Why didn't you just tell me that in the beginning?
I was afraid it would scare you off.
Random TCF Shower Thoughts Time:
do you think Cale would K.O. if he used Instant and Record at the same time?
How bad would Cale's records act up if he was trapped under some rubble somewhere for days during part 2, far from his family?
(longer idea inspired by us questioning Cale's third ability below)
Give me Cale with some sort of Survivor ability. Where Kim Rok Soo lives because he literally can't die. Where whenever he's on the edge of death, when his heart is about to stop, Survivor kicks in and goes above and beyond his limits to keep him from dying, be it by fighting or running away. Where during a battle Cale is fatally injured and his body stills for one second before immediately getting back up, forcing broken bones back into place and wiping blood from his face and gunning it towards the enemy like doom incarnate.
His family is screaming because "gods dammit Cale-nim/Unlucky bastard/Cale-nya/Human/Young Master/Dongsaeng you're bleeding out!!! you've done enough, stop fighting!!!" And something feels so Wrong about this and they don't like it one bit. But they can't place what's wrong until after the battle once they've forced Cale to lay down and realize he hasn't said a word and has been diligently listening to their demands that he rest and let them handle the rest.
His eyes are blank, not like when he uses Record, no it's worse somehow. There's nothing behind his eyes at all-Survivor is active and in control, not Cale. Cale's down for the count, deep deep down somewhere recovering because that attack did more damage than anybody realized and he's not waking up anytime soon.
Give me everyone losing their minds over this with worry and fear because there is Something walking around that looks like their beloved red head, Something that mechanically eats apple pie and drinks lemon tea but doesn't pet the kittens and give them a scammer smile. Give me the kids rambling about their days in his lap. Give me Alberu offering Cale golden plaque after golden plaque. Give me Choi Han quietly whispering to Cale in Korean while he guards him day after day. Give me everyone doing everything they can think of to get his attention and wake him up, only for Survivor to ignore it all.
Survivor is there to ensure Cale's physical wellbeing-to help him survive, not to help him live (because yes there is a difference)
Cale is so ready to take on everything.
Iâm rereading the heart scene and, just- his life as Kim Rok Soo had such an impact on how he handles pressure, itâs actually sad. When he was KRS, people relied on him. Heavily. As the team leader, people saw him as a life line.
He never took breaks, he put himself in danger and sacrificed his well-being by using his abilities (for example, Instant), and as we hear later on- he had a 0% mortality rate. When people around him were weak, he became strong in order to overcome it. Nobody died when he became the Team Leader.
And in the world they lived in- yes! Iâm not surprised at all that people latched onto him. No matter how much they care about him, they couldnât help but allow him to save them. Over and over again.
So Cale had this expectation for himself too! When others give up -> he does not. In front of impossible tasks, he rises up, because thatâs how it should be. How could someone who had so little as a child- no parents, no friends, no stability or safety or reliability- how could he possibly give up what heâs managed to attain? How could he let his friends get hurt when he knows that he could be hurting instead?
And then he becomes Cale, and he relaxes. His new companions are strong, and heâs not going to be with them for very long anyway. He will slack off, chill out, and take his hands off the wheel.
But he canât- he just canât stop helping them. Like an addiction, he helps Choi Han get a connection to Ron and Beacrox. Then he saves Raon. He helps Lock, Amiru, Mary, Alberu, Queen Litana. Itâs fucking impulsive. Itâs for his own benefit but he tangles himself into the story because tampering with Fate is a fucking side hobby for him.
Then he develops relationships and friends- and when he sees danger approaching he stands up against it like a solid wall. Over and over again.
And, what? He naturally expects the people behind him to stay behind that wall. To listen to him and help, but to stay safe in the long run. He expects them back off when something looks impossible. Because- well, heâs right here isnât he? Overcoming the impossible is second nature for him!
But the people around him⌠arenât standing by passively, like they did when he was KRS. When he was KRS they let him protect them for 15 years. Then heâs Cale Henituse and they donât. They learn from him. They learn to stand up against the unpredictable and the indomitable. They see him and learn.
They arenât happy about his sacrifices, but he tells them to be full and content and to eat well⌠so they listen. For a while. They understand wisdom and they take his words and learn their limitations.
Right until he stabs himself in the heart. What the fuck?! Biggest hypocrite in history right??! Canât trust this guy to not bleed and sacrifice himself for shit!!!
So they angrily push aside his worry and their limits and they decide that itâs THEIR turn to protect him. Even against a GOD, Cale has shown them that nothing is impossible so theyâre going to turn the tables and THEYâRE going to be the ones to cough blood!!
