Queenbean92 - The Bean

Ah fuck. Why'd I look? Why? Everytime just makes me feel like complete shit and a loser.

But it shouldn't. Cause I do like who I am. Those people don't because they don't value what real friendships are suppose to be like. I don't need or want any of them back in my life so I shouldn't get upset about it.

My time to blossom will come soon enough. I'm just not in the same world as them. Honestly never have been.

Photo's taken on Red Dead Redemption 2 online. Characters shown are my boyfriend and his friends.

Such a beautiful and magnificent game! Will continue to share photo's!

UGH I HATE HAVING THIS ANXIETY AND BEING NERVOUS.

I shouldn't have to feel this way at the place I call home. Home suppose to be safe and secure. I don't feel either of those ways about my "home". I really really wish we could find another place to live. I wish his parents would let us stay there but I know that'll never happen. I just need to keep working and working and save, find a place or even room to rent somewhere. Hopefully that'll be soon and back in Aurora. Shannon only pays $800 for their loft. It's small but honestly perfect size for Jacob and I. But have to get a car first so I don't have to find another job up there for awhile. My biggest check so far was $350. Get paid twice a month thats $700 and know I can get more hours. So then my checks could go towards rent and then I'll still have my tips which are more than enough for us to still get food, pay electric, etc. And if Jacob starts working to then we'll be 100%. Even have extra money. Really we could do that!

Bethesda Inktober Day 23 - Nuclear.

"War. War never changes."

Those colors

Tut elimi burdan gidelim'

HORIZON: ZERO DAWN + Photo mode 54/??

PLEASE GOD OR WHATEVER IS UP THERE, NO MORE VERTIGO AND BEING SICK/BED RIDDEN FOR DAYS.

PLEASE!!!! NO MORE I'M BEGGING

Im blessed