THIS THIS THIS

this year was just nto the year for love for us i dont think.

we started off by getting broken up with by our longterm (four year) partner

then ghosted by our other partner

then was pulled along by a friend who almost seemed to like us

and now weve been broken up with by our year long partner

im kind of just unfeeling about it now, like ive gone through so much outside the realm of love recently and this breakup is just sort of an addition to the growing pile of things i have to eventually deal with. it does help a bit that we have so many friends that we just didnt really talk to much anymore because we didnt see the need to. we saw our future in black and white. wed get through college, get married, move in together, and grow old. i didnt see the need to have any friends included in that outside of my partner’s friends. but now im kind of realizing that that was just the black and white thinking of my autism, i still am human, i still need friends, and now that im losing several because its very likely they wont talk to me anymore now that our fiancé broke it off, i need them more than ever. and so i messaged a few of my older ones, ones that i havent talked to in months, ones that before my fiancé i thought of as my closest most reliable friends and it really cheered me up. hearing them call me bestie and go crazy as i told them whats happened, about me graduating, about me getting a job, about me going to college, and about me getting my diagnosises. and it really made me realize that if someone isnt willing to put in effort to help a relationship grow properly then i shouldnt be expected to either. i guess my fiancé was right about that part, i did put a lot of effort into our relationship and they didnt. i wish they had so we couldve avoided this mess but truly im almost glad now because i would have missed out on realizing that so many people care about me and really would hate it if i just disappeared off the earth. like all these people would miss me so dearly and thats helping me really think through so many of my issues right not. a lot of my stress related to thinking i wasnt good enough or that i wasnt trying to be what they wanted me to be is just sort of gone because these people are my people and they know me for me. these people ive started talking to again have known me for almost as long as the system was known. and im glad to see that i dont have to hide certain parts of myself or pretend to be someone else around them. -sully

{disclaimer: if my ex sees this, this isnt meant as something negative towards you, you tried your hardest and well always love you for that, im sorry it came to this and we really would love to at elast still be friends. this post is just us having the realization that we arent alone and were allowed to have friends outside of you and your friends}

just a kind reminder to please be kind to the people you know with gastrointestinal disorders/conditions! they're embarassing, often very painful - sometimes debilitating - and very hard to talk about without oversharing a lot more than most are comfortable with.

if someone you know:

- spends a lot/long time in the restroom

- has a colostomy bag

- requires diapers or similar implements

- experiences a lot of gas and/or bloating

- requires tube feeding or other alternative methods of nutrition

- has food restrictions (e.g. cannot handle a lot of spices, certain proteins, etc.)

- eats a lot, or only a little

or other similar factors of their life...

please be patient and understanding, it's hard having guts that really like disagreeing with you!

Steven: We should get a pet spider.

Marc: You get a spider and I’ll fucking burn the apartment down.

Steven: That’s a little excessive, don’t you think?

Marc: You’re right. I wouldn’t. Jake would. He hates anything that crawls.

IF I SEE ONE MORE PERSON POSTING ABOUT OSTARA ON THE WITCH TAGS ON TIKTOK WITHOUT MENTIONING THAT ITS SOLELY A WICCAN THING IM GOING TO LOSW MY MARBLES

the wheel of the year is a solely wiccan holiday thing and its based around stealing various traditions from a bunch of other cultures and combining it into what it is

systems being able to shapeshift wld be SO FUCKING COOL

Can't breath

the peak of my art career

man when i see all those posts about how to manipulate and hurt narcissists and such all i can think of is:

damn

yall need to stop abusing your narcissists, if theyre actual narcs they just want attention, go give them a kiss instead duh

gonna be so real

i think the only issue i really have with endogenic systems is that most are not willing to see a therapist or get professional help and theyre not willing to face the idea that they may actually have trauma or another mental health issue causing their system symptoms

i have the same issue with self diagnosed traumagenic systems that discount anything their therapists say if they bring up any other disorder first before DID/OSDD

like yall

for your health and wellbeing please be open to other options andnplease seek professional help to help navigate this stuff

like you wouldnt be like yea i have ehler danlos syndrome and not seek professional help because youre scared it could be an autoimmune disorder instead

yo ok syscourse moment

you can be transfem in a female body and transmasc in a male body

fuck anybody that says different