This scene is so heart wrenching, but itâs Cales disbelief that hurts the most. Heâs fucking stunned. Heâs someone who canât even imagine the lengths that a person would go for him. Heâs a person who protects without ever expecting to receive that same effort.
Sure, he knows heâll be protected. Heâs not naive. But he puts 200% and expects 50-100%. He goes above and beyond, but prepares for average. Prepares for lackluster.
So when everyone tries to push him aside to protect him? He- he doesnât even notice their efforts! Itâs like looking for a leaf in a forest, but heâs supposed to be looking at the entire forest. Why would he think that they would give him a forestâs worth of leaves? Heâs oblivious. So he looks for a single leaf.
Then they really do push him back and protect him- they defend against the orb thatâs exploding and itâs like theyâre screaming âItâs the forest! Itâs always been the forest!â
And heâs lost. Absolutely, utterly lost. Itâs heartbreaking, how distressed he is that his friends are hurting and they wonât let him handle it for them. Heâs not even hurt, after all! He hasnât fainted, heâs still useful! Heâs ready! What heâs done so far hasnât even been too difficult! Why wonât they let go and give it to him?
Everyone is so angry at him, or busy pitying him, that heâs left alone with this. While reading this scene Iâm filled with a strong disconnect. He is surrounded by his friends but everyone is far away from him. Their goals have never been farther apart than this moment.
Heâs always been one step ahead.
Heâs always been ready. Heâs always waiting.
And then he stabbed himself in the heart, and everyone but him felt the shift in the stars.
And then the next scenes are his friends trying to wrestle the responsibility out of his white-knuckles hands. They fight for it! Yet all the way until the orbâs time to explode, he holds onto it with an iron grip. I donât even think he realized they were trying to take it out of his hands.
He kills the White Star, he Embraces the Ancient Powers, and he even manages to Embrace the Sealed God into the book and take over the temple in one move. We get to see everyoneâs reactions to his stubbornness too.
So they become twice as stubborn. They cough up blood, they faint, they do 200% of what theyâre naturally capable of. Why?
Because they saw Cale do it first. Because they refuse to let him do it again.
And Cale?
He canât say anything.
Let's be honest in this whole transmigrating situation, the one who got the shortest end of the deal isn't krs! Cale. Like, sure, he was forced into a series of sucky things, but he still gets something out of it.
You know who's the one that doesn't benefit whatsoever from Kim Rok Soo's deal?
The original, unknowing, 18-year-old, Cale Henituse.
Did the now Kim Rok Soo realize he had killed an innocent 18-year-old boy the moment he regressed?
I'm writing a reaction fic with an alive tboah!Cale, but tboah!Cale is not the original Cale, and sometimes I can't help but think about the truest victim that everybody has forgotten: Cale Henituse, the boy whose entire existence was erased the moment 40-year-old Cale regressed.
Can you imagine? One day, you went to bed like normal, and then your body suddenly ceased to be yours.
Apparently, your depressed "older self" - who had already lived his life but was now stealing yours - not only decided to kill you in the name of the "Greater Good", he was also too much of a coward to stay.
Your "older self" (and your murderer) had made a deal with a God and would be fucking off to another world very soon.
You were left to come to terms with 3 things:
A stranger will be taking over your body in your stead (and you know they don't have a choice in this either, but still, you hate-)
You will die. No, more like you will get deleted (and no one will even remember that you had once lived)
You do not get any say in any of this. (You never did, and now, you never will.)
(And to think that in another world, you would have grown up to become him.)
(In the end, Cale Henituse dies hating himself.)
It keeps me up at night sometimes.
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Me and my friend đđđ
I'm still in the process of bringing him to read it no fair!!đ
But atleast he's interested in my indofumps so far!
(I'm tempted to spoil him everything help đđ)
I'm trying to force my friend to read TCF
I got her into manga and anime (I started myself on a romance, and decided you know what? I'll start her off with Death Note :D)
Now I'm desperate to get her into manhwa and novels
Please, she's coming over tonight and trust me
I am making her read TCF
If she's making me watch Boku no Hero Academia (an ehhhh series for me)
Then she is reading TCF
I don't care
Girl, get over here
Weâve all heard the old line of encouragementâreading makes you a better writer.
But how exactly does that work?
These are a few skills youâll gain from reading with the viewpoint of a writer, not just a reader.
Reading made up events and imaginary people might not seem like critical thinking, but youâll use your brain in more ways than one. While youâre sifting through a book, youâre also:
Observing cause and effect correlation
Analyzing how actions and events affect characters or the plot
Recognizing things like bias (narrative or otherwise)
Problem-solving to get ahead of the problem (Whoâs the murder? The thief? The villain?)
