When The Lumineers Sang “so Show Me Family All The Blood That I Will Bleed. I Don't Know Where I Belong.

Every so often I think about how screwed up the mental health care system is because it took me so long to find a therapist that I stopped being suicidal because I therapized myself (I talked to myself in my own head until it worked) months before I got an actual meeting.

I have about 12 unfinished fics because of this (I’m trying to finish them I swear, i swearrrrr)

hyperfixation please stay with me long enough to complete the project. hyperfixation do not fade. hyperfixation finish what you started for the love of god

The IOF opened fire on starving civilians trying to collect food aid murdering dozens and injuring an estimated hundreds or more they then crushed some of the injured by running over them with tanks. This was their “reason.”

on tragedy, fate, and inevitability.

oresteia, robert icke // theatre of the oppressed, augusto boal // song of achilles, madeline miller // the book thief, markus zusak // antigone, jean anouilh // revisiting mockingjay ahead of the hunger games prequel, entertainment weekly // romeo and juliet, shakespeare // h of h playbook, anne carson // war of the foxes, richard siken // the road to hell (reprise), hadestown // planet of love, richard siken // they both die at the end, adam silvera

Martyr and Icarus, a story.

Icarus, another young mortal full of hopes and fears calls hesitantly, Icarus, tell me a thing, please. This human, so flawed and such a helpless dreamer, has bright eyes that can shame gods and a smile so sharp and beautiful that stars don’t shine at all; an impossible love breathes within bones and flesh, like fire.

Was love worth the fall, Icarus? Please, tell me it was, I hope it was, this mortal, youth that is heroic and shattered and slightly afraid, pleads to the sky, pleads to the sea. Hope is almost as dreadful and tricky as freedom, love is even worse.

Oh, Icarus, I think I want to love something divine so hard, I think I want to kiss something divine so much, this young mortal sighs and blinks with tears like shards of glass and blood alike liquid gold. A boy with wings made of wax and flesh as soft as a rose petal cries, for fate is unfair, fate is always so unfair.

Run away from your monster of a lover: they’re going to eat you alive soon, and this night isn’t a night for tragedies, Icarus whispers softly all the things he wishes he’d known.

How To Become a Myth

- Nikita Gill

1.

Fly into the sun, defy anyone who tells you that you cannot love Him.

The ocean will break your fall. even if it is by drowning you.

(You knew he would burn you, Icarus you simply thought he was worth the risk)

2.

Get stolen by a God away from the meadows you once knew, wood nymph.

Become Queen of the Underworld. Turn the land of the dead into home.

(You knew didn’t you, Kore? How to survive you would become Persephone?)

3.

Turn yourself into an echo of the person you used to be, then fall in love with him.

And when he doesn’t notice you Instead falls in love with himself, pine away.

(Narcissus could never love you, dear Echo. Not the way he loved himself.)

4.

Become an indestructible monster. Become the thing that warriors speak of in hushed breaths in terror.

When you finally do die at someone’s hands make sure it is glorious.

(Theseus was the only end worthy of you, Minotaur.)

5.

When the Sea God assaults you, turn people into stone. Turn Gods into stone.

Turn anything that threatens you ever again into stone.

(Medusa, Athena turned you monster to protect you. She took your beauty to give you power.)

6.

Adore her so much that the world grieves with your broken heart’s song.

Almost save her from the Underworld. Almost.

(Orpheus, all you had to do was not turn to look at her.)

7.

Marry a God King.

Watch him betray you over and over again. Become bitter and cruel.

Recognise he will never respect you. Promise to make him suffer till he does.

(Hera, I know why you couldn’t leave him, it was all for love, it was all for love)

8.

Become an undefeated warrior in a war where you lose everything you love.

Even the one you love most of all. Don’t realise it. Keep fighting.

(Achilles, Patroclus’ love would have made you immortal anyway.)

9.

Be unhappy in your marriage. Find a dangerous Prince who promises you a real love.

Run away with him

Do not think of the consequences.

(Helen, you didn’t just launch a thousand ships you set kingdoms ablaze.)

10.

Destroy everyone you love in a murderous rage.

Go on a journey hoping it will kill you

(Hercules tell the truth, you hoped those tasks would be your destruction didn’t you?)

Addendum:

Don’t become a myth. Stay human.

Stay mortal.

It is less wounds.

I promise. It is less wounds.

the lumineers : cleopatra album … sentence starters

“Your time is running out.”

“People say I’m no good.”

“I should’ve known better.”

“I don’t wanna live like that.”

“I’m a long way from home.”

“Promised it all, but you lied.”

“And I don’t feel no remorse.”

“Fate dealt you a tricky hand.”

“I was not born to drown, baby.”

“I don’t have a sweetheart, yet.”

“I can’t live life underneath it all.”

“I’d break my neck to please her.”

“You’ll be on my mind, my destiny.”

“Let your mother know you’re safe.”

“I flew far away, as far as I could go.”

“I don’t know why I just can’t let it go.”

“Memory’s old, but I just can’t let it go.”

“I don’t wanna go, but it’s time to leave.”

“Heaven help the fool who falls in love.”

“You got big plans and you gotta move.”

“Hold me and don’t you ever let this die.”

“They raise you up just to cut you down.”

“You’ve been on my mind, girl, like a drug.”

“Days of my youth wasted on a selfish fool…”

“To hold it, aim it, make all of the bad men run.”

“Enough is enough, he’s a long way from home.”

“But that’s all in the past now, gone with the wind.”

“Oh, (name), you spent your whole life running away.”

“And it hardened like my heart did when you left town.”

“And one day, I pray, I’ll be more than my father’s son.”

“But, I must admit it, that I would marry you in an instant.”

“And when we looked outside, couldn’t even see the sky.”

“You’re right next to me, but you’re a long way from home.”

“You better slow down, baby, soon. It’s all or nothing to you.”

“But I was late for this, late for that, late for the love of my life.”

“Damn your wife, I’d be your mistress just to have you around.”

“And, oh, this too shall pass. This loneliness won’t last for long.”

“And I don’t feel nothing at all. And you can’t feel nothing small.”

“'Cause if we don’t leave this town, we might never make it out.”

“But I’ve read this script and the costume fits, so I’ll play my part.”

“They’re writing my history… Think somebody should’ve asked me.”

“And when I die alone, when I die alone… when I die, I’ll be on time.”

“It’s a lonely road, full of tired men, and you can see it in their faces.”

“They sold you a bridge. They fed you the lines… they fed you to lions.”

“Too young to know, too old to admit that you couldn’t see how it ends.”

“I will not be here forever, dear. So let’s just make this count a lot in here.”

“Were you safe and warm in your coat of arms, with your fingers in a fist?”

“But you held your course to some distant war in the corners of your mind.”

“Will you lay yourself down and dig your grave? Or will you rail against your dying day?”

do you ever get drunk enough that you low key think being a boy would be nice, or like an androgynous point in space and time

obsessed where stories where it is like. the mistakes are unfixable and the worst thing that could happen happened and nothing can go back to how it was. but there was still love in this and love will continue after this and love endures always.

Do you ever just get the urge to buy renaissance era dresses? Because like would I ever wear it, is it practical in the least? No. But I still want to frolic around in my flowy dress