Allowing myself to geek out over non-fandom ocs..
(TW ; mentions of non-con & abuse(?)/severely unhealthy relationships)
Some background before I fully rant on
I have this little world somewhat set up and the deities there work like this :
Representative gods - Representatives are immortal beings who, while being very powerful and considered Gods by mortals, aren't actually fully in charge of what they represent. They can be chosen both my mortals (/religion) or divine cores to be the representatives of certain things e.g. sleep, death, etc.
Divine cores - Divine cores are the very concepts of different things personified. They can be found in either conscious forms as living beings or inanimate objects (these happened during a phase in the world where the divine cores were oppressed and hunted down by the world's first gods, they weren't recognized as gods themselves at that point). They can, with enough power, be forced into taking form as objects which can be used to claim their power as the user's own. Divine cores can exist for nearly anything and everything, though they are limited to mortals and their beliefs manifesting them.
Celestials - Celestials are considered Gods & a lot of them have roles as representatives. They are the souls connected to things such as stars & moons. Celestials can, much like divine cores, be forced into object form.
First generation gods - the first gods are a specific group made up of 7 immortals created by the personifications of Life, Death, Fate and Time (The primordials). The planet that the stories in this world takes place on was originally a gift to them specifically, a place for them to live. This was later changed when the Primordials chose to start creating more life.
Dragons - Dragons were created exclusively by the Primordial Life, and are still Life's favorite creations. There aren't many of them, mostly because power-wise they are ranked first below the Primordials, being essentially the second strongest beings in existence. Each dragons represents a different aspect of life.
Nature's spirits - Not deemed significant enough to be titled as gods, Nature's spirits are immortal beings with power who simply never managed to either gain enough mortal recognition to become proper representative gods or simply weren't deemed worthy by other gods.
First victim of infodump ! Kieran/Roe, personification of decay.
Kieran is the son of the (celestial pantheon's) goddess of motherhood (a star) and the divine core of decay. He was conceived through less than consensual ways, hence why his mother couldn't get herself to raise him. She left him out in the woods at the base of her pantheon's home mountain, where he was later found & saved by the personifications of sleep, hunting, and animals. He was raised by sleep, from whom he got the name Roe. Due to reoccurring threats from nearby forest spirits against Sleep, who was part of the celestial pantheon at that point in time, Sleep was escorted from the mortal realm down to the underworld where he would be under the protection of that realms ruler for his own safety. Sleep wasn't allowed to take Roe with him, which is why Roe was left behind in one of sleep's old temples, where he was later discovered by Phoebe, the Sun's second son and at the time god of prophecy.
Roe & Phoebe!! ↑
Roe never properly learned to speak by that point, which is why Phoebe ended up renaming him Kieran because he couldn't find out the little guy's name.
Phoebe ended up staying with Kieran in Sleep's temple. He did this not because he actually bonded with Kieran, or even because he felt bad for him, but rather because he could tell that Kieran was the future god of decay. A prophecy he clung to at the time was that, using Kieran's power, he'd be able to make other celestials mortal and vulnerable. Phoebe wished to have this power because, out of all of his siblings, he was always the one most neglected. His elder brother & sister were their father's closest advisor & second in command respectively, meanwhile Phoebe was essentially completely ignored. He wanted to have just as much, if not even more power and influence as his siblings had and he wanted other gods to finally respect him. His plan was to do this by overthrowing his father and taking his place as ruler of their pantheon.
All stars have wings, and Kieran would inevitably, once he finally discovered his full potential and powers in a situation that was more than stressful (an attempt by Phoebe to overthrow his father, which Kieran was dragged into because by that point he'd become utterly attached to phoebe) finally discover his own wings.. only to then have them instantly ripped out by nobody other than Phoebe, who used the fact that they now essentially worked the same way as some magical artifacts, to weaken his father and force him into taking the form of a sword, which Phoebe would of course claim as his own weapon. He proceeded to stab Kieran, since he deemed his powers too big of a threat now that he'd betrayed him and tossed him right off of the celestial pantheon's mountain.
Timeskip ahead to ages later, Phoebe does manage to keep up his position as ruler of the celestial pantheon, using the sword he'd turned his father into.
