What’s Meant For You Won’t Require Self-abandonment.

Favorite restaurant in NYC?

My favorite place to lunch in New York City is The Boathouse. Sorry lol, I’m basic. Give me the Central Park Boathouse over anywhere else in the city almost any day, put a drink in my hand, and let me stay there. It’s a classic; the location is beautiful, the food has always been really good, and the setting is perfection. I’m not the sort of person who’s going to try a million and a half different places when there’s one place that has everything I want, and when it comes to NYC, there are so many trendy (expensive) places to eat that it’s nice to have one or two on your mind that you know will satisfy your needs. It's pricey, but totally worth it.

hi! sorry to interrupt you scrolling, but i just wanted to remind you that you are very loved, needed and appreciated. there is so much waiting for you in the future, so hang in there!

no phone time all morning. dancing to loud music while getting ready for the day. hours of studying. to-do lists. hour-by-hour schedule. staying out the loop. being extremely selective w who i give my time and attention to. weekly hair masks. vitamins. cute fits even if i’m all by myself. smelling divine. taking pictures for my own enjoyment. fruit smoothies. layering lip glosses. eating healthy, nourishing foods. consistently hitting the gym. living at the library. glistening skin. reading or watching a film before bed. indulging hobbies. keeping to myself. long walks in the cold. early wakeup time. moisturizers and glowy body oils and creamy butters. bubble baths. drinking lots of water. religiously applying sunscreen. consuming heart-wrenching poetry. journaling. manicure. random acts of kindness.

when I ask for signs I get them. I have a running list of signs I asked for and subsequently received within 24-48h. I have a running album called angel numbers and on a daily basis see 5-7 angel number combinations.

they really began to accelerate when I left my old apartment. It just goes to show how our living spaces affect our ability to truly receive guidance, some homes block your energy tremendously. some homes make you feel like everything is an uphill climb, and in others there is a peace and flow.

this blog will be renamed, most if not all posts archived & a fresh aesthetic implemented very soon.

✨all of my manifestations have a flow, and I am in it. I bless everything in my path. I bless everyone in my path✨

Favorite Clothing Brand?

Helsa is probably my favorite brand at the moment. I think half of my closet is Helsa, and I find myself buying and wearing a lot of Elsa Hosk’s brand as of late. I’ve never had any trouble with what I’ve bought; the quality has all been really nice, and the fit and length have been perfect for me. I will say that I feel like a lot of the pieces are priced like investment pieces but, in reality, have a bit too much polyester to be worth the price they are, but all in all, I buy from the brand because I love what I own so far and enjoy the way and feel everything looks when it’s on my body.

May the next version of your life feel like a deep breath.

do you ever look at strangers smiling or dancing or having fun and think “i love you”? or see someone bop their heads along with the music from their headphones and you just wish you could tell them how pretty they look doing just that? or feel your heart warm when you watch someone laugh really loudly and then think about them later that day, completely randomly? you’re a part of that, too. someone has kept quiet about how beautiful you are to them, has smiled at the thought of this complete stranger that made their day, has repeated a joke you made to someone they love. there’s a lot of quiet love and admiration and connection in this world and even if you think you don’t belong, you’ve always been and always will be a part of it.

more things you like or use?

curls and that headband make for a truly splendid look.

Rhinoplasty ~ $3,500. 

I had my nose done back in 2021 for $3,500, and yes, the stimulus checks I got subsidized it. I was 18, wanted to fix my nose so badly, and had plenty of spare time on my hands, so I did it. I don’t regret it in the slightest, but I view myself differently after having it, and while my face changed for the better, it still changed to a point where I felt as if I was unrecognizable for a few years. I had no pain, recovery was swift, my bridge and nostrils are perfection, and I tape to this day. It was worth the money, and again, I don’t regret it, but I do think that anyone who has facial plastic surgery needs to be mentally prepared for the stress you’ll experience immediately postop and during your year of recovery.

Breast Augmentation ~ $6,500. 

I had breast implants, an internal bra, a little bit of lipo on my bra line, and a fat transfer to the upper poles of my breasts, and it was worth every penny. I was flat as a board before, but I didn’t want to do anything that would seem overpowering on my frame, so I discussed it all with my surgeon, and we found a solution together. They sit like they’re fake but feel like they’re real, they look amazing in bikini tops, and the lipo and internal bra were worth every cent of the extra cost. I went with silicone over saline. I had the classic under-bust incision (and it’s so faded now that it just looks like a thin white line), and apart from some heavy bruising in the area, recovery was easy.

Full Body Electrolysis ~ $2,000. 

I was grandfathered in with the pricing here, but I’d still really recommend electrolysis if you want a permanent form of hair removal. I got started on electrolysis when I was 16. It took around nine months of regular sessions and consistent effort to get to where I wanted to be, and five years have passed with very minimal hair growth. I had thick, dark hair, and I hated it so much that I did what everyone I knew at the time was doing and decided to have my body hair removed. Electrolysis hurts like a mother; it leaves your skin stinging, but in my opinion, it’s the only way to make sure the hair stays gone long term. My underarms hurt the least, my bikini area was bad at the start, and the backs of my knees were horrendous, but numbing gel really helps.

I’m busy crafting an image befitting of the woman I’d like to be and the lifestyle I’d like to live in the future.