the confusion when i go to the doctor for a check-up and they find nothing wrong with me despite the 38 illnesses i’ve diagnosed myself with in the last week alone
Okay sooo lately have I have been taking anti anxiety medication and I'm not gonna lie I think it's working, sometimes the negative thoughts are really hard to shut up but recently I can tell them to fuck off and they fuck off, which is awesome! But sometimes I don't know if the pain I'm feeling is anxiety or something bad but I'm pretty sure it's anxiety.
One thing I hate:
How my doctor says I'm fine yet I still dont believe am fine 😑
So I've been on my anti anxiety meds for four months now and I must say..... I feel so much better now. My anxiety is still there which sucks but am able to shut it up easier now. I also stopped googling symptoms which is a huge thing and I don't ask for reinsurance that much anymore but sometimes when I get scared and Jeff decides to be a dick ( Jeff by the way is what I call my anxiety lmao) I ask but only once or twice. I also don't freak out about every little sensations i have!!!!! if I get a headache, I'm not terrified of it. Even though there has been good things, my anxiety is still there which means I still have some of my stuff still. But what really matters is that am learning how not to let it affect me anymore and I'm learning how to fight because im gonna be honest, its never gonna go away, but if I can get it to be not so loud, that's what matters.
Man I have to take anxiety pills just to hang out with someone 🙃
So I recently discovered I have health anxiety and must I say it sucks ass. Every single sensation I have, I think I'm dying. I ask for reinsurance all the time but now even when someone tells me they don't feel a lump or that my eyes are fine I still don't feel fine. Sometimes I wish that it would just go away because am so tired , I just want one day were I can breath without thinking something horrible gonna happen.
i love how we've collectively lost our minds over t8s
Dear my Anxiety, today I want you to know:
Your making me very scared about my eyes that I keep asking people if there fine or I keep checking on them. Your also frustrating me really bad, why?? Because when I'm no longer worried about on thing u always find something else to make me worry about which sometimes makes me want to tell u to FUCK OFF!!! Can u take a break just for one day. Please!
If overthinking was a super power I would be the most powerful one lol
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Over thinking kills your happiness by Me