Kieran however, managed to live through his injuries, and decided to interpret Phoebe's betraying him as Phoebe not wishing to stay with him because he believed Kieran to be too weak... so after improving on this issue, Kieran decided to confront Phoebe again. This ended with Phoebe realizing that he really couldn't defeat Kieran in terms of power and, since Kieran decided the best way for him to prove his power was by threatening violence against Phoebe if he tried to leave, he'd probably have to manipulate his way out of this.
Their relationship is anything but healthy. Phoebe keeps Kieran around, declares him his partner for no other reason than to ensure his own safety. Later on also because he realizes Kieran is quite useful as a bodyguard & weapon. He vents his frustrations over his own situation by putting as much pressure on Kieran as he can. He constantly questions Kieran's love for him, does anything and everything in his power to make Kieran more and more insecure which just leads to Kieran clinging to him even more.
Kieran stays with Phoebe because he has a massive fixation, borderline obsession with him. Phoebe was the second person in his life who cared for him and then ended up abandoning him, and Kieran wasn't going to sit back and let that happen like he had when Sleep had left him. He is deathly afraid of being abandoned like this again, and therefore either makes sure to do absolutely anything Phoebe tells him to do in an attempt to keep him happy, or straight up threatens him to "show off how powerful and worthy he is of affection". They both have to get therapy. Separately and wayyy far away from each other.
Kieran fun fact ! In canon, there is a huge debate on whether he should, as the god of decay, be considered a god falling under death's court or life's court. This debate is mainly lead among the dragons.
Dragons! This is the dragon considered the leader among dragons, representing the inevitably of death and how it's practically just another part of life.
Bits of dragon trivia: In their human forms, all dragons have fancy hats/headdresses. These are actually the only pieces of clothing they wear. The rest is simply their bodies morphed into looking like clothing. Each of the dragons have a different type of sword. They don't actually use these in combat, and rather as a symbol of status.
Anele, dragon representative of death's inevitability.
Based on capability of killing, Anele is the most powerful amongst the dragons. They are however also a sort of jab from Life at Death, considering that what they represent is Death being a part of life and therefore not worthy of being it's own being. Anele lives in a large cave near one of the mortal realms entrances to the underworld, occasionally acting as a guard for it when they're bored.
Aion, the dragon representing utter absence of death.
Aion is a straight up insult against death. He believes that death shouldn't be a thing, that it is nothing but a disgrace to life's magnificence. Aion has the ability to make any being absolutely untouchable, unreachable to death. Death expands through mortal beings dying, Aion can chip away at Death's existence by removing it from deceased beings. He could technically do this in a larger quantity, but Life itself doesn't allow this.
Zoya, dragon representative of life's cruelty/merciless nature.
Zoya was formerly a daughter of the celestial representative of death, a demigod on a journey to meet her father and become a goddess herself. On this journey she ended in a village being terrorized by the dragon of cruelty, and decided to fight it in an attempt to save the village people. During this fight, Zoya died, but due to her family relations to one of death's representatives, the dragon was killed the moment it came into contact with her after her death (She died being in it's maw). Life was of course angered at the death of one of their dragons, and decided that Zoya would be taking the place of this dragon as punishment for her actions.
Dragon swords!!!
Yap OVER!!! Nvm if there's any misspellings or autocorrect mistakes pls I'm half asleep ... there would be so many more drawings here but augh image limit
Korelin kissing via a base I found. ⸜(。 ˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
If anyone would like to tell me who made it that'd be nice (─ ‿ ─)
FRIDOLIN LORE RUNDOWN except it's not necessarily fleshed out yet and a lot of it still very " for plot reasons this happens " I think ( also forgive my terrible comma placing skills )
HAPPY FRIDOLIN !
Fridolin never joined team plasma , he was essentially raised with team plasma as part of his life . He's the grandson of one of the seven sages ( Bronius ) and never had any chance or reason to leave team plasma .
Of course he wasn't an active working member up until he was around 15 ( He's around 17 during the events of bw ) , though he was allowed to tag along with his parents to e.g. speeches by Ghetsis and whatnot .
