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So into painting tigers lately lol

Bells of Notre Dame, but it's Envy Pair. Idk, I just feel that this matches with them, mainly because of the "monster/man" thing, and all of the catholic guilt and symbolisms that are around of Jeje and Mikuni (we can't forget that The Hunchback of Notre Dame is a movie which directly addresses the topic)

Newt who is the sun • Thomas who is the moon

Newt who is always cold •Thomas who warms him up

Thomas who cant cook to save his life • Newt who makes dinner for them

Newt who is a cat person • Thomas who is a dog person

Newt who loves gardening • Thomas who can’t keep plants alive

Thomas who is disorganised • Newt who gets anxious if things aren’t organised

Newt who had autism • Thomas who had ADHD

Newt who loves to read • Thomas who loves listening to him read

Newt who doesn’t like talking about his emotions • Thomas who is there for him anyway

Newt who likes to sleep in • Thomas who wakes up early to run

Newt who’s leg hurts him • Thomas who massages it for him

Thomas who is always fidgeting • Newt who is the only one who can make him relax

Newt who has nightmares a lot • Thomas who holds him and tells him he isn’t alone

Thomas who has survivors guilt • Newt who tells him it isn’t his fault

Newt who has never felt loved • Thomas who loves him unconditionally

I forgot about the existence of these works. In fact, the guys from Servamp here are just in fashionable clothes :)

I have more with their Evas, but I haven't finished even buying half a year soooorry ;>

how i go to sleep every night

end roll impact, so I decided to doodle it vibes with Kuro

Undiagnosed OCD or whatever that thing in my brain is

Having undiagnosed OCD is like yes this is what I have and no you are a lying monster how dare you claim what is not yours, you're just very organized, and yes, I know that something is wrong because my brain won't shut up 24/7 with its bullshit, but maybe you're just very cautious and likes to check absolutely everything all the time so that perhaps something horrible doesn't happen, but still how dare I and

Undiagnosed ADHD or whatever that thing in my brain is

Having undiagnosed ADHD is like yes this is what I have and no you are a lying monster how dare you claim what is not yours, what belongs to someone else and having undiagnosed ADHD is writing this post knowing its all a lie because how dare I and

This is how I envision reunion happening

In fact, I really hope this supposed Jeje curse is cleared up soon. A part of me thinks that somehow there is some connection with the fact that at one point in the manga Jeje said that he wished he had died, and that he regretted asking the Count to be brought back to life. Who knows, maybe there's something like that behind this "curse", in which the Eves of Envy end up dying prematurely because death is Jeje's own desire after all?

It's also interesting how the other Eves have personalities that are opposite to the sins of their Servamps ("The seven virtues" — how Mahiru likes to solve all problems without being lazy, or how Izuna seems serene for an Eve of Wrath), but the Eves from Doubt Doubt actually suffer from envy in some ways. Who knows, maybe this is one of the reasons for this supposed curse?

I have a lot of questions and almost no answers to these questions, unfortunately 😥 Mikuni is really a character I appreciate, and it would be a shame to see him die at the end of the story, even how curious I am about it all

Still wondering if mikuni making 13 clone illusions of himself that need to be killed in order to destroy the barrier spell is just mikuni messing with everyone or if he's secretly hoping someone will kill him thinking he's just one of his clones before he causes the death of so many people.

One thing I still find so baffling about mikuni seemingly being on board with the ritual is that his main spell, the one he created when he was a teenager, judges you if you killed a human and gets heavier for every additional human you have killed.

We also saw how terrified young mikuni was when he used the spell on tsurugi for the first time, regardless if it was because he could have killed tsurugi or because he realized tsurugi had killed humans before, it shows that when he was younger mikuni valued human life.

Even if mikuni changed his views since then, maybe there is still a part of him that wants to be stopped.