12.05.2025 (mon)

08.04.2025 (tue)

Bio test went pretty okay. Pretty sure I made a very dumb mistake but hey, wouldn’t be me if I didn’t, right?

Was way too tired to read the chapter last night, so I did a quick read-through on the bus this morning.

Watched Lecture 1 & 2 of Haloalkanes and Arenes today—trying to catch up on my backlog since I missed classes for like a week and a half (we’re not gonna talk about it).

Note to self: Try starting studying by 4:00 pm (cuz hopefully that'll give me more time to study.)

Also wanted to start working out again but was too tired (ironic, I know that’s exactly why I should be moving). Classic me.

No tests tomorrow though, so that’s a relief :)

Bah-byee

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14.04.2025 (mon)

(2 of my many many handwritings lmfao)

day (5/30) of DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hours ≈ 4 hrs

💤 ≈ 5 hrs + 20 min power nap otbrh 💤

The eng test went pretty okay :)

Studied for my chem test

Completed random notes of eng & phy

Math hw

Phy lec 1

Would've liked to do one more but I was sleepy and wanted to get at least 6 hrs of sleep (per night is the goal lmfao). My head kinda hurts too hehe =D

BYEE (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)💗

Also, my watch which I'm very emotionally attached to kinda broke today— like the thingy that holds the straps ?? Anyways I'm so heart broken cuz I got it for VERY cheap and it lasted like 3 yrs or smn atp 😭 I'm still wearing gonna wear but 😢

“ If you don't fail, you're not even trying. To get something you never had you have to do something you never did.”

24.04.25 (thu)

Day (15/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 1:00 hr

Had Bio practicals today and forgot to bring my lab coat—thankfully, I was able to borrow one from a friend in another class. The experiment was on onion cells; we had to identify the stage of mitosis, but I couldn’t find anything on my slide. This is my second practical in a row where that’s happened, and it’s honestly starting to feel a bit discouraging. I was in a pretty bad mood after that.

Messed around till 4:30, then joined my live class—but about an hour in, I ended up falling asleep. I was so tired that I decided to nap properly. Woke up at 7, went out, and only got back home at 1AM.

Had a lot I wanted to get done today, but that clearly didn’t happen :( Also, we’ve got a bunch of people coming over for lunch tomorrow... right when I have tons to do. Classic timing.

Gn loves ~~

BYEEEE

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30.04.2025 (wed)

Day (21/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

ypt hrs ≈ 1:35 hrs

💤 4:30 + 20 min power nap 💤

• Watched my live lec on organisms and ppn and did some hw. Nothin else hehe ^^

05.05.2025 (mon)

Day (26/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 2:10 hrs

💤 5:30 hrs + 20-30 min nap 💤

Lec 4 & half of lec 5 of org. and ppn.

Not the most productive day but at least I came up with a study plan b4 I could spiral again lol. Gt cram my speech and read through topics in bio I have a test on tmrw morning as usual :P

BYEEE

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I was thinking of starting a side blog for my random shi and yaps cuz I want this blog just 4 tracking my studying n progress 👀

11.03.2025 (Tues)

thought today was monday wth

Went to bed at 2 AM today and still couldn’t finish my chem notes or review the bio lecture (ughhhhh). Also ended up sleeping instead of studying before school, so that’s fun.

Anyways, here’s my to-do list for the day: bet ya can't tell how much I love to-do lists

Rev bio lec

Finish up chem notes (finally) and study it.

Watch lec 2

Live class

Math,chem,eng,bio hw

Manifesting productivity... or at least, survival.

Hope y'all have an amazing day ahead !

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I want to be completely honest.

There are going to be people who are better than you.

There will be times when someone is going to get ahead of you

And there will be times when you worked hard, and you didn't achieve it.

And yes, it is fine. Completely fine. You are allowed to be disappointed. You are allowed to be sad. And you are allowed to get pissed.

It's the brutal truth that you may not get what you want all the time. And you should learn to be okay with that.

Update: Took a nap right after my last post because I was dead tired and thought it’d help me stay up later. Well... that nap turned into 3 hours, and then I went straight into my favorite hobby: procrastination. Actually started studying around 10:45 PM and only managed to touch chem.

Tried revising today’s numericals, which should’ve taken me 30 minutes tops, but it ended up taking almost an hour because I was struggling with basic multiplication (and also why are so many decimal shits). Like, why am I like this? F you, CBSE, for not letting us use calculators—but it’s not like I can use them in entrance exams either, so guess I’m stuck suffering in silence.

Honestly, I’m so mad at myself, but I’m too tired to even spiral into a self-hate session or breakdown. I’m just here, floating through my regrets. Thinking I’ll try to squeeze in physics during the bus ride tomorrow because time? what dat ?

The OG plan was to finish Lec 2 & 3 today, do Lec 4 after school tomorrow, and attend Lec 5 live.

Reality check? I’ll just do Chem Lectures 1-3 tomorrow and 4-6 on Friday because right now I’m tired down to my soul. Like, this is exhaustion on another level. fml I’m crashing for the night.

Let’s hope tomorrow-me has her life together *sigh*

GNNNNN

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Study time ~ 0:55 hr

12.03.2025 (wed)

Just got back from school and honestly, today’s been lowkey trash. Couldn’t focus at all and zoned out for the entirety of physics—like, my brain just went NOPE. So now I have to relearn everything from scratch 😭. I’ve been trying so hard to be consistent, but it’s days like these that really test me. So yeah, gonna lock in and grind to make up for it.

Today’s To-Do List (aka the battle plan):

Chem - Revise numericals.

Chem - Study Lec 1 (it’s been haunting my to-do list for a week now) + Lec 2 & 3 (I’m not going to bed until these are DONE.)

Phy - Relearn today’s class (because clearly my brain took a day off.)

It’s me vs. my procrastination today, and I’m NOT losing.

Toodles ~~

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