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The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You trade in your sense for an act. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. There can't be any large-scale revolution until there's a personal revolution, on an individual level. It's got to happen inside first.

- Jim Morrison

#PersonalRevolution

When Jaun Elia wrote:

'کیا ستم ہے کہ اب تری صورت

غور کرنے پہ یاد آتی ہے'

And when Taylor Swift said:

'And though I can't recall your face

I still got love for you'

I realised that sometimes even if our brain wipes out some people from our memories...the love we have for them still remains intact in our hearts...

Richard Hugo, Essay on Poetic Theory: The Triggering Town

Logan telling Shiv "You're marrying a man fathoms beneath you because you don't want to risk being betrayed" except Tom does betray her precisely because he know she thinks he's beneath her, ending the season with a hand on her shoulder and his face out of frame exactly like the picture of Shiv and Logan in the opening credits. I'm throwing myself into the sun.

season one episode twelve, “later” / francis forever by mitski / boot theory by richard siken / three women by sylvia plath / making amends by @holly-warbs / the cart by mary ruefle / love as depicted by subwayhands on instagram / season six episode sixteen, “nice while it lasted”

something else i've been thinking about lately is how much more alive houses are to people who experience domestic abuse. some things in the house are protectors - the door to your room that swings shut behind you without you pushing it, the stairs that always creak loud enough to let you know that someone's coming before they get there... whereas other things are alive with malice - the cabinets that slam and the dishes that break, the vacuum cleaner that always manages to sound angry and accusing. the whole house listens, and the whole house remembers, and everything takes sides.

“I’ve seen a lot of beautiful things with a heavy heart.”

— Albert Camus

on loneliness

Amy Dunne // Nickie Zimov // Carol Lee, To Die For // Marie Alsing // Anne Sexton, A Self Portrait in Letters // As Tears Go By (1988) dir. Wong Kar Wai // Fyodor Dostoevsky in a letter to his wife Anna Dostoevsky, 28 August 1879 // Aron Wiesenfeld // Margaret Atwood, from “Thoughts From Underground”

how do i even explain Everywhere Everything All At Once? It’s got multiverse shenanigans, sapphics, kung fu, generational trauma, taxes, rocks, romance, sausages, immigration, laundry, ADHD, nihilism, absurdism, bagels, yin yang, existential crisis, the fear of being a failure and all your choices being wrong, coming out, acceptance, choosing love and kindness despite the coldness of the universe and it’s lack of meaning, dildos, butt plugs, milfs being badasses, girlbosses, malewives, scifi, depression, passive metaphors for suicide, mother issues, ratatouille, confetti, the IRS coming for your ass, James Hong

Ta-Nehisi Coates, from Between the World and Me

Text ID: The pursuit of knowing was freedom to me, the right to declare your own curiosities and follow them through all manner of books. I was made for the library, not the classroom. The classroom was a jail of other people's interests. The library was open, unending, free.