Despite having been raised with it , Fridolin never cared much for team plasma's plans . He believes in their ideals , very much so , but the working aspect of it all never appealed to him . Throughout his time as a regular grunt most of his work assignments were to tag along with any of the sages and act as a sort of makeshift bodyguard for them , he never liked that . A lot of the time Fridolin would use his " authority " ( the excuse that he can do anything because of his ancestry ) to avoid work , sneaking off with his partner to do whatever , and avoid being told on by his coworkers . He was able to get away with this both because of his incredible skills as convincing his grandfather to excuse this " singular mishap " ( sobbing until he got his way ) or simply because it went unnoticed due to lack of reports .
He isn't exactly of much significance to the canon bw story , since he'd be mostly goofing off during all of it . During the " end " of bw's story , Fridolin is just scurrying to evade capture seeing as his parents ditched without him , and his grandfather is obviously with the other sages still . At some point throughout this , his first and partner pokemon , Reuniclus / Squishy is fatally wounded ! Meanwhile Fridolin , with the panic and chaos going on in his brain , manages to run himself straight into some fire type pokemon's attack . ( This is kinda very much some " for plot reasons " stuff until I figure it out properly )
He ends up with a group of other grunts , sticking with them and then , eventually , joining team neo plasma , because he seeks the comfort and stability of his old life .
I exaggerated when I wrote that he ran straight into that attack maybe ..
His time in team neo plasma is when he really gets indoctrinated with their goals and beliefs , or at least when this indoctrination starts translating into actual devotion to his job . He gets tossed right back into his old work , except this time more exclusively , as a " bodyguard " type thing for Z i n z o l i n .
Silly image
This time around even more vulnerable to manipulation , Fridolin quickly falls into the belief that things would've gone better for him during the fall of the initial team plasma if he'd " just done his job right " . His job as in being present to support the sages .
Fridolin basically forces himself into focusing entirely on his job and his " obligations to team plasma " . He feels he has to make up for all his negligence in the past , believing anything he used to do , or the people he was close to , to be a distraction .
Fridolin is put into somewhat of a position of authority , or at least that's the pretend of it all , he has the authority but he was pretty much only given his position to put more pressure on him and therefore heighten his wish for good performance . ( Is this too much inspired by N ?? ) His rank isn't much more than , like I mentioned , personal bodyguard , but in front of him it's put on a pedestal and made out to be a position in which he has to perform perfectly , unless he wants everything to crumble and fail .
All his joy and whimsy gone !
I have yet to even try and figure out what's up with post b2w2 Fridolin , since I'm still trying to properly work out all of his established lore and whatnot , but I'll get there eventually !! Wrote this impulsively with an unethical lack of sleep , nvm spelling mistakes or anything like that . 😿😿😿
Hi, I'm NURSEFAILURE!!! Except that is nawt my name obviously that's just my branding (???)
I'm Ryver!! I am a queer (fuck labels) west-german (MINOR) dude who spends too much time nitpicking at his own code and contemplating whether to actually do something or just procrastinate and scroll on tumblr/twitter/tiktok for hours...
I go exclusively by He/Him and masc/neutral terms, though I AM Agender!!! Except that's just what I paste for clarity because the concept of gender doesn't make sense to me lmao I'm just me bro
My interests lie in a variety of things, such as coding, writing, playing games (like NIKKE, lots of Visual novels, cookie run, pokemon...) And more. One of my biggest current interests is SW and the nightlife industry, but not from an angle of appeal and moreso the topic as a whole! It's insanely interesting to me and my sona is based on kyabakura hostesses for that same reason RAHH
I am taken!! I have been for about 2.9 years (as of 14.05.25) and that by my absolute godsend sunshine of a partner ( @certifiedsungod ) , talking about him is a big chunk of my personality so like beware /silly
I am a(n aspiring) game dev, specifically the founder of LUMAR EXPRESS ENTERTAINMENT 🙂↕️🙂↕️ .... Which consists of exactly three depressed homos (me, the coder and writer, Phrog the artist #1 and musician and Liv the artist #2 and emotional support) but that's besides the point LOL
I love thinking about my projects, specifically PROJECT LUMAR.... huge ginormous projects that I want to make my career (hopefully)
PROJECT LUMAR is a category of projects I have crammed into the same overall world,, LUMAR!! Wow you couldn't have guessed that huh /j anyhow..
