Pienyami - Yami♡kawaii

Physically I’m sitting in my bedroom doing nothing,

Mentally, I’m tearing my hair out and smashing everything in sight.

want to cut so bad

What life would you have? I mean, what kind of future do you want, the one where you actually live and are happy. What makes you happy? I'm kinda interested in what you'll say. I have no idea what you will say.

- 💮

im not really interested in a future where ill be "happy" or some dream come true of a reality. i dont want anything to do with life. i want. to die.

It makes me feel a bit better that you like me. Don't know why though. Maybe because I ask questions people never really bother to ask or maybe I'm just that weird to ask them. But nonetheless. You giving me that small hope you can actually like me does something to my brain. Nothing perverted of course. Just that maybe we could be friends... maybe I could have you as my only friend, just mine and I am yours. But then it kinda hurted when you said you wanted to die. To make friends with someone like that again. Not saying you aren't a wonderful person because you could so be a wonderful person, just hurts to hear a potential friend wants to die and I don't know if I'll be ready to add another person to my list to save even though I need as much as saving as them.

Just, I hope you treat yourself well no matter how you die. Hope you give yourself a treat in any shape or form because I think you deserve at least one treat even if you can't fathom giving yourself one or don't want to. We only live once so even if you only get one kind thing in this world, whether it gets ripped out of your hands later in life, I hope you just enjoy the moment whatever treat you give yourself.

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im rlly glad i could even be ever so slightly impactful to how u feel tbh :] but sorry for making u feel hurt in any way. idk im prob a bit too insensitive regarding how ppl feel n tend to throw a bunch of gloom all over their face without a second thought about howd theyd react. so so sorry genuinely!! dont feel pressured to be a "savior" or that one therapist friend to others like me just because theyre struggling themselves. you deserve as much help, but dont deserve to carry burdens of others just because it feels like the right thing. its not your job or an obligation to comfort others and all. just being there like giving asks like these are enough and already so much, which itself is still not a requirement. so dont feel responsible for such a thing. u dont need to prove anything or whatever negative thought that may pop up! ^^ tytytyty sm for ur words!! stuff like this touches the heart i never knew i had n is something i cherish sm. it just gives that warm feel good feeling in ur brain uve talked abt urself earlier..! like this message also applies to u cuz obv u deserve things in life that arent just pain n crap, so i really REALLY appreciate u a lot, for this, for u urself, n more. ty > <

c1d2 ty for the tag!!! :3

(but i have no 1 to tag so idk free space???)

new tag game!

reblog to let prev know what their vibe is :3 (ex. a1a1)

@slitdove @chiyone @the-real-loser-otaku-girl @not-jiraikasa-kun @obsessibun @laven-dere @littleyejin @landmine-ky @k1-2-ur-heart

Goodnight my rose garden... pls send me lots of asks to wake up to tmrw and lets hope tmrw will be better❤️‍🩹

why r all mental related terms being used as jokes and insults omfg