I Love Writing. I Hate Writing. I Have So Many Ideas & Quite Literally Nothing To Say

Character quirks based off people I know II

- obsessed with making films even as a kid 

- has a weird red stain on her jumper that doesn’t seem to ever go away 

- has lost her viola about three times in a year  

- buys things to impress people (eg. fountain pen, notebook) 

- used to experience slight auditory hallucinations 

- wrote poems about raspberries being metaphors 

- suffers from burnout a lot 

- ‘my cutoff date is 28. I either die committing art theft or assassination or I don’t die at all.’ 

- despises the word soliloquy 

- continuously says the word soliloquy 

- has an (almost finished) KYD wall 

- constantly working on something 

-  brings board games to whatever house she goes to

- incredibly happy when gifted world maps 

- someone once called her dumb and now her life goal is to become better than them in every aspect 

- has leverage on anyone about everything 

- constantly treats everything as a (subtle) competition 

- *draws six lines on leg* “look I’m a guitar”

- constantly comes up with strange pick up lines 

- wants to ‘pull a Henry’ every time she slightly fails at something 

- has a specific due date for crying and it’s a friend’s birthday 

- named all the statues they could find in a small town 

- wore a plague doctor mask to a party 

- has a real knack for wrapping presents 

- her gift for her Valentine was a cheesy heart necklace and a poem based on TSH quotes

- still wanted to be in the rain, so put coats over each other and huddled together 

- her entire personality is ‘JAMES IS ALIVE.’ 

John Cage to Merce Cunningham, June 29 1943

please let me live in this forever and ever

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“nobody is making you do this” i am driven by unnatural forces you will never even begin to comprehend

Tonight the moon is full. Through the window the moon covers my bed and turns everything a milky bluish white. So I escape by closing my eyes. Because the full moon is light insomnia: numb and drowsy like after love.

Clarice Lispector, from "Água Viva" (tr. by Stefan Tobler)

Movies I think fit into the DA aesthetics II

CHAOTIC ACADEMIA

- Rushmore

- Igbo Goes Down

- What We Do in the Shadows

- The Double

- The Favourite

PUNK/GRUNGE ACADEMIA

- Blue Spring (2001)

- Brick

- Sound of Metal

- Nightcrawler

- Mystery Train

DARK ACADEMIA

- Hurrah, We Are Still Alive!

- Suspiria

- The Moth Diaries

- Phantom Thread

- Incense For the Damned

- The Red Violin

- Howl

- Eyes Without a Face

- Carnival of Souls

LIGHT ACADEMIA

- Picnic at Hanging Rock

- Daisies

- Cinema Paradiso

- The Crimson Permanent Assurance

- The Children’s Hour

ROMANTIC ACADEMIA

- Carol

- Portrait of Lady on Fire

- Vita and Virginia

- The Handmaiden

- Only Lovers Left Alive

- Orlando

Jean Paul Gaultier spring/summer 1999

A Burst of Light, Audre Lorde

I was listening to the audiobook of The Secret History and realised something: Lafourge says that Richard would be isolated from everyone from the campus once he joins Julian's class, which Richard dismisses. Despite him going to college parties and being acquaintances with Judy, he truly has no one but the classics group. This becomes incredibly evident in the winter he spends in Hampden, having no one to go to for shelter—the result of him choosing to be with the greek class. His isolation takes form of the cold he endured during that time because there is no one he can go to. In the end, it is Henry who saves him, pulling him back into the caverns of the group, and his alienation.

People do not realize that when we say Israel is a settler-colonial state, we mean it was literally devised in junction with European imperialism around the turn of the century.

Political Zionism was founded by Theodore Herzl. Originally, Zionists were not specifically interested in the land of Palestine as a colonial project. In fact, Herzl was debating making Argentina the focus of mass Zionist migration, which is quite ironic considering Argentina's colonial and Aryanist past. British-controlled Uganda was also offered as a possibility by Joseph Chamberlain, a Conservative imperialist.

To encourage mass Jewish migration to Palestine, he worked with the British, who had recently drove the Ottoman Empire out of the Levant, and now boasted political dominance in the region, thanks to the Sykes–Picot Agreement between the UK, France, Italy, and Russia which covertly authorized British influence in Palestine, which had become a target of colonial expansion. He specifically wished to collaborate with Cecil Rhodes, a British imperialist who played a lead role in colonizing Zimbabwe and Zambia, and later took inspiration from his time spent extracting wealth from Africa as the founder of mining conglomerate the British South Africa Company.

Herzl’s personal goals for Zionism were colonial. He said in a letter to Rhodes:

“You are being invited to help make history. It doesn’t involve Africa, but a piece of Asia Minor; not Englishmen but Jews […] How, then, do I happen to turn to you since this is an out-of-the-way matter for you? How indeed? Because it is something colonial […] I […] have examined this plan and found it correct and practicable. It is a plan full of culture, excellent for the group of people for whom it is directly designed, and quite good for England, for Greater Britain [...]”

At that time, Palestine was predominately populated with Arab Muslims and Christians, as well as Arab Jews (Old Yishuv) and Druze. Jews made up around 6% of the population. The Ottoman government specifically released a manifesto at the start of Zionist migration condemning the colonization, stating:

“[Jews] among us […] who have been living in our province since before the war; they are as we are, and their loyalties are our own.”

The Balfour Declaration of 1917 on behalf of parliament, officially established the British Mandate of Palestine, sowing the seeds for the modern state of Israel, by means of the UK's ongoing occupation of the region.

Zionism was never about promoting Jewish culture or safety; it has always been tied up in Western (settler-)colonial expansion. !من النهر إلى البحر