TJ From Earlier This Year.

Having a traumatic childhood means you cannot talk even objectively about your basic foundational experiences without it being "venting", even if you're not actually venting. You just straight up have a huge chunk of your life you can't talk about, full stop, without it being trauma dumping.

And it not being socially acceptable to talk about your own childhood is super alienating. Sometimes people want to know why, and any answer you can give them is going to be off putting.

It's to the point I get irritated when something I said is framed as venting when I'm literally just talking about my life experiences, doing my best to keep emotion out of it.

I'm sorry to all my friends old and new and loved ones I didn't mean to turn out insane and irksome or bothersome. I wish I had been able to keep my reputation when my last relationship ended. I've done so much I wish I hadn't. It'll never be okay or the same.

Having delusions today. I won't let them win.

"this too shall pass" well can it fucking get on with it

Somehow, I have to let go of the past when I'm not having memory issues.

My Oc Caster. He can control the weather. I've been ruminating this character for years and it's based off of Ausayn and my first Oc I ever made, a Squirrel in 4th grade. He also has clouds in his ears and on his coat.

Quarter angles whoo!