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Craving academic validation but too lazy to study

story of my life fr fr

Frrr, like I think I actually cooked with that lol, because it's unfortunate so real aaaaaaa

-//05.06.24

A checklist of what I did today:

solved some basic circuit problems

studied the biopsychosocial model and the spectrum model of narcissism

studied biology: contraceptives

proceeded with 'The unabridged journals of Sylvia Plath'

a rough sketch (I shall do the detailings about an eternity later)

started a grief group for gojo fans *akutami when I catch you-*

Seems like I slacked off a little less today. These days my eyes get red easily because I get enough sleep only during offs. Hopefully it will get better overtime ;/

actually studying in the library for once 😊 and yes, i did spend five minutes drawing those gorgeous field lines instead of being productive

My favorite sci-fi thing I've ever thought of is something I'd like to call Humans Are Space Ants. Basically, humans enter the larger universe and find that all other intelligent life are practically gods. The thing is, though, humanity's exploitation of physics has gotten so out of hand that they are on equal footing.

Important to remember, the aliens are far, far beyond us. Their understanding of the universe is much deeper, their power is far greater, but we just fuck around with existence harder than any other being has the lack of sense to. And it has had extremely potent results.

Although humanity's standing up to a civilization of a billion literal Cthulus, they're winning. They will eventually codify eldritch knowledge in a way they can understand.

Imagine if ants developed music partly on accident by just doing math about it. You would be so confused as to how they even did that. But they did. And then the next time you go out into your yard you hear the objective single best piece of music you have ever heard, and it's about the ants asking you to stop poisoning their nests before they teleport into your brain and kill you. And they figured out how to teleport using the music. Somehow. Even ignoring the fact they can teleport with music, how could they have composed the greatest song to ever be? they don't even fullly get it!

Basically, eldritch gods watching humanity's bullshit with confounded outrage. I should probably write about this at some point, it seems pretty damn funny/cool

deep down at your core, beyond all the programming & conditioning you have received, your soul knows exactly what is right & what you are here for

@academia-lucifer

09.09

Spent the day with a new friend in the library (spending more time pouring over recent reads and planning a book club, rather than studying!)