Only YOU Truly Know What You Experience. Nobody Can Tell You What You Are Supposed To Experience.
as someone who has been told that their trauma isn’t ’bad enough’ or real by a psychologist, i want to reassure you that your feelings about traumatic memories you may have are valid. the therapist we’re with now supports us and listens to us and our feelings.
after our interaction with that therapist, including several negative events that affected and worsened our mental state, we grew to believe we were delusional, crazy, and a liar. we were terrified to speak to anyone about it because we feared they would call us liars.
it took us months to gather up courage to talk about anything regarding the topic again with a new therapist. it’s honestly terrifying talking about this right now- but we’re working on getting back our progress again, despite our setbacks and the challenges we experienced.
find a therapist who supports and listens to you- preferably one specializing in dissociative disorders and trauma work- not one who fake-claims you because you aren’t extremely overt and because your trauma seems outlandish or unreal. DID is a covert disorder by nature. just because you don’t seem like you have it on the outside, doesn’t mean it isn’t real. in fact, that’s what it’s supposed to do. it takes several months if not years to even get a diagnosis- because of how difficult it is to pinpoint.
a journey to diagnosis is difficult, even if you have the money for it because of the stigma against DID, OSDD variants, and UDDS, and it takes extreme persistence, some may not even want a diagnosis because people will treat them differently for it- negatively. But, no matter what, your feelings are valid. Your experiences are valid. Your coping mechanisms are valid. If you experience it, it’s real. Even if it’s not in a specifically endorsed label.
Only YOU truly know what you experience. Nobody can tell you what you are supposed to experience.
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daily amnesia in DID is something i don't see talked about that much, i see regular amnesia (ie not being able to remember years of your life, traumatic memories etc) talked about but never the daily things.
daily amnesia is on a day to day basis never being able to remember important things, did i take my medicine this morning? did i shower yesterday? have i eaten yet? what have i been doing for the past hour? what was i supposed to do today?
daily amnesia REALLY fucking sucks because whenever you start suffering you remember every other time you've been suffering and just scold yourself for not getting help and not getting better - but when the moment it's over? it's completely gone from your memory. it's so much suffering and you're so stuck because how can you ever get help for something you can't remember? you're always in a constant state of 'feeling fine' and when you end up getting help and going to therapy there's nothing to talk about because there's nothing you remember.
every day is groundhog day where you are forced against your will to repeat it over and over for god knows how long.
Psst btw letting you know tagging your posts with "Syscourse DNI" puts them into the syscourse tag itself because of how tumblr's tagging system works ^^'
thank you so much for informing me about this! i was completely unaware of this. ill be sure to refrain from using it, as I don’t want to attract that kind of crowd! :)
yep ! we used to, but it apparently wasn’t useful for our system so we no longer function that way. basically, its just a shit ton of fragments switching in and out, rarely consistent. we just randomly appear and just have little to no discernible identity.
are there any other systems that don’t have a host? just have a few alters that front more frequently? and usually that group of alters rotates over time
none of us identify with the body, none of us are the host, non of us hold a “host like” role
non of us feel like the “main alter”
we’re all just piloting a meat mech and there is no captain
-bennett
me when!!! squeals. me when!! friend!!/dir i love sm!!!!! hugs so very tightly!!
~ cottontail 🍥
(yes. i got a tag for just this. 🩷🩷🩷🩷/soverypos/ilya)
hi guys!!!!! idk if this question is too personal (if so just delete this from your inbox) but you mentioned being in love?????? i wnated to know how that would work with all of you guys needing to agree and also what is this person (or persons) like?????
hey! i definitely agree having a crush on another person outside of the system is definitely difficult sometimes, especially due to opposing opinions. however, it's super important to note that not all alters will have to be in a romantic relationship with the person aforementioned! while it's quite complicated and things definitely have to be worked out with the other people or person, it is totally possible depending on their preferences. of course, other alters may not have the same affection towards this person or people as others may, and to that it gets complicated. depending on comforts, could be a polyamorous relationship, open relationship, or monogamous relationship- whatever is most comfortable for both groups overall. as for the person/people, they're the sweetest ever, lol! very supportive, accepting, open-minded, albeit a bit stubborn and competitive at times but we love them for that and honestly think its adorable! :D would genuinely fight whatever lord or god above is there for them and it's just asdiufhuihrh. rambly stupid stuff, i won't talk about it too much, but we appreciate them a ton!
thank you for the question! we rambled a little hard there, sorry if we overshared or anything a little, lol. hope that helps answer your question!
Headmate who (with much love in his heart) calls the others losers
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🦴 - Is anyone in your system dating? If so, who is the strangest pair?
Yep! Only two as far as we’re aware, but they’re not exactly strange, especially since they were kind of in a situation ship in source.
💀 - Is there a particular source you have a lot of fictives from?
Oh, definitely. I stare at Slay the Princess in horror.
🪦 - Who has the strangest habits?
Well, we have one person, but I don’t think they’d like to share it so I’ll just go for the next weirdest one. Collecting insect corpses and random rocks.
⚰️ - Do you have any nonverbal headmates?
Yep! Involuntary and voluntarily!
🕷 - Who is the worst at masking?
The British one. Or the littles, but they mostly stay inside anyway so it’s not too big of a deal.
🕸 - How did your headmates get their names?
Depends on the alter, some find a name that feels right, some do extensive research to find something that matches them perfectly, some use a random name generator, some just come prepackaged.
☠️ - Do you have any headmates with colored hair,piercings, or tattoos?
Hm, off the top of my head, maybe two or three- but there’s probably more that I can’t think of.
