente tenho transtorno alimentar? Eu sou válida? Eu sou louca? Eu vou continuar vivendo assim por quanto tempo? Eu vou morrer assim? Por quê embora eu tente me recuperar (mesmo sendo forçada pela minha família), eu sinto que estou fraquejando? Deus, eu sei que você pode me ver, pode me ouvir, sabe exatamente o que eu penso, sabe exatamente o que se passa nessa mente conturbada… Eu não consigo mais viver assim, eu não aguento mais. Eu sinceramente estou cansada. 

remember to drink lots of water, because your insides are a swampy bog and a water shortage would affect the local frog population

so many followers but none of u anon me so what are we

Doing this as of today!

An apology

I'm sorry if I help fuel your ed

I'm sorry if this account is one of the reasons you have an ed

In sorry if you looked on my page out of curiosity then stumbled down the tabitha hole

I'm sorry if my page influenced your ed in anyway

But let me say something

It might be too late for those people but please I'm BEGGING you if you don't have an ed and are at the "curiosity" stage let me tell you the saying "Curiousity Killed the Cat" has never rang more true, so LEAVE. I'm not asking you nicely I'm telling you FUCKING LEAVE.

I don't care if I seem rude to you, get the fuck off tumblr RIGHT NOW. I ignored these when I saw them and I regret it this disorder is one of the WORST things that happened to me, you know anorexia is the most deadly mental illness ? If you don't recover you will DIE.

I want to scream through my phone, I am so fucking angry, I don't want to influence any eating disorders !!!

As the sister of a recovered anorexic being their family member is horrible, seeing someone slowly deteriorate, hearing the fights escalate, not knowing when you would see them for the last time, wondering why they won't eat this. When I was 8, my parents FORBADE ME FROM WAKING MY BIG SISTER UP IN FEAR I WOULD SEE HER DEAD BODY. DO YOU UNDERSTAND ?! THEY THOUGHT A CHILD, A BABY, WOULD SEE THE PERSON SHE LOOKS UP TO DEAD.

THIS ILLNESS IS NO JOKE, NOT A SKINNY DISNEY FAST PASS, NOT A CUTE QUIRK, IT'S DEADLY.

And as an anorexic let me tell you, it's even worse. You will cry in front of the mirror, pinch your "fat" until it's red, shower in the dark, the scale will be your best friend and worse enemy, you will hate yourself so much more, you will MISS FOOD, you will miss being able to eat fries or pizza or spring rolls or crisps or potatoes, you may be thinking "I'll still let myself eat them from time to time" NO YOU WON'T, you will probably have a breakdown when you have them on your plate, you might purge, you might starve for the next day or more. Your personality will dissolve, you will be constantly angry and irritable.

Oh and also, if you have siblings or cousins I would like to inform you that people are more likely to have an ed if a family member had one and I KNOW you care about your family. (I am not accusing any one of purposefully influencing family members it's just for information)

If you have an already existing ed you can stay, if not then get the FUCK OFF MY PAGE YOU BEAUTIFUL PERFECT HUMAN BEING AND GO HAVE A SNACK. This illness is not beautiful and aesthetic, it's torture.

Reblog if it’s okay to befriend you, ask questions, ask for advice, rant, vent, let something off your chest, or just have a nice chat.

My dash got real dark real quick today.

Normally I'm here for the ed (sheeran) memes but there are no memes today only pain and sadness.

Please be careful guys I'm begging you. January is the hardest month of the year for most people. My birthday is the one day of the year with the highest suicide rates. But please just make it to spring. We'll have a community picnic and go for walks together. You'll be alright. Just please try to hang on.

Reblog if

- You’re not the perfect ana/mia/ed sufferer

- You’re a healthy weight

- You’re overweight

- You’re underweight and still not satisfied

- You don’t have flawless skin

- You procrastinate relentlessly

- You fast all day only to fuck up and eat dinner and lunch in ten minutes flat

- You probably don’t drink enough water

- You don’t like tea

- You don’t get enough sleep

- You know deep down that even when you reach your GW you’re still going to want to stop existing

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Everyone on this site is so perfect

I’m sick of feeling alone

And I bet I’m not the only one