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“Sie weiß, dass du gerne eine Beziehung mit ihr hättest. Aber das hält sie nicht davon ab, dir zu erzählen, wie viele Kerle sie gefickt haben.“

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My first girlfriend of 14 years ago messaged me on bumbl last Jan. We immediately hit it off, as if we never broke up. I quickly realized I felt the same way for her as I did when I was 18. We were together for 2 years but known each other since I was 15 and her 13. She told me she also felt the same way for me and was the first to say I love you. A month in to reuniting we were seeing each other constantly and spending the whole weekends at my house fucking at least few weekends a month. I wanted a relationship but she said she wasn’t ready. I am 32 years old single guy, no kids living alone. She’s 30 with 2 kids, single and lives with her kids.Six months in she gets mad at me for something minor (she said I was acting like an asshole and was in a bad mood often) and ghosts me, three depressing months later (sep19) I reach out to her and we work it out. Since then we’ve gotten along real well and have gotten even closer in some ways. Thing is, since ghosting me she’s been much less affectionate. We haven’t had sex besides one time she gave me head several months ago. Now she won’t come over at all. I asked her about this and she said she no longer wants casual sex and that she also doesn’t want a relationship. We still kiss and make out but doesn’t go farther. I was clear about my intentions that I want to be with her. She told me she appreciated me, loves me but that right now she’s not ready yet.The thing is, I have this feeling that she’s just not wanting to take me serious. As if she just down right doesn’t want to be with me in that way, now or later. I also feel that she’s seeing someone else. I’m not sure why I feel this way but I do and I can’t shake it. On valentines I took time off from work during the day, took her out, gave her bunch of flowers and a necklace. Since then I’ve barely even heard from her besides one or two worded text and then will quit responding mid conversation. Funny thing is she said she couldn’t go out for the evening because of the kids, but that day she texts me later on saying she’s out to dinner with a friend and then didn’t hear from her again for a day. It feels like I put a lot of effort to see her and she doesn’t at all.Last Christmas she calls me crying because she couldn’t buy her kids gifts for Christmas, I was heartbroken for her so I let her borrow $500. She was also having a hard time paying for rent and was behind two months and was getting threatened to be evicted. Being the provider that I am, I said don’t worry I’ll let you borrow the money and gave her $1500. The other day she couldn’t pay for a car rental after totaling her car, I let her borrow $200. She said she would pay me back the $200 the same day after getting paid and never did. Since she totaled her car she’s getting a check for a new car and said she’d pay me back when she got it, that was a month ago. Initially she would say she would pay me back and I haven’t heard anything about it since. She just quit her job last week so now won’t have any income for some time. Honestly, it sucks to lose that much money but I don’t even care about the money. If we were together I probably would have just let her have it. What I care about is being taken as a fool. I don’t feel bad about helping her, I would do it for anyone I love but I also know I sure as fuck wouldn’t be paying her rent if she’s seeing someone else.I swear I’m not this much of a cuck/beta/provider but this girl has my number, man. Since I was 15 I’ve been in love with her, not even 12 years and a bad break up changed it. I never ever treated a girl the way I treat her. I don’t know if I could ever just be friends. But I also don’t know how long I can or should keep this up. Before this, my life consisted of dating many different women, I still had trouble getting the prettier ones but I wasn’t lacking a sex life. I’ve considered dating but I feel bad about it.TLDR: Still in love with first girlfriend. She doesn’t want to have sex anymore or a relationship. Let her borrow 2200. Don’t know how to get her to take me seriously and how to get my money back.So my question are:Am I technically friend-zoned right now? And if so what do I do about it?Do you think maybe she lost sexual attraction to me?How can I improve my chances of being with her again?Should I ask if she’s seeing other people?I know some people will say to just give her an ultimatum and stop contacting her but I don’t think I can. I’ve gotten so attached to her, she’s my best friend. I wish I could remove these feelings and just be friends. But if I were to, how do I approach getting her to pay me back the money?In the end should I just eat the cost and take it as an expensive lesson in being a beta provider? Or should I get more stern about it, and if nothing works, taking it to court?Have I gone fucking crazy? via /r/seduction

You love edging all fucking day. God you’re so stupid! But hey, if it always gets a pathetic loser like you off, and away from real women then great. Do it some more! Fucking idiots Lol :)

You’ve known her for years.  You’ve tried working up your courage to ask her out.  You thought today might be the day. But then she reminds you of how good a friend you are.

beta males deserve only rejection and misery👠