queeriouslyollie - mental illness for troy lougferd
mental illness for troy lougferd

oliver / parsley (+ any nicknames of those) // 20 // he/him only pls // (infrequent) artist // multifandom // trans, demi + pancurrently fighting myself w/ my absolute brainworms for troy lougferd

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2 weeks ago
Easy! As! Cheeeesy!

easy! as! cheeeesy!

2 weeks ago

wonderlust favorite moments/interactions/scenes/etc + notes from multiple rewatches

this is a collection of all my favorite moments, scenes, interactions, and so on (as well as interesting observations that ive noticed through my multiple rewatches) from wonderlust. this is mostly for myself lmao

NOTE: so far, i only got thru ep 1 because. im tired and its almost 4 am lmao. i do wanna get thru all the eps for this tho so :3

style conventions(so i rember qwq): things are listed chronologically, by episode, with timestamps (h:mm:ss). i also (vaguely) color coded dialogue, just the PCs w/ their colors (troy in red, runt in purple, blink in green). if there is dialogue between the lines im highlighting, there will be "/.../" followed by the next line im including. finally, additional notes/thoughts/etc from me will be in small text, italicized parenthases (like this)

this will be updated as i rewatch episodes or watch new episodes :]

WARNING: beyond this point, there WILL be spoilers. proceed at your own risk!

ps: if there is anything that isnt here that you think is worthy, feel free to add on! also, there are very likely typos and/or formatting errors so. oopsie :3 (did try my best to make sure there werent)

pps: many of these will likely involve troy because im so brainrot for this guy but i do really love them all and their dynamics :3

episode 1: one man's trash

0:06:14 troy: "well then- the the fuckin uh, i gue- i guess they'll- i guess they'll fuckin- i guess when they- i guess-"

0:07:42 baby's first troy math

0:11:50 the incident

0:17:30 troy: "my names troy and i'm never gonna die!" (this note was taken when ep 23 was the latest--so far its true, but i suppose we'll see if it continues to do so)

0:37:30 this whole interaction with runt and her cousins is just adorable and i lobv it

0:45:43 ♪♫ you gotta be careful, little runt ♫♪

0:46:40 runt: "you're goddamn right uncle threestrings, why don't they give you a record deal?" uncle threestrings: "....... hohh.." (also charlie's face during this reacting to the song lmfao)

0:47:22 uncle threestrings: "if you don't come back-" runt: "ah-" uncle threestrings: "-if you don't-" runt: "i will come back." uncle threestrings: "i just need to know somethin... how many cups do ya think they got up there?"

0:58:06 pinch: "doppler we need to break this thing or somethin-" runt: "no, don't- don't break it :[" /.../ runt: "i wanna keep it!"

1:14:24 runt: "they got this big fuckin circle in the sky too, what the fuck is that?" uncle threestrings: ".. circle? who made that?" runt: "i don't know!" uncle threestrings: "how'd they put it there?"

1:28:08 cut: "she want another one?" blink: "gran- yeah, granny granite wants a slice of cake, she took my package. you know how it is, this happens every time!" cut: "i'm gonna run out, i'm gonna run out, she's just gonna eat it all-" blink: "how! how are you gonna run out?! what do you mean-" cut: "she's just gonna eat it all!" blink: "but she's so old and slow!" (i love blink's outbursts lmfao)

1:33:05 immediate simping for aeon as her design is revealed ("id let her beat me up" lmfao)

1:37:07 (realizing i didn't put together before how he somehow got his steamsled back, obv upon rewatch i know it's because of his capture but just interesting to think about how that slipped by me the first time and catching it in subsequent watches)

1:37:51 baby's first "YOU DUDE" blink: (starts running) troy: "don't play hard to get with me dude, i'll fucking catch you, i'll fucking catch you no matter how fuckin long you run i will keep running, i'm an endurance animal of a human being" (sprinting) "you can flee now- i can track you, dude"

1:39:45 (cont. from scene above, somewhat) troy: "dude, there's no need to be such a fucking freak-" blink: "what the fuck-" troy: "-i'm just trying to talk to you-" blink: "-what the fuck are you-" troy: "-i just wanted to say... i just wanted to tell you that i'm fuckin cool, and you have gotta run with me, dude, if you wanna make it down here."

