"You Cannot Save The World, But You Might Save The Man In Front Of You If You Work Hard Enough."

4 nov 2024 - monday, 00:25

i didn't do anything today

i started decluttering my desk but i just couldn't get myself to do more than picking up a few things.

i'm so fed up with myself because i haven't studied in so long and i'm not getting anything done 😭

i hope tomorrow i'll be able to do better

actually studying in the library for once 😊 and yes, i did spend five minutes drawing those gorgeous field lines instead of being productive

The MARINA discography saga continues. Been a bit since I was so fixated on an artist, but her songwriting is a breath of fresh air.

My chemistry midterm is tomorrow, my math midterm (day before yesterday) went. Absolutely terribly. Because our teacher came up with original questions and cancelled stuff. So that's not a fun precedent for the rest of my internals.

I really enjoy chemistry so my concepts are definitely there, now I need to go through fine print.

18th August 2024

𝔇𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔪𝔢𝔯 🌧️

23 august 2024 / 2-week holiday

teaching animal physiology

1h prep of molecular bio teaching materials tomorrow

went to the tailor

went to a clothes shop

📖 - alberts problem book (rip)

🎧 - new woman, lisa ft. rosalia

i'm so so so excited for my friend's wedding! we are all going to meet after a long time apart for the volunteering projects, and i'm excited to see them all :)

outfit check below ;)

My favorite sci-fi thing I've ever thought of is something I'd like to call Humans Are Space Ants. Basically, humans enter the larger universe and find that all other intelligent life are practically gods. The thing is, though, humanity's exploitation of physics has gotten so out of hand that they are on equal footing.

Important to remember, the aliens are far, far beyond us. Their understanding of the universe is much deeper, their power is far greater, but we just fuck around with existence harder than any other being has the lack of sense to. And it has had extremely potent results.

Although humanity's standing up to a civilization of a billion literal Cthulus, they're winning. They will eventually codify eldritch knowledge in a way they can understand.

Imagine if ants developed music partly on accident by just doing math about it. You would be so confused as to how they even did that. But they did. And then the next time you go out into your yard you hear the objective single best piece of music you have ever heard, and it's about the ants asking you to stop poisoning their nests before they teleport into your brain and kill you. And they figured out how to teleport using the music. Somehow. Even ignoring the fact they can teleport with music, how could they have composed the greatest song to ever be? they don't even fullly get it!

Basically, eldritch gods watching humanity's bullshit with confounded outrage. I should probably write about this at some point, it seems pretty damn funny/cool

Green is my favourite colour because it reminds me of the rainy days in the Countryside, the new leaves in spring, the magic of being alive and that sadness is only temporary 🌿💚🌲

23rd August 2024

So the good news is that my chemistry and English exams went really well. I'm pretty happy with the chem score, though there's a lot to improve in my preparation.

The bad news is that I was rejected from my dream exchange program. HOWEVER the good news there is that it's not because my application wasn't good, it's because I didn't meet the age criteria (too young). So, honestly, I'll take it. At least my anxiety can shut up now.

Next is physics, in three days. Not much to do beyond practise and revision of formulae.

In the next week, my reference books for 2024 and a book stand will be delivered, so I'm (naïvely) excited about getting to work on annotations and digitalising my notes in the month after midterms.

Have a good day ahead!

🎧: Dirty Devil Town (Mother Mother ft. Cavetown)