Even If Things Take Such A Good Turn In One Of A Thousand Cases, Who Can Guarantee That In Your Case

Sonsuza kadar yaşamak istemiyorum... Sadece sonsuza kadar yaşamak istediğim bir an yaşamak istiyorum.

— TONI MORRISON, from ‘Beloved’.

small stress relievers for when life feels messy

swiffer your bedroom floor or vacuum your bedroom rug

wipe down your desk with a cloth or clorox wipe

clean off your computer screen

clear out your emails

do a load of your laundry

wash your bedding

maybe delete photos or apps on your phone that you don’t need

go through a drawer and get rid of things you don’t need

fold some clothes

organize your stationery or desk

When everyone in the room is fighting for you

Quotes from Long way down by Jason Reynolds

i always forget how addicting it feels to read a book and not want to put it down. it happens every time; i should know it by now, should know that i'm going to spend the rest of forever chasing that high, feeling it every time i read a new page or crack a new paperback spine or read a new dedication, but it’s always a pleasant surprise. i think we all know it, right? one more chapter before bed, one more chapter after that, so on and so forth. we all know that the inevitable will happen and we all know we'll will be sucked into the story for the foreseeable future, but we never plan for it. we never schedule it. it's a spontaneous familiarity, like knowing exactly what the crack of lightning looks like across the night sky but still watching through the window in a midnight storm. it's everything i could ever want and it's all that i have at the same time.

“i don’t like writing about my day, but i want to keep a journal”:

quotes and copywork. when reading, if you find something you enjoy, just copy it into the notebook. you can copy a whole chapter if you wish, highlighting what caught your attention the most.

definitions. look up on a dictionary and copy it. you could write your own dictionary as well, making up definitions for words.

lists. a classic, write movies to watch, books to read, the playlist of the month or just the groceries you have to buy.

maps. when going somewhere, you could draw the route you took or just a map of the place itself. just look up the place on google maps and copy it. you can draw a little map of all the places you have lived or the schools you have attended as well.

photos

take “notes” as you watch movies / documentaries. write down phrases that caught your attention or doodle.

illustrations and clippings. if you see an image or piece of art that you liked, put it in your journal. if it’s from a book or from a magazine I would recommend scanning it, tho’. it will serve as a record of what kind of art you enjoy through the years.

newspaper clippings from the day.

tickets and pamphlets. from movies, museums, transportation.

postcards

records. you could record for a month what the temperature was when you woke up and when you went to sleep. if you do that for a year, it gives you a better notion of the passing of seasons. you could record rainfall and other seasonal changes as well. you could choose something (an animal, a plant, an item or object) and write down every time you see it.

rubbings of leaves, coins, landmarks.

count. there’s a scene in the movie Caroline (2009) where Caroline’s dad tells her to go count the windows. you could do the same type of counting game if you are bored and write down.

mindmaps/sketchnotes + timelines of books, movies, music albums.

collages

pressed leafs and flowers

your collections. if you collect anything you could write down an inventory or maybe try to draw the items.

recipes. write down recipes and give it a score every time you try it. you could do the same for drinks you try out.

stickers

comic strips. you can find a bunch of it online, glue your favorites in your notebook.

That guy on the bike, IS the main character.

حلم

Holm, song by Emel

If I could close my eyes,

And the dreams take me by the hand,

I would rise and fly in a new sky,

and I would forget my sorrows.

If I could travel in my imagination,

I would build palaces and nights,

where love and my hopes can grow, and we could erase the pain...

A world, in which you see people, whose features

are clouded by oppression, misery, and suffering,

from a bitter reality that destroys everything we build.

A world where you see rising walls of tyranny,

That crushes in our dreams and dreams

And reign darkness and greed in all hearts.