Fuck Everything

Fuck everything

Why is it that I feel my willpower at times can't begin to be matched in certain situations, with specific people?

I'm not trying to talk horribly about them I've just noticed I'm willing to do a lot more in a lot of situations

I'm not trying to be an ass or anything I would just appreciate it if my actions and feelings through actions, were a little bit more of the same as some specific someone else's. I know not everyone is the same and I'm genuinely happy and lucky to be surrounded with some of the people I'm surrounded by. I just feel like I go above and beyond just to receive "just enough," or bare minimum. I don't see how my feelings or loyalty with anything can be questioned when I do more than expected of me so much. But it is what it is for now. Things will change, let's see how.