TWICK OR TWEAT !!!!!!!!!!!

Adding onto this because it’s on my mind

I’ve had confused feelings about my gender for a long time. I remember when I was 8-9 ish, when my mom told me that I would Get Boobs, I cried. I literally wept in the backseat of our old mustang in the drive thru lane of the Chick-fil-A. Maybe it was because I wasn’t ready to grow up, but even now I haaaaate having breasts. I remember hoping that they would stop growing as I got older. I remember wishing my period would never come. I got it at 10

I also remember thinking about growing facial hair and getting excited. I actively try to have a more neutral voice. I cover my body because I’m ashamed of being a woman because of how terribly we’re treated in general. Maybe politics has something to do with it, but that’s a separate tangent

It’s weird though

I want breast reduction surgery, but I don’t want them gone completely

I want to go on hormones, but I don’t want to change completely

I hate having a uterus, but I don’t want it replaced, just gone

I don’t mind she/her pronouns, and I call myself a lesbian all the time, but my connection to my femininity is so severed by so much

I don’t shave my legs but I shave between them and under my arms because otherwise I’m uncomfortable with myself

I don’t consider myself non-binary or trans, but I don’t think I’m cis, either

And while labels don’t define everyone and everything and you don’t need one, I want to be able to explain what’s going on in my head and with my body image. I want to point to a flat and go “that’s how I feel and those are my people,” y’know?

Not a vent, just an observation

Hold on. Cisgender people don’t question their gender?

Customer: (not on record) DMV: PJ=palm job, sexual connotation Verdict: DENIED

Living in capitalism is me being under the weather and needing a few days off because I don’t want to make other people miserable with my health but also being unable to take days off suddenly without a doctor’s note or I’ll get written up BUT not wanting to go through the trouble and cost of getting a doctor’s note

Okay but I gotta put this in text because it’ll be too long for my normal tags bullshit

Every time. Every fucking time. This happens in 80% of my dreams and it’s just. HOUGE and I’m so happy it does

In my dream, it’s a place called Duluth. Now I’ve been to actual Duluth. This is not actually Duluth

Dream Duluth has a giant bridge that’s so big that it scares me to drive across. The bridge is so big and the route right into the city has a little section where people will check your passport or vehicle or IDs or something? I’m not sure why. The bridge gives me so much anxiety, and there’s another highway around one of the skyscrapers in that city that also gives me anxiety. For some reason, I think I work in that building. There’s even a dream inside

The city itself is beautiful. Sunny. There’s a big statue by the lake it’s built on, just like the real Duluth. There’s monuments that look like mirrors, even one that looks like the WWII monument in Washington DC. Or is it a Vietnam or Korea monument? Idk. There are hills in the city. It’s not too warm. Much like the real Duluth as well, there’s a restaurant along one of the boardwalks and piers. Unlike it, though, it’s built out onto the water. You can look into the lake from the restaurant and see the guitarfish and sawfish in the water

The beaches are something I always think about. One beach is covered in dark sand. Shark teeth always wash up there. Shark teeth and fish bones. Sometimes it’s small, nestled between that restaurant and a boardwalk. Other times, the beach is longer and pale. Sand tiger sharks and white sturgeon wash up on the shore. There are shovelnose sturgeon in the water. I try and save whatever I can, but sometimes they’re too big for me to carry on my own. Sometimes, when I wade into the water, I get close enough to touch them, but I always stop myself because I’m afraid I’ll bother the animals

There’s another beach as well, one where people always go. Umbrellas and kids and chairs. In the tideline, you can find trinkets and toys that were left a long time ago. They’re not new, rather old and rusted, but sometimes I find interesting keys and metal baubles and gemstones in the sand. I keep them for myself

There’s a white building with a blue haze inside. I don’t know why. It’s homely, but I don’t want to go inside. There was a bloody handprint on the doorframe once. I don’t know why. I think I relaxed after that

There’s a city skyscraper made completely out of glass on the outside. The ground around the statue is made of concrete. I don’t know who that statue is of, but it’s someone important. The statue is bronze

There’s a red brick church in the city. It’s old, and there’s a mosaic courtyard. In the courtyard, there’s a gazebo made of brick. Inside that gazebo is a bell, and the ceiling is made of mosaic tiles that look like an ornate sky. Inside the church there are suits of armour, and the cathedral is impossibly large compared to the outside. The windows are tall, and the light that flits in is always white

I like when my dreams reuse locations from past dreams. like oh cool we doin a bottle episode

NEW GENDER ALERT GAYS!!!!!!!!

Sturgeongender

A gender related to sturgeons! Can be a thereogender thingamobob👍

This is the first flag I made lol

Pronouns: sturgeon/sturgeons or whatever the hell you want. I don't care, you silly billy!

why's it called the mouth of a river if that's where all the water comes out?

would you prefer it to be called the anus instead?

I NEED EVERYONE TO KNOW I SAID THIS WHILE WE WERE BUILDING A HOUSE I FORGET WHAT WE WERE TRYING TO MAKE

“We need to make……… baby.” - @oh-sturg while we’re playing Pixelmon