1:40:31 troy believes he's at furcon, blink calls him fantasy slurs (also he "loves birds" wauw)

1:42:17 here troy says that blink's his only ticket out, and when blink asks why him troy says he's not supposed to tell him :0

1:43:06 troy: "oh, yeah, i do have a combrussion"

1:47:00 bizly: (rolls a two against troy & blink's stealth) "dude, a two, a TWO, you're fine! you're fine." charlie (in troys voice): "yah, dude i fuckin know,"

1:49:06 the making of yort (& knilb)

1:50:12 blink: "let's-let's tackle this one thing at a time, okay?" troy yort: "alright, dude, i'm fuckin, i'm yort"

1:51:45 troy yort: "have you ever heard the saying, one guy's trash is another dude's.. fuckin,,.. coo- like- fuckin shit."

1:52:22 blink: "i don't wanna- i'm gonna be frank, the more you talk, the more i don't want to help you." troy yort: "dude, who the FUCK is frank, dude? why do you wanna be him? we already got you a cool name??"

1:54:09 troy yort: "cogs? we literally, like, live, breathe, and eat cogs up there, man. i mean, we also use it as money, but you know what i mean. we DONT eat, breathe, or live it, we just use it as money."

1:54:40 cloudspire hoohah rise up

1:54:46 blink: "what are you saying??" troy yort: "dude, you are just ridiculous, man, i-i don't even know where to start. i mean like, so basically, i'm like the shit."

1:55:12 just a straight roll like man and woman missionary fuckin dude fucking a woman straight roll troy yort: "honestly sometimes i think about guys"

1:57:20 (i just love how, even tho troy JUST met blink, he's already so willing to back him up. he doesn't quite understand when he DOES need to stand down but i think it does show he's never been a fully awful person.)

1:57:57 blink: "well we got some, uh, some tetanus shots in here. a few of them have been poked by granny- granny granite, so be careful about that, she's very pokey." arch: "wouldn't want anyone to catch whatever she's got, hahaha!" troy yort: "i'm not sayin anything" baby's first i'm not sayin anything (this whole interaction is so fuckin funny to me)

2:00:42 troy yort: "i don't understand why this is happening?!" blink: "i already told you!!" troy yort: "i didn't say anything!" blink: "you kept saying you weren't saying anything!!!" troy yort: "i thought that's what you wanted!! you need to be CLEAR!!"

2:02:36 bizly: "a blunt arrow comes whizzing by your head." charlie (as troy yort): "fuckin what i just smoke it" once again charlie is possessed by troy

2:06:28 the bit with the old woman and her dead husband's pan and her second husband

2:09:18 graphite's rock and the painting (troy yort keeping the rock after too is so real, i love rocks :3)

2:11:36 troy: "hey graphite, dude, can i level with you?" graphite: ".... suuuuure?" troy: "alright, sick, cuz i think i get some hp from that. maybe some other little goodies." graphite: "you just say things, don't you?" troy: "troy"


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2 weeks ago

i am so sorry but who put troy's relationship in blink's fandom wiki page as "desperate companion" LMFAO

I Am So Sorry But Who Put Troy's Relationship In Blink's Fandom Wiki Page As "desperate Companion" LMFAO

also runt in as "stubborn companion"


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2 weeks ago
Panel 1 of a digitally illustrated comic, a lone trans coloured hare sits in the middle of the screen. blue text around it quotes Richard Adams and says the following: "All the world will be your enemy, and when they catch you they will kill you"
Panel 2 of a digitally illustrated comic, the trans coloured hare is running leaving a trans flag in its trail. stars and sparkles surround it, as well as more blue text saying "but first... they must catch you"

But first they must catch you 🏳️‍⚧️ Prints

Petitions - UK Government and Parliament
Introduce a law to legally protect the right of those aged 18 and over to transition using NHS services. This should specifically cover phys
2 weeks ago

Ice cold takes from a Transgender Woman:

Men are not inherently Evil

Everyone has the capacity for evil

Transgender Men are men

Transgender Women are women

Excluding Cisgender Men from your spaces requires Transgender Men to out themselves if they want to engage (Same for Women)

Anyone can be Non-Binary, there is no "look" or requirement

Non-binary masculine presenting people should be welcome in queer spaces, many are just treated as men and predators

Non-binary feminine presenting people should be welcome in queer spaces without being seen as "Woman-Lite"

Edited the wording on the first point because too many terfs keep thinking I'm their friend.

