This Might Be My Favorite Post On This Website Ever

my costume from last night hehe (didn't get to finish drawin some of the details on but thats ok! I had places to be)

I tried to combine elements of the reluctant follower mask, Vanny's suit, and the security mask. hehehe. the eyes are red with purple pulsing through them btw, I dunno if the color comes through well in the video

i also added a lil yellow rabbit whispering in her ear. isnt he cute ?

this is probably the second cosplay ive made significant parts of by myself so im proud

the snowman one is a redraw of my old art HELP

luv trans garry tho

rpg doodles

I love this but the other songs on that album FIT HER(and Glitchtrap too) EVEN MOOOORE. YALL DONT EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH THEY FIT. THE ABUSE AND MANIPULATION SHE WENT THROUGH </3

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WASTEISOLATION

My faves are Eternal Nausea, Runner, Go Inside, Legacy, Dreaming, Wiggle, Tell Me How U Feel, Thoughts and Prayers, AND Wound AND THEY ALL FIT VANESSA SO AMAZINGLY WELLLLL

lyrics typed under the cut: (Big warning for suicidal themes and suggestive lyrics)

Eternal Nausea

I live in sickness, I live in spinning The whole wide world is a carousel I stood in line, and now the ride's beginning I could still do so much more if I don't kill myself I live in nausea, eternal nausea In a spotlight shaped like a spiral I'm in the bible God's favorite (secret) idol 'Cause the whole sick world loves to smile

Smile like a rainbow (Smile like a) Smile like a crescent moon Just keep doing what you're doing (Okay) Just keep doing what you're doing (What am I supposed to do?) Smile like a crack in the earth Like a curse, like a corpse, like a wound Smile like a rainbow Just keep doing what you're doing (What am I supposed to do?)

Grey soul and static in my eyes Try to see the future, but I'm not sure if it applies Feels kinda like my soul is burnt Too late, too late, if only, uh We're not like the other girls This sh!t's too evil to be stylish Don't tell me this is too dramatic, 'cause I live inside it

I feel sick (Just f#cking try it) (I tried it) I still feel sick, I still feel sick I feel sick I still feel sick, I still feel sick I feel sick

Go Inside

You'll never find a way out (Someday you won't recognize me) You'll never find a way out (Someday you won't even know who I am) You'll never find a way out (I live for that day)

Yeah, I eat the ashes, yeah, I eat the bones Yeah, I know the people, yeah, I know the ones Why? 'cause God tells me Yeah, I eat the ashes, yeah, I chew the bones Yeah, I know the people, yeah, I know the ones Why? 'cause God tells me, it could be whatever It doesn't matter even if I get it wrong Sometimes I think that I'm dreaming Sometimes I know that I'm not Sometimes I think it's a matter of fact Sometimes I think it's just tied up in a knot It could really be whatever

It can go inside you, it can unwind you It can rewire you You'll never be who you thought you were, true "Everything's see through", trust me, I feel you Memories steal you, present tense, weird too Who is this geared to? nobody near you I think I fear you, I think I fear you I know you're scared of me, so I'm scared too The difference is... I don't want to kill

It could, it could It could wear your skin It could dig right in It could go inside of you

Tell Me How U Feel

Tell me how you feel I don't know what's real Tell me how to feel Tell me what's really you Tell me how to feel I will feel it too

I want to replace myself With the best parts of you I don't want to be anything Close to what I knew

Tell me how you feel I don't know what's real Tell me how to feel What's really you? Tell me what to feel I will feel it too

I want to empty out my mind And make it something I can use I want to burn away my childhood And scatter something new It doesn't matter if I die I'm going to become something true Tell me how you feel So I can take your soul from you

Thoughts And Prayers

Is there any truth To what you tell me you know about me? I don't wanna underestimate your intellect But something tells me there is something more to this Go ahead and escape, a couple times a day Will do you good but don't forget to bring yourself Back to what you're terrified of every single day Yeah she's okay

I am not like you I wanna forget myself and be lied to I don't know if anything is right I'm just a girl who can't look herself in the eye

And in my dreams I am somewhere where I can fall apart I can think nothing and only Feel what I need to

Leave us alone We dont wanna f#cking hurt anyone We just wanna feel anything Before we're done Leave us alone We just wanna have control of our lives We just wanna get off And feel safe and die

