I Wonder What Other Kind Of "services" BHO Offers...

I can't believe I can say that I'm a proud owner of these now!! beautiful!

❗❗LAST CHANCE❗❗

get these villainous charms/stickers before i retire em!

If you had the opportunity to rewrite dementia any way you wanted, what would you do?

that is a really good question! since I am having a bit of a hiccup warming up to her.

it's bc I require emotional depth for me to be interested in a character.

which I'm absolutely sure there is a lot of in her... but we've just not seen enough to work with. I like mentally disturbed characters that are struggling more outwardly, like Flug or Miss Heed. I think it's less of a writing flaw and more CN/Warner holding them back from releasing the stuff as it was roughly planned probably. maybe if we had the rest of the 1st season we'd already be much further in her character development.

there's core emotions that I NEED to see in a character to get hooked, which is fear, regret and grief.

none of which we've seen in her yet. nothing genuine that's not caused by the brainwash she stands under.

the most conflicting thing we've seen her do is having tears well up in her eyes after Flug hit her which didn't come off as physical pain, but emotional. that's interesting, but too short of a moment.

I feel like anything I'd "change" about her are things that are canonically planned, we just have to wait.

I think what's missing in her rn is self-awareness.

without her artificial obsession with Black Hat, she is nobody. maybe she'll have a crisis later about exactly that; not knowing who she is as a person. she should. if and when she snaps out of that she's wasted a large chunk of her life under his influence.

let's say it like that, if they don't start to show clearer signs of character development in the remaining S1 episodes, that's what I'd change. pick up the pace a bit. there's more obvious foreshadowing about literally every other character than about her. they really keep her backstory a secret.

there's so much to work with. why is her name Demencia? what's her real name? why did she arrive there "barefoot"? why is she better at math than Flug? why did she react so silenced when confronted with her mortality? was it fear? what does she truly fear? what or who is important to her outside of the hypnosis? does she have a real goal, for herself? smth must have led her to Black Hat... did he lure her or did she have such a terrible life before all this that she saw no other use to her existence than to turn to him?

you already know this drawing but I think I never posted it here

however I'd like to change 1 thing about her visual design for sure.

Please give her muscles. like... all the time.

I've criticized often before that I find the female characters in the show slowly drift too much into one and the same mould, their silhouettes are all the same, since Miss Heed; every relevant female character looks like her body type (...and some newer ones even in the face.) they could start diverting from that by giving Demencia muscles (not just in promo illustrations or closeup shots of her flexing, I feel like they could easily always draw a visible biceps on her)

that's not too hard to animate either, I mean they animated Sunblast and Airlock and that whole 5th episode, and it can't be harder than all the striped and spiked elements in Dem's design.

that other theory

*note that I analysed HIM. This doesn't apply to everyone, some people have the whole opposite difficulties/traits. these are all common. it's a spectrum after all. I based this off my experience too. You can't take any of these out separately, as none of this is exclusive to autism. it's the combo wombo that makes it.

There's more to say too like the notes on his lab wall that according to Alan in 2017 are "guides on how to speak to people normally" and his many common comorbidities like depression, anxiety, insomnia, OCD and PTSD

Public praise

Feel free to ignore if you don’t take requests, it’s fine!!

If you do, if I may ask, may you draw a bit of trans Flug? Even if it’s just a single drawing (if you don’t wanna, once again it’s ok!!)

This may sound a bit selfish but someone called me a slur online for headcanning him as trans and I’m sorta sad now :( Your blog makes me happy so I thought to ask you (assuming your blog is safe for trans ppl-)

Have a good day either way tho :) hope I’m not being rude or intruding or anything!

The trans Flug hc is super valid anon :D! and ofc my blog is safe for y'all!

Hello could you draw BlackHat dancing with Ariel please?

I finally found time amongst all my projects to post this, so here we go!

I hope you like it! Was very challenging but so much fun, at first just a sketch but I was sorely tempted to color it, so I ended up doing that. It was such an interesting and unique idea.

Anyone can request something! I can’t promise to draw everything and definitely not always in full color but if you catch my attention there’s the possibility to get yourself some art! Please bear with me tho, I’m dilatory in nature, especially during this December

oh yeah you two are right! signing that.

it's a little complicated for me, I'm quickly repulsed when I don't know or don't like someone. but if I do, I'm neutral or significantly interested. most people who regularly interact with me here on tumblr are exempt from that boundary.

now I'm curious what hardcore stuff you mean haha (I have drawn pretty much everything before that isn't absolutely illegal, to figure myself out)

and wellll, technically I'm very kinky ig, just not about a single inherently sexual thing. it's super silly. it's my only one tho.

I even have a side blog since February, but I haven't had the courage to use it.

for all adults here....... it's @flugtum

you can guess 3 times which kink it is by the name alone.

requests are open... just saying🫣

Pregnancy as a kink makes me uncomfortable so man am I glad your pregg Flug stuff is explicitly not kink oriented!

yeah I... don't wanna judge anyone... but it's more than that, it's downright terrifying to me. Blame my hormones bc I'm expecting irl but wow... I'm very sensitive and it feels dehumanizing. but ig that is kinda the point of the kink(?)

it's so common in fandoms!

I'm completely vanilla anyway tho, so not surprising.

I've tried to pretend for a super long time that I'm into kink, but most of them are off putting and I consider them intrusive thoughts, not fantasies. I'm kinda fluctuating between sex-repulsed and neutral (aroace) even fictional... ig kink just isn't for me. I tried so hard to get over it. I know some people in my asks/requests are gonna be disappointed but I'm sorry💔

I'm slightly ashamed of how boring I am and I have serious trouble connecting to anyone in fandoms due to this actually🤕 feel like the most NT autistic person ever.

anyway here's a doodle!

All sketches I never shared here, partly ancient, experimental stuff-

Beautiful how I never finish anything right-

Just look at Black Hat being happy. (cuz those are recent doodles) Important.

In someones tags I read "I miss you" AHSJAJDHSJS SAME I MISS Y'ALL sorry my health is killing me lmao

Hello!

First of all I'm sorry for disappearing without saying goodbye.

I have changed my name from @uoowap to @orengejoshi for safety reasons.

Smth bad happened to me. a lot of bad things happened to me.

Maybe someday soon I'll paste the story of it all here. I've just been able to come out with this on twitter. For those who are curious and remember me- there you can find the reason. It's a lot.

____________________

Now will I come back?

I don't know.

Maybe I'll try. Maybe not. We'll see.

This whole thing is JUST finally over after over a year of suffering. I need more time to recover I guess.

I've been very active only on instagram stories. A lot of my recovery story could be followed along there.

idk if I want to leave social media all together or try ANOTHER start. idk if posting my art has ever been very fun to me. I appreciate everyone who supported me and especially those who still do.

IF I try again... then on insta and here. Twitter might not be my thing all too much.

anyway, where you can find me currently and are very welcome to talk to me;

Instagram: @orengejoshi

Twitter: @orengejoshi

Tumblr: @orengejoshi

Discord: Joshi#6941

I have gotten a LOT better at art. I'm fully content with. I learned to love my art and stopped comparing. I generally learned a lot. I've become extremely calm and laid-back. Maybe this whole thing aged me by 30 years ahskjshsk

Thanks for reading

-Joshi

NO FUCK I ACCIDENTALLY DELETED SOME OF MY POSTS I JUST WANTED TO EDIT SOME SHIT