2 weeks ago
Snoopy My Beloved

Snoopy my beloved

2 weeks ago

JRWI:Riptide things I think about often (and I don’t see people talk about enough)

- Chip and Reuben Price

- Gillion, who was left by his parents, being left by his sister

- Jay knowing so much of the navy from her childhood (also how much of a goddamn trans allegory her story is)

- Jay almost always being harsh on Chip in moments of vulnerability for both of them

- Gillion hiding from Felipe in the pantry

- That one nightmare Chip had in ep

64

- Chip and Arlin talking in liquidus

- Gillion’s derealisation after his nightmare

- Jay losing the ability to read

- How young the captains are, (Chip could have graduated high school the year before the campaign, Jay can just BARELY legally drink in the US, and both Gillion and Jay would likely still be in college)


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2 weeks ago
The Silliest

the silliest

2 weeks ago

...so Extraordinary Lougferd is spreading around a false version of history where he 'found' the island of Wonder, discovered wonderous coal and built it up into the civilization it is today. we havent even met the guy yet but all we know about troys dad is that he is 1. a colonizer 2. a racist and 3. walt disney. great stuff

2 weeks ago

oh my god also !! i meant to ramble about how he seems to not care about his own wellbeing. this is more hc-ish but still. the way he always says he can take it, or how he doesn't seem concerned with taking care of his wounds

but he is always concerned about the rest of the team's wellbeing, he asks if they're okay (esp runt when her cough acts up) and just generally seems to prioritize that more.

just the things that does to me like omg. i love him

ACTUAL BRAINWORMS AHEAD ABOUT TROY

i like actually have SO many thoughts about troy yall dont understand. i have so much to say that i dont remember ANY OF IT TO PUT HERE.

its also been to the point that like. its all i think about. its so bad rn too bc i ran outta both my antidepressants and adhd meds (fuck pharmacies theyre all a pain in the ass omg) and so my brain is this mushy slurry of just. troy troy troy wonderlust runt troy troy blink troy. i literally could not focus at work today i had to write in my journal so that i didn't implode.

anyways after this point there are spoilers so dont read on. i woulda tagged it but this post is gonna be so rambly and full of my brainworms that i dont know if i wanna tag this at all lmao. so anyways yeah brainrot brainworms warning if you read ahead,

so yeah i have some like ideas on what troys whole deal is (besides being our [recovering :3] asshole nepo baby).

like first of all, 100% trans coded (like all of charlies characters, like wtf how is this cis guy better at being trans than i am??). please let it be canon i am begging

second, im torn between the theories of him being a little clockwork guy or being a hybrid (like runt and blink n the reclaim guys). its hard to tell what's cannon and what is troy mode comedy shit, but it seems like we may not have ever canonically? gotten a description/confirmation of what is actually under troys suit, and obviously not what may be under his skin. if he is a hybrid that could have some really fucked up connotations asw

third, whats his deal with his family? it's basically been confirmed that his mom's dead (or otherwise just OUT of the picture). his dad is around, for a bit i was SO convinced his dad was gonna be the inventor. either way, whats the deal between them? just nepo neglect? or something worse? i have a feeling either way i WILL be ugly crying. again. to jrwi. about a charlie character. and also siblings?? he said he had a brother. but then when the yort appeared he said he always wanted a brother? so maybe bad relationship there too?

also??? like his character growth?? the amount he has started to be able to convey his respect and care for the team. i love the little part about runt having an actual feeling of looking up to him when they sled down the mountain. they are so sibling coded. troy and blink's little arc was so good too (also like. malewife troy. all im saying about that). and his whole thing in ep 22, the way he was able to twist the perceptions people have of him, and even the fucked up shit he has done, to manipulate (gaslight gatekeep girlboss) his way through that situation. and the team letting him take the reigns!!!!! anyways this makes me wanna compile a list of my fave quotes/interactions/moments/etc from the campaign. i just might.

