02.03.2025

24.04.25 (thu)

Day (15/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 1:00 hr

Had Bio practicals today and forgot to bring my lab coat—thankfully, I was able to borrow one from a friend in another class. The experiment was on onion cells; we had to identify the stage of mitosis, but I couldn’t find anything on my slide. This is my second practical in a row where that’s happened, and it’s honestly starting to feel a bit discouraging. I was in a pretty bad mood after that.

Messed around till 4:30, then joined my live class—but about an hour in, I ended up falling asleep. I was so tired that I decided to nap properly. Woke up at 7, went out, and only got back home at 1AM.

Had a lot I wanted to get done today, but that clearly didn’t happen :( Also, we’ve got a bunch of people coming over for lunch tomorrow... right when I have tons to do. Classic timing.

Gn loves ~~

BYEEEE

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Let me give you, the internet, and mostly myself, some executive function advice.

Sometimes, when you find yourself somehow unable to do a thing you need or want to do, one issue might be that your brain has subconsciously tacked on extra tasks, and those tasks are making the whole thing too overwhelming!

Tl;dr: don't do that!

For example, I like to track the books I read and I've been meaning to add a few books I've recently finished. But my brain has added that I should also write a review, and the exact dates I read them (which I can't even remember) and oh by the way I should finish moving my stuff over to storygraph and before I know it that 1 task has turned into 4! And my executive functioning says no.

In fact, while I was getting the idea to write this post, my brain went "wouldn't it be nice to also write a post about y and tag them all properly and go back through my posts and find all mental health posts and tag those too" and wouldn't you know it. 4 tasks.

Discard those extra tasks. Don't even write them down. They don't matter. Strip it down to the 1 task you started with and only do that.

Sure, you won't have achieved some theoretical better end result but that end result was never gonna happen anyway. It was paralysing you from getting the initial task done. And maybe once that initial task is done, you can get to one (1! not 4!) additional task. Later. Not now.

Half-assing is better than no-assing.

Staying consistent even when it’s not immediately rewarding is where the shift happens.

18.03.2025 (tue)

TO DO LIST :

Math and phy hw

Live class

Lec 3

Lec 4

Lec 3 n 4 notes

Chemical Kinetics - start studying

Couldn’t finish everything bc towards the end, I got HIT with crippling cramps and was fkn dying. Spent the past two hours straight just crying lol. Took a painkiller which did ABSOLUTELY nothing. Took another one, still felt like I was being ripped apart. I feel so much better now I wanna cry like that's all I wanna do I swear

On the bright side, my mom was the sweetest and took care of me. I love her sm 😭😭.

Also, tried to take a quick power nap after I was back from school since I was half asleep while trynna study and yeah, that turned into a 2 hr nap. Woke up 10 minutes late to class. Love that for me 😀

Got LOADS to do tmrw 😭 Idk how am gonna manage AGHHHH

Anyways,

Take care lovesss

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07.05.2025 (wed)

Day (28/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 1:10 hrs

Just my live lec :(

LETSS LOCK INN ✊🏻

It’s a privilege to study, many women around the world are barred from this human right: to read, write and learn. Be grateful anytime your pen touches paper, or you are learning theorems developed by intelligent, hardworking men and women from ages ago.

It’s a pleasure and a privilege to learn. Not only is it a privilege to study, but you should be aiming and striving to take science, medicine, law, philosophy, art further than the marker we have reached. It’s a comforting thought to think, from your work generations of humanity down the line will benefit.

How many brilliant women were in the shadows of amazing feats of science and technology and life changing patents? Contribute while you can. If you pour into knowledge - it will pour back into you.

04.05.2025 (sun)

Day (25/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

There was no offline school today because of NEET (I have only a year left AHHHHH), but we did have online classes.

They started at 9, and I woke up at 9:05—but thankfully class actually began at 9:10. The teachers were struggling with the online setup and it totally took me back to COVID times lol.

