LAST Official Art Post of 2024! The year I promised myself no more Miraculous and then just kept on drawing it anyways. Have like a hundred ideas of stuff I want to do in 2025 as well as no plans to ever watch the show again at the same time. I just lack the pride to keep watching a kids show. This is a fun paradox, don’t remember anything related to this in psychology. Maybe the idea of you watching shows based on stuff you want and this reminds me of a childhood I felt I missed?
Watching these kids finding these friends, skills, confidence and maturity lies closer to what I wished I had as a child and what felt like the lives many around me led. I spent my days staring into the wall in the school corridor or up at the moon before going to bed wondering about my place in the world and finding questions for everything between “what’s outside the known universe” and “do I deserve to breathe the same air as my classmates?” Apparently, my parents’ tactic of constantly reminding me of my diagnosis and differences did NOT have any positive result on my mental health :D, who figured.
I’m glad that I have all that today. A back bone, a small but diverse social life, an actual close relationship with my family and pride to go outside the door. But this show just takes that and makes me regret I didn’t find it sooner.
So my relationship with this show is something I have been wondering about a lot this year and seems to be a mix of escapism and weird sense of nostalgia to small moments of fun and acceptance and also, regrets of why I didn’t just do this or that or blah.
So going into 2025, I have an updated sense of what I want to draw, not to draw, what I want my stuff to say, the overall feeling and vibe of the individual ideas and what kind of artwork I can find myself sharing with my social group. And Miraculous have found a way into that mix.
So cheers to the new year and a happy warning, if you’re still following me, you’re not getting rid of these two. Nor me, feeling sorry for myself, but I’m working on that last part.
The Choice
The Choice. The important choice. For some, the final choice. The one needed to be made every single day. Choose if you can find the search for strength to fight just another day. Weak legs, fake smile, empty heart. The thoughts, the bullies, the oppressors, the search for the light in the end of the tunnel. The quiet fight. The unseen fight. The one bypassers won’t know about it until it’s too late.
The maths’ not perfect, I didn’t keep it in a journal or anything but 10 years ago now, I made a choice. I stared down into the abyss and said No and I have been saying No everyday since. Some days have been easier than others. And I’m grateful I did what I did. 10 years later, I have strengthened my bond with my family, I went to the most amazing high school and made friends. Once a childhood bully is today the best of them. I’ve travelled, I’ve made memories, I’ve gotten awards, met idols. I got to hold my nephews, hear them speak and walk and laugh with pure unfiltered joy. I got jobs and earned colleagues’ respect and proved myself and my oppressors that they were wrong. I’ve been a rock, I have inspired others to follow their dreams. I do matter, I should breathe this air too.
10 years and this topic is still as important to be as ever. 4 days ago was Suicide Prevention Day. I really wanted to make something about it but couldn’t come up with anything worth presenting until now.
So a friendly reminder, keep in touch with the people around you, check up on them, be there for them. Be a rock. Or ask for one. Turn to your contacts, you might be surprised how much they care if you let them.
Keep fighting, it will be worth it in the end.
Originally had another Newt-related post for today… or maybe Wednesday? Well, this was planned for Wednesday but moved to today cause apparently, it is Newt’s birthday. Or was. Dependent on when you see this. Moved things around a lot trying to make my schedule work. But it was Newt and Tina but needed a pause on the couples-thing so here’s Newt with his other true love… Beasts!
Happy Birthday mr. Scamander!
The Moon Dance - Remake 24-08-22 v 22-08-22
Oof, that purse, those shoes.
Should become a fashion designer
Look at him go! This was done just after my Hammond actually but been postponed so many times for other stuff. Wanted it to feel grounded, touchable. A real suit with an awkward mask and big gloves. Focus less on the hero and more on the story of the angsty kid with access to his aunt’s sewing machine, ready to take on the world.
Also, it happens to be my Birthday. Yay, go me.
Redrawing my old art of Newt 💛
My sister requested it. Want to draw more of the other Miraculous-users.
Think I got something for Hawkmoth and Bunnyx, not quite sure about Carapace.
I don't know if I love or hate how much I can relate to this
I love talking with neurotypical people about my executive dysfunction because I'm like "yeah there's this invisible wall in my head that I'm incapable of getting past no matter what I do and it stops me from doing things" and they're like what the actual fuck
Meanwhile other neurodivergents are like
"Their World"
Another instance of me finding something cool and not bringing my camera. I always take this long walk in the morning to work behind the blocks and there’s this stone wall separating the neighborhood and the woods and looking up one day, I just saw this doe staring at me at the top of the hill, framed by the trees.
A New Year’s Resolution I made in 2025 is to do more original stuff, do more things I find interesting to show to friends, family, strangers, cool stuff to put up on my walls one day. And also Newt… haven’t started on that part yet… but this is a good start I think on a “observations”-series, has a lot of notes of stuff I’ve seen that would just be fun to put on canvas and share.