All These Retweets And Not A Single Person Wondered What Was Wrong With Him.

I think it's deeper than people realize

I just got out of school a few days ago and honestly I was so busy that I was only halfway paying attention to what has been going on. First of all ever since that fiasco with bubble, and his phone breaking i honestly thought that something was up with him cause he was just acting weird...sigh I really didn't want to get into this I wanted to just relax and read or catchup on good trouble or something but I guess I'll Ramble instead.

I didn't know per say that he was leaving at first I just noticed he has been much more clingy with his fans than usual. Really pushing the boyfriend idol thing( which is so unhealthy for both him and them but I digress). He the entire rover promotions has just looked so tired and exhuasted to me. For this reason although I bought the album I refused to keep up with the promotions because of how out of it he looked. He lost so much weight( which isn't necessarily a bad thing its how quickly he looses weight and how he binge eats afterwards its just not healthy) he looked so tired and energetically drained. S.m absolutely sucks at promoting him and he takes on the bulk of the creative reins and stress for every album, so I understand his stress but it's how he deals with it. He is very sensitive and emotional but pretends not to be until he just snaps and lets it all out. Honestly as selfish as it is this is why I will check up on him periodically but thats about all I can do when he's like that.. seeing someone run themselves ragged not even caring if one day they won't be able to walk for the sake of their craft is too much.

I know people are angry at people suggesting that he knew he was going to the military and I dont know for sure but I really think he did. He's such an oddball he hints at stuff. And if you don't pay attention to his little hints you'll miss the irony of everything he, had changed his hair color back to black, was wearing a air jordan shirt with wings and said that he'd be right back.( also he never has worn came before and suddenly he's wearing it way more often) I just assumed everyone knew he meant he was going to the army. So when he did another live having to actually say he was going to the army explicitly I think he did it out of wanting to be a good idol. Good celebrities express their emotions to their audience. It was strange to watch cause in a way it was real I do believe he was hurting but how he be acting sometimes its concerning. I really dont think he has another area of his life to express that emotional, goofy, childlike self which is basically the real him. The military regardless of which part you are going to is no place to express that side of yourself. I really dont think it was kai of exo crying cause he can't sing and dance I think it was his inner child crying. He cares about singing and dancing but honestly not as much as he outwardly says he does. I think he would be just as happy acting, it's simply that fans didn't really respond well to his acting. Its not just exo he won't be participating in, it's also modeling, fashion, whatever else he does that people don't know about.. anyway he's been noticably holding onto, clinging too, trying to get back the youth he lost being an aspiring child star/ kpop idol. People forget he has headshots from when he was like 8 or 9 maybe 10. His parents more than simply wanting him to sing and dance wanted him to be famous. Its alot of pressure for a kid and it's also is a tale as old as time his story is different from what you usually hear in kpop, he didn’t just audition and happen to get in he was definitely groomed to be in the industry. He wasn't exactly doing youtube covers but if you weave the story together a lot went into him being Kai it wasn't just oh I wanted an Nintendo but I commend him for saying so dedicated to the little script. He never ever gives anymore information about his family or his career origins than he did at debut (trust me I've checked). But weirdly he offers the story without asking.most idols do not do this they stay as vague as possible. But he always has given info voluntarily that sounds odd and maybe didn't need to be said. Like how he looked so feminine as a child multiple people mistook him as a girl, and how his mother used to curl his hair and when he went shopping for dress clothes with his parents the people would bring out a dress instead.. Perhaps it is something important to him or he is trying to hint at something I'm not sure.

Gender fluidity is a mark of childhood I think he holds onto that part of his life where he didn't have to be what society deems as a man.

Regardless I worry about the kid cause I think he uses his celebrity as a comfort when he feels insecure. Like at least somebody cares about him, the real him. But I really dont think that's healthy.

It also really concerns me how when he's alone and it's quiet( no lights camera action) the first thing that pops into his mind when he's just speaking into the silence is to say he doesn't have any friends. He says he is a friend to other people yet he has no friends. He's so closed off even when he's close to people.

I know nobody wants to be lectured but this is why I'm so cringe and like why? when he sexualizes himself. Cause it's so..outside of his box..he is naturally a sensual person theres no issue with that but he's reserved in public. But he has to use his natural sex appeal to sell sell sell and look I understand, that's the world its disgusting, despicable and a complete product of colonialism (I'll get into that later). When he ripped up that sign of himself shirtless on inkigayo I was not surprised at all.

It's more and more common that sex symbols are coming out and saying how irl they are super shy and reserved. One day my sister was watching the Kardashians and I was like lemme just watch and see what this is about. It actually wasn't bad and I'm now convinved it's actually social commentary in disguise. So this episode Scott asked Kim to accompany him to an acting class and Kim was actually super shy and kinda nervous about having to introduce herself in front of strangers. People fail to realize people even when someone seems out of this world they are still a person. Sometimes dehumanizing someone isn't putting them down but lifting them up too high.

I think the deification of Kai both helped him yet hurt him tremendously. Jongin went from being a bullied kid who did ballet to a handsome upcoming idol to be treated like a demigod. Yet that's just how people looked at him, where was the inner work between that. It most likely didn't happen. Which is why he still has bouts of depression despite having such a successful career.

