Literally Me 😭 Everytime It Gets Bad I Feel Alone Then I Isolate Which Makes Me Feel Even More Alone

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you deserve to eat. you deserve to be able to stand up without feeling like you're going to pass out. you deserve “unhealthy” foods. you deserve to not feel cold constantly. you deserve to fuel your body. you deserve to see yourself as more than just numbers on a scale. you deserve a happy relationship with food.

struggling in ed recovery?

pt. 2 here

your weight does not define you. let me say it again, your weight does not define you. if you're saying something different, nope. it does not. next thing.

the food you eat does not have any moral value. eating a pizza does not make you a bad person. eating a salad does not make you a good person. it's food, it has no moral value at all, whatsoever. you're the same person regardless of if you eat cake or fruit for a snack.

not fitting into your clothes does not make you a failure. (if you have a recovery where you're losing weight- per doctor's orders, etc.- your old clothes being too big does not mean past you was a failure.) so if you need to go buy new clothes because your old stuff is either too small or too big, that does not hold any kind of personal value, okay? they're clothes, they're meant to fit our bodies, we are not meant to fit into them.

if someone has said something to you about the way you look now, please just know that they are most likely uneducated about eds and are (hopefully) not meaning to hurt your feelings. that said, correct them if you want to, but also know that it is not your job to do so if you don't want to.

going off that last point, I was taught by my recovery team that it is very important to set boundaries with anyone who may make a comment on what you're eating or how you look. for example, you could say, "hey, I'm in recovery from something (you don't have to be specific if it makes you uncomfortable) and I would really appreciate it if you didn't say anything to me about my body or what I'm eating." or "I'm not really comfortable talking about that, can we change the subject?" and anything else you may want to say.

satisfy your cravings. craving ice cream is not bad. if your body is telling you that it wants ice cream, eat some ice cream. in recovery you need to establish with your mind and body that you can now eat without restrictions, and should allow yourself whatever you're craving.

and lastly, I wish someone would have said this to me: eat whatever you want. literally, I mean it. your body is going through a confusing time, and even if you've been in recovery for months, it still could think you're going to go back to your old habits. so enjoy what you eat. :)

as always, if you need to talk, you can send me an ask or message me <3

I hate how there's like no in between mood for me when I'm on my ed sht...I swear im either

me getting ready for the biggest ed relapse of my life (this disorder is hell but its the only thing i have) :33

Part of me just wants to say fuck it and come out as genderfluid and the other part is listing everything that could go wrong.

How I expect to look after fasting for 1 day

sorry, i might disappear from time to time but so does my will to live

wl rules i made for myself (*^^*)♡

eat 500 cals a day

if ate over limit burn the calories until it’s 500

no fast food

no salt on food

low sodium

no liquid calories

no snacking

no eating at night

eat mostly fruit, veggies, protein and fiber

only eat if necessary

decline food and snacks

eat low calories

aim for 0 calories

drink lots of water

fasting as much as possible

🙏 praying that i actually follow them for once 😭