I Should Be Drawing Yaoi And Angst Right Now

My most secret (not actually) and definitely most controversial bbc merlin headcanon…

Is that Gwaine is ace-spec

I have written so much about this but will post none of it because I KNOW nobody will agree-

It’s true though. He told me himself☝️🙂‍↕️

ARE YOU TRANS???

DO YOU LOVE HORROR???!!

STOP SCROLLING!!

I’m doing a research paper thingy on how queerness and specifically the trans experience is reflected in or interacts with the horror genre (with a focus on body horror) (that was the most confusing way I’ve ever explained it oops sorry)

Anyway- While researching and constructing my thesis etc.. I became curious of other experiences that might be similar to mine- so if you feel like you could answer any of these questions please do!

have you ever experienced a kind of catharsis or feeling of acceptance/representation while watching movies with body horror? (or horror in general)

Do you find comfort in the transformative and/or destructive nature of body horror? How/why?

Is there a specific horror movie or trope that you feel extra connected to?

Is there a movie/character/trope in horror that you feel reflects your experience being trans?

And lastly just plug your favorite trans/queer horror movie (doesnt have to be explicitly queer and in fact subtextual and unintentional rep is encouraged)

It’s times like this I wish I had a god to pray to

It’s moments like this that make me wish I had religion to comfort me

I should just make my own

I want to go to a confessional but I want to be the one everyone is confessing their shit to

Like put me in a priest collar, shove me in that box, and call me father -

I yearn for your secrets. Your sins are safe with me don’t worry…

and i know people mean well when they give employment advice but god damn some of them its like "did you try submitting your resume to a place that is hiring" fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck no kidding. shit. ive just been printing them out and eating them. yeah thanks i'll try that

every episode of merlin is truly unhinged but like i always forget how fucking insane season 1 episode 10 the moment of truth is. like i just cannot wrap my head around it. at all. the prince's (terrible, just truly useless and insolent) manservant's mother comes to the kingdom asking for help for a tiny village in a neighbouring kingdom because its being attacked by bandits stealing their harvest and the prince gets said manservant's mother an audience with his father, the king even though he knows that to send men into the neighbouring kingdom could be considered an act of war. the king says as much and refuses to help, but the manservant makes the decision to go back and help anyway (he has magic that he'll be able to use somewhat freely without any camelot knights there) and he attempts to resign in telling his prince that he's going home to help, but the prince refuses to accept his resignation and seems truly terrified at the prospect of the manservant not returning whether its by choice or because he is killed in the fight, but the prince lets him go because its his mother and, in an attempt to cover up the genuine emotion he just showed, proceeds to insult his manservant in the most loving way possible. said manservant only smiles adoringly and thanks him for the insults with some intense, lingering eye contact before the prince wishes him luck. the manservant, his mother, the king's ward and her maid make camp in the woods, and whilst everyone else is asleep, the manservant goes to investigate a troublesome noise only to find the prince disobeying his father's direct orders! once again, the prince insults him to distract him from the act of genuine kindness and care. then they make it to the village and the prince, used to all the luxuries of a castle, sleeps on the floor beside his manservant and asks his manservant questions about his childhood and they have real conversations away from the stifling hierarchy of the castle. "he must care for you a great deal," the manservant's mother says about the prince. "arthur would do the same for any village, that's just the way he is" to which she replies "its more than that, he's here for you". that night the king's ward, who grew up with the prince says that merlin is the reason arthur came, "arthur may act like he doesn't care, but he wouldn't be here if he didn't". and, where the manservant would normally dress the prince in his armour, the prince helps the manservant with his. then THEN the manservant's mother says "i see how much he needs you, how much you need him, you're like two sides of the same coin". tell me that's not insane.

In a complete 180 from the tma shit I posted yesterday here is my cat if he went gnarp

🛸 👽 💫 🌌

HIII

THIS IS MERLIN!!! ･:*+.\(( °ω° ))/.:+

He is starting his public access training today!

I bring him home on the 13th to start his task training !! He’s so swag tbh

Expect crazy amounts of pictures and updates when hes home 🙂‍↕️💫

Crossing the road is way too social

I can’t do it I don’t understand the rules and all the cars are mad at me