⚠️ Suggestive Paperhat Art Dump Under The Cut ⚠️

Hey guys! Look I drew Black Hat as a Jojo character back in summer when my husband dragged me into the series! We really like the 2nd part

pregnancy in trans men is typically called tmpreg, mpreg is used for cis men! though I do think theyre both still kink terms specifically

Oh, thank you! I'm actually old and non-native, I don't belong into fandoms at all. I'm just an imposter among all here.

I... I always thought all mpreg is automatically trans?? or inter?? bc it wouldn't work otherwise irl either? maybe I'm too autistic literally-thinking and take it too scientifically serious

I've looked into this one and all other associated tags and... oh......

I don't wanna offend anyone I'm sure it's all harmless fictional fun but I'm extremely uncomfortable with everything I find there. the kinks, the language used... in part even triggering dysphoria in me. I do not recommend for anyone who is as sensitive as me.

this is certainly not my intention with my art of pregnancy. I hope it doesn't come off that way bc I wouldn't want my art to be used or viewed in that light

someone mistook me for TJ bc of my username... and tagged me in a rap battle venue that he's attending... anyway we all took it with humor and someone told me that I look a good bit like him. and he's just about the most handsome irl man I have ever laid my eyes upon and that's saying smth bc I'm an extremely indifferent aroace.

so excuse me while I go cry an endless river of tears of joy over the quite possibly best compliment I've ever received in my life that is washing away 25 years of insecurities instantaneously.

I figured I never shared this one here? the art vs. artist thing of 2024, I don't wanna show my full face on big platforms but yehh!

If you had the opportunity to rewrite dementia any way you wanted, what would you do?

that is a really good question! since I am having a bit of a hiccup warming up to her.

it's bc I require emotional depth for me to be interested in a character.

which I'm absolutely sure there is a lot of in her... but we've just not seen enough to work with. I like mentally disturbed characters that are struggling more outwardly, like Flug or Miss Heed. I think it's less of a writing flaw and more CN/Warner holding them back from releasing the stuff as it was roughly planned probably. maybe if we had the rest of the 1st season we'd already be much further in her character development.

there's core emotions that I NEED to see in a character to get hooked, which is fear, regret and grief.

none of which we've seen in her yet. nothing genuine that's not caused by the brainwash she stands under.

the most conflicting thing we've seen her do is having tears well up in her eyes after Flug hit her which didn't come off as physical pain, but emotional. that's interesting, but too short of a moment.

I feel like anything I'd "change" about her are things that are canonically planned, we just have to wait.

I think what's missing in her rn is self-awareness.

without her artificial obsession with Black Hat, she is nobody. maybe she'll have a crisis later about exactly that; not knowing who she is as a person. she should. if and when she snaps out of that she's wasted a large chunk of her life under his influence.

let's say it like that, if they don't start to show clearer signs of character development in the remaining S1 episodes, that's what I'd change. pick up the pace a bit. there's more obvious foreshadowing about literally every other character than about her. they really keep her backstory a secret.

there's so much to work with. why is her name Demencia? what's her real name? why did she arrive there "barefoot"? why is she better at math than Flug? why did she react so silenced when confronted with her mortality? was it fear? what does she truly fear? what or who is important to her outside of the hypnosis? does she have a real goal, for herself? smth must have led her to Black Hat... did he lure her or did she have such a terrible life before all this that she saw no other use to her existence than to turn to him?

you already know this drawing but I think I never posted it here

however I'd like to change 1 thing about her visual design for sure.

Please give her muscles. like... all the time.

I've criticized often before that I find the female characters in the show slowly drift too much into one and the same mould, their silhouettes are all the same, since Miss Heed; every relevant female character looks like her body type (...and some newer ones even in the face.) they could start diverting from that by giving Demencia muscles (not just in promo illustrations or closeup shots of her flexing, I feel like they could easily always draw a visible biceps on her)

that's not too hard to animate either, I mean they animated Sunblast and Airlock and that whole 5th episode, and it can't be harder than all the striped and spiked elements in Dem's design.

When in doubt, draw some more pinups⭐✍🏻

I have a small request but please take all the time you need to work on it ^^ I would like to request Flug looking happy with a mug of hot cocoa in his hands. Please and thank you ^^

You, my dear friend, literally read my mind

From the moment I drew Black Hat for the 1st Advent Sunday I spontaneously planned out the project to let the other 3 idiots of the crew join in on the holly jolly spirit; every Sunday! And coincidentally this was my exact idea for Flug too so I was one step ahead muhahaha-

The world is small

"How does he have sex with that?!"

not successfully, for sure. trying shit like this is how you end up with a top post on r/TIFU

do u write fanfics? i need to GOON 💔

damn brother, you just gonna come at me like that? alright I see you

that's a great question tho! I have indeed thought about writing a fic... for years tbh...

but there's a myriad of problems

well first of all I'm not native in english. that is probably noticeable more often than not. I sometimes even use a translator, I always secretly got google/dict.cc open in a second tab. didn't formally learn english, I just snagged it by proxy listening to American Youtubers and reading manga online. that's why I prefer to ramble a bit in public or to my damn self in private areas than live-texting 1 on 1/in groups; bc I can take more time totally judgement-free. you're gonna see me "typing..." for 30 minutes and wonder wtf is taking this mf so long?!

apart from that there's dyslexia. I can't spell one word correctly without swipe-to-type autocorrect. I think all arguments I've gotten into stem from me mistyping, using completely wrong words, messing up the sentence structure etc

my brain is a single dense cloud of fog that'll occasionally split open to drizzle down a bunch of jumbled thoughts that I could turn into barely cohesive words if I'm brave enough and exude copious amounts of energy.

so my linguistic skills are not up to par. my intelligence lies more in... intrapersonal and existential departments.

unsurprisingly I've thus become a visual artist to express myself.

the catch is... that I understand paperhat, I do.

but I can't seem to draw toxic dynamics. my head is just empty about how to depict it. it's like it doesn't come naturally to me. not without going overboard and making a whole comic that I would likely abandon before even reaching the half mark. I've been given these angelic skills along with the curse that I shall only draw joyous, bright scenes.

however if I could write it... now we're talking.

as a matter of fact, I'm pretty sure that most of my ideas are way too dark and sober. people don't know me like that so I'm petrified about the presumably shocked response when and if I did drop smth like that.

I'm not ready for that... I have really severe OCD (that the internet is making way worse with their anxious tendencies to interpret smth sinister into any and all fiction that is not happiness and rainbows. which seems new to me, idk where this mindset to read so deep into shit is suddenly coming from. I was here 2017-19, left for like 3 years and all of a sudden everybody's fallen off their rockers)

writing domestic stuff is too boring for me... there's gotta be gut-wrenching horrors and drama and tragedy and conflict!

none of this would be PG (which is what I assume you're asking for anyway) I'd just write smut with sprinkles of character studies and a pinch of comedy mayhaps, but I used to do that about 10 years ago and it was so bad. the way I describe these scenes comes off very plump and cringe

I... might. dip my toes into it later this year.

I'll drop a few ideas in the tags... maybe 2 ideas. very roughly. without spoilers, just in case.

Paperhatober Day 15: Pink💗

If you send me images pls describe them in text bc I'm not clicking the unblur button out of context. I've never seen gore in my entire life and we're not starting today. I'm not curious. With some I can vaguely guess that it's some irl photo and it's just a completely pointless and pathetic attempt bc I'm not seeing that, I just delete without ever looking at it