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Redefining My Bullet Journal System

The bullet journal is probably something you’re no stranger to. It’s been circulating around the internet for a while, and it’s one of the main subjects of studyblr posts. However, when I started college last semester, I found that I no longer relied on my bullet journal to organize my tasks and structure my responsibilities anymore. Instead, I tried out a bunch of productivity/task-organization apps: Taskade, Actions by Moleskine, Any.do, Todoist, Wunderlist. None of them seemed to have what I needed, so I decided to give the bullet journal method another try.

The first thing I reflected on was why I stopped in the first place. At first I thought it was because the method itself allowed for a lot of freedom and I’d get confused as to what things to include and how to structure everything. But then I realized that it was in fact because I had previously been bullet journaling for other people instead of myself. Since I had what one could call an ‘artsy bullet journal’, I tended to focus more on the artistic aspect so that it would get more likes and reblogs after I posted it, when I should have been focusing on how it can organize my life. I realized that the bullet journal is a tool; the focus should be on life itself, not the bullet journal, but you can use the bullet journal to add value to your life.

At the beginning of the year, I deconstructed my organizational needs and attempted to apply that to my bullet journal method. I stopped looking at other people’s bullet journals and started thinking about my own needs and preferences. I thought about how I would best organize my time so that I could accomplish all of the things I want to accomplish in the different aspects of my life.

Supplies

The fact that I only have 2 main supplies allows me to bullet journal anywhere, anytime.

The Structure

The Practice

Simply having the tool to organize your life isn’t enough - you should also have a practice, a habit, for using it.

Going Forward

One thing I’d like to work on is future logging. As of now, I think in terms of months, since the my main commitment at the moment is my education, and monthly planning has worked out for me. But I think if I’d like to tackle on larger projects - e.g. my YouTube channel that I just started - I’d need to do a lot more future logging.

Another useful thing I want to try out is to summarize my journal entries in the form of notes. Recently I’ve been audio journaling (15-20 minutes of me talking to myself), and it’s been pretty effective. However, I have no way of ‘skimming’ the entries like I would a written journal entry. Summarizing them would help me retain main ideas of each entry and remember the things I said that are or could potentially be important and useful.

Final Thoughts

If you don’t think your bullet journal is adding value to or improving productivity and organization in your life, I think you should reconsider the way you’re approaching the system. I found a method that works for me; yours might be different. While it can be beneficial to draw inspiration from other people, do whatever helps you the most, not what other people tell you you should be doing. After coming up with an appropriate structure, make sure you maintain the practice.  

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BREAKING BENJAMIN :: PHOBIA PROMPTS. PART 1. Feel free to change pronouns as needed. Intro will not be featured because it has no lyrics.

THE DIARY OF JANE.

"And I don't mind if you say this love is the last time."

"I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane."

"There's a fine line between love and hate."

"And I don't mind, just let me say that I like that."

"Something's just about to break."

"No love, there is no love."

"What have I become?"

"Something's getting in the way."

BREATH.

"Is it over yet?"

"I know nothing of your kind."

"So sacrifice yourself and let me have what's left."

"You left a hole where my heart should be."

"This will be all over soon."

"Let me in."

"You take the breath right out of me."

"'Cause I will be the death of you."

YOU.

"So, I got high and lived all that life."

"I have taken all for granted."

"Promise me you'll try to leave it all behind."

"Why have I gone blind?"

"The only way out is letting your guard down."

"And forgive me, my love."

" 'Cause I've elected hell."

"Lying to myself."

EVIL ANGEL.

"Hold it together."

"I have the answer."

"You are the faith inside of me."

"Don't leave me to die here."

"Put me to sleep evil angel."

"Nothing could be worse."

"Help me survive here alone."

"Why can't I breathe evil angel?"

UNTIL THE END.

"I'm done with these endeavors."

"Why give up, why give in?"

"But I will go on until the end."

"It's easy to fall apart completely."

"I knew this day would come to end."

"It's not enough, it never is."

"Living is hard enough, without you fucking up."

"I've lost my way."

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Exploring how Obey Me!'s portrayal of the Celestial Realm mirrors that of the how the Christian heaven is used as propaganda, and how Simeon, Luke, and Raphael tie-in with real-life people's experiences of the Christian faith.

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to preface: I was born Christian and was raised as such, but renounced my religion when I was around 18. Experiences vary in different parts of the world of course, however, I will also be tying in things I see from online conversations about Christianity. Admittedly a lot of my insight comes from my experience (and by extension, my family and friends) of Christianity in my area of the world (southeast asia).

