Just Dropped These Pieces Of At The Factory For “Through The LooQing Glass”

Caela by Liturgy

72"x13.5", synthetic and natural fibers, vinyl tubing, 2024

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This piece came about as an attempt to visually depict how I experience music. Possibly due to my Autism, I do not seem to listen to/experience music the way other people I have discussed this topic with experience music. I recognize that there is an underlying meter, a rhythm, a beat, that allows a person to "follow the music;" the beat is also what people follow when they dance. I can force myself to identify and follow a beat, but it requires significant concentration on my part, is not what comes naturally to me, and is not how I enjoy listening to music. My attention often skips back and forth between different sounds, following the bass sounds for several moments because I enjoy that specific section, then switching focus to the crescendo of a violin, to the sound of the singer's voice, the drums, back to violin, bass, voice, a new sound.

By connecting colors, patterns, and material to specific aspects of a musical piece, I have attempted to create a depiction of my experience of the music.

(I also decided to leave the edges of the different photos I took, to give an impression of the number of images needed to create a decent representation of this weaving.)

Little Box of Hate

cigar box, newspaper, magazine pages, nails, embroidery floss, varnish, zipper pull stolen almost 20 years ago from someone who abused me

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replying to messages!

there are a lot of them, so they’re going under the cut...

Anonymous said: Your comics are great, I really love your art style and your sense of humor.

Thank you!       

Anonymous said: Therapist Bobby Hill sounds a lot better than my therapist tbh. (Hey there love your art you are amazing!)    

Thanks!

If your therapist is NOT working for you and you have the option/ability -- get a different one. Some therapists are shitty, some therapists are good therapists, but just not for you. I know it can feel shameful, like you’re “quitting,” but the right therapist can make a big difference. I’ve seen 5 therapists over the years. 1st therapist was awesome, but eventually I had an issue she wasn’t versed in, so she helped me look for a new therapist. 2nd therapist was cool with me, but my parents hated her... and it was family therapy so that wasn’t working. 3rd therapist was AWFUL, I saw her for 4 sessions and then never went back. Therapists 4 and 5 were also awesome, and I found them by “shopping around” and making sure I was seeing someone versed in the issues I had.

But I totally get if you’re not in a place where you can do that, and you have my sympathy.

Anonymous said: hey your art is just super wonderful and soothing and it makes me cry and I love it so much please keep on doing it

Thank you! And I plan on keeping it up. When I’m not being steam-rolled by grad school. lol.

Anonymous said: for a sec while I was reading the sequel to the first comic I was like "Noooo.... but... CONNIE", then I thought "Oh well, this is ok too, no big deal", but surprise! also Connie! ha ha, anyway awesome job, thank you  

You’re welcome! There’s no way I could leave out Connie, she’s so cool. And I feel like she’s the kind of person who would be pragmatic and chill about being in a poly relationship.

Anonymous said: So I was a little confused by your cartoon marriage counseling comic at first. I hadn't seen a comic about abuse and relatonship problems populated, completely seriously, by cartoon characters. But I actually really like it! Keep up the good work dude. (also, i saw on an old response that you deal with compulsive skin picking? i totally know that feeling.)  

I’m glad you liked the comic! And good luck with the skin picking. It is NOT fun. I’ve had some luck with keeping a fidget toy at my work desk so I have something to do with my hands when I get the urge.

@kdotjay-draws-and-reblogs said: mr. panic, can i call you mr. panic? how do i become... cool?

Well... be an incredibly anxious, neurotic high school student with no social life and really good grades, go to art school for a year, drop out, go back to school for a psych degree, go to punk & metal house shows but still be a neurotic, anxious, grade-grubbing mess, realize you’re trans, start HRT, move to the other side of the country for grad school, make a comic based on an idea you had in a class on family systems therapy, have the comic go viral and then... that’s how you... become cool?

@angstyboi said: "Clients names have been omitted." Holy fuck that comic was awesome.       

Thank you!

I don’t think many people get the original caption I put on the comic tho... It’s not meant to say you’re not supposed to know who the characters are or act like I did a good job disguising who they are (lol), it’s meant to reference psychological literature/studies, where you remove/alter identifying information of clients.

Anonymous said: That Therapy comic you made was beautiful. I literally cried and I haven't stopped because it's so good. That was amazing and I hope you have plans for more in the future. It really spoke to me personally.  

Thank you so much for taking the time to write me.

@hannahology said: I came across your Therapist RJ Hill comic again after a long while, and it still hits me hard. Then I explored the other things you've published. You do amazing work. Have you ever considered doing a series of Dr. Hill's sessions with other fictional characters?         

Thank you for taking the time to go through my stuff! That actually means a lot.

I don’t have any specific plans to return to the comic. I might in the future if inspiration strikes. I’ve been wanting to get back into sci-fi/fantasy stories, like I used to do in middle school, and I’m finding it surprisingly difficult.

Tomorrow at ass o’clock in the morning I will be getting on a plane to OK to pack my boyfriend, his stuff, two snakes, and a cat into a truck and then roadtrip it all the way back to the PNW!!!

Some of my recent Transexual Warlock looks

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I thought I’d made a mistake by doing this eye-searing magenta for the ground, but I’m liking it.

Drawn on my lunch break with sharpies and crayola markers.

@turtleshroom, what’s good?

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My unsuccessful submission to Happiness Comix.

Musician David Eugene Edwards.

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 @hogue-e-roll: Are you going to comicon next month?

Sadly, no. I’ll be drowning under my quarter finals at that time. But... uh... keep an eye out for the March 1st issue of the Seattle Weekly.

Debuted this @shortrunseattle and now it’s up for sale in my etsy

"Emet" is a short story about a woman and a Golem -- $10,  plus shipping 5.5 x 8.5, 12 pages, full color choose media shipping and save money!        

I hope to post something about the awesome time I had at Short Run, but it might be a little while because I have about three grad school assignments I’m working on. Also there’s an election tomorrow and I will either be drowning my sorrows or celebrating having dodged the Apocalypse.

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