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#He’s the big brother she deserved

Bakugo: Which of you motherfuckers ate my leftover katsudon?! I swear to fucking All Might, when I find out which one of you low-life asses ate MY dinner, I'm going to-

Y/N: I'm sorry, Katsuki, it was me.

Bakugo: -kiss you and make you some more, you haven't been eating enough. Want me to make it extra spicy, eh babe?

pov: you’re me in my dr

thinking about how james farrow chose a passage from pericles, a play where someone is thought to have dead at sea only to be reunited with the protagonist, as his letter to oliver makes me feral

Kids are so rude nowdays😂

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You're at the end of year hero award festival. Both you and your husband, Kirisbima, know he's going to win, after all, the man has moved 160 ranks in a year. The presenter, Denki this year, is on centre stage, telling jokes, introducing people and reading awards.

"And ofcourse, we have Red riot, here with his trophy!" He announces, the crowd laughing along.

That is until you're 7'3 boyfriend stands from his seat, walking dead centre up the stage to deck the shit our of dear denki. He glares at the smaller man before sitting down again, your hand gripped in his.

"Keep her outta your dumbass mouth!"

You watch as denki laughs, a little stunned, "What?"

"KEEP HER OUT OF YOUR DUMB. ASS. MOUTH." Kirishima once growls across the room, the whole space feeling icy as his dominant presence invades.

You swear to God you've never felt hotter.

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The senses shift last

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Reposting because Tumblr flagged the last one

Focus on your internal experience. That is what matters. That is what shifts. Think as your DR self and no one else. If you enter the mental state of your DR self you will enter the physical state of your DRself.

It's ok if you don't feel it yet, it's ok if you hear a sound from your CR, it's ok if you can feel your old bedroom still. It's OK.

Shifting is not a physical process. Your physical body is not what's shifting between realities, your awareness is. Your sight, hearing, taste, feeling, etc, are all a part of your physical body.

What the nerves in your body are experiencing doesn't matter because you are not the nerves, you are not the body, you are the awareness. Your body isn't trying to shift, your mind is.

You are trying to become aware of another reality and therefore what you are experiencing in this one is irrelevant. It doesn't matter what this body experiences it matters what your awareness is experiencing.

Shifting is internal focus on shifting internally.

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If you still don't get it think of it this way:

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If you are sitting down and thinking to yourself about everything see, hear, feel, smell, or taste from your CR, then you are LITERALLY applying the 5 senses method to your CR.

If your method is mainly affirming, so repeating to yourself that you're there, WHAT do you think is happening when you keep telling yourself you're not there? Everything you say is an affirmation. It's not that methods aren't working it's that you are literally applying them in reverse.

It doesn't matter what your senses are telling you because you will shift before they do. It doesn't mean anything unless you tell yourself that it does.

If your senses do not match your mental state stay in the mental state until they do. Do not compromise with shit you don't want.

STAY in the mind of your DRself. That's your only job. Continue to think as if you're there. Continue to think about your life in your DR, continue to occupy the mind of your DRself.

This is what so many people get stuck on. I don't expect you to magically stop experiencing it, it is ok that you felt it. All you have to do is continue to think as if you are in your DR anyway.

Your subconscious will believe what you tell it over what your body is experiencing. Your only goal is to keep telling it that you're in your DR.

Yes you might have heard a loud noise and yes you know it's not from your DR. That doesn't matter. The goal is not to magically un-hear it but to avoid returning to the mental state of your CR self.

It is ok if you can't make yourself believe you're there, you just have to think to yourself as if you are. Think as DR you and no one else.

Essentially, you shift mentally before you feel it physically. Before you experience your desired reality externally you experience it internally.

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Tumblr please stop flagging my posts for no reason

hihi hope you're doing well :] if you can, can you do a kiri x reader with an ed? like reader has been hiding it for a while and kiri eventually finds out and confronts him about it, i would appreciate it aha <3

Hell yeah!! Here you go! Since you used he/him pronouns I just made the reader male, hope that’s good! I hope you don’t mind that I included my own feelings with my own eating disorder, it’s not too much but I hope you don’t mind! :)

Warnings: eating disorder, starvation, insecurity, yelling,

You had hidden your body from Eijiro for a long time. You had used to take your shirt off and let him admire your stomach, your chest, your waist, your hips, anything that he could get his hands on. But slowly, you covered back up. Refused to let him come in your room if you weren’t fully dressed. Refused to even take off your jeans when you fell asleep beside him. And to be honest, he was beginning to worry.

It had been a few months of this, of him never being able to even see an inch of skin past your collarbones or shoulders. It’s not that he was some needy pervert who needed you to be in the nude all the time, but he just wanted to see his pretty boyfriends skin! He was aching for it, yearning for it like a starved man for food.

You were rearranging your room today, moving around your knickknacks and belongings to clean and fit a new aesthetic. Your stomach rumbled occasionally, begging you for the food you refused to provide it. At first it was almost unbearable, but you’ve gotten used to it these past few months, gained an ability to ignore it and shove it down.

You hummed to yourself as you dusted your desk and nightstand, having just finished remaking your bed. Your open curtains let in the soft rays of sun from sunset, a golden hue enveloping your room. Soon the stars would come out, and you’d probably go sit out on your terrace to watch as they appeared. A small smile drifted onto your face from the thought.

Your peace was disrupted when you heard three soft knocks on your door, your head whipping around to look at the noise.