Additionally, this post is purely for fun and speculation, and my fascination with subversive portrayals of religion, particularly of Christianity. Please note that I will use the word "religion" as a whole, but this post will specifically go into Christianity, and by proxy, its branches.

As this post is a spur-of-the-moment thing, it is not proofread, so I apologize for any spelling or grammatical errors!

‼️This post will contain spoilers‼️

To start, let's lay out the things we know about the Celestial Realm from the story.

The Celestial Realm is home of the angels, and in contrast to the Devildom, it is a realm of permanent daylight.

Michael acts as its authority, however, we know that its most supreme being is the Father, who we can presume created the realm and its angels. Unlike the sleeping Demon Lord, we are at least aware that Father is still active, although presumably leaves the governing to Michael.

Similar to real-life angelology, the Celestial Realm also divides its angels by ranks. The current known ranks are Seraphim, Throne, Cherubim, Principality, Dominion, and Archangel.

Key observations:

Angels can either fall to become demons (demon brothers) or be stripped of their blessing and become human (Simeon).

Luke's current angel rank is unknown. We can assume this is from inexperience, as despite being implied to be at least a thousand years old, he acts and behaves like a typical ten year old.

Although "falling" can be a punishment by acting out of defiance against its virtues, we know that angels can still be morally grey, and in some cases, dubious, and still not be stripped of their blessing.

Now to the bulk of this analysis.

I. Christianity as a tool for propaganda and colonization

This is pretty basic history - western colonizers have used religion as a basis of conquering "new worlds" in the name of spreading their faith and belief systems. The effects of this still persist until today - racism, homophobia, etc. in general can be traced back to the colonial era. In more present-day scenarios, religion is also used as a leverage for morality and what people deem as "right or wrong". For some parts, it aligns with basic humanity, however, we know very well that it can also be used to spread bigotry and false moral high grounds as a justification for mistreatment of people.

In many countries, politics and religion go hand in hand. Many politicians will use their beliefs as a basis for bills and laws, and it trickles down to the justice system, where judges can display religous bias (whether consciously or not) in favor of their personal beliefs. As such, many politicians will use religion to forward their name and agenda, in the pretense of being a devout practicioner, in order to garner relatability and bias from people of the same faith. In Christianity, for example, many politicians will use the term "Lord's servant" as a subtext for people to latch onto.

In a societal context, we are very familiar with the phrase "Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve" as a rebuttal for homosexual relationships, and in general, relationships that bigoted Christians believe do not follow in their God's text. Cherry-picking bible verses and anecdotes to further their justification for acting the way they do is also a very common occurence, even though that very same Bible they read also emphasize the value of spreading love, with hate having no place in heaven.

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II. How it ties to the Celestial Realm

Behind its perma-daylight nature, we learn that the Celestial Realm is a place of strict rule and order, and an angel can easily get demoted, as was the previous case for Simeon, who we know was originally a Seraphim, and in some cases, even falling to demonhood, like the brothers. This walking-on-eggshells type of ordinance is very tricky, as the reasoning for being casted out of the realm can get very blurry. In Lilith's case, it was her act of using Celestial Realm medicine in order to heal a human she loved; this then led to Lucifer questioning why her act was tantamount to falling, as he always believed love to be a precious thing. This doubt and questioning, however, then led to his own falling, which led to the rest of the brothers siding with him and Lilith, resulting in the Great Celestial War.

We can then paint a picture of the Celestial Realm as a false/disillusioned utopia - externally, it is very lavish, warm, and golden, but taking a closer look reveals its suffocating, anti-freedom, gray nature, where one wrong move could spell your last day. Simeon is very much aware of this, and has, on multiple occassions, openly expressed disdain on how the realm operates.

It is then a matter of Self vs. Governance; at what point does the Celestial Realm draw the line between individual autonomy and total subjugation of its angels? If Lucifer, once one of its most prominent, respected, and powerful angels, gets casted due to defiance for asking a very valid question regarding a value that is taught and propagated within the realm, as he believes Lilith's punishment directly goes against that value, then what of the lesser angels who wish to ask the same? If standing up for those you hold dear is tantamount to unholiness, then why teach the value of love and family in the first place?

I hope you can see where I'm going here - the teaching of these values in the Celestial Realm being the same ones that can get you ostracized VS. using these values to advance a real-world political agenda and cherry-picked beliefs is intrinsically linked.

People that use religion as a means to justify cruelty or feign moral superiority despite the main point of their religion being to "love everyone equally, as you do yourself" are setting a status quo that they built for themselves and their hivemind - if you don't follow these specific rules and beliefs, you are not a true devout. If you question or point out inaccuracies on the beliefs that we want you to follow, you are a deviant.

Sound familiar yet?

