Prestigioushippo - Cata’s World

9-1-1 // demisexual eddie diaz

i’m just saying if you could choose between the first queer interracial slow burn best friends to lovers storyline on network television that deals with religious guilt, ptsd, internalized homophobia, and coming out later in life while working a stereotypical macho man job or two white men kissing for the millionth time why would you not choose the first one

I don’t want buddie because it would be hot to watch them make out or have sex or whatever bullshit some fans clearly wanted all along. I don’t want surface level lust for buddie.

I want them holding hands and being casually affectionate. I want them waking up in the morning together and eating breakfast as a family and taking Christopher to school together. I want pet names and prolonged eye contact and gentle smiles. I want them having tough conversations and disagreeing but still coming to a compromise because they love each other and value what they have together. I want Christopher calling buck dad and for them to have little inside jokes and have him bragging to his friends about having not one, but TWO firefighter dads. I want them defending one another against their parents and their massive expectations and their unwillingness to change even in the face of the long lasting pain they’ve inflicted on their children. I want them sharing their trauma and helping with pt exercises and talking about chronic pain. I want a wedding and more kids and a long lasting relationship that’s built on mutual respect and friendship and understanding.

I don’t just want sex or make out scenes.

I want romance. I want love.

In the end…..it always comes back to them ❤️

so you’re telling me that i’m supposed to be finding love in a generation where nobody says things like “you’ve bewitched me, body and soul” ??!?!?!??

Rae the maid secretly writes Polin fanfics and Violet is her beta

had to draw that one gif that’s all over 911twt as post “confessions” buddie😌

#tell him he's doing a good job

You know what I really want from season 7? I want another Buddie blow up like the grocery store.

I want Eddie, whose done a whole lot of healing to yell at Buck that Buck needs to be back in therapy because he died and of course that's going to change him but he doesn't even recognize Buck sometimes anymore because Buck won't let Eddie in.

I want Buck yelling right back that Eddie's moved on with his life since the shooting, why won't he let Buck do the same after the lightning.

I want angry tears and confessions through gritted teeth. I want everything they've swept under the rug and not talked about to come spilling out in Buck's kitchen.

I want Eddie telling Buck with pain dripping from his voice that "I see you, I've always seen you, but now I don't think I know you anymore. You won't let me know you anymore."

I want Eddie leaving Buck's loft after he says it and tells him that he can still see Christopher, but maybe for now the two of them should just be coworkers because Eddie needs time and space before he can be Buck's best friend because he isn't sure he knows him anymore.

I want Eddie crying in his truck after the conversation and Buck crying on his new couch, clear that he doesn't find it comfortable. I want the episode to end on a shot of both of them crying in their own spaces, so clearly alone.

Then I want the next episode to be so clearly uncomfortable between them. They still work together seamlessly, but that's it. They're awkward and tense around each other, they can't even look at each other between calls. I want it to be 10x more awkward than their first couple shifts together. I want looks exchanged between the members of the 118 when Buck and Eddie aren't looking.

And then I want the episode to end with Eddie pacing around his living room, clearly torn and then grabbing his keys only to open the front door to Buck standing on his doorstep looking at Eddie's house key like he isn't sure he's still allowed to use it.

I want Eddie to hold Buck's face like it's something so fucking special and Buck to do the same. I want a kiss that's biting and angry that melts into something soft and tender.

Cut to them in Eddie's bed, the sheets a mess, the comforter on the ground and Buck says something like "You've always seen me, even the ugly bits that I don't want people to see. That's why I'm so scared"

And then Eddie kisses Buck soft and sweet and says something like, "There's nothing about you that's ugly Buck."

The episode ends with them starting round two.