brocedes son or carcar daughter?
jenson button's a 365 party girl but you already knew that
summer break idea?
OH THE UPDATE IS SO GOOD BUT CLIFFHANGER šššš I WANT TO CRY
racing hearts and baby steps making my heart ache so badly. i need to know what will happened afterššš
NOW IT'S 4 FICS AWAYYY HZHSHDHDH
7 fics away from 100 carcar stories ohhhh i love it here
like @jusst-you-race said, "it's like watching a birth of a nation" askjdskdjskj
āØļøJULY 30 IS CARCAR'S ANNIVERSARYāØļø
so im sleepy, but somehow, my brain is thinking about thisāØļøāØļøāØļø
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sky sports said happy first anniversary to carcar for all who celebrate btw
the carcar fem! arts are so many noww, and i just can't stop thinking that female carlos is blanca and female oscar is hattieš
PLEASE I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF RE-READING YOU'RE TOO SWEET FOR ME CARCARššš AO3 PLEASE COMEBACKKššš
owh... im happy. im not crying while reading this...
I wrote a little bonus epilogue for You'll Just Have to Remind Me :-) (1K, probably doesnāt make sense if you havenāt read the fic.)
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Carlos wakes up smiling. He was dreaming of something goodāsomething warm, something right. He tries to hold onto the details, but nothing sticks, everything slipping away like water through his fingertips. All heās left with is the feeling of sunshine spreading through his body. He wants to bask in it.
But as he rolls over to stretch, that sunny feeling swiftly fades into confusion. Somethingās off. The curtains are a deep blue instead of his classic red ones. Thereās a leatherbound journal on the bedside table where his copy of Cold Mountain usually sits. The covers are tossed back on the other side of the bed, revealing a well-worn dip in the mattress.
This isnāt his bed. This isnāt his room.
Carlos groans, sitting up. He doesnāt do one-night standsānot anymore. That was something he firmly left in his twenties. And he definitely doesnāt do one-night stands he canāt remember at all. He couldnāt have been blackout drunk last night- thereās not even a wisp of a hangover.
Heās got to be missing something. Closing his eyes, Carlos retraces his steps from the day before.Ā
He had brunch with Charles at the cafe across from their flatā he had the blueberry pancakes while Charles ordered an omelet.Ā
He went for a run in the parkā his pace was better than usual, but had to end his route prematurely because it started raining.Ā
He stopped by the video store to pick up a rental in advance for roommate movie night. This week, theyāll be watching Alien 3. Impulsively, he also threw in a pack of Mike & Ikes that he ate on the way home.
When he got back to his flat, he found Charles face-down on the couch, moping that he was about to do a load of laundry but realized they were out of dryer sheets. Carlos had promised him that tomorrow heād pick some up.
Carlos remembers tucking himself into bed, reading a chapter of Cold Mountain, and turning in at around 11:00 p.m.Ā
And thatās it. No going out, no meeting anyone, no late-night tryst. Heās thirty- his memory canāt be fading like this yet. Thereās got to be something heās missing here. A crucial piece to the puzzle heās just⦠overlooking for some reason.
Before he can spiral too hard, heās jolted from his thoughts by⦠is that singing? Yes, itās barely audible at first, but when Carlos focuses, he can clearly hear muffled, off-key singing from the other side of his door. Lovely, his hookup wants to make him breakfast and Carlos canāt even remember his name.
Creeping out of bed, Carlos spots his old grey sweatshirt draped over the dresser. He pulls it on carefully. Itās definitely his, but it feels more worn than it was the last time he put it on. Heās not sure how it got here either. He wasnāt wearing it when he went to bed last night.
He just needs to get out of here. Heāll slip out, call Charles to come pick him up, and then book an appointment to make sure he hasnāt developed some insane sleepwalking disorder.Ā
He creeps out of the room, tiptoeing through the space and desperately trying to find the door to get out of here. The flatāno, the houseāwas beautiful, with high ceilings and effortless room design. It felt lived-in, loved-in.
The mantlepiece in the living room was crowded with keepsakes and trinkets. A golden statue, scented candles, and tons of photos in frames. Heās too far away to clearly see, but some of those photos⦠looked like they could be of-
The terrible singing starts again and Carlos almost jumps out of his skin. His head snaps towards the source. Thereās a man in the kitchen, his head buried in a thick cookbook. Carlos can't see his face, but something in his chest tightens anyway. The front door is straight ahead, away from the kitchen. He could leave. He should leave. Instead, he turns back and moves toward the singing.
The guyās back is turned to Carlos and heās now hunching over the stove, grumbling to himself as he tries to light the stovetop burner. Carlosās heart has launched itself into overdrive, heās sure itās beating so loud this guy can hear it.
Because the guy turns around, giving him a warm smile and a soft, āHey, love.āĀ
Thatās Oscar
And the world goes blurry. Carlosās breathing shallows. Heās never seen this guy before; he's sure would remember a face like that. But all his mind can think is thatās Oscar, over and over again- more and more insistent. Like this is the most important singular fact that Carlos will ever know.
Heās got pancake batter on his nose. Carlos canāt imagine how he managed to do that. But heās smiling, at him, warm and genuine and beautiful. āAlready done reading yourā¦ā he trails off, probably noticing that Carlos is barely holding it together. āCarlos?ā
Oscar drinks his hot chocolate with an insane number of marshmallows.Ā
Oscar hates waking up early but gets up before you every day, just in case.
Oscar can name every player on the Australian national cricket team.
Oscar loves you.
āOscarā is all he can get out. It feels well-worn on his tongue. His own voice surprises him. Itās raspy, filled with more emotions than he can parse out. Heās overwhelmed by so much new information. No, not new information- but information that has laid dormant, bubbling to the surface like freshly popped champagne.Ā
āHey,ā Oscar is at his side in an instantāclose, but Carlos can tell heās holding himself back from reaching out. āWhat do you remember, today?ā He says it so softly, so patiently. It makes Carlos feel like heās still wrapped in his duvet.
āI-I donātā¦ā He desperately tries to remember. Something happened. Obviously. Flashes of visions whip by in his brain like theyāre passing in high speed: Lying on his back on wet pavement, harsh red and blue ambulance lights, Charles crying by his bedside. A small, red box on a countertop, singing along to Mariah Carey songs, kisses that taste like strawberries and sea salt. Any attempt to recollect further makes his head pound.Ā
āItās okay,ā Oscar says gently. Carlos swears Oscar deflates a bit, but covers it quickly with another soft smile. āItās been a while since youāve been back to October fifteenth, is all.ā
Oscar moves to turn back toward the stovetop. āPancakes are almost finished, then we can-ā
Carlos doesnāt realize heās hugging Oscar until his face is buried in his neck, breathing him in. Oscar doesnāt miss a beat, just wraps his arms around him like heās done it a thousand times. He probably has. Oscarās touch feels like home. Oscarās touch is home.
As Carlos clings to him, more champagne bubbles float to the top, revealing sweet and simple truths heās always known.
You watch Oscarās video he made for you every morning. When heās away on a shoot, you watch it to fall asleep, too.
You asked Charles to help you go ring shopping next week. Oscar doesnāt know- itās a secret.
You love Oscar.
The sunshine is back, wrapping around his skin and flowing through his veins. Heās glowing, heās sure he is. He wonders if Oscar can see it.
Heāll have pancakes today while he watches his video. Heāll read his journal, heāll call Charles. Maybe heāll go for a run in the park. But for now, he holds Oscar a little tighter, just a little while longer.
You love Oscar so much.