Remember what you read before (simple, but takes practice!)
All of these skills are part of the drafting and writing process too. Grab a book or twoâyouâll need these abilities to bring your stories to life.
Whether you feel a secret thrill at finding a typo in a published novel or second-hand embarrassment for the people who made it happen, you automatically practice your grammar skills by spotting them.
Youâre also reading words over and over again, which makes them easier to recall when youâre trying to spell them.
You might also find that some writers vary their sentence structures in ways you like or dislike. The long, stretching sentences within a historical fantasy novel could draw you for the long haul. Maybe you prefer the short, conversational sentences that weave between longer ones in a comedic book.
Word choice is also a significant factor in enjoying a writerâs voice/style. Some writers will challenge you to keep a dictionary nearby at all times. Others will use modern slang or colloquialisms that might take you out of the storyâor make it feel more real to you.
As you get used to the styles you prefer, your writing may naturally shadow those styles when youâre writing a story after putting the book down. Thatâs okay! Experimenting with style or tone isnât plagiarism and doesnât make you a bad writer. Itâs another step in the journey of defining who you are as a creative wordsmith.
Imagine two writers describing a character walking across the street. One writer might focus on how the character feels, what theyâre thinking, or what that moment in time means to them by writing in first-person POV. The other could write about the weather, the city, the cars passing by, or what another person thinks of the protagonist through third-person omniscient POV.
Itâs always good to challenge how you might write a scene by reading how others do it. Youâll return to your work or start a story with a new perspective on standby.
When you fall in love with a novel, itâs natural to think about the plot even after you finish the book. Youâre likely reminiscing about the great plot points like two future best friends meeting at a pizza shop after stepping forward for the same orderâthey shared first and last names! Maybe you loved how each minor conflict built into a war between nations or how a character slowly lost their mind and sought revenge.
Youâll know what works and what doesnât work about the plot structure based on how a novel grips you or not. Your brain will take note about the many things you feel and store it for instinct later. While youâre plotting that traditional mountain-shaped plot line, your creative side will find inspiration to drop conflict or positive moments that enrich your story.
Weâve all written a good character and weâve all written a bad one. Do you remember the first time you read a morally gray character? It likely blew your mind and made you want to write one too.
Falling in love with characters is like practice for writers. You wonât want to make the exact same character in all of your future stories (unless you only want to write fan fiction, and if thatâs the caseâenjoy every moment of it!), so youâll use them as inspiration just like people in real life.
Not to sound like a cliche, but social media companies literally create their apps to monetize the brainâs ability to crave stimulation. Scrolling and swiping has likely had an effect on how long you can concentrate. I know it has for mine!
Even if youâre not on social media, things like the pressure to multitask and juggling responsibilities can wear on your focus too. If you miss those moments in your childhood or teenage years when you would spend an entire afternoon or weekend with a book, you donât have to be sad for long.
Reading any length of a book can improve your concentration. Set a timer and read for five minutes. Next time, read for six. Slowly expand your time for reading (while there arenât other distractions around, like notifications on your Kindle or your phone screen lighting up nearby).
As you read in longer stretches, youâll write in longer stretches too. Your brain will feel more at rest with the one quiet activity you choose to do. Did I mention that makes editing way easier too?
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The next time you feel guilty for reading something instead of writing, remember that youâre also sharpening these skills! Reading is an invaluable way to get better at writing. All you have to do is pick up a book.
Your stories deserve to exist in incredible worlds. Build yours from scratch with this quick guide that simplifies the sometimes intimidating process.
Read my guide here!
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Show him the fruits
Part 1
Cale sits on Alberuâs bed.
This⌠feeling, of his memories and feelings all contradicting. Itâs a little disorienting.
His hands are dirty, but he knows theyâre clean. He could lay down and roll around on the princes bed, but his memories show a blatant disregard for what the prince thinks about what he does, yet he knows that he has respected and cared about the prince for a long time-
So what is it? Does Cale secretly respect him? Is his disregard an act? No, itâs not. Disrespect is⌠a way to show respect? To hide his respect?
Cale develops a headache. Thereâs a lot of new information in his mind, rolling around like a thunderstorm, and itâs really starting to hurt.
His hand caresses the side of his head, and he aims his face into his lap, a frown forming. It⌠hurts.
It hurts.
Hopelessness drags on his new and good emotions. It hurts. He- he hates pain. His hands tremble.
