Half Of Her Beauty Is Brains

I am done letting others into my progress just for them to compare, judge, or make me doubt myself. I worked hard to get where I am, and I don’t need to prove anything to anyone. My success is mine. My journey is mine. I am no longer giving people the power to affect how I feel about my own efforts.

I don’t need to share what I’m reviewing, what I’m working on, or how I feel after an exam for toxic people who seek constant validation through grades and others' approval. I don’t need to join in on answer-checking just to feel validated or worried. I am choosing peace. I am choosing to trust myself. I don’t need to compare because I know that my effort will always pay off in its own way.

I am stepping back. I am focusing on myself. I know what works best for me, and if that means studying alone and keeping my progress to myself, then that’s exactly what I will do. I don’t owe anyone my notes, my strategies, or my explanations I share only with ppl who are supportive and respectful . If others are curious, they will have to find their own way, just like I do. I am no longer available for people who only want my knowledge but don’t truly support me or respect my boundaries.

I will not let small mistakes make me doubt everything I’ve done. I will not let others’ reactions make me feel like I am any less smart. I have proven to myself that I am capable, and I will keep proving it in my own way, at my own pace. I am enough. I am strong. I am moving forward for me.

@bloomzone

I was editing my draft as I did stuff but posted it earlier (b4 I was done) and didn't even notice -_-

14.04.2025 (mon)

(2 of my many many handwritings lmfao)

day (5/30) of DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hours ≈ 4 hrs

💤 ≈ 5 hrs + 20 min power nap otbrh 💤

The eng test went pretty okay :)

Studied for my chem test

Completed random notes of eng & phy

Math hw

Phy lec 1

Would've liked to do one more but I was sleepy and wanted to get at least 6 hrs of sleep (per night is the goal lmfao). My head kinda hurts too hehe =D

BYEE (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)💗

30.04.2025 (wed)

Day (21/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

ypt hrs ≈ 1:35 hrs

💤 4:30 + 20 min power nap 💤

• Watched my live lec on organisms and ppn and did some hw. Nothin else hehe ^^

14.03.2025 (fri)

Woke up at 12 PM today and got hit with a killer headache that just kept getting worse 😭. The only reason I survived was because there were just a couple of hours till iftar. Took a painkiller, but it didn’t do much. Still managed to squeeze in some studying—not a lot, but hey, it’s something. Started strong but ended procrastinating towards the end 😭

Things I did today ~

Revised Lec 1 stuff from yesterday

Watched Lec 2 and made notes

Started Lec 3

The good part? I actually understood things pretty easily today, so I’m breathing a little easier. Still a long way to go, but small wins are still wins !!

Anyways,

BYEEEE

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“ If you don't fail, you're not even trying. To get something you never had you have to do something you never did.”

22.04.2025

No studying today :(

Napped till 7pm after school cuz I had pretty bad back pain n cramps. Then did smn for an hour or 2 b4 I had to go pick up ma czn at the airport :P

04.05.2025 (sun)

Day (25/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

There was no offline school today because of NEET (I have only a year left AHHHHH), but we did have online classes.

They started at 9, and I woke up at 9:05—but thankfully class actually began at 9:10. The teachers were struggling with the online setup and it totally took me back to COVID times lol.

Anyway, class ended around 12:40-ish, after which I procrastinated, cleaned my room (which was an absolute pig’s pen for the past week or so), ironed my uniform, and did other random stuff. I still haven’t even broomed my room yet—planning to do that tomorrow.

It’s almost 7 pm rn and these are the things I've still yet to do will have to end up pulling an all nighter just when I was planning to get my sleep schedule fixed wtf.

They gave us so much work just because we had Sunday, which wasn’t even technically off. Watch me as I die?

Also I’m most stressed about the speaking test in English which they count towards our internal marks so AHHHH.

Bio - test on reproductive health

Bio - record

Bio - notes +diagrams

Chem - haloalkanes and arenes test

Chem - notes

Phy - test on current and electricity

Math - relations and functions test

Math - hw

Eng - Speech

Gonna try n pressure the tr to move the speech thing as a class cuz no one prepared shi lol. Tbh I don't think she's gonna conduct it cuz we're kinda behind on portions but then again ... So fingers crossed 🤞🏻.

Gonna do chem notes tmrw After school or smn cuz I ain't got time and there's too much. But like honestly wth is wrong with everyone assigning work like we only have their specific subject to study for—

Gonna watch a one shot for math and chem. Cram phy after that. And Cram bio in the morning with phy again.Pray for me AHHH

04.05.2025 (sun)

Day (25/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈

There was no offline school today because of NEET (I have only a year left AHHHHH), but we did have online classes.

They started at 9, and I woke up at 9:05—but thankfully class actually began at 9:10. The teachers were struggling with the online setup and it totally took me back to COVID times lol.

Anyway, class ended around 12:40-ish, after which I procrastinated, cleaned my room (which was an absolute pig’s pen for the past week or so), ironed my uniform, and did other random stuff. I still haven’t even broomed my room yet—planning to do that tomorrow.

It’s almost 7 pm rn and these are the things I've still yet to do will have to end up pulling an all nighter just when I was planning to get my sleep schedule fixed wtf.

They gave us so much work just because we had Sunday, which wasn’t even technically off. Watch me as I die?

Also I’m most stressed about the speaking test in English which they count towards our internal marks so AHHHH.

Bio - test on reproductive health

Bio - record

Bio - notes +diagrams

Chem - haloalkanes and arenes test

Chem - notes

Phy - test on current and electricity

Math - relations and functions test

Math - hw

Eng - Speech

No nap bc revising took longer than i anticipated 😭. Gonna read the reader b4 my class starts :’)

24.03.2025 (mon)

Hey chattt ;)

The plan for today :

Rev bio lec 1 n 2 + reader

Live lec

Chem lec 4 + notes

Live lec notes + complete Z notes

Complete phy notes cuz I forgot my nb 2 days in a row fml

complete eng notes

Lec 5 ? a lil ambitious but—

Might nap after revising bio till my live lec. If I can, I’ll try not to so I can sleep early—idk. Woke up at 6:30 with ≈4 hours of sleep, but I was weirdly awake and full of energy (which apparently annoyed my friends who got more sleep lol).

Whatever routine I have going rn is working, but idk if I can keep this up when I go back to waking up at 5 AM for school (bus comes at 5:40, ugh). I kinda wanted to make 4 AM wake-ups + 10 PM bedtime a habit, but I legit haven’t followed it for even a day—

Anyways, hope y’all have an amazing day ahead !

MWAHH

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Thank you to everyone who got me to a 100 likes! 😭