Anyway, class ended around 12:40-ish, after which I procrastinated, cleaned my room (which was an absolute pig’s pen for the past week or so), ironed my uniform, and did other random stuff. I still haven’t even broomed my room yet—planning to do that tomorrow.

It’s almost 7 pm rn and these are the things I've still yet to do will have to end up pulling an all nighter just when I was planning to get my sleep schedule fixed wtf.

They gave us so much work just because we had Sunday, which wasn’t even technically off. Watch me as I die?

Also I’m most stressed about the speaking test in English which they count towards our internal marks so AHHHH.

Bio - test on reproductive health

Bio - record

Bio - notes +diagrams

Chem - haloalkanes and arenes test

Chem - notes

Phy - test on current and electricity

Math - relations and functions test

Math - hw

Eng - Speech

No nap bc revising took longer than i anticipated 😭. Gonna read the reader b4 my class starts :’)

24.03.2025 (mon)

Hey chattt ;)

The plan for today :

Rev bio lec 1 n 2 + reader

Live lec

Chem lec 4 + notes

Live lec notes + complete Z notes

Complete phy notes cuz I forgot my nb 2 days in a row fml

complete eng notes

Lec 5 ? a lil ambitious but—

Might nap after revising bio till my live lec. If I can, I’ll try not to so I can sleep early—idk. Woke up at 6:30 with ≈4 hours of sleep, but I was weirdly awake and full of energy (which apparently annoyed my friends who got more sleep lol).

Whatever routine I have going rn is working, but idk if I can keep this up when I go back to waking up at 5 AM for school (bus comes at 5:40, ugh). I kinda wanted to make 4 AM wake-ups + 10 PM bedtime a habit, but I legit haven’t followed it for even a day—

Anyways, hope y’all have an amazing day ahead !

MWAHH

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Update: Took a nap right after my last post because I was dead tired and thought it’d help me stay up later. Well... that nap turned into 3 hours, and then I went straight into my favorite hobby: procrastination. Actually started studying around 10:45 PM and only managed to touch chem.

Tried revising today’s numericals, which should’ve taken me 30 minutes tops, but it ended up taking almost an hour because I was struggling with basic multiplication (and also why are so many decimal shits). Like, why am I like this? F you, CBSE, for not letting us use calculators—but it’s not like I can use them in entrance exams either, so guess I’m stuck suffering in silence.

Honestly, I’m so mad at myself, but I’m too tired to even spiral into a self-hate session or breakdown. I’m just here, floating through my regrets. Thinking I’ll try to squeeze in physics during the bus ride tomorrow because time? what dat ?

The OG plan was to finish Lec 2 & 3 today, do Lec 4 after school tomorrow, and attend Lec 5 live.

Reality check? I’ll just do Chem Lectures 1-3 tomorrow and 4-6 on Friday because right now I’m tired down to my soul. Like, this is exhaustion on another level. fml I’m crashing for the night.

Let’s hope tomorrow-me has her life together *sigh*

GNNNNN

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Study time ~ 0:55 hr

12.03.2025 (wed)

Just got back from school and honestly, today’s been lowkey trash. Couldn’t focus at all and zoned out for the entirety of physics—like, my brain just went NOPE. So now I have to relearn everything from scratch 😭. I’ve been trying so hard to be consistent, but it’s days like these that really test me. So yeah, gonna lock in and grind to make up for it.

Today’s To-Do List (aka the battle plan):

Chem - Revise numericals.

Chem - Study Lec 1 (it’s been haunting my to-do list for a week now) + Lec 2 & 3 (I’m not going to bed until these are DONE.)

Phy - Relearn today’s class (because clearly my brain took a day off.)

It’s me vs. my procrastination today, and I’m NOT losing.

Toodles ~~

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FINALLY started a personal blog @midnightatthemalfoys

from now on this will be strictly a study blog <33

lets work hard !!!