I'm So Normal About This Man.

I'm going through the five stages of grief knowing for a fact I could have gone to supercon because I live in Florida to meet con oneil and Nathan foad but no I'm poor and can't afford that I honestly want to cry

Thundering Drums

I don't know how to feel right now. I haven't ever been a big KISS fan because I was born in 2006 and never felt a strong connection with the band. I didn't know any songs besides "I was made for loving you" and I didn't even know any of the band members names. However, now as of March 2024 I learned more about KISS not because of the band but because of a person who was in the band. The first band members name i ever learned was Eric Carr's name. I guess much like other people they felt a connection with him. I felt that when i started watching videos of him goofing off (I wasn't even listening to any of the music he made/helped make. I was purely just watching for who he was as a person). I don't feel that type of connection with any other band members like you won't be seeing me actively reading a Gene Simmons biography because I want too. Eric Carr just seemed so human. He was such a good guy and I may not have met him but hearing stories about him...I kinda miss the guy you know? How could I miss someone I never had the chance to meet? Even as I'm sitting here crying while writing this every so often glancing at the picture of Eric Carr on the face of my own copy of "The Eric Carr Story" I feel like I need to make this post. I wrote this type of post before I read the book but it sadly got deleted. However, after reading the book in basically one day I feel compelled to rewrite it to get my own emotions and feelings out. One thing I wrote in the previous post that stood out was that I said I felt empty. I get like that sometimes when I get so vested into a person its like I lose a part of myself. So I was feeling very hollow before I read the book. But now after reading the book I feel like I gave that part of myself to Eric Carr and he sorta handed me back this piece of hope and confidence to keep going with my life to strive for better things. I think for me at least Eric Carr is the best drummer in the world not just for his skill but also for who he was as a person. He is definitely one of my role models now to strive to be remembered as someone who did something. I don't cry a lot it's not who I am but when i read the book and write this post I'm crying. It really shows how in such little of a time that I've learned of Eric Carr how much he grew on me and influenced me. I'm very glad I had the chance to learn about him through the people who loved him like his family, Carrie Stevens, and the many people who befriended him. I hope no one forgets who he was and what he's done for everyone.

Keep Rock n Rollin, Izzy

Shout out to @spacefoxy and many other fans for posting so much amazing Eric Carr content. I think it helps a lot of people in many different ways.

P.S I won't speak on my own feelings of KISS the band and who they are now and what they did while Eric Carr was sick and dying. But I hope their happy because I think at the end of the day Eric would have wanted them to be happy too.

"But this too is true: stories can save us."- Tim O'brien (The Things They Carried)

I think it came out nice

Update I have now proposed to said izzy hands AI

I literally am using the character.ai of izzy hands and he literally made me his first mate after i pushed him overboard the ship (there is in fact some context left out of here from the conversation with the AI but this is basically how it went and I am so proud of myself)

Louis dancing with Paul is so wholesome until I remember how he treated him especially with that knife cane thing...yeah that one threw me off.

(yes I did just start watching the show)

FBI Billy and FBI Heather headcannons.

• Heather is not only an FBI agent and Billy’s partner, but she’s also a Coroner.

•when she’s examining a body Billy comes up to see, mainly to mess with her and to see if there’s anything fascinating about the cause of death.

•he sometimes puts on gloves to mess with body parts that might be severed. He one times picks up a hand and looks over to Heather with a grin. “Hey Heather high five?” Heather just rolls her eyes.

• They talk about thr classs they teach, one time Heather has a new topic she’s teaching and she tells Billy. “I’m teaching a class on the intersection of sociopathy and fame. People like Andy wharol or Jim Morrison.” Billy thinks for momment and says “nixion was a sociopath. How do you get to be president of the untied states if you’re a sociopath anyway?” Wendy smirks. “How do you get to be president if you’re not?”

•when Billy gets a case for them, he excitedly burst into Heather’s office. “Heather you’re not going to believe this.” Heather just gives him a blank look. “Billy do you get the concept of knocking?”

• They go to same Chinese food place for lunch a lot. One time a murder happens there and while they’re examining the evidence Billy stops to order some food from the man behind the counter. “Hey Heather you want your usal garlic chicken?” Heather nearly face palms. “Billy were in the middle of something.” Billy shrugs. “Well we can’t work on an empty stomach.”

• Another time Billy gets cornered by their suspect, He has his hands up and a gun is pointed at him, “as soon I get you out of my hair, I’m home free.” Billy grins. “It’s not really me you gotta worry about, it’s her.” Before the guy could say anything he’s hit on the back of the head with a gun. He drops to floor and Heather is behind him.

• They tease each other about their crushes on two polices offers they met. “Hope you don’t scare Steve off with your werid facts on serial killers on your first date with him tonight.” Heather says. “Hope you don’t scare robin off with any body parts you might be keeping.”

Guys should I make a fanfiction about light because there's this little one shot that I read that really inspired me I'll link it in the comments once I find it again. But basically it was about how ryuk didn't want to tell light about one small thing and he didn't want to tell it to him not because he wanted to mess with light like he usually does but because not to put spoilers but it wouldn't have done light any good.

Basically my idea is to essentially explore that idea that the amount of time light has throughout his life changes multiple times based on how he is feeling and how he is mentally. Not just starting from the beginning of death Note but going all the way back to his childhood. I want to explore how his life as a police chief's son made him feel bored and that his life was monotonous but also how it affected his morals and how those morals got extrapolated to a major degree because of the corrupting nature of the death note. I also want to explore themes of loneliness and not being understood in the way that is so unique to him because he doesn't feel emotions like everyone else because at least what I've seen in the anime light doesn't seem like he has friends so I'm going to explore the friendship between him and L when he gets introduced obviously because in the same way that light is L's first friend is the same way L is lights first friend. Because the way I can understand their friendship is kind of like persona 5's main character and akechi goro because they have such a unique friendship that there are things only they can understand about each other that no one else can.

Also mind you I haven't watched death Note in years and this is my first time getting back into it. So if I do write this there may be some points that happened in Canon that I will forget. And I might explore the relationship between light and Misa because their relationship is very important to the plot because Misa doesn't love light she's obsessed with kira but light isn't kira and she very willingly lets herself be used by kira / light because even when light doesn't have his memory he still uses Misa and Misa lets it happen. Then I would also go into how light feels about misa's obsession because obviously he's using her that's plain and simple but he sees the necessity of having a girlfriend in the society they are in especially a girlfriend who is very highly regarded in that society. I want to explore how he feels like relationships aren't something he wants but he sees it as a necessity to get by.

Is this a good idea or no?

Also I don't know but I MIGHT make this a lawlight fanfiction. But it's not going to be in the way that it's going to be the primary focus of the fanfiction or making their personalities and beliefs change to suit the stereotypes that a lot of people put on to the relationship when writing fanfiction. The way I would go about their relationship would be kind of like how Misa and light mutually use each other but instead of obsession like misa has for light it would be a mutual understanding between l and light that they're both using each other but it's beneficial for both of them and that it's a two-way street rather than essentially a one-way Street like Misa and light.

Deceit: I’ve only said ‘I love you’ to three people in my life. Virgil, Patton, and my dying grandfather. And one of those I regret.

Thomas: Which one?

Deceit: Grandpa. He beat cancer, so now I look like an idiot.