“It’s open!” You called, turning back around to continue dusting.

Eijiro walked in, coming up behind you and wrapping his arms around your waist, his head resting on your shoulder. He had hit a growth spurt recently and was now taller than you, something you were very salty about.

“Hey baby,” You greeted, reaching up to ruffle his hair, “Whatcha doin here?”

“Mm… I’m not allowed to come see my boyfriend?” He teased, pressing a soft kiss to your neck.

“Absolutely not, don’t you know it’s against the law?” You smiled.

He laughed, the vibrations from his chest able to be felt on your back. You stopped dusting and turning around to look at him, your chests pressing together from how tight he was holding you.

You pressed a quick kiss to the tip of his nose, giggling when his face turned as red as his hair.

“You’re such a tease,” Eijiro mumbled.

“Only because you’re so cute when I tease you.” You tapped the tip of his nose with your finger.

Eijiro dipped you down, his sudden movement startling you and eliciting a yelp from your throat. He quickly caught your lips in a kiss, one hand resting on the small of your back while the other held the back of your head. Your cupped his face with one hand and gripped his shoulder with the other for balance.

You quickly stopped for air, lightly panting when you pulled away to look in each other’s eyes.

“Now you’re the one who’s a tease!” You laughed.

Eijiro laughed too, then leaned you back upright and held you back in a hug.

“What’s got you so touchy today?” You asked.

“Mmm,” Eijiro hummed, “I just wanna hold you. I missed you.”

You laughed again. “I just saw you two hours ago, Ei.”

“That’s a long time!”

You dragged him over to the bed; Eijiro sat down with his back against the headboard, opening his arms to invite you to sit in his lap. You happily accepted his offer. His hands instantly found their home on your waist, his thumbs gently caressing your sides.

“Whatcha wanna do tonight?” You asked.

“Hmmm… I was thinking we could just stay up and talk. I wanna hear your pretty voice.” He tapped you on the tip of your nose with his finger.

You rested your head on his shoulder, your arms wrapping around him like his did to you.

“I think your voice is the prettiest,” You mumbled, “Makes me weak in the knees.”

He laughed. “Oh does it now?” He teased.

You mumbled something that sounded an awful lot like ‘fuck off’.

He held you for a few moments, his arms completely wrapped around you now and holding you tight to his chest. Although you had gained quite a bit of muscle since starting UA, there was no way you could fight your way out of his warm embrace.

“Hey baby?” Eijiro asked, “Could I ask you a question?”

“Hm?” You replied.

“How come you haven’t like… let me seen you undressed?” He asked, “Not like naked! But you don’t even let me see you without your shirt on anymore.”

Your heart stopped in your chest and your throat closed up. He had noticed? Of course he fucking noticed, he wasn’t an idiot. Despite what people might think, Eijiro is pretty smart. Of course he would’ve picked up on something by now!

You had been silent for too long, so he gently cupped your face and made you look at him.

“Hey, what’s got you so quiet?” His brows furrowed in concern.

You took a deep breath in. You could at least attempt to lie.

“I just… I don’t know. I didn’t even know I was doing it babe,” You answered, stammering.

Eijiro lifted one of his eyebrows up. “I know you’re lying baby. Please, just tell me the truth.”

You let out a shaky breath, turning your head away to avoid his gaze.

“Baby, please,” He begged, “I won’t be mad at you. Just please tell me.”

You screwed your eyes shut.

“I haven’t been eating, Ei. I’ve lost a lot of weight and I… didn’t want you to see and worry about me.”

He lightly gasped, his grip on your hips tightening somewhat.

“You haven’t… been eating?” He turned your face to look at him again. “Why?”

“Because I don’t like the way I look Ei,” You answered, “Im… i’m ugly. And not eating makes me feel better about myself and like im not a fuckin land whale. I just… everything seems so out of control and not eating is the one thing I can control, and just… I don’t deserve it. I don’t deserve food.”

Eijiro stared at you for a moment, fear and dread laced in his bright red eyes that stared into yours.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you Ei. I just didn’t want you to worry cause I’m fine! Im okay, I’m not hurting myself. But… I know you. And I know you would freak out.”

“Of course I’m going to freak out!” He yelled, startling you, “You’re fucking starving yourself, Y/N! You are hurting yourself, and you didn’t tell me about it!”

A small tear trailed down your cheek. He’d never yelled at you before.

“Don’t yell…” You muttered.

He took a deep breath in and shakily exhaled it. “I’m sorry,” He said, “I don’t wanna yell. I’m sorry. But this fucking scares me. You’re gonna kill yourself baby.”

You turned your face away from him again.

“You’re gonna kill yourself, doing this. I don’t want to lose you.” He pressed your face to his chest, his arms holding you close to him and refusing to let you go. “You deserve food baby. You need to eat; you deserve to eat. I don’t want to see you do this to yourself anymore.”

You could hear his tears in the way his voice ached, making your own fall faster too.

“I care about you, Y/N. I do. Just… I want you to get better. But… I don’t really know how to help with this stuff baby. I don’t know what I need to say or what I need to do to help,” He whispered, one of his hands reaching to play with your hair.

“I know,” You whispered back, “I need to tell someone.”

He hummed in agreement.

“Mr. Aizawa?” Eijiro offered.

“Yeah,” You agreed, “He’d probably be best.”

“Then let’s go. I’ll hold your hand through it, I promise. I’ll be here with you through all of it, okay?”