Alberu watches Cale, unsure what couldâve happened to cause him to start crying. With a shaky mind, Alberu walks over to the frozen child sitting on his bed, making extra sure that his footsteps create noise. God, scaring a child? Scaring Cale? That would be a nightmare. He wouldnât know how to handle it at all.
Despite Alberuâs desperate wishes, Cale is deep in his subconscious, overwhelmed by a self-induced headache.
So when Alberu reaches over for the boys shoulder (like how Cale would comfort everyone), Cale flinches. Hard. He throws his body to the side of the bed and pulls his arms up to his chest, staring up at Alberuâs figure.
Now, the Prince isnât stupid. He knows what a flinch means, what it implies. Then why- he fumes- why is Cale of all people showing these responses? How bad did he have it in Korea?
So, while Cale lies on the bed and stares, Alberu decides that heâs too tired to deal with this. This is incredibly annoying. This is- fucking depressing. He hasnât slept for two days and suddenly being forced into babysitting duty is grating on his nerves.
He walks away to order the nearest servant to deliver cookies to his room, while he starts to brew tea. When the boy on the bed has a clear head and Alberu has some more strength, heâll consider asking whatâs wrong.
Bringing the tea over to the bed, Cale stares at the cups.
âDongsaeng?â Alberu sits on the bed next to Cale, who stops laying down. âDo you like sweet tea still, even when youâre like this?â
Cale pinches his lips together. Forgoing a verbal response, he nods his head to the question and starts to reach out.
âDirtyâ
âCarelessâ
âIrresponsibleâ
His hand freezes, and goes through a dozen calculations. Should he ask to grab the cup? He wouldnât normally do that, no. Should he act more like an ignorant child, not as mature as he feels? Should he ask what he should do?-
Alberu watches the emotions that flit across the young face. They are all incredibly subtle, as if heâs used to being so insecure but hiding it underneath a layer of confidence. Alberu relates to it on an uncomfortable level.
He almost expects the kid to ask if he should take the cup, but Cale firms up his face and decides to disrespect the Crown Prince anyway by grabbing the cup and taking a big sip of it.
Good, Cale reasons, looking at Alberuâs face. Heâs not mad, like he predicted. Heâs learning the limits of the people he trusts because, while heâs in this different body and has this smaller mind, people will react unpredictably. Anticipate violence, prepare for rejection, and accept whatever he can get his hands on. His old lessons from when he was a kid float into his mind, and they provide a comfort that none of his older memories have given him yet.
They sit in silence, sipping on tea and observing each other. The other children are disturbingly quiet, but they arenât crying or angry. Theyâre just⌠watching. Raon seems to be the most restless, while On and Hong wait from a distance.
Those three children recognize the signs of abuse the most. Ever since he opened his eyes, they could see it all. The hesitation. The fake confidence. The awkward tense-relax-tense game that Cale is playing in his mind. Like heâs trying to convince himself that heâs in a safe place, but itâs so hard to believe that he instinctively goes back to base one whenever he succeeds.
Theyâre going to launch their âattackâ in a few minutes, but only after cookies. A servant quietly brings in a tray, keeping her eyes very specifically on the desk she needs to leave it on. Raon still turns him and the kittens invisible for the brief time sheâs there, but she looked so focused that she probably wouldnât have seen them had they been sitting right next to the crown Prince. On applauds her in her mind.
Cale keeps his mouth shut. The last thing he should do right now is talk. He knows when he isnât welcome, and while the (fond?) exasperation from the prince is not quite the same as Cale is used to, itâs close enough. He plans to stay quiet and do nothing. Itâs dangerous to think about anything else.
What if he ruins his companionship with Alberu forever? That would be- bad. For when heâs able to be big again, of course. It would be⌠whatâs the word?
Inconvenient.
Cale doesnât feel 7 years old anymore. His mind has been growing, in a weird way. Like heâs subconsciously fighting against the curse by maturing his mind at a faster rate. He can think a little more clearly, analyze a little more precisely.
He finishes his tea and puts it down. Heâs tired.
âDirtyâ
âDisgustingâ
âFilthyâ
He looks down at his hands. He turns his palm over, examining it. He sighs in relief. Clean. Heâs clean right now.
Heâs startled by a red ball of fur pressing its face into his open palm.
âHong?â His voice is soft, open just like his palm.
Hong purrs, and Cale falls for the distraction. He sets out to pet the kitten who is so innocently asking for them.
All of a sudden he hears Alberu shout from his side and a flash of black streaks across his vision. He looks up, but then On has transformed into her human form and the 12 year old body is stronger than it should be, with how easily she grabs the 7 year old and throws him by the pillows.