🔪 - How consistent are you with logging switches?
Ooh, we’re really bad at this. We try our best, but when you can’t remember things and not all of your members are even aware you have simply plural, it gets a little tough.
🧿 - Is there anyone who spends most of their time in front complaining?
Uhh, yep. We have a few emotion holders who do that- also some persecutors, littles, it varies. Nobody in specific.
🎃 - Is there anything specific you do to help introjects feel more comfortable?
Allowing them to state clear boundaries, get things that are comforting to them that are from source, or allowing them to branch out if they prefer not to identify as their source! Whatever they need, for the most part.
👻 - How did you discover your plurality/systemhood?
We frankly do not remember very well, but one day they just. Appeared. We passed them off as imaginary friends. We were not imaginary friends.
🩸 - Is there anyone who absolutely hates their source?
No one who absolutely despises it, but there are definitely a few who don’t like to be associated with their source.
🦇 - Are there any songs that you associate with systemhood/plurality or your system as a whole?
Not really!
🐈⬛- Is there anyone who identifies as otherkin/therian?
Yep! We have a few guys in there, love those guys. They embrace themselves and don’t give a shit about what others think! They’re really great and sweet.
🔮 - How does your system determine who handles certain tasks/responsibilities?
it sort of plays out naturally- or higher ups decide, well, something like that. I’m not certain if there’s like anything specifically but generally they show up just knowing? Or they just end up settling into the role.
🧟♂️ - Who is the most outwardly intimating? Are they viewed the same way within the system?
Outwardly intimidating… probably nicole because of just how confident and blunt they are? they’re less intimidating insys but, yeah, still not the easiest to talk to.
🕯- Do your system's littles use "Baby Talk"?
It depends on the little. For the most part, no. Especially during text- any quirks are mainly voice-related when internally speaking, and those are unintentional and not too obvious.
⛓️ - Funniest quote out of context
“bros magical girl energy confuses me” - some guy in our head
⬛ - Is there anyone who has a unique/ non-traditional role?
Plenty, plenty. But you know, alters are unique to your experiences. But I suppose compared to the typical archetypes and such, definitely, yes.
🪳 - How do you visualize your headmates? (Drawing them,picrew,etc)
Typically through picrews, for Introjects fanart. Some guys want to draw, but it’s not typical.
System Ask Game #3
🦴 - Is anyone in your system dating? If so, who is the strangest pair?
💀 - Is there a particular source you have a lot of fictives from?
🪦 - Who has the strangest habits?
⚰️ - Do you have any nonverbal headmates?
🕷 - Who is the worst at masking?
🕸 - How did your headmates get their names?
☠️ - Do you have any headmates with colored hair,piercings, or tattoos?
🔪 - How consistent are you with logging switches?
🧿 - Is there anyone who spends most of their time in front complaining?
🎃 - Is there anything specific you do to help introjects feel more comfortable?
👻 - How did you discover your plurality/systemhood?
🩸 - Is there anyone who absolutely hates their source?
🦇 - Are there any songs that you associate with systemhood/plurality or your system as a whole?
🐈⬛- Is there anyone who identifies as otherkin/therian?
🔮 - How does your system determine who handles certain tasks/responsibilities?
🧟♂️ - Who is the most outwardly intimating? Are they viewed the same way within the system?
🕯- Do your system's littles use "Baby Talk"?
⛓️ - Funniest quote out of context
⬛ - Is there anyone who has a unique/ non-traditional role?
🪳 - How do you visualize your headmates? (Drawing them,picrew,etc)
🌍✨ A Voice from Gaza: Fighting for Hope ❤️🩹
Hi, my name is Mosab , and I’m from Gaza. Life here has been harder than I could ever imagine, but today I’m sharing my story with hope in my heart, because your kindness has already given us so much strength.
This journey hasn’t been easy. The war has taken 25 family members from us—25 beautiful souls we loved deeply. Their laughter, their presence, their love… all of it is gone, leaving behind memories that are both precious and painful. Every day, I carry the weight of their loss, but I also carry their spirit, which gives me the strength to keep going.
Our Journey So Far
When I first reached out, I couldn’t have imagined we’d make it this far. Your support has been a light in these difficult times, and we are so deeply grateful for every single contribution.
But the road ahead is still challenging. Every day, we’re reminded of how much we’ve lost and how much we still need to rebuild.
Here’s what life in Gaza looks like for my family right now:
🏠 Safety: The uncertainty of tomorrow weighs heavily on us.
😢 Loss: The absence of the 25 family members we’ve lost is a pain we carry every moment.
💔 Dreams on Hold: The future feels so far away when survival takes all our strength.
How You Can Help Us Cross the Finish Line Even the smallest act of kindness can make a difference:
$5 may seem small, but for us, it’s a little relief, a moment of comfort, and a reminder that kindness still exists. ❤️
Can’t donate? Reblog this post to help us reach someone who can. Every share matters more than you know.
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Why Your Support Matters Your kindness isn’t just about helping us meet our goal—it’s about reminding us that we’re not alone in this fight. It’s about hope. It’s about survival. And it’s about giving my family a chance to rebuild our lives, even in the face of unimaginable loss.
Thank you for helping us get this far. Your generosity and compassion have already brought us closer to a better tomorrow, and for that, I’m endlessly grateful.
With all my love and gratitude,
Mosab and Family ❤️
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having to figure who you are right now is like playing "guess who!"
like mf just tell me who i am i shouldnt have to weed out who i am
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(they/them)disordered systemi don't care what you label yourself as, it's not my business. just keep the fucking discourse off this blog.
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