HEAR ME OUT So I've Been Reminiscing About The Glory Days Of The Dream Smp And Hear Me Out Right: Satosugu

Halloween comic two weeks late bc i will never let tamadrien die

finished the ouran puzzle

the institution of family

*poor punctuation/grammar, what are capital letters again? :) mention of divorce, dysfunctional view of family, might not make sense, i wrote this while trying to fall asleep, therefore not proofread as i fell asleep, see that makes sense doesn't it?

i have only seen the anime, but ouran has taught me so much about the meaning of family. as a child of divorced parents, even though i am blessed to have always been safe and loved, family has always been a confusing, and borderline negative term. familial pressures and societal views have no doubt shaped my view of the institution of family growing up. according to (segments of) society, there was a formula to a functional family, and mine didn’t quite fit the bill. according to (members of) my family, the things I did should be based on the preferences of (said members of) my family, and the stress i faced was only collateral damage for the happiness of (or maximum peace between) everyone else. 

thus, i deduced that my family were merely people who felt a moral obligation to love me; whom i was bound to love in return because of my own moral obligations. I wasn’t satisfied with this answer, because if my family were merely people i was biologically related to, why are morals at play? the only explanation was that the term “family” meant obligations, expectations and responsibility. an obligation for your family to love you, and you them, an expectation to do what those who love you ask of you, and a responsibility to act in your family’s interest. familial love came with such strings attached. if that were the case, wouldn’t we all be better off without family? no strings attached, free to do as we please. it was harsh, but that’s how the world works, isn’t it? the only problem was that even I didn’t fully believe in this black and white world i created in my mind. 

the high-society families in ouran matched my understanding of family perfectly. obligations, expectations, responsibility. the family that encapsulates this in its entirety is none other than the ootoris: kyoya, as the third born son — obligations — has to do more than his brothers to please his father, yet should not outshine his brothers — expectations. That would be overstepping his role. his father frowned upon his involvement in the host club — responsibility. He should have prioritised his family’s preferences over his own and acted in the interest of his family. he accepts the burden of being an ootori, just as I accepted my own loaded definition of family, until we met tamaki.

you're a goody two-shoes, aren't ya?

Tamaki

Barty and Evan: *Maniac giggling*

Regulus: How high are you guys?

Barty: No! Reggie, baby! It's 'Hi how are you guys'

Evan: Reggie baby, how much did you smoke?

Dorcas: Reggie baby is gonna gut you like a fish

im at chapter 6 and i am in love-love with kyokao’s dynamic this is so perfectly characterised and makes me want to cry tears of joy and longing

this gives a whole new meaning to “i just dont think i’m supporting cast, homosexual or otherwise” THAT KYOYA SAYS IN THE DUBBBB OMGGGG (beware the physical exam) im reduced to a teenage fangirl on her knees begging for more of this slow burn (which is SOOOO KYOKAO like cmon none of them want to be the first to admit anything)

“What are you saying?” Kyoya sighs. “I guess…” Haruhi mulls it over for a second before settling on, “I’ve always thought you were the kind of guy we should trust knows what he’s doing. But actually, you’re rather stupid.” It’s times like these that Kyoya wishes he still had a metaphorical stick of debt to threaten her with.

Okay, Cupid! Ch. 10 is out now! And something's gotta give. (Again.)

OHSHC WILL ALWAYS BE MY COMFORT ANIME, OMG I LOVE THEM SO MUCHHHHHHHH

This is what I imagine when reading nerdjo fanfics

Art credits @nekozuu_ from instagram