Everything is movement, everything is hypochondriac And pieced together from the fragments of losing Sight of what I thought you wanted me to be Though I've tried and it almost killed me You cannot know this. You cannot pretend to be close with me Psychosis batters at your worldview and gnosis Whoa, it's only been a minute and a moment And you're already done

This is praxis. Do you have anything to fight back with? No, you lack it Am I making you worry? Is your vision getting blurry? Yeah, you're gonna need glasses I burn so f#cking bright but your eyesight only sees ashes I am long past this Post-traumatic, manic Consciousness blasted Look in my eyes and see the person you damaged

Pick yourself off the floor And look yourself in the eye

Wiggle

I couldn't go, I couldn't stay I couldn't

They tried to push me down But I just wiggled around until they couldn't hold me Years and years, they couldn't hold me If you turn the light on, I'll just run away I know I don't belong but I have nowhere else to stay I'm so sorry I'm here, I'm so sorry I'm here Please don't kill me, please don't kill me I'm so sorry I'm here Right into the heart of my dreams Someone else is just trying to crush me But it's okay, it's okay If I was you If I was a killer, I'd just kill me too

I keep myself together somehow (I don't want anything, I just want to survive) Stepped on too many times to count (I know I'm nothing to you, I know I'm not even alive) I hope one day my broken frame (I'm sorry that I scare you, I'll find a better place to hide) Can get away, can find a place (I'll crawl into the corner, stay out of the light) That's safe

Is it really like you say? Does it really come in waves? Does it really work that way? I know you're something different You can't hide it You can't miss it

I keep myself together somehow (I don't want anything, I just want to survive) Stepped on too many times to count (I know I'm a target for you, I know you don't even think twice) I hope one day my broken frame (I'm sorry that I scare you, I promise that I'll make it right) Can get away, can find a place (Some perfect day I know I'll no longer be part of your life) That's safe

Dreaming

Sometimes I think that I'm dreaming Sometimes I think that I'm dead Sometimes I think that I'm dreaming In your head

Sometimes I don't understand How I can see reality As anything but something far away From what I think is me I try to touch the surface But I cannot touch, only see The picture is distorted With the static noise of sleep "But I'm awake" I don't believe myself Not really, I feel someone else Deciding what to do and feel and speak Cause I can't touch what's right in front of me Wake her up she's stuck inside a dream Wake me up I'm stuck inside a dream

It feels like reaching up through a mirror world It feels like reaching through liquid glass I don't know where I am at all Oh no I don't know where I've been and I'm scared to ask But that's ok That's ok I don't need to know anything I don't need to be anywhere at all It's ok Oh, it's so ok It's just a dream It's not real

Legacy

Is this how you wanna spend the last few years of your life? Of your life? The last few years Your legacy Your legacy Your legacy Your

You can hide out in your tiny little lair You can be the f#cking evil monster Terror Scared You can be the evil monster It was always you It was always you It was always you It was always you It was always you

It was always something I couldn't be That was just outside reality It was always something I couldn't know That I didn't know that I shouldn't show Because everything around me Felt just like a bad dream It was all or nothing Be the kind of person you hate or be

Hated for the things that you thought were common sense Just a little further, one day it will make sense Hold yourself a little tighter, your innocence

Preyed upon and vilified by your blood and friends

Who am I if I can't assign a name and place to what this is? Everything that's mine feels rotten from the touch of it Everything all the time is a message that I shouldn't be Who the f#ck are you? Stay the f#ck away from me

I want to love myself but memories are killing me I want to live but all the years that came before won't let me be I want to love myself but memories are killing me Memories are killing me It hurts

Runner

I could be anything I want I could be somewhere far away I could make peace with what I'm not I could be real again someday HAHAHAHAHAHA Real again someday

I don't really know myself, I don't really believe myself I don't really know why I see rotten things inside myself I don't really understand a single thing that's said to me "I don't really care who you are or what you think of me!" But that's so f#cking untrue when no one's listening

Put me under I want to get away I wonder if I could make it She's a runner I hear she f#cks with something other You don't know the half of it

I'm just a pain that hurts too much Inverted shadow time delay Mirror image of something that I never really even was Heterosanity able-bodied LCD display

But I'm Lost in the world So different, so unsuited for it So sick, so f#cked up in it So doomed So dead So...