LUMAR encompasses 355 countries as of present time in lore (yes, I do enjoy torturing myself) and the projects work to bring awareness to a variety of topics while also encouraging proper representation with well-written lore. (No one stays one dimensional in MY household) As of now we're still in the concept stage and will remain buried there for a LONG time,,,
Currently we only have one MC finished and designed and that is coincidentally my sona.... Ryver Miya’moro! Before you ask he literally had the name Ryver first I literally snatched it off of him and it's been my irl and online name since 🙂↕️
Now that I have mentioned my shayla I obviously have to talk about him
Art by my beloved, aka certifiedsungod
(“Ryver” lumarian for “to be wrathful/wrath-filled + Miya’moro, lumarian for courageous (Miiyaa) and beast (mo’oro) )
Is the #1 hostess of Kiyokami (located within the region TRAP’E MAR KAMIR, lumarian “ki’yyo” defining + “ka’mi” future, a cyberpunk “paradise” known for its nightlife and racing) as well as a champion racer who frequently wins international cups.
He may be a trans man, but he uses the fact of being afab to his advantage to garner fame and love from people in Kiyokami and even internationally. He works at IIKO++, a popular hostess club known for its bunny (suit) theme owned by his adoptive mother with his adoptive siblings.
Logo of IIKO++ in lumarian, designed by me!
Outside of work Ryver is way more timid, preferring to be cooped up in his penthouse apartment that is part of a complex belonging to his racing team. He spends his time collecting figures of his favorite queer pairings, being especially picky about food, buying all sorts of things with his boundless amounts of money (and overspending on charities), coding, posting freaky stuff on social media for his fans or working on androids. Yes, robots! He loved building those and will fight tooth and nail to build you a functional prosthetic if you even *dare* to exist next to him with an old looking one.
When not in his half-bubbly half-freakish-dominatrix hostess sona he's generally a MEANIE. In the sense he'll gladly tell you to fuck off if you get an inch too close to him. He has mood swings and anger issues (which shine when he's on the race track, he's Kiyokami's very own Max Verstappen) but he's mostly angry due to unexplained pain in his whole body.. (Wow I wonder who that is based on!! Haha...) He prefers being on his own but usually doesn't mind company unless said company is annoying.
He owns a pet bunny called Cookie, a white fur ball with black and brown spots. A feral creature. She bites. She will bite you in the ass. Watch out.
Errr I can't say too much I'll be spoiling future games so you get basic information yay!!
Back to ME over my sona uehehe...
I have a spending problem I love commissioning artists UAUAUAJAJAUUA
“nursefailure” aka my whole branding comes from my trauma regarding hospitals, I use hospital related stuff to expose myself to it and cope with what happened there. It is really really dear to me because it keeps me from TWEAKING OUT /j
I also go by “hostessfailure” for similar reasons. I don't like unhealthy coping mechanisms (2 years SH clean, baby!) Annnd using my interest in nightlife and hospital stuff to cope with all the SHIT life puts me through really really helps!! So no I will unlikely conform to the idea that teens aren't supposed to talk about sexual shit. I am COPING!!!! I have HORMONES!!!!!! (And hypersexuality) learning and coping using this stuff is keeping me healthy and as close to happy as I can get in my current environment
Before you come with internet safety; yes, I know. But I also have a group of friends I can unleash on any hoe trying any funny shit + it's an integral part of interacting with me so it IS kinda important because I tend to ramble about it.
That out of the way I WILL massively try to befriend you! social interaction is scared of me!!! Jokes aside I am social. When I want to be. 90% of the time I just don't want to.
