- 15kg By Summer ♡

never hungry just bored

never hungry just stressed

never hungry just tired

never hungry just sad

never hungry just thirsty

never hungry just bored

never hungry just tired

never hungry just stressed

I’d rather suffer in hunger than walk around in embarrassment of how I look

i love art dont get me wrong but i just went to a modern contemporary art museum and genuinely it was one of the most unmoving things ever.

i only enjoyed the nature walk and very few pieces of artwork, other than that i genuinely felt nothing.

too many big canvases with basically meaningless paint splatters and toilet imagery for me personally.

i know the whole point of contemplate art is the thought behind it and how it makes you feel as the viewer—the art itself is within our thoughts and emotions but most of the art felt soulless and made me feel nothing.

the most i felt during the entire experience was being annoyed that i didn’t get some big revelation—some enlightening eye opening experience how seemingly everyone around me does for modern contemporary art.

i understand there is soul and effort behind some of these pieces but i just can’t get myself to feel anything.

literally most of the art gave me the same emptiness i get when I see ai art.

i want to like it, i want to like it in an era where stealing others art and calling it “ai art” is a thing!

but i just don’t.

perhaps im just not deep enough to understand the appeal behind it or something.

perhaps it’s surface level of me to only like art that has clear narrative themes to it, that has an aesthetic appeal that anyone can see it had more than 20 minutes of effort put in.

at least the walking in nature was fun, plus it was like 5 miles of walking so i got my steps in.

┆things to do instead of eating ! ₊˚ˑ༄

a very specific list to make yourself at least a little bit productive while being hungry.

✧ create a new Pinterest board/organize a Pinterest board you already have.

✧ practice 5 lessons on Duolingo.

✧ watch an hour long documentary video on YouTube.

✧ read a book you’ve been needing to finish.

✧ walk to a public space to relax at.

(ex: library, park, café, interactive petstore, museum.)

✧ play with your pet(s).

✧ clean your room, top to bottom.

✧ make a Spotify playlist about your favorite show/book.

✧ clean your pet(s) cage/tank.

✧ plan ahead of time of time to attend a local event where you live.

✧ organize your work bag.

✧ finish a task you have been procrastinating.

✧ clean out your wardrobe of clothes too big and donate them.

✧ start a digital journal.

I actually don’t care about wearing a tiny bikini. That’s just not my style. I hate exposing too much skin to the sun.

My reason to lose weight is just bc I wanna see how small my waist and boobs can get.

With each breath, the air hangs heavy and still,

Emotions freeze, yet warmth lingers at will.

I made a paper star (red, of course) for every kg I have left to my ugw, so when I lose one, I'll put it in the jar. I want to get a very small one, so the stars fit perfectly, but in the meantime, I'll stay with this big boi.

I need to make the stars for the kgs I already lost, so it doesn't look that empty, lmao

getting a th!gh g@p would fix me