when you are very bad for years, people no longer worry.
you become invisible, a ghost.
I can leave now, everyone has forgotten me.
I'm built different. like incorrectly i think
The goal is to look masculine enough that I can be a femboy without just looking like a girl.
*showing visible symptoms* oh my god i need help desperately
*symptoms go away for one day* what if im just faking it
pt. 2 here
your weight does not define you. let me say it again, your weight does not define you. if you're saying something different, nope. it does not. next thing.
the food you eat does not have any moral value. eating a pizza does not make you a bad person. eating a salad does not make you a good person. it's food, it has no moral value at all, whatsoever. you're the same person regardless of if you eat cake or fruit for a snack.
not fitting into your clothes does not make you a failure. (if you have a recovery where you're losing weight- per doctor's orders, etc.- your old clothes being too big does not mean past you was a failure.) so if you need to go buy new clothes because your old stuff is either too small or too big, that does not hold any kind of personal value, okay? they're clothes, they're meant to fit our bodies, we are not meant to fit into them.
if someone has said something to you about the way you look now, please just know that they are most likely uneducated about eds and are (hopefully) not meaning to hurt your feelings. that said, correct them if you want to, but also know that it is not your job to do so if you don't want to.
going off that last point, I was taught by my recovery team that it is very important to set boundaries with anyone who may make a comment on what you're eating or how you look. for example, you could say, "hey, I'm in recovery from something (you don't have to be specific if it makes you uncomfortable) and I would really appreciate it if you didn't say anything to me about my body or what I'm eating." or "I'm not really comfortable talking about that, can we change the subject?" and anything else you may want to say.
satisfy your cravings. craving ice cream is not bad. if your body is telling you that it wants ice cream, eat some ice cream. in recovery you need to establish with your mind and body that you can now eat without restrictions, and should allow yourself whatever you're craving.
and lastly, I wish someone would have said this to me: eat whatever you want. literally, I mean it. your body is going through a confusing time, and even if you've been in recovery for months, it still could think you're going to go back to your old habits. so enjoy what you eat. :)
as always, if you need to talk, you can send me an ask or message me <3
how i sleep after slicing my legs open
choose your bento 🍱
Me talking to somebody: Oh yea ive been doing great!!
My thighs: 😑
me getting ready for the biggest ed relapse of my life (this disorder is hell but its the only thing i have) :33
Undiagnosed audhd culture is never having meltdowns and only ever having shutdowns when youre alone in your room and wondering why youre so useless and incapable of functioning normally
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