School Starts Tomorrow And Im Just

I gave in and worked on the costume, didnt realize dry brushing a light layer of gold + black would make as big of a difference on the gold parts of my archon venti costume but holyshit it did

rejection sensitivity is so fucking lame. like boo hoo look at me i felt mildly ignored for 30 seconds and already started planning my own funeral liKE BITCH CHILL it was never that serious

Convention is next week and im so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This a a reminder to not fall victim to the sunk-cost fallacy. Just because you invested time and energy into something, does not mean you should indefinitely waste more time and energy on it, if you decide it’s not what you want anymore. This goes for anything, from books, to relationships, to jobs, to hobbies, etc.

If it’s not serving you anymore, move on.

just something about 13 year old hsy giving up her entire teenage years and most of her 20s just to write a story for one person and one person only. just to give him something to look forward to, to give him something to prevent him from killing himself. something about 1863 hsy deciding she does not want to live in the perfect world she so painstakingly created, but instead going back to the first world to prevent twsa from being written so that the whole tragedy never takes place, only to write that very text herself after seeing kdj attempt suicide. about hsy giving all the 'characters' some similarities to dokja, and writing them as people who were accepted and loved not despite their flaws, but because of them. her telling kdj through the story that it was not his fault, it never was. trying to make him feel all the love and care kimcom had for him. something about sooyoung never once blaming dokja for anything at all. han sooyoung who sacrificed half her life to keep dokja alive. han sooyoung who let the world be destroyed just to keep dokja alive. han sooyoung who was always the first one to act for dokja in kimcom. han sooyoung who chose to play the role of the 'bad person' in order to let dokja move ahead in the scenarios as he planned. han sooyoung who cared so much for kdj she was ready to go on a never ending journey across worlds for him. han sooyoung who wrote orv just to make all the oldest dreams dream of an alive, healthy, happy kim dokja. han sooyoung who wrote not one, but two stories only for dokja. han sooyoung who wrote a 3149 chapters novel which was bad by her standards only to give dokja a reason to live. han sooyoung who so desperately wanted dokja to be happy, there was nothing else she could do but do what she does best, write. han sooyoung who loved kim dokja as a writer loving their reader, but also so much more. just, something about han sooyoung and everything she did for kdj.

Good news for you, this August 23rd.

Suuupper sketchy drawing of @ogdoadfates​ Vaxleth fic “Of Bedsheets and White Noise” on Ao3! https://archiveofourown.org/works/45087286 

I need to draw more but I lack motivation/ideas, what should I draw?

And I don't get to go home till 8:20 tonight

I love that today went from being a good day with high energy to me being so stressed I want to slam my head through a wall

love that for me

😭 for Vax

Oh boy, just like Kiki I have a lot for Vax too. Saddest one? I think it might be how do to how stress and emotionally destructive his job is The Matren locks his emotions away but not completely like as soon as he starts to feel strongly about something it is immediately pushed down and trapped, the best way I can explain how it'd feel would be like taking a med to help with your anxiety but all it does is blur your reaction to things and still let's you have an internalized panic attack (yes something like this happened to me hense me being specific:'3) when Vax is for the lack of better wording on break the walls the Matren put up fall and it kind of hits him all at once. Luckily those who've cared for Vax and have already died are there for him and help him recover, like his mom just hugs him and sings him a song she used to sing to him and Vex