More than comments and likes and views the kid needs prayers.

kpop idols as soon as they get out of the military

people just realizing maybe capitalism and it's girlies are bad because we all love reality tv and gadgets and such but I'm not even thirty not even halfway but my gm worked on a mini plantation........................so maybe america was gasp built off of slavery, pillaging, and all the other bad things. So being surprised the big USA is still peddling..like that's not how this country started off is wild. but wait our fave girlies are modeling for clothing brands they look so good... but wait those amazing were started by gasp terrible people who got rich of the transatlantic slave trade and after they got rich off of said slave trade the gov gave them millions possibly billions in compensation then they made companies and brands slaves and indentured servants worked at cough cough and they even got black rappers to push brands like gucci in the mainstream when there ancestors were once property legally and slaves were branded by the masters' last name and now you have black boys tattooing themselves with rich people's last name on there bodies and nobody cares or even seems to remember the recent past on which all that surrounds us was propagated off of

That after slavery ended they rushed former slaves and indentured servants to work in sweat shops some of which have been rebranded. renamed and still exist to this very day all over the world but that outfit is so cute and sparkly sparkly.....once we get some more celeb distractions everyone is gonna forget all of these facts how circuses and bread

all to control

the masses and maybe all those crazy conspiracy theorist everyone laughs at when things are good no longer wanna hear it when everybody's crying about a war or mistreatment cause that's literally all we talk about, when people are fighting over their fave celeb's drama. *THIS IMPORTANT THING IS HAPPENING IN THE WORLD PRODUCT PLACEMENT PRODUCT PLACEMENT ANOTHER IMPORTANT THING*. Websites are a sort of mind control basically and most people are in a deep state of unconciousness regarding awareness. Its all fake all of it even what you think is real the time to talk about important things and boycott isn't after they have prepared for said boycott and gotten loans from the bank in preparation for them looking bad in the media it's at random using your brain and mindfully no longer investing time and energy into media blitzkrieg garbage. Because they will do whatever whenever to harvest energy all day everyday, nothing is sacred. Though humans generally are worse the more power they have it's all relative really.

But it's just to say sometimes I think it's a bit contrive to even say this because people in their daily life will be terrible in their field of control and other things are terrible to people within their field of control it is what it is I guess.

To all the exo ls that let this fly

like it's so crazy how nobody needs to work hard to expose s.m because they seem to do a great job of it themselves.

Really crazy work how the same manager got moved out the group and sent to china after all the photos and vids of the inappropriate behavior with the members. Like people do know he was like 13 when he joined the company correct, like all the sus moments with the members and the staff that knew them since childhood are crazy. Like insane. This is why I never wanna here any big happy family comments about him cause I just know it isn't true. If any parent had half an inch of care about their child they wouldn't put them in this situation but at the very least they would attempt to get them out. Tao and Kris's mom and dad fought for them to go free. I'm assuming Luhan same thing. Like given how young he was, like nah no way and then he was marketed for noona's as a teen. He was in charge of sexiness at 17.....nope nope nope. They are so slick trying to wait for him to turn 18 to let him outside and begin acting super erotic. Like he wasn't in the practice room for years with staff trying to perfect it. Living in a dorm with 30 other dudes for years as a child. Went through puberty surrounded by a bunch of grown adults without any supervision. I love how everyone loves his sexiness but fail to realize he adopted that persona when he was a child, but people are so concerned about the kids in kpop apparently not. He has no boundaries cause he was never given any. He literally thought this was normal.

And they are still trying to recruit kids and this time they are targeting third world countries, I really hope they know hell and prison are real places. On god if lsm doesn't leave these kids alone I hope

the powers that be give him the kitagawa treatment

bbc.com

Two more abusers at J-pop predator's company

The two individuals involved in sex abuse at Johnny Kitagawa's agency are still alive, BBC is told.

No parent should ever have their child at a dorm with a bunch of grown men, EVER I don't care what s.m promised him!

kai grabbing a fistful of the manager noona’s hair…

I can’t accept it

creddie will never be canon to me, I don’t care

“Robert Pattinson showed up with iPhone voice recordings and had already nailed the voice for ‘THE BOY AND THE HERON’ before recording started. It was his first ever voice role and he finished in 2 days.” (source)

me after 5 minutes with basically anybody

Fruit-Shaped Bus Stops (1990) Location: Nagasaki, Japan

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"1. they expose their belly for tummy rubs as a sign that they trust you 2. they initiate gentle physical contact like licking or hugging you 3. they're chewing cud - this means they feel safe & their digestive system is doing its thing 👍 4. zoomies! just like with dogs, this is most often a playful, happy behavior 5. they make a 'purring' sound - cows do this when they're extremely relaxed and content. it's like a big exhale"

in the background is peaceful instrumental music.]

Black women are really beautiful. This dude online was calling a really beautiful ethnic woman ugly because she looked more on the natural homely side and I realized how screwed the black community is. Like that's what your people naturally look like. It's really pitiful he felt he needed to say that just to clarify that ofc a natural woman of color can't be seen as beautiful. I don't blame some women for just saying screw all men cause it's normal for a dude to say you're ugly if you're natural. Yet they can and will shame you if you try to look like the societal standard. Meanwhile he was working on his health and on a spiritual journey, men are so unserious.

Might be just a little enamored with her face card