Me
i gave up, on me
im my only mine
and i gave up on me.
i have no value
and there's no worth to me
my efforts & my work
has proven nothing to me
stranger in the mirror
becoming more unappealing to me
i was my only mine
and i gave up on me
we were great together
for brief of time
it was a fun 'we'
i wasted our time
like gold but free
guess I'll never know myself
and whats holding me back
is this the voice of someone else?
or a deliberate devil inside of me?
well, i should not bother
and get used to things
as they are, maybe.
because, it's my ability
to not change, and waste my youth
probably.
its snowballing downwards
absorbing and destroying everything
the end won't be peaceful
the end won't be prettty
i owe my life to someone else
there is nothing in me
i was my only mine
and i give up, on me
Medusa and Perseus by Doc Zenith
blood on women is sexy if it’s someone else’s. blood on men is sexy if it’s theirs. hope this helps.
“But I don’t want small talk. Text me, and without saying hello, tell me why you got so angry at your sister this morning. Tell me why you have a scar shaped like Europe on the left side of your neck. Send me paragraphs about the time you spent at your grandmother’s house that one summer. Call me when I’m half asleep and tell me why you believe in God. Tell me about the first time you saw your dad cry. Go on for hours about things that may not seem important because I promise that I’ll be hanging on to every word you say. Tell me everything. I don’t want someone who just talks about the weather.”
— This. Yes this, is the very thing I love about humans. (via wornsoles-wornsouls)
—reasons to keep a diary/written record of existence.
credits: 1. anais nin; 2. sophocles; 3. fanny howe; 4. @pigmenting ; 5. louise erdrich; 6. tristine rainer; 7. clarice lispector; 8. sei shonagon; 9. elaine feinstein; 10. susan goldsmith wooldridge.
okay, who took my diary??
“my child is fine” your child romanticizes getting lost in a forest.
idk but do you guys ever look up from reading a book and get disoriented because you’re actually in your bedroom or lying on a couch or in a library or somewhere that isn’t the story?
“I know I’m not easy to love. I’m a chronic over-thinker. I overreact more than I should…And every once in a while, I might be a little insecure. But if I am in love with you, I can promise you wholeheartedly that you will be loved with so much passion and intensity that you’ll forget what life felt like before I came along. You will always be cared for and you will always have someone in your corner. Maybe I’m not the best at being loved - But I like to think I’m pretty good at loving.”
— Chelsea Carroll
i’m a hopeless romantic with all these ideal scenarios in my head but i’m also terrified of falling in love and trusting someone new.
“A lot of people tell me I’m a bit dreamy. But I like the idea of that. Of being somewhere else.”
— Alex Turner
i support the whole dont romanticize coffee addictions movement but someone should’ve told this to 13 year old me watching gilmore girls for the first time because so much shit could’ve been prevented
just a lost 18 year old kid in search of something (he/him)
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