i genuinely dont know why im SO attached to this goddamn character. theoretically? i should hate him. he is like, literally antithetical to everything i am and stand for. literally a foil to who i am as a person. but like???? idk. as ive said before he's the first character ive ever understood and felt the "i can fix them" thing about lmao. and he has shown character growth,

and to me he seems. misguided? maybe even hurt? by those around him. it seems like those who should have nurtured him failed him. and like. i really empathize that. i kinda feel that a little too much (but from a different lens bc i am the furthest thing from a nepo baby lmfao). and not to psychoanalyze him (more), it seems to me that maybe deep down he thinks very lowly of himself. bro is literally prince charming but was surprised when aeon called him pretty boy?? like i mean obv, he's not the brightest guy around, but i also think he should give himself more credit where its due, and he might not appreciate his achievements enough and seems to beat himself down when he doesnt reach his own standards. he also seems very touch starved (or just. any [authentic] slightly positive interaction starved in general)

or maybe im just projecting too hard onto him oops lmao. thats the vibe i get tho

if you read all this i think youre probably just as ill as i am about this guy and like. respect. or maybe youre just bored or thought there would be something smart in here, in which case i deeply apologize for my word vomit

anyways i think im gonna go rewatch wonderlust from the start for like the fifth time. or riptide for the like 12th (god give us our funy lil pirates back!!!) because. i lobv them

2 weeks ago

also rotating troy in my mind. he really does care he's just so so bad at expressing it and it makes me a little insane like. calling blink and runt his team. hyping them (especially runt) up constantly. making himself the "fall guy" so runt, blink, and ripley could escape what he thought was a dangerous situation. giving runt his goggles when it was too bright for her to see. using himself to shield blink, runt, and ripley from the clockwork soldiers' view. giving runt his spare change of clothes because she was freezing (and snapping at her and blink when they commented on it being nice of him.) looking proud of lint for stepping up in his stead, only to bury it as soon as HE noticed it (and proceeded to shove lint into a trash can.) he cares so much, but it's easier to be mean and still be perceived as cool than it is to think about it much deeper than that.

2 weeks ago

i cant wait for the next wonderlust episode acrually i wanna see troy’s family SO BAD

2 weeks ago

You wanna know another interesting thing I noticed about Troy? His jumpsuit covers his entire body except his head. Meaning huge parts of him could be augmented with machinery / he could have prosthetics, and we'd have no idea. While lots of people have been drawing him with his suit ripped and tattered, or in an undershirt that shows his arms, in canon there has been no mention of his suit getting torn or any skin being exposed.

All we the flesh that know for certain that Troy has is:

Head and neck

Digestive tract (and enough intact organs and blood to be affected by alcohol)

What this means is that ALL HIS LIMBS COULD BE CLOCKWORK. He even has gloves so that we can't see his hands!

There's also the moment in the most recent episode where Troy CATCHES THE ATTACK of the GIANT ROBOT he's fighting WITH HIS HANDS. That's NOT A NORMAL HUMAN THING TO DO. Especially at level 1, which in dnd terms is basically "slightly above average normal people". It feels like Charlie choosing to play blocking the attack that way at level one was a deliberate choice, coming from someone so familar with dnd.

2 weeks ago

i knowww troy was sick of the philosopher's shit during the ride up to the surface but it's so so so interesting to me how he responded to questions about his family. like obviously we know he has Issues with his dad (and likely his brother, if he hasn't thought to bring him up ONCE) and he doesn't really elaborate on it much further -- but he's still always relatively casual about it, if not a bit dismissive.

but going up the clocktower, his answers were straightforward and distant. one or two word answers, no elaboration, no emotion other than mildly irritated. even when the subject shifts from his family to his first name, he keeps the same demeanor until he explodes at runt. and i think it's so striking to me bc he DOESN'T talk like that!! at no other point in the campaign so far has he behaved like this, even when bringing up his father.

i also wonder about his relationship with his brother. troy has said on multiple occasions that his relationship with his dad is rocky, but he still mentions him in casual conversation sometimes. never once has he mentioned a brother. the only time he has EVER acknowledged it was this episode, when asked if he really does have a brother (to which he responds "yea" and doesn't elaborate any further.) and idk. it's interesting.