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III. The three main angels

Excluding Michael and the demon brothers pre-fall, there are three other angels the story focuses on: Luke, Simeon, and Raphael. Despite all three being angels, they cannot be any more similar from each other. One is a brash, tempermental, and an overexcited youth with a sweet tooth; one freely lies and openly involves themselves in un-angelic deeds; and the other is a quiet, stoic, and blunt individual with a questionable taste in cuisine. These three angels encapsulate, almost perfectly, a religous pipeline.

IIIA. Luke

Luke represents the first entry to a religion (I'd use the word indoctrination, but I don't want to unknowingly portray it negatively as some people are born into a religion by default). He is young, inexperienced, idolizes a high-ranking angel who he follows with no question, and above all, naive. We know that he does not know the full reason of why the brothers fell, nor does he know of Lilith. Similarly, children and young people in religion often follow their parents/guardians blindly without question, their understanding of faith being minimal and surface level, something easily digestible for a young, developing mind.

IIIB. Raphael

Raphael is compliance. He knows and understand the ins-and-outs, the ifs-and-whys of the realm, yet continues to follow its order. Although he did not side with Lucifer, we eventually learn that he wishes he did (most recently in NB), yet unlike Simeon, does not actively wallow in his choice and continues to fulfill his duty as a Seraph. Whether we see a development with this in Nightbringer, time will tell. In a similar vein, many people will silently comply with their own faith, regardless of doubt. In my experience, this compliance, either out of familial pressure or feeling indebted to a religion, starts to happen during major developmental stages, either as a late teen or early adulthood, when you can freely do your own research and start to understand the deeper intricacies of a particular religion.

IIIC. Simeon

Simeon is representative of actively going against the status quo. He is an angel that has, on numerous occassions, displayed manipulative and wrathful tendencies, and has admitted to freely partake in lies and deceit. He has also stated that his biggest regret in life was not siding with Lucifer during the war, which is why he actively tries to help him and the brothers as much as he can, not caring if his action could be deemed as heresy. Although we see bits and pieces of it in the original game, Nightbringer Simeon fully procalims this, as asking him to ally with the brothers will result to him in saying that he always will be on their side. In real life, people have their own breaking point that leads them to this path, no matter how personal or educated the reasoning may be. Denouncing one's faith, especially one that was given to you by birth, can be considered an act of both defiance, and in the case of Christianity, becoming unholy, or impure.

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IV. The Celestial Realm as a commentary of how religion, particularly Christianity, is used in real life as a tool to further a cherry-picked, propaganda-ridden agenda, despite it being a contradiction to its teachings.

It is no secret that a lot of societal problems nowadays regarding bigotry, refusal of understanding, and unacceptance of others outside your status quo can be traced back to religous conservatives. This is a walking contradiction, of course, as Christian teachings always puts love above all, yet bringing this up as a rebuttal will elicit anger, not reflection. The Celestial Realm is the same, as its blurry definition of defiance goes against its importance of love and familial relationships, so much so that in its eyes, an angel trying to elicit defiance by acting un-angel-like is ultimately a lot more angelic than one who dares question why its teachings are being used as a leverage of defiance.

Of course, a lot of this can be chalked up to mere coincidence, and some might even say that I'm stretching a lot here, but it's still very interesting that a portrayal of heaven is morally ambigous at best. In some ways, the Devildom, or what's supposed to be hell, feels like the better place to live in out of the two.

Anyways, if you made it this far, thank you for reading my random spat-out ramble that i started writing out of nowhere and I fixated on finishing 💀 Share your thoughts with me too, if you'd like. I'd love to hear what you guys think.

Virgo (m) and Pisces (f) “Hearts don’t break around here”

Virgo is a goal oriented, hardworking type of person, who will not and does not rest until they have finished their share of responsibilities and duties for the day. Virgo’s are serious and mature individuals who often might appear reserved and simply busy at a task at hand to be approached by someone. They are the person everyone else relies on when the going gets though to pull through and “take the wheel”, meaning that the Virgo is used to having the weight of the world on their shoulders and silently bearing it without making a fuss about it. Apart from being the back-bone of the society, they have a caring and protective kind of nature, always looking after the underdogs and the oppressed, for they experienced how it feels to be in that position once or twice in their lifetime. When looking for a partner they want someone who will be just as committed as they are in a relationship. A soft heart, that knows how to love as deeply as they do, for Virgos are tired of people who play games and just use them for their money/security/or status that they have. Virgos are known to be the provider, yet most people take that for granted and misuse their good will and helping hand, leaving them broken and feeling empty. That’s why the want a partner who will appreciate the effort they put in and truly love them for who they are, giving them the peace and security they so crave, and even a little bit of admiration and praise to lift up their spirits every now and then.   

