I'm Always Playing Catch Up But The Weather Lately Has Been Terrible And Honestly This Took 100% Brain

Wrapping up the end of theme "animals through the ages"

half of "art history" which was interesting and fun to explore. still have 3 days to do

cave paintings, greek vase, woodblock print, stained glass

some foods

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i love them

I’ve got such a complicated relationship with art, mostly because it was a way to express myself and my parents didn’t want that. I was a child of immigrants that wanted me to blend in, keep my head down, listen to others and do what I was told. 

When I would draw, they would discourage it, when I wrote they said it was a waste of time. I had no outlet that was appropriate for them and so I created less and less the older I got. My role was that of something they could brag about (when I became a doctor, which obvs didn’t happen) and to compete with their siblings. When I didn’t meet those expectations I was “nothing but a disappointment” and “a regret”.

The only time I was useful was when they realized they could use my talents for their own gains. People only call you selfish if you don’t give them what they want. They don’t care about what you want.

It wasn’t until I was able to run away halfway across the world that I could truly be an artist without their words to hold me back. I finally began drawing again in 2016 and went digital in 2019. 

I could have become an abusive narcissist like my mom or an alcoholic like my dad but instead I’m giving myself to art. My skill isn’t close to where I wish it could be and my voice is small, but it’s my voice. Something AI will never be able to replicate in a thousand years. 

I believe this trend started with patouret on Instagram but seeing so many artists on my feed do it, I wanted to join in as well.

just 2 kissing babies

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drew this for a mother's day gift

babies

not sure how I feel about the outlines on piloswine but I'm trying new things

A Swanna and a sunset

please let me grow old, I want 50 more shibas in my future