2 weeks ago

Listening to womderlust 19 rn and WHAT DO YOU MEAN TROY HAS GROWN AS A CHARACTER...... because the comparison between the first time he fell down the hole(terrifying, fast, painful) and THIS time(calm, beautiful, a sight hes grown used to but has never really seen)?! Oh god he's actually becoming a good person

2 weeks ago

charlie showing up to wonderlust filming on one hour of sleep and with the first hangover he's ever had is beautiful. i 100% believe it when he said he locked in as troy.

he says it's one of his favorite recordings. can't believe charlie is method acting for wonderlust


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2 weeks ago

just a random crappy little thing about how I think Troy has a high pain tolerance / dulled sense of pain and no awareness of when injuries are serious because of how many times he's wiped out while sledding (and also autism but shhhh that's a secret)

I also think the amount of concussions he's probably gotten over the years have messed up his fine motor skills, and his eyesight is a little fuzzy

Just A Random Crappy Little Thing About How I Think Troy Has A High Pain Tolerance / Dulled Sense Of

Text:

Troy: *cough* whoa...

Blink: Troy- Troy! Shit, that's a head wound. We need to get you to an apothecary-

Troy: nah dude I'm fine!

Blink: What?! No- you're not fine, you need-

Troy: dude, have you never heard of a wipeout before? this happens all the fuckin time bro

2 weeks ago

ACTUAL BRAINWORMS AHEAD ABOUT TROY

i like actually have SO many thoughts about troy yall dont understand. i have so much to say that i dont remember ANY OF IT TO PUT HERE.

its also been to the point that like. its all i think about. its so bad rn too bc i ran outta both my antidepressants and adhd meds (fuck pharmacies theyre all a pain in the ass omg) and so my brain is this mushy slurry of just. troy troy troy wonderlust runt troy troy blink troy. i literally could not focus at work today i had to write in my journal so that i didn't implode.

anyways after this point there are spoilers so dont read on. i woulda tagged it but this post is gonna be so rambly and full of my brainworms that i dont know if i wanna tag this at all lmao. so anyways yeah brainrot brainworms warning if you read ahead,

so yeah i have some like ideas on what troys whole deal is (besides being our [recovering :3] asshole nepo baby).

like first of all, 100% trans coded (like all of charlies characters, like wtf how is this cis guy better at being trans than i am??). please let it be canon i am begging

second, im torn between the theories of him being a little clockwork guy or being a hybrid (like runt and blink n the reclaim guys). its hard to tell what's cannon and what is troy mode comedy shit, but it seems like we may not have ever canonically? gotten a description/confirmation of what is actually under troys suit, and obviously not what may be under his skin. if he is a hybrid that could have some really fucked up connotations asw

third, whats his deal with his family? it's basically been confirmed that his mom's dead (or otherwise just OUT of the picture). his dad is around, for a bit i was SO convinced his dad was gonna be the inventor. either way, whats the deal between them? just nepo neglect? or something worse? i have a feeling either way i WILL be ugly crying. again. to jrwi. about a charlie character. and also siblings?? he said he had a brother. but then when the yort appeared he said he always wanted a brother? so maybe bad relationship there too?

also??? like his character growth?? the amount he has started to be able to convey his respect and care for the team. i love the little part about runt having an actual feeling of looking up to him when they sled down the mountain. they are so sibling coded. troy and blink's little arc was so good too (also like. malewife troy. all im saying about that). and his whole thing in ep 22, the way he was able to twist the perceptions people have of him, and even the fucked up shit he has done, to manipulate (gaslight gatekeep girlboss) his way through that situation. and the team letting him take the reigns!!!!! anyways this makes me wanna compile a list of my fave quotes/interactions/moments/etc from the campaign. i just might.