Pisces are dreamers, kind and loving people who put the emphasis on love and relationships in their life. They desire someone who will treat them as a “princess”, and behave as the prince charming you see in movies. In return they give the person their full support, love and unquestionable loyalty. Pisces look for a stable and reliable partner who is well off and who will take the lead in their relationship, wooing and courting the Pisces like a gentleman. They like someone with will power and a dominating personality, yet someone who will have a spot towards them and never lose their temper. Pisces make the best lovers, they will shower their special person with creative and usually hand made gifts and their endless attention, admiration and unexpected surprises. The chosen person will feel as if they are the most important person in the world. Moreover, Pisces are empaths who feel everything too deeply and must therefore express their emotions to the people around them. They need someone who will be gentle and understanding with them. Additionally, this is the sign that knows heart break, they have had their fare share of failed relationships, betrayal and disappointment. Always falling for someone who was careless with their heart and turned out not what they had hoped for. 

Virgos have also experienced too many heart breaks and let-downs and ,therefore, are tired of being used and taken for granted. A relationship between these two signs would be full of understanding, mutual support and security in one another. Both know how it feels to be lonely and would never intentionally inflict pain on their partner. Virgo would take charge,provide and protect their Pisces, and in return the Pisces would give them unconditional love, cuddles and the softness of their presence. Pisces will take notice of every little deed the Virgo does for them and thank them double for it, always making sure the Virgo gets the appreciation for all the hard work they put into. This is a soft and gentle kind of love, that gives one rest and does not tire one out. 

Story #1 -19.04.2019

Like the calm after the storm, everything became silent for a moment. Just for a moment. The next thing that the lady saw was a blurry figure sprinting in her direction. She managed to dodge the weapon, a knife or maybe something else, she wasn t sure at the moment. All that she knew was that if she didn t dodge it next time it would attack her, there won t be a next time. She needed to stop this madness right now. But something inside her gut told her to not hurt that person in front of her. A second. A second of hesitation on her part and the figure took that to it s advantage. A sharp pain erupted from her stomach area and the world was suddenly spinning around her, making her feel dizzy. The world became darker little by little as she hit the ground with a thud. The last thing that she remembered was a pair of cold, murderous eyes starring down into the light that was slowly leaving her own and a blood curling scream that cut thru the darkness that became her world.

Inside of a dark room it was past midnight when a little girl suddenly woke up from sleep screaming and trembling like the autumn leaves blew by the wind. Her mother heard her and rushed to her side right away. It was the third night that her daughter had a nightmare, the same exact nightmare, and woke up screaming for her. The poor girl had that nightmare since she was really young, but back then it was maybe once or twice a month, now at age 6 it became more frecvent, like 3 or 4 times a week. The mother kind of knew what it was. Old stories said that soulmates that died tragically would haunt their reincarnations hopping for a better future for them. So she was afraid for her daughter and the future prepared for her by the odds. But right now her ray of sunshine was too young to understand the meaning of all of this so she decided to wait until the girl would grow old enough to try to warn her about her nightmares. But that day never came. The mother tragically died in an accident and the girl grew up along with her demons. Now aged 16, she still had them, but she managed to learn to live with them so they didn t keep her up at night anymore. But she never found out who that blurry figure was. But she stopped trying to find out about it when she met her soulmate. Whenever she was by his side, all the nightmares would suddenly disappear and she could rest in peace. But the peace wasn t long leaved. He was also part of her dreams, but not in the way she would think. All that he wanted was to live his happy ever after with his chosen one. But one thing that neither of them took into consideration was the fact that history is bond to repeat itself. And he learned that the hard way when he found himself laying on the ground with her bloody body in his arms, crying his eyes out.

They were on a date at the park, it was already dark outside and they wanted to stargaze since the night was perfect in their opinion. Everything came crashing down when he went to pick a pretty flower that he saw earlier to give it to his girlfriend. He was awat for only a second when she was attacked by a madman with a knife. He heard her screaming and rushed back to her. A second of her turning her head away from the attacker and a moment of hesitation on his part gave the madman enough time to plug his knife deep in her stomach, making her nightmares become reality right before their eyes. Then he flew away, leaving the two lovers alone in the park, only with the moon watching over them. In her last moments she recalled the story that she knew all too well. It happened almost the same. Only that this time, not murderous eyes bored into her own, but teary, broken and lovely eyes that she adored oh so much. So with a final ' I love you' she closed her eyes and fell into the darkness. The last thing that she heard was a blood curling scream.

Hope that you liked it and tell me your opinion if you want, but please don t be rude, ok? Until next time, see ya~