Secretred - Redundercover's Blog

Common Frank Bidart banger (from "In the Ruins," in Half-Light: Collected Poems 1965-2016)

yoou guys wont be laughing when i suddenly collapse unconscious and have to be taken to the hospital. then youll all see <- normal thought process to have while doing anything i dont want to

so real bigmeatpete, so real

After I wake up I need 36-72 hours of uninterrupted silence or I am just not myself

eleanor shellstrop one of the protagonists of all time honestly. woman who sucks so much who gets put in a situation specifically made to make her worse and instead she gets better. filled with love for other people but replaced it with malice for as long as she could because love got her nothing. went from being selfish for survival to selfless for survival and in the end she lands on being selfless for selflessness's sake. she even has mommy issues. she's even bisexual.

data analysis is rly like

it's so over we're so back it's so over we're so back it's so over

i know, i know, negative results don't make my work any less valid but cmon please give me something

hmmm

Love the trope of undeniable beauty. Like just absolute radiance. Like "of course you're into them. everyone is. join the line" or like "damn, god must have put that angel on earth as a penance for all his sins" (platonically).

Lmao this sucks but

Queer, trans Chinese-Indonesian uni student (and dog) needs about $400 to cover rent for one year, please help?

P@yPäI: @ easternrose99

KoFi: @ pen-for-sword

Patreon: patreon.com/kai_hu

I can, uh, do shitty doodles of anything at Pay-What-You-Want starting at $1. I also do proofreading & editing, so if anyone's interested in that just shoot me a DM.

Picture of my dog^ Her name is Emily and she means the world to me.

I know money's tight these days, and I hate that I have to do this at all, but I'm getting desperate and there's not a lot of places that'll take me and my dog (for context I live in Yogyakarta, Indonesia, a heavily Muslim area. Dogs are considered haram, so it's a huge pain to find a landlord that will let me bring her with me).

Rent is paid per year and upfront here- it's a little over $1.5k for me. I got most of it- and let me tell you, as a uni student with no real job, it was hell scrimping and saving to make it- but I'm still about $400 short. My partner was supposed to help me make half of that rent, but ever since he got laid off he's had trouble finding work.. I ended up putting in my half of rent plus some of his but it's still not enough.

December was already pretty miserable- I lost my grandpa suddenly in a freak elevator accident and was shipped off immediately after to do my mandatory community service (graduation requirement). Shit way to start the new year, really.

Since I'm from a third world country every dollar really does count for a lot :") for scale, $5 USD converted to IDR would be enough to get me a steak at a nice restaurant. $400 USD is the equivalent to a little over a month's salary working in the capital city. If you can't donate then please reblog or share, there's a small chance somebody who can help will see it.

Thanks guys. Hope your 2025 is going better than mine is rn 😭👍