I'll get away and I'll be all that I dreamed of I'll become everything that you were so scared I would be I'll push the limits of what you thought I was capable of You'll never see me again I know what you did to me

Put me under I want to get away

This anger burns out too quick to hold I wanna be engulfed but I'm out in the cold Am I a character in some sick fantasy that's getting old? What happens from now on if it turns out I never told you?

I want to start again, I want this hurt to die I want it to destroy me so I'll have a reason not to lie I want to hear your voice and tell you it's the last time ever I want to cut away, I want to separate and sever

I'm going to start again

Wound

Listen, I don't want to go here This is almost as bad as going back there Listen, I can't, I can't go here This is a wound and it's closing This is a wound, please let it There is a wound called knowing What it's like to feel this

Please don't open it up again Please don't f#cking touch me Please don't talk to me that way

Someone opened it up again Someone f#cking touched me Someone scared me out of my mind Tore the wound right open and shoved me in

Every time it happens I don't think that I can get off the floor I don't even feel like those memories are mine anymore I don't know your motive but I just want to get out of this mess Please just get your voice out of my head

I remember trusting, I remember trusting you Now that's something I don't think that I could ever do

The truth is I don't want to know what happened to me Just wanna kill all the memories of those years Dig out grey matter, bleed out everything that is left From when I had to stop believing in safety

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As a bonus for getting to the end, here's my vanny playlist <3

The first two songs are actually from the same singer who's in the album above! Yep she sung other ones that fit vanny too, even had an album cover that looks exactly like vanny:

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Vanessa Vibes

IN MY MOUTH- BLACK DRESSES

This song is sooo vanny you can’t tell me otherwise! I wish I could edit but this is what you get for now!

sometimes you have to search up a character on your own blog just to see what a real one is saying about them

Kyoko Kirigiri: “hey girl, are you sex. because boobs. flips hair and sashays away.” (walks away normally.)

YEAH, MOM IM NOT JOKING AROUND HES ON THE CEILING FOR LIFE

when i say “i hot glued my furby into the ceiling” i mean it

spider-van ref

Luuvvv

Fresh and the bois jus´ chillin´!!!! Look at em´ go 

Fresh! Sans by: @loverofpiggies

Interesting parallel I noticed between the Help Wanted tapes and Retro CDs

Hey! I noticed this recently and wanted to point it out, somebody else probably has before but... whatevs!

In tape 9, Tape Girl points out something that looked like a halloween mask, and mentions ink multiple times... I know some people theorize the ink as blood and the mask as a face, and I'm in the same boat on the face sliced theory, but I do actually think this was a halloween mask because of the halloween update following it and Vanny's mask being the most lore-important collectable within.

Anyway, on to the similarity:

The final therapist asks Patient 46 (who the books pretty much confirmed as being Gregory) about an INKblot test, and 46 calls it a MASK, not just looking at it but holding it in his hands... he doesn't speak in the recording, so maybe he held it up to his face to show his interpretation of it as a mask?

Anyways what I'm trying to say is... this association of ink and masks... Does this mean Patient 46 was aware of what Tape Girl said about Jeremy? How? Did he play the fazbear virtual experience or something? I don't know but it's interesting to think about.

Also something else I noticed while wrriting this:

It's impossible to tell if it's the same inkblot 46 saw as a mask, and all of Vanessa's answers express some sortve desire to be outside in nature and escape whatever's going on with her (evil digital bunny manipulation)... Patient 46 expresses many opposite desires, wanting to be in the dark and wanting to hide the truth, while Vanessa seems a lot more forced to... it's like this is just a funny game to Patient 46

Back from my tangent- one of the inkblots Vanessa looks at she calls a beetle, but the therapist sees it differently as a face. Could it be the same inkblot? Is this some elaborate joke about the "is it really a mask or really a face" debacle??? DOES ANY OF THIS CONNECT AT ALL OR AM I JUST GOING LORE-CRAZY!?

Uh I don't really have a conclusion to this, my brain just loosely connected these things like "Oh does Gregory know something about Jeremy??". Thanks for reading hgsvsgdcvgsd

Would you be interested in me making a separate FNAF blog and postin Fresh stuff here instead? Lemme know B')