I don't have a strict dni (they don't make sense to me) but I WILL block freely. Also if you don't like my partner for any ungodly reason I will bite you and I will not wanna conform to your shit nonsense!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Also don't stalk me that's fucking weird
Uhh BYI I swear a lot!!! I make sexual jokes, not about people but just in general!!!!! I have strict opinions, especially politically and I will loudly voice them!!! I can be self-deprecating without realizing it. I joke about a lot of my trauma to cope. I am prone to talking about my partner a TON so if you don't like that get out. I have a problem of trying to correct people (trying to be helpful) but I understand if you don't enjoy that.
I talk about the stupid unexplained pain I have, bodywide pain that sometimes is near immobilizing for me!!!!!! Yes I'm getting test after test rn,,,,, doctor stop snatching my blood I'm gonna go dryyyyyy /silly
Oh yeah also if your ass is friends with the groomer (floof18 / lucindaraptor) and won't let me educate you on WHY they're a pedophile and a creep I don't wanna talk to you!!!
Some of the tags I use frequently!!
#nursefailure posting — everything me
#ryver shitposts — reposts and other bs
#returninglotus — me && beloveds gayass pokemon bw ocs!!
Anyways that's it yeay I may punch more stuff in in thefuture
Lovely boyfriend appreciation because this boy makes me go mental in the most positive way
@certifiedsungod I love you Mirelette <333
YAYAYAYAYAY!!!!! mmm Koren soon trust
Yayaya
PLASMA GRUNT OC!!!!!
F r i d o l i n . . .
Shiny hunter..
He's mostly part of team plasma because of family reasons....... yay !
..... surprise surprise
Infodumping more about this guy because I love him sm sm
The happiest Fridolin will ever be is actually during his time as part of team neo plasma ! Sure , he's actively being manipulated and the people he cares for don't care for him beyond the benefits his trust gets them .. but he's not exactly aware of that .
Fridolin feels like he has more liberties during his time in neo plasma . He actually enjoys his work , he likes being useful to the team and he depends heavily on the familiarity his position brings him , since it's essentially the same job he had back in the original team plasma just made actually official .. working feels rewarding to him for the first time ever . This does also leads to him overworking himself quite a lot . He depends a lot on the reassurance and praise he occasionally gets from the few people he latched onto ..
The fall of team neo plasma basically leaves him completely mentally wrecked ... He has an emotional support Pidove , also.
Miscellaneous stuff I thought of ..... Most of the times during his " time off work " , he likes to just read through either already finished or still to do paperwork while listening to insert the pokemon universe's version of Mitski and taking care of that Pidove . The Pidove's name is Stick .
Hand .. reference ?? Drawing practice kind of ??
It takes Fridolin a while to adjust to not being able to use his right hand anymore , since he is right-handed . He doesn't like how wobbly his writing can get at times . Fridolin often blames himself for his scars , and he covers them most of the time because seeing them makes him severely uncomfortable . To him , they feel like a constant reminder of his " mistakes and failures " .
Fridolin cut his hair after joining neo plasma with the idea of blending in more with the other grunts , but he couldn't get himself to dye it . He also didn't care much to maintain the length he'd cut it to , eventually just putting it into different hairstyles to make it look shorter .
Huzzah !!
When you start New leaf and are greeted by two of your all-time favorite villagers (Tiffany & Lily)
MY QUEENS!!!!! HELLO <33333 (˶˃ ᵕ ˂˶) .ᐟ.ᐟ
Giratina Edit to KMFDM because the song is fucking awesome and I love my distortion antichrist worm
Splinters&Childishness lore stuff also
In the au, Giratina is able to splinter and has done so in the past (resulting in the later existence of the Mikage family), they are also prone to steal human forms when wanting to be human, just tweaking the looks slightly to not be twins (namely making their hair unnecessarily long as they like it that way.)
Should I redesign the moon guardian oc I made to match
PERSONA ART DUMP
Because my username actually has an explanation for existing ueueuaheuahfu
Mmm
Mmmmm personal art....
Wowah!!
Most of these are a year or two old.... but my silly dude didn't really change design-wise so like ... nvm if like 2 of these are kinda vent-ish I love my silly guy sm
Yay!
unlabeled He/Him idiot Game Dev with too much time and lotsa pain (minor) https://nursefailure.lumarexpress.net/ ZAG's REAL WIFE number 1 Author & Korelin fan banner art by willicelettuce
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