Cale barely finishes bouncing from being thrown when he gets crushed by Raon.
âHuman!â
Cale opens his eyes and looks up at the blue eyes peering down into his soul. âRaonâŚâ
Raon cuts him off, resting part of his weight on Cale.
âWeâre having naptime! Majority vote! You have to sleep, human!â
Cale frowned. He hadnât had any cookies yet.
Raon interprets him wrong, and suddenly Cale is being thrust into Alberuâs arms. âAdults are always the best at cuddling! Weâre leaving you to our most experienced member so you get the full package! Alberu, donât let Cale go.â His words leave a chill in Caleâs body, and he resists the urge to shudder.
Then he realizes that Alberuâs arms had really tightened around him. Cale squirms, because, what? Why canât he just cuddle with the kids?
The answer becomes abruptly clear. Cale, smooshed against Alberuâs chest, surrounded by two human cats and a dragon who insisted that he lay on top of the pile- discovers that, while Raon could use magic to restrain him, the human with long arms is just more effective at restraining people comfortably.
Cale pouts. He didnât get any cookies.
Ron, Beacrox, and Choi Han arrive at the princes room. Ron was worried about him, while Choi Han was concerned that he wasnât adjusting well. Does he feel safe? Has he eaten? Is the fact that they arenât in Korea making it difficult? Meanwhile, Beacrox is just angry at a lot of things right now.
They found the demonic worshipper, but after torturing information out of him, they realized that Cale is in the Demonic Godâs hands now. Killing the demonic worshipper doesnât even break the curse.
They had run into Bud and Glenn while investigating, naturally. The merchant king had offered all of his resources to track down the culprit, which helped somewhat in finding him. Glenn offered them a quick teleport back to the palace, and they accepted.
âYoung master-â
âCale-nim!-â
âMy friend! Sob!- um?â
Ron, Choi Han, and Bud speak all at the same time. They all pause however, at the sight of Raon glaring at them intensely. A transparent black shield covers a lump of bodies, and Glenn recognizes it as a soundproofing spell. He gets goosebumps at the mana swirling around the rest of the room dangerously.
Choi Han felt stunned. It has been a long while since Raon pointed his wrath at anyone in their family. What happened?
Ron then smiles, a chill covering the room instantly. âWhat are you covering, little dragon?â
Raon uncharacteristically stays silent. He looks like a real dragon at this moment, all cold glares while he drapes himself over his hoard.
Then Choi Han puts the dots together. The Crown Prince is missing, documents unfinished. The kittens can be vaguely seen on the side of the pile that Raon is laying on, and if heâs correct-
Cale is in the center.
Choi Hanâs eyes sparkle at the opportunity in front of him. Bud takes a careful step away from him, but heâs not paying attention to that.
Choi Han loves small cute things. Whatâs more cute than a bunch of his favorite, small cute people (minus Alberu, who isnât small, that he suspects is in the back) in a big cuddly pile?
Cale murmurs in his sleep, feeling an icy chill on the back of his neck. Someoneâs plotting against him.
He becomes unsettled, pushing lightly against Alberuâs arms in protest to the sensation. Alberu, who has fallen into an incredibly deep sleep, just tightens his arms. Cale decides to ignore the feeling, after getting that slight âscolding.â
His mind, which had become around 9-10 in the short time that he had been thinking intensely, quiets. He allows himself to be comforted, and doesnât notice the way his mind falls into that of a 8 year old during this nap.
He breathes softly, falls deeper into his sleep, and canât feel the curse settle over his mind.
Choi Han fails in his attempts to sway the dragon to let him see. Raon, smarter than your average 6 year old, understands what Choi Han wants and what Cale wants, and that Cale should get what he wants right now. Privacy. Raon becomes even more determined to protect Cale while heâs in this younger state.
Heâs vulnerable.
The dragon in him growls at this. Everyone in this pile has been abused. He doesnât know much about Alberu, but he saw the understanding glint in his eyes, so Raon determines that the Crown Prince is also under his protection.
Do the people outside their bubble understand that? Do they think that his human just happened to land in the middle of the pile, blocked from the worldâs eye?
Raon huffs at Choi Hanâs antics, ignores Ronâs vague threat, and summons a second shield over the soundproof one, this one solid and not transparent.
The human told Raon that itâs okay to be selfish. He wants to hold their little group closer right now, and he doesnât want to share.
Cale flinches in his new, deep sleep. Raon lays his head back down on the pile, using magic to keep his human the perfect napping temperature.
He curses that he canât do more right now.