Ok Mac...

Dennis is funny because Macs tried to heal a relationship outside the gang (his dad) but it failed immediately (rejected, unfair) and Charlie's done it too, even planned to leave, but also failed straight away (loser father up and died on him) and Frank doesn't want to leave, and Dee is not permitted to leave (not even to go bowling! they need their punch bag!) but Dennis has actually been out there. He's gone and tried it. He invested in a life outside of Paddy's Pub, he left and tried to go be a dad, be a better person than Frank was, and... it did not fuckin work! Couldn't do it. Came crawling right back after being gone for months. Which means he's the only one out of all of them that knows for sure there's nowhere else to go. None of the rest have really tested it—it's just a pipe dream for them—they can imagine it however they want! And that's a pretty useful psychological pressure valve. Their own places in the gang are inherently lower stakes for them because they can still believe if it all falls apart they'd figure something out, they got plenty of other options, definitely. They may worry there's nowhere else for them, sure, but you know what you can do with a worry? Move past it. Except for Dennis. Who knows he can't afford to rock the boat, or deviate too much from his assigned role, i.e. still very much the "leader" of the Freight Train, still their new psycho, even if he is a little mellowed with age. So he left because he wanted to quit all the delusional bullshit, wanted to try something real. Then found out "real" didn't want him in it. And came back to the gang, and for a little while he tried to make a change: The Gang Escapes, "let's keep this between us"; Times Up, "I don't want you kissing me" + [extensive instructions in how to not get caught]; Even up to New Wheels he's trying something new, til he embarrasses himself in front of Frank. Til fate hands him his old car back. And if reality don't want you, you're not gonna say no to fate, are you. At least he's got a place in the world. At least somebody wants him around, some kinda way. It's good actually. Who cares if it's not who he really is. He knows there's nothing else out there. The others don't, but he does. So he can keep his secrets, play his part, don't dwell on it, it's cool. It's whatever. After all it's not like you can just "move past" reality, can you. Can you?

Joey's Ted headcanons

He apparently did the cameo in 2 seconds, so here, lol. Also, he does think I'm the official Ted artist in the fandom 😭 honor

Remember, these are just actor headcanons, nothing official 👍

Ted genuinely loves Pete

Hes' very romantic, but he puts on a facade of a bullshit guy cause he wants to seem cool

He does think Paul is his best friend

Ted's one of those guys who doesn't wear pants at home, he's just in boxers

He does wear a tie tho, in case he needs to go out or have a zoom meeting

He uses excessive amount of cologne

Ted constantly goes on dates. Most women in Hatchetfield have "gone on a date" with him, but they last 5 minutes cause how much of a terrible guy Ted is

Lot of people know him in town and think he's a creep

All his deaths need to be embarrassing

Always orders take-out, never cooks for himself

He takes Pete out constantly and tries to be cool in front of him, but Pete is embarrassed by him, but still thinks he's cool (side note is that Joey'd like a NMT episode of Bill and Alice hanging out and Ted and Pete hanging out)

Ted loves dogs and maybe has a dog at home we don't know about

Finished a piece for the TGWDLM Reprise fake Playbill Mini-Zine Collab that @riveracheron is putting together!

I saw that the Ad for Spankoffski's Heart and Sole was open and jumped on it!

I really wanted an excuse to draw college age Ted (including the early Starkid Era Joey Headband) and then I had the idea that the Spankoffski's would want their ad to include their kids. I feel like at the time, Ted would've used this as a bragging point, and Pete would be forever embarrassed. In my own headcannon, the grammar mistake of Women's Shoe originates from this Ad and is a running inside joke between the Spankoffski brothers, which is why he says it in the Beanie's scene in NPMD (in the Digital Ticket version.)

This was fun and I would totally do something silly like this again :)

I had to pause a few times so I just finished the livestream, Joey remembering everything and Lauren remembering nothing was hilarious I love them both so much

always looking forward, always looking back.

thinking about the gangs social media usernames and this is what i've come up with.

dennis – @/thegoldengod of COURSE.

dee – @/jokesondee. she just like. cannot let it go. maybe one day her comedy will get rlly popular and this username will make sense to normal people... but probably not.

mac – either @/macmcdonald or something absolutely ridiculous like @/badass.ass.kicker. but his first username was @/jesusjackedme. he had to change it because dennis was like, "dude, this sounds like ur saying jesus jacked u off!" "no dude! thats disgusting! jesus jacked me UP, spiritually, physically and mentally!"

charlie – charlie doesn't use social media. he can't read or write much less TYPE and its just overall too confusing. however the gang tried to set something up for him and just asked him what username he wanted. he picked @/nightmancometh and never used his accounts a single time.

frank – @/richdaddy69. he bought this username. he also pays for verification!

He makes me so ill,,, He just wants affection aaaaa!!! My evil blorbo come back to me meow.

macdennis - affection

Feast or Famine

I'm a day late but happy Black Freiday Starkid!!!

This is a bit of personal post mostly meant for me to see my own progress in the future, but yesterday I was granted sick leave by my doctor for my depression. Basically I started uni last fall and just,,, I don't know what happened but I just completely crashed and burned and could not do ANYTHING. I went to see a doctor last month and was diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression and now I've been on antidepressants for the past three weeks. And now I'm on sick leave.

It's really strange, being on sick leave. I'm 20 years old, super young, barely have any work experience and I'm already just,,, on sick leave. I know I'm not supposed to compare myself to other people, but I feel kinda guilty about taking a break from studying. It's not a fair comparison because those other people aren't ill like me. I have a mental illness, and I'm most likely ND too so that makes studying extra challenging for me. If I go back to uni next fall, I'll have to slow my pace significantly and try to get some accommodations. And in general I'll have to be more open about how I'm feeling and be willing to take support from the people around me.

One good thing about being on sick leave is that I'll have more time to write my stupid fanfiction afgdigyuyieu stay tuned for that :DD

This will all pass, I know. It isn't the end of the world. Like my doctor said, depression is a real illness and it has to be treated the same way that you would treat a broken foot, for example. There's no shame in it. I'll try to keep that in mind.