i genuinely dont know why im SO attached to this goddamn character. theoretically? i should hate him. he is like, literally antithetical to everything i am and stand for. literally a foil to who i am as a person. but like???? idk. as ive said before he's the first character ive ever understood and felt the "i can fix them" thing about lmao. and he has shown character growth,

and to me he seems. misguided? maybe even hurt? by those around him. it seems like those who should have nurtured him failed him. and like. i really empathize that. i kinda feel that a little too much (but from a different lens bc i am the furthest thing from a nepo baby lmfao). and not to psychoanalyze him (more), it seems to me that maybe deep down he thinks very lowly of himself. bro is literally prince charming but was surprised when aeon called him pretty boy?? like i mean obv, he's not the brightest guy around, but i also think he should give himself more credit where its due, and he might not appreciate his achievements enough and seems to beat himself down when he doesnt reach his own standards. he also seems very touch starved (or just. any [authentic] slightly positive interaction starved in general)

or maybe im just projecting too hard onto him oops lmao. thats the vibe i get tho

if you read all this i think youre probably just as ill as i am about this guy and like. respect. or maybe youre just bored or thought there would be something smart in here, in which case i deeply apologize for my word vomit

anyways i think im gonna go rewatch wonderlust from the start for like the fifth time. or riptide for the like 12th (god give us our funy lil pirates back!!!) because. i lobv them


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2 weeks ago

omg thats so embarrassing i havent updated my age since. i made this when i was 18. well oops im 20!!! lmfao

2 weeks ago

OH ALSO who else is ready to have their soul absolutely crushed and ripped and thrown on the floor next ep. cuz like. i know charlies cooking up some angst for troy. i have ugly sobbed about literally like all of his characters and i just know troy's gonna be the same.

im not ready.


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2 weeks ago

i havent been on here in forever but came back JUST to eat up troy lougferd fanart because. i stg something is wrong with me, he has permanently altered my brain. im so ill for this man ((charlie please spare me stop making characters i have to be so. attached to)). this is the only character i have felt "i can fix them" for.

aanyways ig have my shitty troy doodle i made at 2 am lmao

I Havent Been On Here In Forever But Came Back JUST To Eat Up Troy Lougferd Fanart Because. I Stg Something

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2 weeks ago
Hes Kinda Like... The Metal Sonic To Troys Sonic, Guys...

hes kinda like... the metal sonic to troys sonic, guys...

alt versions under cut bc i can never choose!

Hes Kinda Like... The Metal Sonic To Troys Sonic, Guys...
Hes Kinda Like... The Metal Sonic To Troys Sonic, Guys...
Hes Kinda Like... The Metal Sonic To Troys Sonic, Guys...
Hes Kinda Like... The Metal Sonic To Troys Sonic, Guys...
Hes Kinda Like... The Metal Sonic To Troys Sonic, Guys...

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1 year ago
CONGRATS SALTY !!!

CONGRATS SALTY !!!

@saltydkdan @saltydkart-reblogs

1 year ago
I Did Rainbow Art For Pride. I Think I Went Too Saturated With The Kitten But You Live And Learn.
I Did Rainbow Art For Pride. I Think I Went Too Saturated With The Kitten But You Live And Learn.
I Did Rainbow Art For Pride. I Think I Went Too Saturated With The Kitten But You Live And Learn.
I Did Rainbow Art For Pride. I Think I Went Too Saturated With The Kitten But You Live And Learn.

I did rainbow art for Pride. I think I went too saturated with the kitten but you live and learn.

1 year ago
I Had The Thought To Draw A Variegated Version Of The Leaf Cat And Then I Also Wanted To See It In Autumn
I Had The Thought To Draw A Variegated Version Of The Leaf Cat And Then I Also Wanted To See It In Autumn
I Had The Thought To Draw A Variegated Version Of The Leaf Cat And Then I Also Wanted To See It In Autumn
I Had The Thought To Draw A Variegated Version Of The Leaf Cat And Then I Also Wanted To See It In Autumn
I Had The Thought To Draw A Variegated Version Of The Leaf Cat And Then I Also Wanted To See It In Autumn
I Had The Thought To Draw A Variegated Version Of The Leaf Cat And Then I Also Wanted To See It In Autumn

i had the thought to draw a variegated version of the leaf cat and then i also wanted to see it in autumn leaf colors and then i thought “hehe but what if it was not a flower cat hehe” and then i also had to make a wet beast version and then the layout of this post was bothering me so i made another one and…….. yea 👍

anyway i wanted to make one of these years ago so it was fun to finally do it tbh. enjoy these creatures

1 year ago

"You can't be a lurker on tumblr." Yes, you absolutely can. I've been quietly reblogging things since 2014 and I haven't interacted with anyone in years.

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